She shut the bathroom door quietly and stared at herself in the
mirror. For three weeks she had been here, for three weeks she had tried to
fit in. But she just couldn't. Sure she was growing fonder of Inuyasha,
like a brother thing. Maybe she was just trying to fill the void in her
heart, maybe she just needed a companion, but all she knew is she felt like
she was betraying her family but adjusting to her new life.
Her face was pale, bags under her eyes and she knew she looked anything but the epitome of feminine beauty. It wasn't her fault that the dreams hadn't stopped, in fact they had started getting worse, resulting in her getting less than five hours of sleep in the past week. Of course people had noticed though, she just brushed them off and changed the subject, it worked pretty well, except Inuyasha didn't by it and always pestered her about it, and saying she's getting to skinny and if she didn't eat anything soon she would look even scrawnier than she already did. That earned him a smack upside the head.
She sighed while she sunk to the ground and laid her head against the wall closing her eyes to fight back the tears. Today was her fourteenth birthday, but she doubted anyone in her knew life knew about it. She had hinted it, but only slightly, she didn't want a birthday celebration or anything. She just wanted to let them know she would be older soon. Psh yea right she wanted the presents the cake the whole deal. But if she did that and let herself have fun then it would be like forgetting her family, forgetting they were ever alive, and she couldn't betray them like that. Ever since the funeral it had been slowly dawning on her, she had been numb, and a few days later it had finally hit her. She wasn't going to go back to the shrine, she wasn't going to see her fat cat again, and she sure as heck wasn't going to get her mother and younger brother back.
She sighed and stared at the razor that she had gotten off the counter, it could be ended with just a couple of slices, she could be with her family, she could forget the nightmares and just sleep forever, but she knew that was the easy way out. She tried to tell herself it was stupid to commit suicide, she tried to tell herself that sure things were bad now but the could get better, right? But in the end she knew it all came down to her being to scared of the pain to do it. Of her natural instincts to stay alive. She sighed and put the razor back on the counter, standing up and taking one last look in the mirror.
"Happy birthday Kagome." She said silently to herself then broke down in sobs.
*
Inuyasha opened his door and shut it softly, padding across the hallway to Kagome's door and knocking lightly. 'If that stupid girls still asleep I'm going to hurt her, for once I'm trying to be nice and she doesn't even show her gratitude.' His mother had hinted that today was his house mates birthday and he should be nice and get her something. Psh why should he they had done nothing but insult and bash each other since she first got here.
But in the back of his mind he knew that he had grown fond of the girl, and he couldn't just abandon her. She would probably be feeling sad today, her first birthday without her family. Even if he didn't get along with his family well he knew he would be devastated to lose them.
He smiled to himself, well she better like the bracelet he got her. He had figured green was her favorite color so he had gotten her a silver bracelet with a green rose made out of emeralds in the center of it. He really did hope she liked it, it was so hard to bring a smile to her face these days, and he also wanted to make up with her for the little accident a few days ago. It wasn't his fault that that Kouga jerk decided to trip him resulting in him falling on her, lip locked, one of those cheesy romance things that happens in every girls 'dreams' but she was nothing short of disgusted and proved it to him but nearly choking him with meat balls.
He nearly smiled at the memory then frowned when he realized she hadn't opened the door. He tried the knob and to his surprise it opened, he knew she locked her door a lot, ever since the first morning she was here. He just shrugged it off and stepped into her room, assaulted by her smell. He took a deep breath, inhaling that citrus/flower smell that seemed to always hang around her.
He realized the room was missing something, a very important something. Where was Kagome? He sniffed at the air and froze when he smelled a salty tanginess mixing with her scent. She was crying, again. She tried to hide it but he could hear the sobs coming from the bathroom, just like every night he heard them from across the hallway, but to afraid to do something that would scare her away. He took a tentative step towards the bathroom door and knocked lightly.
"Kagome are you ok in there?" He said softly, hearing something break and her muttered curse.
"Yea I'm fine, just peachy I'll see you down stairs in a second ok?" Her voice cracked a bit, and was a little strained.
She listened carefully for any signs of him leaving, but the silence was her answer. She started cleaning up the pieces of glass of the cup she knocked off the counter when he knocked, he had scared the living shit out of her.
She froze where she was and lifted her head nearly ramming into his leg.
