Godrina: I AM BAAAAAAAAAACK!
Youko: *sarcastically* yay.
Godrina: you're so mean...*sniff*
Youko: tch...and your point is...?
Godrina: my internet breaks down so I can't update and you don't miss me?
Youko: ...
Godrina: *cries* I'm a bad authoress!
Youko: *sweatdrop* Godrina does not own me or anybody else in the fic.
~*~
Secrets of the Soul: a Tale of Four Seasons
Chapter Four
Hiei's despair & a Further Denial
~*~
Who am I
to fight the darkness?
:
I want to let it in,
I want it to swallow me.
:
Being pulled back from the light,
I try to hold onto you,
:
But I have to let go,
I don't want you to fall the way I do.
:
I'm the one who deserves it,
let me suffer alone.
:
Alone in this dark place,
what will I become?
Swallowed by despair,
:
Untouchable.
:
My thoughts burn,
with an unshakable hatred.
Hatred of what?
:
I'm so warm in this flame,
but my spirit sleeps in a frost of darkness.
:
No one can save me,
no one can help me.
:
I continue to fall.
:
All this inside,
I'll let all the pain out.
:
Unbearable.
:
I'm lost,
you can't find me.
:
Flowers around me,
fall from the sky,
:
only to be burned,
by my hatred and lies.
:
A betrayal to my own kind,
I'm lost in the dark.
:
Cold chains of sadness
wrap around my heart
:
and pull me
into a bottomless abyss of darkness.
:
Haunting me,
following me,
:
Ghosts of my past torment me,
disguised as my own weapons of pain.
:
Clear flames of hell
licking my body and soul,
:
showing me despairing memories
of the torn past.
:
A burning regret.
A frozen betrayal.
:
I continue to pray for forbidden mercy,
clinging to my last shred of hope.
:
My loss,
my despair.
:
It dissipates in my hands.
:
I can't see,
I can't breathe.
:
Unreachable.
:
I close my eyes,
I let out my last breath.
:
I find myself lying on my back,
surrounded by an amber flame.
:
Unseen monsters pull on my frozen chains,
they pull me away from the light,
:
dragging me away from my ever-precious flame of life,
into a cold, dark oblivion.
:
Slowly falling downward,
I silently subject to the despair.
~*~
"It's three o'clock am, go back to sleep, Hiei."
The window slid shut before Hiei could even get another word out. Hiei blinked several times as the kitsune walked into the bathroom and shut the door behind him.
Was Kurama being irritable? Hiei shook his head. Kurama was always willing to talk to Hiei about things, no matter what time it was. Hiei shrugged it off and flitted away, dismissing it as nothing more than a lack of sleep. 'That was a total waste of time,' he thought. He returned to his perch on the branch in the tree he had slept in.
Hiei took off the pendant and looked at it, running its smooth surface across his hands slowly. Slightly clawed hands gripped it tightly, unable to find any groove within the pure stone. He smiled to himself and slipped the pendant around his neck once more. It was so beautiful...
Hiei sat there for an hour or two, and drifted off to sleep as the sun began to rise. Not more than two hours later, a little kid passed by with his mother. The boy pointed to Hiei and asked his mother a single question.
"Mommy, why is that boy sleeping in a tree?"
"Maybe it is because he doesn't have a home," the mother replied calmly.
"Why doesn't that boy have a home? Don't his parents love him?"
"Honey, that is what people call an orphan."
"An orphan?"
"An orphan is a child with no mommy or daddy."
"What about a grandmommy? Do orphans have grandmommies and granddaddies?"
"Honey," the mother said, reaching down to pick him up, "orphans are very unlucky children. They don't have families at all."
Hiei slowly eased his eyes open and yawned. He could hear voices talking.
"Then why doesn't the orphan boy go find a family?"
"Maybe it is because nobody wants him."
Hiei looked down at the people from which the voices came. One was a tall woman with dark brown hair. The other was a little boy that she held tightly in her warm arms. He blinked and jumped down.
"Hn, so what if my parents are dead? I get alone fine on my own, oh, and I do have a family. I have a sister, whom I love very much," there was a blur and he was gone.
~*~
wow, this chapter came out a lot worse than I expected it to. GOMEN NANSAI! I had a killer writer's block.
Youko: tch, don't make excuses.
Godrina: I wasn't! Do you have no faith in me?
Youko: yes, I have faith in you to mess this whole fic up.
