Chapter 2
Yale University
10 o'clock
Rory pulls up in front of Yale and parks her car, she grabs her bags and walks towards her building and she goes in to her room and notices Tanna asleep on the couch while Undergrads is playing, Rory goes directly in to her room, but realizes that Tanna has woken up.
Tanna- Rory, what are you doing home?
Rory- Well I decided to come home a bit early
Tanna- oh ok, everything is okay though…right?
Rory- yeah, I am sorry I woke you up
Tanna- oh you don't have to apologize; I was going to go to my bed anyways
Rory- oh ok, where is everyone?
Tanna- Well there at the library
Rory- even Paris?
Tanna- nope, she went on a date
Rory- oh, ok well I am sorry for waking you goodnight
Tanna- goodnight (Tanna gets up and goes in to her room and shuts the door)
Rory goes in to her bedroom and changes in to her sweatpants and sweater, she grabs her journal and a pen then walks out of the dorm and heads for her favorite spot on the grounds of Yale, so she can think about the events of the evening.Dear Diary,
Today has been a very strange day, not only was I aware that Jess was back in town but I kept running in to him like it was sign that I actually am not capable of forgetting about him, I went in to a different coffee shop, and I still ran in to him but then he just left then I went to the book store and he was sitting there reading "The Last Goodbye" By Reed Arvin, I want to read that novel…but anyways he just put the book down and left again, then later in the evening we meet again and I start to run away, and he chases me through the streets of Stars Hollow and we look like fools, but I don't care because the first words out of my mouth were "this is my town and you don't get to run away", or something like that I was too busy staring at him and I had millions of things playing in my head, then I finally stop and I ask "what do you have to say to me" and he says after a few other things "I Love You" out of the things I thought he would say none were even close to what he said, he said he Loves Me then he drove away again.
My thoughts on all this are so scrambled I want him in my life and I will always want him in my life but it hurts that he keeps leaving me, it hurts so bad and I don't think I could take it if I accepted him back in to my life and he leaves. Can you imagine what my mother and grandmother would say if I actually allowed him back in to my life? They would probably want to kick my butt all the way to Canada and that would hurt…but I am 19. Am I not allowed to choose my own paths and be my own person and not have always listen to my family, all my life I have listened to what I am being told and I have never once defied either of them, and I don't even live at home. So I am entitled to do as I please…right? I wish I could get some advice on what I should do, but I know that the only person that could help me in this situation is myself…I have to follow my heart and I have to trust my own instincts, because deep down I know what I want to happen but I don't know I think it all blows down to one person and I wish I knew where he was, so I could talk to him. What would I say if I could talk to him? Would I say I love you then leave like he did so he could feel what I feel, or would I say "do you really love me" and if he says "Yes" do I say "prove it', or do I ask him "what do you want me to do" and let him help in the decision of our future…well…I could always ask him "if he is even going to stay around long enough" so we could have that future that we have always dreamed about while we were on the bridge. I know Jess is dying to have that future, you know the one where he goes to college and has a awesome career as an author and we are married and I know he wants at least one child, Jess has told me he would like to "live the American Dream" and I would be happy to give that to him, but for my own Sanity I would like to know if he would ever just leave during the night because he cannot deal with a certain situation, I would want to know that when he says he loves me, he actually means it and will be everyday of my life, and of the life of possible children. Only because I love him enough that I would do anything for him and I would be there in anyway possible, and I would hate it if he ever left my life. You could say we are soul mates, or were meant to be but how could that be true if he always feels like he has to escape everything that is right and okay with this world. It would break my heart and I just need that certainty and that is all it takes to take him back and to love him even more than I did before he left, I choose Yale so I could come home to him and also to my mother…If Jess wasn't in my life at the time I think I would have chosen Harvard, but I didn't and I don't have regrets because they are both excellent schools, but I am just saying Jess played a major part in my decision to go to Yale. I need to talk to Jess, I wonder if anyone knows were he is?
-Jess's Thoughts-
Where should I send the letter? Should I send it to Rory's school? Or Should I send it to Rory's house? Wow Mariano…what a nice situation to be in, I don't have the address for Rory's school and I don't think Lorelai wants me to be interacting with Rory and I am guaranteed Luke knows where I could get a hold of her, but I think I may have hurt his feelings and he probably hates me now…great job…why am I so stupid? I need to mend fences, I need Rory in my life and I wouldn't mind having Luke not hate my guts for the next 50 years of my life, but how am I going to complete this task if I have to go back to Stars Hollow I don't need or want to run in to Lorelai, wait! I could call Luke, I need him to forgive me he was the only person there for me ever.
