Love This Feeling

Disclaimer: JKR …… must I say more?

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It's funny that in a simple moment in time that you're whole point of view of a person could change completely. It's difficult to accept that maybe you could have feeling's for that person. It's hard to change years of hate and hurtful words toward one another. But it's absolutely wonderful to fall in love with that person and know that all of that hate, the hurtful words, the pain that they had caused, would now be replaced with the greatest love someone could ever experience.

That's what I felt for a certain person for 6 years of my life. I felt complete and utter hate, hoping every single day that he would be gone forever, that he would just leave me the hell alone. That all of the embarrassment, all of the pain that he had caused me would just go away. That maybe, his gigantic ego wouldn't be so infinite towards everything.

He annoyed me so much. The way he would walk around like he was king, the way he would ruffle his hair to make him look 'cool', the way he would show off in front of large groups of people, especially for us girls. The way he would always be pulling pranks on Snape 'just because', the way he would ask me out every change he got, the way he called me Evans, the way he would look at me with so much feeling….

I couldn't stand him, yet I would catch myself thinking about him. I always said I hated him, though sometimes I couldn't figure out if I really did hate him, or it was just a cover for my true emotions. It was weird though, because every single girl in the whole entire castle wanted Potter, but I was the only one he couldn't have. If it weren't for Brianna Short, I probably would have given into him a long time ago. Bri was my best friend and she always supported me in the category of my morals, in 'defying' Potter. But Bri always had that way in saying that I was secretly in love with him, and that I should become friends with him and give him a chance, not sleep with him.

James Potter was his name. I took to calling him Potter. James just seemed like something that you would call a friend, not an enemy. Potter had jet-black hair, always messy no matter what he did with it, and it helped the fact when he would purposely ruffle it to make him look 'cool'. He had beautiful hazel eyes that were always shining with his feelings. You could get lost in those eyes, and every girl knew it. Potter was a little over 6 foot tall and he had the muscles to show through his robes, but not enough to look overly bulky or big. If it weren't for his personality, I would admit he was pretty damn hot, which he certainly was!

I didn't truly understand why Potter wanted to go out with me. I wasn't anything special. I was about 5 foot, 2 inches, with blood red hair a little past my shoulders, pretty green eyes that I loved, and fair skin with a only a couple freckles; thank the gods. I had a pretty good body, proportioned and slim. But I was nothing compared to Bri.

Bri was a part Italian part Mexican girl who had deep chocolate hair with blonde streaks, bright brown eyes and a great smile. Bri was shorter than I was, for she stood at 5 feet tall. Bri was very athletic, doing all kinds of martial arts, running around the Quidditch pitch, and even playing a chaser on the Gryffindor Quidditch team. Bri was a natural beauty, and everyone knew it. I admired her, everything about her. She was beautiful to me.

Everyone was to be getting back from Christmas break later that night, and a feast was being held after that. I didn't really care though; I would rather have most of the school to myself. Bri and I had stayed this year, like always, along with The Marauder's. We were the only people for Gryffindor this year, and we were all 6th year Gryffindor's. It quite surprised me when the Marauder's didn't go down to meet their 'fan clubs'.

I wanted this afternoon to last forever. Quiet common room, with the sound of the fire crackling. You could almost hear people stretching, smiling, and yawning with delight of the moment. But this afternoon wouldn't last forever, and when everyone else came back, we would have to deal with an endless amount of bimbos screeching to Potter and Black about how much they were missed. I really hated this part of the year. But Potter had seemed a little different this Christmas, as I actually talked to him for more than an insult or two. Maybe he is actually different from what I thought. Maybe he's not so much of a pig-headed git after all…

"Go out with me?" a voice sounded from behind Lily.

"No Potter. Go away." Lily sighed as she continued towards Gryffindor Common Room.

"Do you ever get tired of saying that?" James asked, catching up to Lily and walking beside her.

"No Potter. Go away." Lily smiled and laughed.

"You sure you want me to?" James said, smiling a smile only he could and picking up a piece of her red hair.

"You have beautiful hair, you know that Evans?" James laughed.

Lily rolled her eyes. "Sure Potter. You have 'beautiful' hair too, if you would stop messing with it all of the time." Lily said before walking away.

James sighed. He hated how cold Lily acted towards him; not that he didn't deserve it. He would do anything to change their past, but then, they wouldn't be the same Lily and James.

James sighed again, following Lily back up to Gryffindor Tower.

I watched Lily Evans sitting by the fire. She was so beautiful. Her hair, her eyes, her personality, her smile. I could go on forever. She was the best thing in my life at the moment, and I was trying desperately to get her attention. We had actually talked for more than an insult or two over Christmas vacation. I really loved talking to her. The only thing ruing the moment was the thought of the brainless whore's who would be returning that evening. The thought of all of those sluts crowding around me and blocking my view of Lily made me clench my fist in anger. Stupid whores they were!

