Godrina: Before I start this chapter, I want to thank all the reviewers,
YOU PEOPLES ARE SO AWESOME! YOU MAKE ME FEEL LOVED! Even though I envy
anyone with 300, 100, 75, or even 50 reviews, you reviewers never fail to
make me feel special. *hugs computer*
Hiei: tch, yeah right. You're just saying that,
Godrina: oh really? *tosses Kurama plushies to everyone who read the Kurama chapter* I LOVE YOU ALL! Except Nicole =P I know you prefer being called Xue, Robbie, and Konrad. *sticks tongue out at Robbie and Konrad* I can put up with you, but you drive me insane, especially Robbie. HIEI! SAY IT!
Hiei: say what?
Godrina: aw, you're so cute when you're confused! The disclaimer, the DISCLAIMER!
Hiei: -_- fine, my name is Hiei, and Godrina-of-the-Shadows does not own me or any other members of the cast of Yu -Yu Hakusho.
Godrina: T____T nope, I don't. K'SO HIEI I LOVE YOU! *is pelted by rubber bands thrown by the Hiei lovers*
Hiei: um, can we please get on with the fic?
Godrina: we can, if my computer doesn't crash within the next three hours.
~Three Hours Later~
Hiei: see? It didn't crash!
Computer: *crashes*
Godrina: I hate you.
Hiei: really?
Godrina: no, I really do love you! *hugs him*
Hiei: *choking* I CAN'T BREATHE! Switch the scene! Switch the scene!
~Camera switches to a field of flowers~
Godrina's voice: uh...put the scene back.
~Nothing happens~
Godrina's voice: RETARD CAMERAMAN! PUT THE SCENE BACK!
~Scene switches back to Godrina and Hiei on the black background~
Hiei: *massaging his neck* Now, without further super-lame-conversation- thingy-that's-supposed-to-be-an-author's-note, we present...*drum roll* the Yusuke chapter! *single person claps*
~*~
Shadows of the Soul: a Tale of Four Seasons
Chapter 3 - Yusuke's Conflict: Nothing?
by Godrina-of-the-Shadows
~*~
I say I want to be the strongest,
but all I want is to be loved.
:
I say I'm the hero,
but I want to be a normal guy.
:
Bad choices I made,
things I should have done,
:
I could have had a better life,
but it just had to come to this.
:
I laugh,
I try to make jokes,
I try to act like none of it matters.
:
To me,
it does.
:
No one has knowledge
of this pain I'm suffering,
I've lost more than most will ever have,
:
and now,
I'm nothing.
:
No one needs me,
I'm useless.
:
Nothing fills this void in my life,
everything seems so pointless.
:
I'm going to disappear one day,
and no one will remember me.
:
Should I care?
No, there is no reason.
:
I beat others down,
to try to build myself up,
:
but I know that I'm the useless one.
:
If I try to be tough,
I'm hated and feared.
:
If I try to be nice,
I'm called weak and I'm tormented.
:
So what is there?
Nothing.
:
If there is nothing,
then what is there to live for?
:
If life is meaningless,
why choose to live?
:
I could have had it,
I threw it away.
:
I don't need to live,
I don't want to live.
:
Someone,
please end it,
:
Someone,
please erase all my pain.
:
No one is there to help me,
no one wishes to end my torment.
:
Everyone wants to laugh as I suffer,
but I must not blame them for their blindness.
:
They cannot see
how much pain I am in.
:
I'm nothing,
there is nothing.
:
Life is so...
simple.
~*~
Yusuke opened his eyes slowly. "Where am I?" he wondered out loud to no one in particular. Everything was so dark, he couldn't see anything, or so he thought. He lifted his hand to his face, and was startled to find he could see it as clear as if it was bright. "What is this place?" he questioned the air.
[Eternal darkness.]
Yusuke jumped and turned around at the sound of another's voice. Strangely enough, he could not find the owner of the voice in the darkness.
[The place of all wandering souls.]
This only confused the hanyou more. Eternal darkness? Wandering souls? What was all that supposed to mean? Whose voice was that anyway? It seemed familiar. . .
[You should know me, Yusuke.]
"Who are you?!?" He called back into the darkness. Yusuke became slightly agitated at the lack of reply, so he called back again. "TELL ME!" After some time, the voice came again.
[You should know me, Yusuke.]
'Yeah, I definitely know the owner of that voice,' he thought. 'But...I just can't place it.' Then, he felt himself falling. He looked up and just saw darkness, going on forever.
[How could you forget me, Yusuke?]
"How can I forget you if I don't know who you are?"