"Kagome I know you're lying." She watched as he kneeled down to help her pick up the glass, setting something aside carefully. She blinked then threw what glass she had in her hand into the trash bin, watching as he did the same. She stood and started walking towards the door when he grabbed her arm and shut the door hard pressing against it so she couldn't leave. She would use what small amount of miko powers that she did have, but she was just to tired.
"Kagome," He said quietly, then without warning pulled her into a tight embrace wrapping both his arms tightly around her and burying his face in her hair.
Kagome froze, not sure what to do, part of her wanted to shove him away, but a bigger part of her wanted to accept the comfort and just sink into it. She listened to the bigger part and clutched at his t-shirt, her knuckles turning white while she sobbed into his shoulder.
Inuyasha realized this was the first time she had allowed herself to cry in front of people since the funeral, and he felt happiness swell in him. She trusted him, she didn't hate him like most girls, she didn't want anything more from him then friendship like others. She just wanted his comfort and that made him feel special to be that important in somebody's eyes.
He felt the sobs grow and frowned, he wished he could do something besides hug her, this girl that he had grown to at least like as a sister, but he didn't know what else to do but be here for her so he sunk to the ground and sat Indian style, pulling her into his lap and resting her head under his chin. She didn't seem to realize the new position and just continued crying.
He growled to himself at his inability to make her smile then he remembered his present. "Hey Kagome, if you don't stop crying your eyes will be to flooded to properly see your gift."
She raised her head hesitantly, and watched his hand while he reached for the box that he had set aside earlier to help her pick up glass. She took the blue velvet box and frowned, seeing the name on it. She knew it was an expensive place and was about to refuse when his look stopped her flat. She knew it was no use so she slowly opened the lid only to gasp in surprise.
It was beautiful, and her favorite shade of green. How he knew she didn't know nor care, and while her earlier sadness was not forgotten, but surprised joy ran through her veins now. The tears ran down her eyes again and she smiled through them looking up into Inuyasha's golden eyes and throwing her arms around him.
"Thank you Inuyasha, you helped me more than you could even imagine."
Inuyasha smiled and made small circles on her back, his heart clenched tightly then relaxed and he shrugged it off with the excuse of being happy for making her happy, they sat like that for a few more minutes before both their stomachs growled and they went down stairs to eat, Kagome wearing the bracelet he got her, and Inuyasha wearing a genuine smile.
A/N: Yea I know short chapter but I figured since her birthday party is going to be a long one I'll make this short, just a little Inuyasha/Kagome waff hinting at future things.
Her face was pale, bags under her eyes and she knew she looked anything but the epitome of feminine beauty. It wasn't her fault that the dreams hadn't stopped, in fact they had started getting worse, resulting in her getting less than five hours of sleep in the past week. Of course people had noticed though, she just brushed them off and changed the subject, it worked pretty well, except Inuyasha didn't by it and always pestered her about it, and saying she's getting to skinny and if she didn't eat anything soon she would look even scrawnier than she already did. That earned him a smack upside the head.
She sighed while she sunk to the ground and laid her head against the wall closing her eyes to fight back the tears. Today was her fourteenth birthday, but she doubted anyone in her knew life knew about it. She had hinted it, but only slightly, she didn't want a birthday celebration or anything. She just wanted to let them know she would be older soon. Psh yea right she wanted the presents the cake the whole deal. But if she did that and let herself have fun then it would be like forgetting her family, forgetting they were ever alive, and she couldn't betray them like that. Ever since the funeral it had been slowly dawning on her, she had been numb, and a few days later it had finally hit her. She wasn't going to go back to the shrine, she wasn't going to see her fat cat again, and she sure as heck wasn't going to get her mother and younger brother back.
She sighed and stared at the razor that she had gotten off the counter, it could be ended with just a couple of slices, she could be with her family, she could forget the nightmares and just sleep forever, but she knew that was the easy way out. She tried to tell herself it was stupid to commit suicide, she tried to tell herself that sure things were bad now but the could get better, right? But in the end she knew it all came down to her being to scared of the pain to do it. Of her natural instincts to stay alive. She sighed and put the razor back on the counter, standing up and taking one last look in the mirror.
"Happy birthday Kagome." She said silently to herself then broke down in sobs.
*
Inuyasha opened his door and shut it softly, padding across the hallway to Kagome's door and knocking lightly. 'If that stupid girls still asleep I'm going to hurt her, for once I'm trying to be nice and she doesn't even show her gratitude.' His mother had hinted that today was his house mates birthday and he should be nice and get her something. Psh why should he they had done nothing but insult and bash each other since she first got here.
