HI AGAIN EVERYBODY! *is pelted with various random objects* okay,
okay, I know you don't really like me, but I wrote a poem during "Alice in
Wonderland" yeah, the Disney movie that I OBVIOUSLY do not own or like.
Anyway, it came out super weird, but I had my friend Dana (^_^ Dana you are
so cool!) read it and she really liked it.
This fic will be different from all my other ones. *cheers are heard from the readers* *sweatdrop* uh...anyway, I'm going to have a poem, (SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO DO ITALICS ON FF.NET BECAUSE I'M IN MICROSOFT WORD AND MY ITALICS AND BOLD ALWAYS DISAPPEAR) then after the poem I will have a short chapter, so this fic may have short chapters, but I plan to have a lot of them because my mind has many sadistic and angsty poems ready for yas (the one thing I own! ^_^) all!
Since the fic has a somewhat lighthearted storyline, however, I am going to keep bringing up points from Hiei and Kurama's pasts. This also CONTAINS SPOILERS FROM THE FINAL ROUNDS OF THE DARK TOURNAMENT.
There will be NO YAOI in this fic. *is pelted by various random objects thrown by yaoi lovers* I simply can't write guy-guy romance, I'm not that type of person. *gets hit with a rubber chicken* OH NOT FUNNY! *gets ready to send a fireball into the crowd of yaoi lovers, but thinks better of it*
I do not own Yu-Yu Hakusho or anything else here besides the plot and the little poems. I do not own my inspiration (Linkin Park and Evanescence) either.
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Secrets of the Soul
By Godrina-of-the-Shadows
Chapter one: Hiei's Struggle and the Mysterious Pendant
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I've lost contact with the surface,
as I lie to even my closest friends.
:
A hidden sorrow of which no one knows,
the gentle wind blows trying to calm my furious gale.
:
Untold secrets haunt my dreams,
as unseen tears flow from my eyes in streams of pain.
:
Foreboding images of the past,
against these enemies my mind's defenses will never last.
:
I'm lost and alone inside my mind,
searching for answers I cannot find.
:
Stronger than ever before,
the voices call me inside my head.
:
Watching me, haunting me,
old regret, past betrayal.
:
I'm not who I once was,
yet past wounds tear open, as if they were never healed.
:
My soul cries for deliverance,
as I toss and turn in a restless slumber.
:
My deadliest enemy resides within myself,
tearing me apart from within.
:
Untold secrets taking over me;
Taunting despair nags at my mind,
pulling me back from a shattered reality.
:
But who am I
and what am I becoming?
:
All I know is that I am no longer safe inside myself.
:
Shattered hope, shattered reality,
broken pieces of my life are scattered to the wind.
:
I close my eyes to seek refuge from reality,
I try to dream of refuge in flames.
:
I find myself alone in the snow,
a frigid storm of pain takes over me,
before I fall into an eternal darkness.
:
there is no one to catch me,
no one there to save me.
:
Don't try to catch me,
don't try to save me.
:
I cry tears of sadness, tears of joy,
as I plunge into the shadowy depths.
:
I'm falling forever,
into an oblivion between heaven and hell.
~*~
Hiei woke up in a cold sweat. He had that dream again. The dragon would be there, destroying some unseen opponent that Hiei somehow became enraged with. Then, he would see the enemy...as it screamed in pain and transformed into...Yukina. Hiei made the dragon disappear, but when he tried to comfort Yukina, she would just scream and shrink away from him. 'This is what I get for not telling her,' he thought to himself. 'Oh well, it can't be helped.' He tried to brush it all off, but the dream had occurred more and more often, until the point that he could not go a night without the dream haunting him.
Hiei looked down to find a pile of black gems with a reddish tint in his lap. He leaned sideways to get a glimpse of the ground below the tree he had been sleeping in. Sure enough, the soil was littered with more of these black gems. 'I must've been crying for awhile.' He tried to brush it all off, but the thought that the dream meant something kept nagging at Hiei's head. 'Tell her? No, I can't! I just can't! Besides, my jagan would kill me.'
Figuring that he had settled the ongoing dispute with himself for a few brief moments, he stood up on the tree branch and seemed to disappear from where he stood an instant before. Hiei was not doing anything like teleporting, though. He was just moving too fast for any normal eye to follow as he jumped from tree to tree in the direction of Kurama's house before suddenly turning around in mid-jump. In a single, limber jump, he landed backwards on a branch ahead of him, facing the direction in which he had come. Immediately, he dashed back to the tree he had slept in, and gathered up his teargems.
He mentally kicked himself for not picking them up in the first place. It was the state of mind he was in and he knew it. He was such a wreck mentally, he had forgotten about it entirely. If someone came across his tears, he risked being discovered, something he did not want. He had just finished shoving the last of the gems into his small bag before he noticed a pendant swinging from one of the branches near the one where he had been sleeping. 'That wasn't there before,' he thought.
The pendant consisted of a slender, white string, from which hung a dark red stone, the same color as blood. The stone itself was round and almost a full inch in diameter. The stone seemed to completely captivate Hiei, to him it was mesmerizing. Slowly, he reached out to touch it, just in case it was cursed or something. Sensing no change, Hiei smiled and slipped the pendant around his neck. Turning once again, Hiei stood up and soared off through the trees in the direction of Kurama's house,
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Godrina: What do you think? It was a full four pages in Microsoft word, and I'm really proud of myself. ^_^ even though it was a kind of lame first chapter, I promise it will get more interesting soon!
Youko: tch, yeah right.
Godrina: ooooh u shut up!
Youko: why? Everybody knows you will just mess up the rest of the fic.
Godrina: U BE QUIET! Please review, I will write replies to all your reviews in the next chappie IF anybody decides to.