He was still falling. Yusuke could feel it, even though he didn't know how fast or far he was falling, that was all he knew. Yusuke called out to the voice with his questions some more, but the voice did not answer. The voice remained silent. Why couldn't he place the voice? It seemed so familiar as if he had known its owner his whole life, but it didn't belong to anyone he could think of.
[Have you really forgotten me, Yusuke?]
Yusuke wanted to scream in frustration. There was no way this person or whatever it was could possibly know him. He thought of everyone that he ever had knowledge of knowing. His mother, his friends, schoolmates. teachers, demons he had defeated, demons his allies had defeated, none of them seemed to match this voice.
[Hey moron, figure it out already!]
Then he realized who it was. It was-
~*~
XD HA I AM SOOOOOO EVIL! I think that is the worst cliffie EVER in the history of all fanfiction. Who do YOU think it is? (I have two ideas, but I have to wait for the next YYH dvd to come out before I can have one of them, so It'll probably be the first one XD BUT I DIDN'T TELL YOU WHO!)
And now, it's time for REVIEW REPLIES! *throws Kurama plushies to all the people who reviewed the Kurama chapter*
Princess Krystal 01: I'm glad you like it. I'll try to update once a week or so, maybe a little longer, but this is my first pre-written fic.
KuramaandHiei4Ever: YOU LIKE ME? YAY! *hugs computer* I'm feeling so special! (no not special ed, losers) *huggles Hiei* well, I'm happy you liked the Kurama chapter; it was the most fun to write out of these three! I don't really have a plot for Kuwabara in mind, but since I don't have much against him, I might introduce one later if I think of one. About the poem thing, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Actually, I have problems writing any poetry that doesn't have to do with anime. X_x Thanks again for the long review! Leave long review, get long reply. ^.^ Thanks for putting me on your favorites list and author alert too! It's nice people like you that inspire me!
Kitsune of Light: *waves* HI LISA! and happy new year to you too!
Saelbu: I'm glad you're still interested. I'll try to keep it suspenseful for ya, but it might get weird, and SOMEBODY MIGHT DIE IF I GET A WRITER'S BLOCK!
*reviewers run away*
T.T NOOOOO!!!!!!! I JUST SCARED AWAY ALL THE REVIEWERS! Flamers are welcome as long as you give a good reason, stupid flamers, you shouldn't talk, it makes you sound stupid. ALL GOOD REVIEWERS GET YUSUKE PLUSHIES! now....PLEASE REVIEW! DON'T MAKE ME BEG!
Hiei: yes, make her beg!
How about this? I won't update until I have 15 reviews! You have been warned!
Hiei: tch, yeah right. You're just saying that,
Godrina: oh really? *tosses Kurama plushies to everyone who read the Kurama chapter* I LOVE YOU ALL! Except Nicole =P I know you prefer being called Xue, Robbie, and Konrad. *sticks tongue out at Robbie and Konrad* I can put up with you, but you drive me insane, especially Robbie. HIEI! SAY IT!
Hiei: say what?
Godrina: aw, you're so cute when you're confused! The disclaimer, the DISCLAIMER!
Hiei: -_- fine, my name is Hiei, and Godrina-of-the-Shadows does not own me or any other members of the cast of Yu -Yu Hakusho.
Godrina: T____T nope, I don't. K'SO HIEI I LOVE YOU! *is pelted by rubber bands thrown by the Hiei lovers*
Hiei: um, can we please get on with the fic?
Godrina: we can, if my computer doesn't crash within the next three hours.
~Three Hours Later~
Hiei: see? It didn't crash!
Computer: *crashes*
Godrina: I hate you.
Hiei: really?
Godrina: no, I really do love you! *hugs him*
Hiei: *choking* I CAN'T BREATHE! Switch the scene! Switch the scene!
~Camera switches to a field of flowers~
Godrina's voice: uh...put the scene back.
~Nothing happens~
Godrina's voice: RETARD CAMERAMAN! PUT THE SCENE BACK!
~Scene switches back to Godrina and Hiei on the black background~
Hiei: *massaging his neck* Now, without further super-lame-conversation- thingy-that's-supposed-to-be-an-author's-note, we present...*drum roll* the Yusuke chapter! *single person claps*
~*~
Shadows of the Soul: a Tale of Four Seasons
Chapter 3 - Yusuke's Conflict: Nothing?
by Godrina-of-the-Shadows
~*~
I say I want to be the strongest,
but all I want is to be loved.
:
I say I'm the hero,
but I want to be a normal guy.
:
Bad choices I made,
things I should have done,
:
I could have had a better life,
but it just had to come to this.
:
I laugh,
I try to make jokes,
I try to act like none of it matters.
:
To me,
it does.
:
No one has knowledge
of this pain I'm suffering,
I've lost more than most will ever have,
:
and now,
I'm nothing.
