Love This Feeling

Disclaimer: JKR…Must I say more?

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It was a Hogsmead weekend, and Lily and Bri took a day away from current dates to spend the day together.

"And Sirius just opens the door, trying to be sneaky and get a peek of me in the shower!" Bri's cheeks glowed with redness, showing her anger at Sirius. "It was so embarrassing!" Bri covered her cheeks, shaking her head.

"Ooh, do I sense more than dislike for a Mr. Sirius Black?" Lily teased Bri.

"Well, what about you and a certain Mr. James Potter?" Bri teased back, enjoying the sight of Lily blushing. "Got you there!"

"I really don't know about him!" Lily burst all of the sudden, stopping by a tree, and sitting down in the shade.

Bri frowned, joining Lily under the tree. "What don't you know Lils?"

"I don't know how I feel about him. This stupid ring he gave me; well, it's not really all that stupid, it's really special, but I don't know! He gave this to me for Christmas and I haven't taken it off, because it makes me smile and think of someone special when I look at it."

"We hardly get along, but when we do, it's like we're the best of friends, but when we're not getting along, it's like we're the worst of enemies. We have a love and hate relationship, it could never work, not that I'm thinking about that kind of thing." Lily added quickly, seeing the smirk creeping onto Bri's lips.

"And the way he asks me out, it's like pushing the fact that I'm lonely into my face. I mean, I have you, and you're my girl, my best friend, but in a romantic way." Lily told Bri, trying to explain everything she was feeling.

"I know Lils. You feel like you have best friends, but no guy friend or love to share your life with. You have James constantly asking you out, asking to be your special guy, but you won't give yourself to some guy who would use you. I know how you feel, Lils, trust me. I know exactly how you feel."

"Ready?"

"Yeah, let's get back to school."

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Lily and Bri were walking down the hall, on their way to lunch the next day, when the Marauder's came along side them.

"Go out with me Evans?" James grinned, putting his arm around Lily's shoulders.

"No, Potter. I've told you a million times. The day I that I agree to go out with you is the day that I flash the entire Slytherin table at breakfast." Lily glared.

"But Lily flower, wouldn't you rather have a guy who could give you some lovin'?" James raised a single eyebrow suggestively at Lily, who rolled her eyes.

"No, I want a guy who will go away!" Lily said, pushing his arm away from her.

"Ooh, What now Potter!" Bri said, grabbing Lily's arm as they both took off running towards the Great Hall to eat their lunch, laughing their heads off.

A couple weeks at Hogwarts passed uneventfully for Lily. Pranks were still being pulled, but her prefect duties weren't all that hard, and she was still at the top of her class. James and Lily's 'relationship', if you could call it that, was constantly love and hate. Always going from almost friends and getting along to total hate. Lily couldn't understand it.

April fool's day was in a couple days' time, and Lily forced herself to be calm, and told herself that she wouldn't believe anything that day. Unfortunately, she wasn't prepared for this day, either, as a hand swooped down and took her wand from her robe pocket.

"Give it back Potter!" Lily screamed after a few minutes of arguing with him. Standing on her tiptoes, Lily tried desperately to get her wand back from James.

"Go out with me, and you can have your wand back Evans, simple as that." James smiled.

"No way in hell potter. Give me my wand back!" Lily said, trying to calm her self and trying to calm the anger that welled in the pit of her stomach every time James Potter was near.

"You're dead sexy when you're angry, Evans, you know that?" James smirked, and raised his eyebrow.

"Piss off Potter." Lily huffed, crossing her arm under her chest.

"Only if you go out with me." James smiled at Lily. How he loved pushing her buttons!

"Bloody hell Potter. Why won't you just give up! I'm not going to go out with you, much less sleep with you, like all your other whore's." Lily growled, glaring at James, her anger breaking apart, and feelings rushing out at him.

"At least I'm getting some." James replied cockily, smirking at the look of outrage on Lily's face.

"You're a sick bastard, you know that, James Potter? I despise you in every single way possible. I hope that one of your one-night stands ends up pregnant, and we'll see how you like that. And as far as 'getting some', at least I'll be 'getting some' laughs when the facts gets around school that you've finally given a girl one or more of your STDs." Lily huffed, trying to push the guilt back for saying that.