Godrina: *cries* you're so mean!
Review Replies:
Night Fox Hiten: You're such a loyal reviewer! Don't worry, you're not a freak. You're probably just like me. Insane. THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! XD here, you can have a Yusuke plushie!
KuramaandHiei4Ever: I always put off my hw too...that's what I'm doing at the moment. X.x You think the voice is Genkai? Maybe! You'll just have to wait and find out. XD Yusuke plushie?
Malorie: HI MAL! I think I know you...XD lol, thanks for reviewing my story! ^^
Kitsune of Light: hey Anatalia, ^_^ I needed a perk...you think the voice is Kuwabara? MAYBE! I think you'll just have to wait and see as well. *throws her a human Inuyasha plushie* special for you!
Cheeto: hello again. Thanks for reviewing again! ^.^ I feel so loved! Have a Yusuke plushie!
Salebu: sorry for taking so long to update, my internet wouldn't work at all. *killing computer* the next chapter will be a lot faster! ^_^ Yusuke plushie?
Agent Dark Moose: I know they are! Thank you for reviewing my story! I reviewed yours! Have a Yusuke plushie!
Computerchick100 & JewelFaerie12: O_O ^_^ thanks for the crazy review! In my depressed state I needed a lift! *gives JewelFaerie12 her Kurama plushie and ComputerChick100 her Yusuke plushie. ^_^
Veronica: GOMEN NANSAI FOR NOT UPDATING! T__T damn computer...Yusuke plushie make you feel better! *gives her a Yusuke plushie*
~*~
Plot question:
How do you think Kurama will react to the monster-size house plant in his bathroom?
~*~
So...since I'm going for a goal here on the number of reviews I have...I want 25 before my next update!
Youko: like that's ever going to happen...
Shut up, don't make me get out the hot water!
Youko: meep!
That's more like it! Like I was saying...Please review, if you want to comment, flame (you need a good reason!), rp, or just hang out with me in the author notes, review!
or just...REVIEW FOR THE HELL OF IT! XD
now...click go and collect $200!
Youko: *sweatdrop* we know you won't update anyway...
YOU DON'T TRUST ME?!?!? *bursts into tears*
Youko: -_- just review and make her stop crying...PLEASE!
Youko: *sarcastically* yay.
Godrina: you're so mean...*sniff*
Youko: tch...and your point is...?
Godrina: my internet breaks down so I can't update and you don't miss me?
Youko: ...
Godrina: *cries* I'm a bad authoress!
Youko: *sweatdrop* Godrina does not own me or anybody else in the fic.
~*~
Secrets of the Soul: a Tale of Four Seasons
Chapter Four
Hiei's despair & a Further Denial
~*~
Who am I
to fight the darkness?
:
I want to let it in,
I want it to swallow me.
:
Being pulled back from the light,
I try to hold onto you,
:
But I have to let go,
I don't want you to fall the way I do.
:
I'm the one who deserves it,
let me suffer alone.
:
Alone in this dark place,
what will I become?
Swallowed by despair,
:
Untouchable.
:
My thoughts burn,
with an unshakable hatred.
Hatred of what?
:
I'm so warm in this flame,
but my spirit sleeps in a frost of darkness.
:
No one can save me,
no one can help me.
:
I continue to fall.
:
All this inside,
I'll let all the pain out.
:
Unbearable.
:
I'm lost,
you can't find me.
:
Flowers around me,
fall from the sky,
:
only to be burned,
by my hatred and lies.
:
A betrayal to my own kind,
I'm lost in the dark.
:
Cold chains of sadness
wrap around my heart
:
and pull me
into a bottomless abyss of darkness.
:
Haunting me,
following me,
:
Ghosts of my past torment me,
disguised as my own weapons of pain.
:
Clear flames of hell
licking my body and soul,
:
showing me despairing memories
of the torn past.
:
A burning regret.
A frozen betrayal.
:
I continue to pray for forbidden mercy,
clinging to my last shred of hope.
:
My loss,
my despair.
:
It dissipates in my hands.
:
I can't see,
I can't breathe.
:
Unreachable.
:
I close my eyes,
I let out my last breath.
:
I find myself lying on my back,
surrounded by an amber flame.
:
Unseen monsters pull on my frozen chains,
they pull me away from the light,
:
dragging me away from my ever-precious flame of life,
into a cold, dark oblivion.
:
Slowly falling downward,
I silently subject to the despair.