But in the back of his mind he knew that he had grown fond of the girl, and he couldn't just abandon her. She would probably be feeling sad today, her first birthday without her family. Even if he didn't get along with his family well he knew he would be devastated to lose them.
He smiled to himself, well she better like the bracelet he got her. He had figured green was her favorite color so he had gotten her a silver bracelet with a green rose made out of emeralds in the center of it. He really did hope she liked it, it was so hard to bring a smile to her face these days, and he also wanted to make up with her for the little accident a few days ago. It wasn't his fault that that Kouga jerk decided to trip him resulting in him falling on her, lip locked, one of those cheesy romance things that happens in every girls 'dreams' but she was nothing short of disgusted and proved it to him but nearly choking him with meat balls.
He nearly smiled at the memory then frowned when he realized she hadn't opened the door. He tried the knob and to his surprise it opened, he knew she locked her door a lot, ever since the first morning she was here. He just shrugged it off and stepped into her room, assaulted by her smell. He took a deep breath, inhaling that citrus/flower smell that seemed to always hang around her.
He realized the room was missing something, a very important something. Where was Kagome? He sniffed at the air and froze when he smelled a salty tanginess mixing with her scent. She was crying, again. She tried to hide it but he could hear the sobs coming from the bathroom, just like every night he heard them from across the hallway, but to afraid to do something that would scare her away. He took a tentative step towards the bathroom door and knocked lightly.
"Kagome are you ok in there?" He said softly, hearing something break and her muttered curse.
"Yea I'm fine, just peachy I'll see you down stairs in a second ok?" Her voice cracked a bit, and was a little strained.
She listened carefully for any signs of him leaving, but the silence was her answer. She started cleaning up the pieces of glass of the cup she knocked off the counter when he knocked, he had scared the living shit out of her.
She froze where she was and lifted her head nearly ramming into his leg.
"Kagome I know you're lying." She watched as he kneeled down to help her pick up the glass, setting something aside carefully. She blinked then threw what glass she had in her hand into the trash bin, watching as he did the same. She stood and started walking towards the door when he grabbed her arm and shut the door hard pressing against it so she couldn't leave. She would use what small amount of miko powers that she did have, but she was just to tired.
"Kagome," He said quietly, then without warning pulled her into a tight embrace wrapping both his arms tightly around her and burying his face in her hair.
Kagome froze, not sure what to do, part of her wanted to shove him away, but a bigger part of her wanted to accept the comfort and just sink into it. She listened to the bigger part and clutched at his t-shirt, her knuckles turning white while she sobbed into his shoulder.
Inuyasha realized this was the first time she had allowed herself to cry in front of people since the funeral, and he felt happiness swell in him. She trusted him, she didn't hate him like most girls, she didn't want anything more from him then friendship like others. She just wanted his comfort and that made him feel special to be that important in somebody's eyes.
He felt the sobs grow and frowned, he wished he could do something besides hug her, this girl that he had grown to at least like as a sister, but he didn't know what else to do but be here for her so he sunk to the ground and sat Indian style, pulling her into his lap and resting her head under his chin. She didn't seem to realize the new position and just continued crying.
He growled to himself at his inability to make her smile then he remembered his present. "Hey Kagome, if you don't stop crying your eyes will be to flooded to properly see your gift."
She raised her head hesitantly, and watched his hand while he reached for the box that he had set aside earlier to help her pick up glass. She took the blue velvet box and frowned, seeing the name on it. She knew it was an expensive place and was about to refuse when his look stopped her flat. She knew it was no use so she slowly opened the lid only to gasp in surprise.
It was beautiful, and her favorite shade of green. How he knew she didn't know nor care, and while her earlier sadness was not forgotten, but surprised joy ran through her veins now. The tears ran down her eyes again and she smiled through them looking up into Inuyasha's golden eyes and throwing her arms around him.
"Thank you Inuyasha, you helped me more than you could even imagine."
Inuyasha smiled and made small circles on her back, his heart clenched tightly then relaxed and he shrugged it off with the excuse of being happy for making her happy, they sat like that for a few more minutes before both their stomachs growled and they went down stairs to eat, Kagome wearing the bracelet he got her, and Inuyasha wearing a genuine smile.
A/N: Yea I know short chapter but I figured since her birthday party is going to be a long one I'll make this short, just a little Inuyasha/Kagome waff hinting at future things.