Youko: which is highly unlikely.
Godrina: -_- just click the little button PLEASE! Flames are welcome as long as you have a good reason, and tell me what it is. Now click the button!
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This fic will be different from all my other ones. *cheers are heard from the readers* *sweatdrop* uh...anyway, I'm going to have a poem, (SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO DO ITALICS ON FF.NET BECAUSE I'M IN MICROSOFT WORD AND MY ITALICS AND BOLD ALWAYS DISAPPEAR) then after the poem I will have a short chapter, so this fic may have short chapters, but I plan to have a lot of them because my mind has many sadistic and angsty poems ready for yas (the one thing I own! ^_^) all!
Since the fic has a somewhat lighthearted storyline, however, I am going to keep bringing up points from Hiei and Kurama's pasts. This also CONTAINS SPOILERS FROM THE FINAL ROUNDS OF THE DARK TOURNAMENT.
There will be NO YAOI in this fic. *is pelted by various random objects thrown by yaoi lovers* I simply can't write guy-guy romance, I'm not that type of person. *gets hit with a rubber chicken* OH NOT FUNNY! *gets ready to send a fireball into the crowd of yaoi lovers, but thinks better of it*
I do not own Yu-Yu Hakusho or anything else here besides the plot and the little poems. I do not own my inspiration (Linkin Park and Evanescence) either.
~*~
Secrets of the Soul
By Godrina-of-the-Shadows
Chapter one: Hiei's Struggle and the Mysterious Pendant
~*~
I've lost contact with the surface,
as I lie to even my closest friends.
:
A hidden sorrow of which no one knows,
the gentle wind blows trying to calm my furious gale.
:
Untold secrets haunt my dreams,
as unseen tears flow from my eyes in streams of pain.
:
Foreboding images of the past,
against these enemies my mind's defenses will never last.
:
I'm lost and alone inside my mind,
searching for answers I cannot find.
:
Stronger than ever before,
the voices call me inside my head.
:
Watching me, haunting me,
old regret, past betrayal.
:
I'm not who I once was,
yet past wounds tear open, as if they were never healed.
:
My soul cries for deliverance,
as I toss and turn in a restless slumber.
:
My deadliest enemy resides within myself,
tearing me apart from within.
:
Untold secrets taking over me;
Taunting despair nags at my mind,
pulling me back from a shattered reality.
:
But who am I
and what am I becoming?
:
All I know is that I am no longer safe inside myself.
:
Shattered hope, shattered reality,
broken pieces of my life are scattered to the wind.
:
I close my eyes to seek refuge from reality,
I try to dream of refuge in flames.
:
I find myself alone in the snow,
a frigid storm of pain takes over me,
before I fall into an eternal darkness.
:
there is no one to catch me,
no one there to save me.
:
Don't try to catch me,
don't try to save me.
:
I cry tears of sadness, tears of joy,
as I plunge into the shadowy depths.
:
I'm falling forever,
into an oblivion between heaven and hell.
~*~
Hiei woke up in a cold sweat. He had that dream again. The dragon would be there, destroying some unseen opponent that Hiei somehow became enraged with. Then, he would see the enemy...as it screamed in pain and transformed into...Yukina. Hiei made the dragon disappear, but when he tried to comfort Yukina, she would just scream and shrink away from him. 'This is what I get for not telling her,' he thought to himself. 'Oh well, it can't be helped.' He tried to brush it all off, but the dream had occurred more and more often, until the point that he could not go a night without the dream haunting him.
Hiei looked down to find a pile of black gems with a reddish tint in his lap. He leaned sideways to get a glimpse of the ground below the tree he had been sleeping in. Sure enough, the soil was littered with more of these black gems. 'I must've been crying for awhile.' He tried to brush it all off, but the thought that the dream meant something kept nagging at Hiei's head. 'Tell her? No, I can't! I just can't! Besides, my jagan would kill me.'
Figuring that he had settled the ongoing dispute with himself for a few brief moments, he stood up on the tree branch and seemed to disappear from where he stood an instant before. Hiei was not doing anything like teleporting, though. He was just moving too fast for any normal eye to follow as he jumped from tree to tree in the direction of Kurama's house before suddenly turning around in mid-jump. In a single, limber jump, he landed backwards on a branch ahead of him, facing the direction in which he had come. Immediately, he dashed back to the tree he had slept in, and gathered up his teargems.
He mentally kicked himself for not picking them up in the first place. It was the state of mind he was in and he knew it. He was such a wreck mentally, he had forgotten about it entirely. If someone came across his tears, he risked being discovered, something he did not want. He had just finished shoving the last of the gems into his small bag before he noticed a pendant swinging from one of the branches near the one where he had been sleeping. 'That wasn't there before,' he thought.
The pendant consisted of a slender, white string, from which hung a dark red stone, the same color as blood. The stone itself was round and almost a full inch in diameter. The stone seemed to completely captivate Hiei, to him it was mesmerizing. Slowly, he reached out to touch it, just in case it was cursed or something. Sensing no change, Hiei smiled and slipped the pendant around his neck. Turning once again, Hiei stood up and soared off through the trees in the direction of Kurama's house,
~*~
Godrina: What do you think? It was a full four pages in Microsoft word, and I'm really proud of myself. ^_^ even though it was a kind of lame first chapter, I promise it will get more interesting soon!
Youko: tch, yeah right.
Godrina: ooooh u shut up!
Youko: why? Everybody knows you will just mess up the rest of the fic.
Godrina: U BE QUIET! Please review, I will write replies to all your reviews in the next chappie IF anybody decides to.
Youko: which is highly unlikely.
Godrina: -_- just click the little button PLEASE! Flames are welcome as long as you have a good reason, and tell me what it is. Now click the button!
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