~*~
"It's three o'clock am, go back to sleep, Hiei."
The window slid shut before Hiei could even get another word out. Hiei blinked several times as the kitsune walked into the bathroom and shut the door behind him.
Was Kurama being irritable? Hiei shook his head. Kurama was always willing to talk to Hiei about things, no matter what time it was. Hiei shrugged it off and flitted away, dismissing it as nothing more than a lack of sleep. 'That was a total waste of time,' he thought. He returned to his perch on the branch in the tree he had slept in.
Hiei took off the pendant and looked at it, running its smooth surface across his hands slowly. Slightly clawed hands gripped it tightly, unable to find any groove within the pure stone. He smiled to himself and slipped the pendant around his neck once more. It was so beautiful...
Hiei sat there for an hour or two, and drifted off to sleep as the sun began to rise. Not more than two hours later, a little kid passed by with his mother. The boy pointed to Hiei and asked his mother a single question.
"Mommy, why is that boy sleeping in a tree?"
"Maybe it is because he doesn't have a home," the mother replied calmly.
"Why doesn't that boy have a home? Don't his parents love him?"
"Honey, that is what people call an orphan."
"An orphan?"
"An orphan is a child with no mommy or daddy."
"What about a grandmommy? Do orphans have grandmommies and granddaddies?"
"Honey," the mother said, reaching down to pick him up, "orphans are very unlucky children. They don't have families at all."
Hiei slowly eased his eyes open and yawned. He could hear voices talking.
"Then why doesn't the orphan boy go find a family?"
"Maybe it is because nobody wants him."
Hiei looked down at the people from which the voices came. One was a tall woman with dark brown hair. The other was a little boy that she held tightly in her warm arms. He blinked and jumped down.
"Hn, so what if my parents are dead? I get alone fine on my own, oh, and I do have a family. I have a sister, whom I love very much," there was a blur and he was gone.
~*~
wow, this chapter came out a lot worse than I expected it to. GOMEN NANSAI! I had a killer writer's block.
Youko: tch, don't make excuses.
Godrina: I wasn't! Do you have no faith in me?
Youko: yes, I have faith in you to mess this whole fic up.
Godrina: *cries* you're so mean!
Review Replies:
Night Fox Hiten: You're such a loyal reviewer! Don't worry, you're not a freak. You're probably just like me. Insane. THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! XD here, you can have a Yusuke plushie!
KuramaandHiei4Ever: I always put off my hw too...that's what I'm doing at the moment. X.x You think the voice is Genkai? Maybe! You'll just have to wait and find out. XD Yusuke plushie?
Malorie: HI MAL! I think I know you...XD lol, thanks for reviewing my story! ^^
Kitsune of Light: hey Anatalia, ^_^ I needed a perk...you think the voice is Kuwabara? MAYBE! I think you'll just have to wait and see as well. *throws her a human Inuyasha plushie* special for you!
Cheeto: hello again. Thanks for reviewing again! ^.^ I feel so loved! Have a Yusuke plushie!
Salebu: sorry for taking so long to update, my internet wouldn't work at all. *killing computer* the next chapter will be a lot faster! ^_^ Yusuke plushie?
Agent Dark Moose: I know they are! Thank you for reviewing my story! I reviewed yours! Have a Yusuke plushie!
Computerchick100 & JewelFaerie12: O_O ^_^ thanks for the crazy review! In my depressed state I needed a lift! *gives JewelFaerie12 her Kurama plushie and ComputerChick100 her Yusuke plushie. ^_^
Veronica: GOMEN NANSAI FOR NOT UPDATING! T__T damn computer...Yusuke plushie make you feel better! *gives her a Yusuke plushie*
~*~
Plot question:
How do you think Kurama will react to the monster-size house plant in his bathroom?
~*~
So...since I'm going for a goal here on the number of reviews I have...I want 25 before my next update!
Youko: like that's ever going to happen...
Shut up, don't make me get out the hot water!
Youko: meep!
That's more like it! Like I was saying...Please review, if you want to comment, flame (you need a good reason!), rp, or just hang out with me in the author notes, review!
or just...REVIEW FOR THE HELL OF IT! XD
now...click go and collect $200!
Youko: *sweatdrop* we know you won't update anyway...
YOU DON'T TRUST ME?!?!? *bursts into tears*
Youko: -_- just review and make her stop crying...PLEASE!