:
No one needs me,
I'm useless.
:
Nothing fills this void in my life,
everything seems so pointless.
:
I'm going to disappear one day,
and no one will remember me.
:
Should I care?
No, there is no reason.
:
I beat others down,
to try to build myself up,
:
but I know that I'm the useless one.
:
If I try to be tough,
I'm hated and feared.
:
If I try to be nice,
I'm called weak and I'm tormented.
:
So what is there?
Nothing.
:
If there is nothing,
then what is there to live for?
:
If life is meaningless,
why choose to live?
:
I could have had it,
I threw it away.
:
I don't need to live,
I don't want to live.
:
Someone,
please end it,
:
Someone,
please erase all my pain.
:
No one is there to help me,
no one wishes to end my torment.
:
Everyone wants to laugh as I suffer,
but I must not blame them for their blindness.
:
They cannot see
how much pain I am in.
:
I'm nothing,
there is nothing.
:
Life is so...
simple.
~*~
Yusuke opened his eyes slowly. "Where am I?" he wondered out loud to no one in particular. Everything was so dark, he couldn't see anything, or so he thought. He lifted his hand to his face, and was startled to find he could see it as clear as if it was bright. "What is this place?" he questioned the air.
[Eternal darkness.]
Yusuke jumped and turned around at the sound of another's voice. Strangely enough, he could not find the owner of the voice in the darkness.
[The place of all wandering souls.]
This only confused the hanyou more. Eternal darkness? Wandering souls? What was all that supposed to mean? Whose voice was that anyway? It seemed familiar. . .
[You should know me, Yusuke.]
"Who are you?!?" He called back into the darkness. Yusuke became slightly agitated at the lack of reply, so he called back again. "TELL ME!" After some time, the voice came again.
[You should know me, Yusuke.]
'Yeah, I definitely know the owner of that voice,' he thought. 'But...I just can't place it.' Then, he felt himself falling. He looked up and just saw darkness, going on forever.
[How could you forget me, Yusuke?]
"How can I forget you if I don't know who you are?"
He was still falling. Yusuke could feel it, even though he didn't know how fast or far he was falling, that was all he knew. Yusuke called out to the voice with his questions some more, but the voice did not answer. The voice remained silent. Why couldn't he place the voice? It seemed so familiar as if he had known its owner his whole life, but it didn't belong to anyone he could think of.
[Have you really forgotten me, Yusuke?]
Yusuke wanted to scream in frustration. There was no way this person or whatever it was could possibly know him. He thought of everyone that he ever had knowledge of knowing. His mother, his friends, schoolmates. teachers, demons he had defeated, demons his allies had defeated, none of them seemed to match this voice.
[Hey moron, figure it out already!]
Then he realized who it was. It was-
~*~
XD HA I AM SOOOOOO EVIL! I think that is the worst cliffie EVER in the history of all fanfiction. Who do YOU think it is? (I have two ideas, but I have to wait for the next YYH dvd to come out before I can have one of them, so It'll probably be the first one XD BUT I DIDN'T TELL YOU WHO!)
And now, it's time for REVIEW REPLIES! *throws Kurama plushies to all the people who reviewed the Kurama chapter*
Princess Krystal 01: I'm glad you like it. I'll try to update once a week or so, maybe a little longer, but this is my first pre-written fic.
KuramaandHiei4Ever: YOU LIKE ME? YAY! *hugs computer* I'm feeling so special! (no not special ed, losers) *huggles Hiei* well, I'm happy you liked the Kurama chapter; it was the most fun to write out of these three! I don't really have a plot for Kuwabara in mind, but since I don't have much against him, I might introduce one later if I think of one. About the poem thing, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Actually, I have problems writing any poetry that doesn't have to do with anime. X_x Thanks again for the long review! Leave long review, get long reply. ^.^ Thanks for putting me on your favorites list and author alert too! It's nice people like you that inspire me!
Kitsune of Light: *waves* HI LISA! and happy new year to you too!
Saelbu: I'm glad you're still interested. I'll try to keep it suspenseful for ya, but it might get weird, and SOMEBODY MIGHT DIE IF I GET A WRITER'S BLOCK!
*reviewers run away*
T.T NOOOOO!!!!!!! I JUST SCARED AWAY ALL THE REVIEWERS! Flamers are welcome as long as you give a good reason, stupid flamers, you shouldn't talk, it makes you sound stupid. ALL GOOD REVIEWERS GET YUSUKE PLUSHIES! now....PLEASE REVIEW! DON'T MAKE ME BEG!
Hiei: yes, make her beg!
How about this? I won't update until I have 15 reviews! You have been warned!