"And, You'll have to give it back before classes, anyway." Lily said, walking away.

James couldn't keep the anger off of his face, grabbing Lily's arm, spinning her around, and flinging her into his chest. Lily gasped, closing her eyes and getting ready for pain.

"Stop, I'm sorry!" She tried pushing on his chest, to get herself away from him, but he held her tight. 'He's going to hit me, oh God's!'

"You're such a bitch, Evans. What's stuck up your arse?" James growled, hands gripping Lily's arms tightly.

"Why do ask dumb question's you know that I'll never answer? And why would I answer you?" Lily yelled back at him, glaring.

James let out a snarl, and watched as Lily's eye's widened and she cringed. James suddenly loosened his grip, understanding that she was afraid. He was raised never to hit girls, and firmly believed in that.

"Why do you hate me so much Evans?" James asked, regaining his cocky sense of attitude, the air of arrogance surrounding him.

"Because you try to get close to me! I don't want you anywhere near me!" Lily screamed, pounding her fists against James' chest.

"That's because you're a sexy little flower." James smirked, ignoring the feeling of pain he was receiving as Lily hit his chest.

"Get off of me!" Lily screamed, and ducked out from under his arms.

"Such anger, I'm sure you'd be a real wild cat in bed." James said, smiling the famous 'Potter Charm' smile, leaning against the wall.

"Yes, and like I said, that's something that you will never, ever know. Have an awful day, Potter." Lily huffed as she walked away, face steaming with anger.

'Who does he think he is! Calling me a wild cat…..I bet he'd love to know…..That's all he wants me for, to get me into his bed and become another notch on his bedpost. Gods, I hate him…..'

Lily could not sleep. It was Sunday night, the end of the weekend, and James still had Lily's wand with him.

'Fucking dumb arse! He has to give it back, doesn't he? He had better……Gods, I can't sleep.'

Lily headed down to the common room, grabbing her blanket and book on the way out of her dormitory, making sure to shut the door quietly, as to not wake her other dorm mates.

Lily reached the common room and curled up on a chair next to the dying fire in the Gryffindor Common Room. Lily was soon lost in her book, not paying any attention to the portrait that open and closed by itself.

"Bloody Brilliant Prongs!" An amused voice sounded from the middle of the room.

Lily's head shot up at the voice of Sirius Black, and the use of James Potter's nickname. Lily scanned the room, looking for the two boys she was sure were there.

"Where are you two at?" Lily said, clutching her blanket tighter to herself. "I know it's you, I heard you saying each other's name."

Lily heard whispering, and then, James Potter and Sirius Black were standing in front of her, arms full of food.

"Hello Lily." The two boys grinned sheepishly.

Needless to say, two hours later, Lily climbed back up the girls' staircase, stomach full, sleepy and in high spirits. Lily laid her book and wand on the stand next to her bed, sighing as she settled into her bed and blankets, pulling her curtains closed around herself.

'I'm content, everything's going great, and I have my wand back. What more could I ask for?'

A couple weeks later, Lily was walking to DADA with Bri and Julia. Since Julia was currently dating Remus, the rest of the Marauder's were also walking with them.

"Look at Snivellius, probably has his greased nose stuck in a book of dark arts." James growled, watching Severus Snape walk into the DADA classroom, nose buried in a book.

"Grow up Potter, you conceited git." Lily ground her teeth. 'Why must he be here? Why must he always start a damned fight?'

"It is the truth, Lily Flower. And he's been poking his greasy nose into Moony's business. I swear, one of these days, he's going to get it. He has it coming." Sirius turned to look in Lily's direction.

Lily sighed, and cast a look at Remus, who was currently caught up in a conversation with Julia.

"I know, I just don't want to witness a fight in the hallway. It's an important goal for me to become head girl next year." Lily sighed, following the group of people into the DADA classroom, taking her seat and starting to take notes when their professor started talking.

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AN -Hey! I added a whole bunch of stuff in this chapter because I wanted to make the bond between Lily and Brianna a little more special. In the other, I didn't feel like they were close enough, so I really hope you enjoy this chapter, It took a long time to write, I realize, but I'm happy with it. Hope you have fun reading! Thanks you so mucho for reviewing! Love you all much!

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Miss Meg