Love This Feeling

Disclaimer: JKR….Must I say more?

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Lily stood looking at herself in the mirror. 'How can this be happening?' she thought to herself. She expected her parents to be at least old when they died, not so……Young.

Lily shook her head, fixing her skirt. Lily's skirt was black and came a bit below the knees, and her shirt, black again, had a square neck line.

Lily smoothed out her hair, holding back the tears that she had been fighting all morning long. Her parents' death hurt her much more than anything else could ever.

James knocked her door lightly and peeked in, "You all right?" he asked walking over to her.

"Im alright, I guess. How alright can a person be who's parents have just been murdered Voldemort?" she replied, he nodded, and wrapped his arms around her shoulders.

"It'll be over soon enough," James sighed.

"I'm not sure the pain will ever go away," Lily said softly, turning and laying her head on his shoulder.

He rubbed her back soothingly, his fingertips trailing over her sides, making her shiver.

"Not all of it, but some will. The pain will fade away, and be replaced as you move on in life. You'll realize that you'll always miss them, but they're always with you," James told her.

Lily nodded, her fingers playing with the hairs on the nape of his neck.

James smiled, thinking of how much he liked Lily. Even though he had always had a crush on her, only knowing what she showed everyone, that was enough. It made him like her all the more as he got to know the real her. He loved the thought that she went to him, out of everyone that she knew; she still went to him through her parents' death. Although he'd love to stay here like this, he had to let Lily go and get down to the funeral.

Lily fixed her skirt, yet again, and headed for the door with James right behind her. Lily walked slowly down the stairs, her fingers running over the pictures hanging on the wall.

As she looked at the pictures from her childhood, she remembered the Christmases with her parents, how when she was little, she would put the Christmas bows all over her dad, and then tape wrapping paper over him, wrapping him up for her Mum's present.

She remembered when her mum would scold her for taking cookies for her and her dad, but she would always win over her mum, and get to keep the cookies. She also remembered when she was sick, her parents would take turns reading her a book to help her feel better.

She could actually remember one Christmas when she was about 3. Lily had always had the knack of getting up really early, at 5 in the morning on Christmas, and waking her parents. Except, this Christmas, her parents got up at 4:30, before Lily, trying to remember what possessed them to wake up that early, and woke Lily up.

Then, they all went downstairs and opened the gifts, getting wrapping paper all over the living room and Christmas tree. Even in the plants on the mantle were covered in colored papers.

That evening had ended when the whole family, Petunia included, sat and watched the gentle snowfall and drank hot chocolate.

She remembered the moments with her family, wiping her eyes. She couldn't cry, at least not now. She sighed as she walked to where the funeral was being held; the living room of their home, as she refused to have the service elsewhere. She preferred having it in the place where she had the best memories of her parents.

She looked at the two caskets in front of her, her heart tearing into shreds, and she looked at the chairs lined up where the mourners were seated. Lily sighed, continuing on to the front of the rows, and sat down in the first chair. James sat behind her and his parents next to him, he was lucky, to have both of them, even though his father had such a demanding job and was rarely there.

The pastor stood up and proceeded to the pulpit,

"Dear friends, family, guests. We are here sadly today, to bury Julie and Matthew Evans, who passed away from unknown circumstances" The pastor was muggle, and of course he wouldn't know why the Evans' had died.

"Both Julie and Matthew were kind and caring people, who had two children, daughters, whom of which are both here," The pastor nodded towards Petunia and Lily.

"I didn't know the Evans' personally, but their youngest daughter, Lily, would like to give the eulogy, so here she is" he said, stepping down as she stepped up.

"My parents, like the pastor had said, were very kind people, they wouldn't hurt anyone, unless someone hurt them first. Both were the youngest of 3 children, and…..." Lily broke off, loss for words, even though they were right in front of her

"And…..." she said near tears "They were in love very much. They got married at an early age, but that didn't stop them from having good careers and a good family... They were young when they became parents, but that didn't stop them, they both took time off to care for me and my sister……" she said, tears running down her cheeks "My dad was the type of person to try and make someone laugh when they were depressed, and it always worked, and my mum, she would comfort you if you were upset, she'd comfort you somehow, and try and make you laugh…..She wasn't all that good at jokes though….." she said then added

"But don't mention that in front of her, or otherwise she'd come and hit you with a frying pan….. Now I'm expecting her to pop up right now and do that" Lily said, choking on laughter through her tears. A few chuckles from the crowd sounded, livening the room slightly.

"But my parents always put everything before themselves, and nothing in front of my sister and I. They actually wanted another kid, but after me and my sister, they were a bit leery on that" she said.

"No one had any complaints about my parents, they were kind to everyone, they helped as much as possible…..." she couldn't get out the last words but managed through tears

"And I loved them very much and I always will" she said, finally breaking down, not being able to continue, or having the ability to walk back to her seat, having James escort her back.

The minister said a few more words before having the alter bearers carry out the caskets to the backyard, where the were lowered in, while Lily dropped a white Lily on the coffins, and Petunia dropped a white petunia on the coffins.

Lily cried the whole time, as she threw a handful of dirt onto the coffin, Lily held onto James, who was supporting her and had his arm around her rubbing her back.

After the funeral, Lily bid James goodbye, giving him a hug and kisses on the cheek and watched him leave. After Lily was sure James was gone, she went up to her room, screaming into her pillow and cutting herself off from the rest of the world.

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AN - Hey my lovely people! Thanks so much for everyone's review! I enjoy them a lot. I want to thank Cappuccino Squirrel for writing the outline of this chapter, I couldn't have done it without her. It will get happier soon, I promise! Keep reading, reviewing or getting snacks, I'll be eternally happy! Love you all, thank you so much!!

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