I had given Lily a small and delicate looking ring for Christmas. It was solid silver and charmed to always be in mint condition. It had a lily carved onto the outside of the ring, and Lily told me it was beautiful. And then she hugged me. Her body fit to mine perfectly, like we were made to be together. When she pulled back, I was smiling so big, I must have looked like an idiot, but she was smiling to. 'I won't ever take it off James.' She had told me, caught up in the moment and forgetting she nearly hated me.

But what was special about that ring was, that if she ever fell in love with me, ever felt love, the romantic kind of love, for me, and I loved her, that it would turn gold and have the words 'I love you Lily.' Carved on the outside and 'Love, James' on the inside. I wasn't sure it would ever happen, but I hoped that one lucky day, it would.

I knew Potter was watching me. It was sort of nice; knowing that somebody actually liked me. And it was an amazing feeling to know that he still liked me after 4 years of endless insults and put downs. But after feeling amazing, I felt pretty damn bad, because if he had had a crush on me for 4 years, how come I had never given him the chance the prove himself? That he could be a nice, loving boyfriend.

Lily gazed down at the ring he had given her for Christmas. It was the most beautiful ring ever, and she loved it dearly. 'I won't ever take it off James.' She remembered telling him. She hadn't taken it off once in almost a month. She remembered how it had felt to hug him, to feel how warm and soft he was. 'Our bodies fit perfect.' Lily thought, smiling.

"James, you could just come over here and sit with me." Lily smiled as she turned toward James. James smiled and laughed.

"I was staring, wasn't I?" He laughed and walked over next to Lily, where he sat down again.

"Yes, you were. I was wondering what you were thinking. Happy to have your bimbo fan club coming back tonight?" Lily smirked at James, and burst out laughing at the look on his face.

"Gods, no, how could I be happy for them to be coming back? Plus, they block my view of staring at your beautiful face." James winked at Lily as she rolled her eyes.

"Stop hitting on me Potter." Lily smiled, looking into her lap. Lily couldn't believe they were talking to each other, like they were friends or something.

"I was merely stating the truth, my flower." James smiled before they both heard a huge scream.

"What the hell?" Lily and James said together.

Sirius Black came pelting down the stairs, wearing a look of great amusement, and also great fear for his life.

"Sirius Black! I am going to kick you ARSE!" An angry voice screamed, as an angry Brianna Short came running down the stairs. Everybody knew that Miss. Brianna Short was not a slow runner.

Sirius let himself be tackled by Bri. Everyone knew he had a crush on her and would do anything to have her on top of him. Twisted bastard. Sirius was a great looking guy to go along with his personality. Sirius had spiky brown hair, grayish eyes that held mischief almost always. Sirius was a little over 6 foot tall, and was nicely built. He had a great body and it showed.

"How DARE you come into the bathroom while I'M in the SHOWER!" Bri yelled at Sirius, one hand full of his hair and the other tightly hold of his ear.

"I didn't know you were in there! I was looking Remus." Sirius said, drawing in air as Bri yanked his ear a little bit.

"DON'T FUCKING LIE TO ME BLACK! I SPECIFICALLY TOLD ALL OF YOU I WAS GOING TO TAKE A SHOWER, RIGHT AFTER REMUS SAID HE WAS GOING TO THE DAMNED LIBRARY!" Bri screamed, before letting go of his hair and ear, and slapping his across the face.

"Don't mess with me, and NEVER come into the bathroom while I'm taking a shower again. Good Bye." Bri said as she got up and made her way upstairs to continue her shower.

"You flew your broom up the stairs to try and get a peek of her in the shower?" James asked, a grin on his face.

"Yeah, it was good while it lasted. Well worth it." Sirius smirked, catching his breath.

"Pervert. If you ever did that to me, I would do a little more that slap you." Lily glared.

"Oh no, Lily flower, I wouldn't be the one in the bathroom. That would be James." Sirius laughed, and ducked a James threw a pillow at him.

"Don't give him ideas Sirius!" Lily laughed as she put her foot out to stop a pillow from hitting her, as loads of pillows went flying.

"To late!" Sirius and James smirked, both looking at Lily.

"Oh Gods, No!" Lily screamed, bolting for the girl's staircases, and grabbing Sirius' broom on the way. "Don't even try to tickle me Black!"

"Damn." Lily heard Sirius say as she collapsed in laughter against her door.

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AN - Hey! I just re-wrote the whole entire story! Here's the first rewrite, hope you enjoy it mucho! Love all of you so much, thank you all who reviewed my story, it makes my day.

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