Jess walks over to the phone and dials the number to the Apartment, and is waiting for Luke to answer itJess- come on Luke, it's 1050 the diner closed 50 minutes ago, where are you?
The machine comes on "hey this is Luke, I am not home right now, so just leave a message"
Jess- shit! Where is he, maybe I should try the diner
Jess dials the number to the diner and is waiting while it rings, then all of the suddenLuke- Hello
Jess's breath is caught in his throat
Luke- Hello
Jess is trying to say Hello but it wont come out
Luke- you better start talking asshole, or I am coming after you with my gun
Jess- don't you mean your spatula?
Luke- huh?
Why is Jess talking to me, he said I ruin lives instead of making it better, I am going to kick his ass
Luke- you're a little shit, you know that…what gives you the right to talk to me…especially talking to me with your smart-ass remarks. What do you want Jess?
Jess- I…wanted to say…
Luke- you wanted to say what?
Jess- ah…I wanted to say…
Luke- you have three seconds to spit it out only because...(got cut off by Jess)
Jess- I am sorry
Luke- what did you say?
Jess- I am sorry, god get your hearing aid checked
Luke- smart idea, apologize then give me a reason to find you and kick your ass
Jess- sorry, it's just this is weird
Luke- ah…so why are you apologizing?
Jess- because what I said to you earlier was not true, and it was mean and I shouldn't of said it
Luke- so then why did you say it?
Jess- I don't know?
Luke- come on Jess, that's crap you know exactly why you said it or else you wouldn't of said it
Jess- really, you know that for sure?
Luke- yes I know that for sure, so why did you say it?
Jess- because I was mad and I was hurt and I was angry
Luke- why were you all those things?
Jess- you are starting to sound like the therapist I use to see back in New York
Luke- yeah well too bad, now answer my question.
Jess- what was your question?
Luke- fine, you want to play this game…goodbye and have a nice life.
Luke smacked down the phone and he had a sad look on his face, he then continued tidying up, the phone rings again and after 4 rings Luke picks it up but doesn't talk.
Jess- I was mad because I hate that I came back to Stars Hollow because it wasn't a fun a thing to have people look at you like you're a this evil animal who should be killed and I was hurt because I was spending the whole day running away from the person I love and I wanted to talk to her but I knew that she would either not listen to what I had to say or she would not give me an answer that I want to hear. I was Angry because my mother has a new boyfriend and she doesn't even care about our feelings and she won't listen to reason.
Luke- So you decided to take all your feelings and make yourself feel better but saying hurtful things to me, the person that has always been there for you, and has supported you and took you in when Liz shipped you off to this little perfect town.
Jess- Yes and I am sorry I did that, because I need your support and I need Rory in my life and right now I have neither, so I feel like a loser because at least I knew that with you two in my life everything will be okay.
Luke- well you had us both in your life and you're the one who left and then you lost us both
Jess- yeah, I did that because I am screwed up, I don't know why I can tell you stuff that has to do with emotions but I can't tell Rory that I need to leave to get to know the man that took off on me at the age of 3 without even saying goodbye, I am becoming Jimmy and that scares me because I don't even want to be like Liz and Jimmy they are both messed up people and I hate that my life is becoming them in everyway.
Luke- you're the only one that can choose the path you want to take, and since you don't want to choose the path of Jimmy and Liz, then do the exact opposite of what they did/doing
Jess- Well how am I going to do that if I am living like a beat, I don't have money, education, I don't live in one place for long periods of time, and I don't think your going to take me in again and I don't know if I want you to because I cannot have Rory see me every weekend and Lorelai will tear your head off then she'll murder me, because I know Lorelai hates me. So what am I suppose to do?
Luke- Well why don't we meet and see what your options are? Where are you?
Jess- Hartford Motel
Luke- you didn't drive that far I am surprised
Jess- I would get myself in to an accident I had too much on my mind I wasn't paying attention to the road
Luke- I'll be there in 35 minutes
Jess- I'll see you soon
Luke- Bye
1145 pm
Hartford Motel
Room 6
Luke knocks on the doorJess- Hi, come in
Luke- thanks
Jess- welcome to my digs
Luke- nice
Jess- well yeah but that wall paper is brown and its peeling I am kind of scared
Luke- so it wasn't originally brown
Jess- look at the wall in front of you it's Yellow
Luke- yuck, I like the carpets the remind you of vomit
Jess- well that's the funny thing I think its actually vomit stains
Luke- I think I am going to be sick
Jess- that is the reason for all the stains
Luke- yeah, I am surprised you haven't found any dead animals or bugs
Jess- I am still waiting for that
Luke- please tell me the bathroom isn't like this
Jess- I was thanking all the gods in the world because that is the only place that looks decent and useable
Luke- thank god
Jess- that's exactly what I said
Luke- huh
Jess- are you hungry?
Luke- depends is it edible
Jess- Its Chinese Takeout
Luke- awesome, are you going to eat with me?
Jess- yeah I haven't eaten since 10
Luke and Jess sit at the table and begin eating
Luke- so what happened that caused you to not be able to drive anymore?
Jess- one word…Rory
Luke- ah…
Jess- I told her I Love Her
Luke- what?
Jess- don't sound so surprised?
Luke- why not? You have never told anyone you love them before
Jess- yes I have I have just never meant it
Luke- oh, ok well you told her you loved her…then?
Jess- then I saw her face and she looked shocked and baffled and I did what I am so good at doing
Luke- you ran
Jess shakes his head yesLuke- why do you do that?
Jess- I don't know why
Luke- well maybe you should figure out why you always run when there is something good staring you in the face
Jess- yeah maybe I should, because Rory is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I am scared that she may not take me back and I need her in my life "she completes me"
Luke- you sound like Dr.Evil
Jess- I know but he was right when he said that
Luke- ok so what are you going to do Jess, and I'll try to help anyway I can
Jess- I want to go back and get my diploma
Luke- but you don't want to live in Stars Hollow?
Jess- I want to live there but I can't I am not ready to talk to Rory yet
Luke- what does that mean?
Jess- when finally talk to her again, I want to be a different person like for instance I want to tell her I love her and I want to hear what she has to say and answer anything that she wants to ask me. I want to be able to show her my diploma and see how happy and proud she is of me, it wouldn't hurt to have that kind of expression come from you, because you were always the closest thing to a father figure I have and to make you proud would be a nice change of pace…you know what I mean?
Luke- yes and I agree with you, but how are you going to get your 8 credits?
Jess- I have no idea, I can't go to adult school I am not 21, I could do correspondence but I have no permanent address and I don't think that I could go to school in Hartford due to the same reason why I don't think correspondence is going to work.
Luke- Wow, Jess you really got yourself in to a nut shell didn't you
Jess- what's up with all the Austin Powers Quotes?
Luke- I watched all three movies with Nicole Yesterday
Jess- ah! Since when does Lawyer woman like Austin Powers, which seems more like something Lorelai would watch
Luke- yeah I know
Jess- So where can I live?
Luke- maybe we could hide you from the towns people?
Jess- are you going to lock me up in your basement and not feed me either
Luke- stop being a smart-ass
Jess- sorry, but really…how do you propose to hide me?
Luke- well school would you go back to Stars hollow?
Jess- people there know me, so that's out of the question?
Luke- you're right it will get out that your going to school there
Jess- what if I live with you, but I go to school in Hartford I would have to leave early and I don't think Lorelai or any other person will see me?
Luke- what about when you get home at 3:30, Lorelai will for sure see you and so will other people
Jess- there you go I am screwed
Luke- inless…
Jess- inless…what?
Luke- do you have any money left from your mutual funds, and the wal mart money?
Jess- I think I have about 600 in mutual funds and about 174.75 left from Wal mart
Luke- okay…how long would it take you to get your diploma if you start in September?
Jess- 10 months including September
Luke – I recently became the owner of an triplex in Hartford and we were looking for a renter for a 1 bedroom apartment for $300 a month, it is 6 blocks away from Hartford High and maybe if you could put money in to the rent then you could stay there and get your diploma then at the end of June, you could come and live with me if you would like.
Jess- how did you become an owner of a triplex?
Luke- long story short Nicole and I divorced are marriage and a client of hers was trying to sell a triplex and she happened to get it for a low price, because he was moving out of the country and it looks brand new there was some remodeling done, but anyways she gave it to me in our divorce settlement along with $1000 dollars. You don't have to pay the $300 but you will have to pay $205 every month your there.
Jess- what did you give Nicole in the divorce settlement
Luke- I had to give her $2300 only because that is all that I was giving her
Jess- wow, so I guess I'll take the apartment
Luke- excellent, tomorrow I'll show you it and then will go register you for school
Jess- that's cool, thanks I really appreciate this
Luke- it's not a big deal, your family I would take a bullet for you if I had to, It's getting late I am going to go and I'll be back tomorrow, then I'll show you your new home.
Jess- ok, bye
Luke- bye
Luke heads to his car, and arrives at the diner he then goes upstairs and gets ready for bed and goes to sleep. Jess then does the same and also goes to sleep.
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Thank you everyone for your reviews, I hope you enjoy the second chapter and my word from before still stick if your not enjoying this story I would like to know so I could decide if I should continue. I am not sure about this second chapter only because they all sound out of character to me?
JMDandAB4ever