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No matter how much I love writing it really frustrates me. Knowing that I don't have the ideas and the writing technique that I want seriously gets on my nerves. You know I see great writers, and I think I can do that. But when I actually start writing it turns out to be a complete mess.
And to make things worse I totally and completely overdid this chapter!!
I think I'm going to cry now!
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"Stupid Canadian," Remy muttered softly under his breath.
'It is his fault now dat Remy has to share de' room wit rockhead,' he thought darkly. An image of Wolverine's head and a chainsaw coming clearly into view.
The morning hadn't exactly been gracious with Remy, so with the goal of trying to be happy in mind he went off in search of Kitty.
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Kitty felt kind of disappointed, she had just ran into Rogue, and was told that Remy was moved out of their room. It wasn't that Kitty was mad about getting her old roommate back, she would just miss the Cajun's company.
But there was a nagging question in her mind that just wouldn't leave.
'What's going to happen with him and Lance?'
Her mind then drifted to last nights meeting. How were they going to play this?
"Stop it Kitty!" she quickly directed herself out loud.
'You have Remy now, and nothing is going to change that. Not Lance, not Tabitha, not anything,' she explained stubbornly to herself in a 5-year old manner, even crossing her arms over her chest to continue it.
But the fact still remained that if Remy actually knew what had happened, and also about the doubt that came along with it would he forget about it or hold it true to him.
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"Chere," Remy greeted her happily as he finally found his treasure watching TV in the surprisingly empty rec. room.
"Hey, Rem. I was looking for you. Have you heard?" she asked him, her happy tone equally matching his. She was forgetting her situation for the time being.
He nodded and sat down next to her. Since the couch wasn't that long, he lifted her head onto his lap, and started to play with the loose tendrils of hair from her ponytail.
"Yeah, " his voice not living up to his greeting.
"And.....?!?" Kitty obviously wanting more input on the matter.
"And Remy will be missing waking up to your beautiful face."
She giggled as he ran his hands gently down her sides tickling her ribs.
"Such a charmer, Lebeau."
"Kitty....."
"Yeah," she said while abandoning herself to his actions.
"Is de reason you were sad last night, because of Monsieur Alvers? And if it is why didn't you tell Remy?"
Kitty could tell he wasn't trying to pry deeply or was that angry with the whole situation. He was just simply trying to understand. Though she immediately felt troubled by his words.
She closed her eyes trying to believe that it would close out all her problems, but knowing that this was only going to get worse.
"I'm going to be honest, okay? So try to understand."
Kitty sat up, and pulled her knees up to her chest. She took a breath while promising to herself and to Remy that she was going to tell it all. Every feeling of everything.
"Last night they came, the brotherhood. They were terrified, and well so was I. I care about all of them, even Toad and Blob. I have no idea why I just do. Pietro and Lance came first.
"Lance was injured. He took a bullet that grazed his shoulder, and he lost consciousness. They took him to the Med-lab, where Mr. McCoy examined him.
"It turns out he's going to be fine." Kitty's voice became less stable with every word spoken, but Remy knew that he couldn't comfort her right now. She had to get through this; whatever it was.
"I learned that bit of information before today actually. H-H-How is that possible you may wonder? Well....."
'Please help me' Kitty inwardly prayed to any great power out there listening.
"I went to visit him last night, right before I woke you up. Mr. McCoy left a little bit after I came in. And after Mr. McCoy left Lance sorta woke up, and we started talking."
Remy's eyes became a narrowed glare, though it wasn't directed to Kitty just at the concept of her previous words.
"And I don't know what he's thinking right now. Because he told me something. He broke up with Tabitha, Remy. H-H-He broke up with her. But I know I don't care anymore. I know it.
"Last night I was just confused. I needed you, and you proved to me that I-I only need you. Not Lance, you. I'm sorry for doubting us."
Time seemed to stop. To them it literally seemed to stop. All their thoughts of them together seemed to flood through their minds.
All the happiness, the love, the connection, and even the worry just came straight forward into the two of them.
Remy looked at the girl sitting just across from him. How she had her face, her beautiful face, buried into her fragile hands. How she was trembling violently from the sobs that were openly heard. How she was whispering. Though barely understandable, he listened at how she was whispering.
"It's only you. Only you Remy."
The room was then again silent.
'How could it be only Remy?,' he asked himself, 'How could it be only him when she needed actually proof to how it was him that she needed? She wasn't even honest with him.' Remy didn't know if Kitty actually did something wrong; he just felt as if she betrayed him.
Remy thought about the situation. Knowing that if this was any other girl he would be pissed right now. He would be breaking things, including the girl's heart. He wouldn't stand for knowing that she was even the slightest bit undecided of who to choose. Just because he was him.
If it was another girl right now he would be on his bike leaving her in the dust. Leaving her to wonder.
To wonder how it would have been different. To wonder if she would've enjoyed being in his arms rather than that someone else. To wonder how it might have been if she was sure that he was the one.
And then there was Remy's wonder.
Would he think of Kitty as that other girl, or he would think of her of that one that was too valuable to lose.
Which one?
"I don't know Kitty....." he gave her his answer out loud.
She raised her head in shock. She didn't picture it to be like this. She pictured him immediately taking her into his arms, and whispering into her ear that he forgave her, that she was the only one too. But her perfect picture seemed to have vanished with those four words.
He was doubting.
Her heart just felt as if it was all over. The world, love, everything to her that made life worth living all over. Breathing, hearts pumping, every single thing that made her live seemed to stop functioning.
He didn't know. He was doubting just like she had when she heard Lance's former words.
Remy watched her. How her eyes were staring at him. How she looked like he was the only thing there. The only that she was thinking about. The only thing that was worth thinking about.
'I can't do this.' he told himself. Was he actually about to walk out of there? Was he actually about to walk out on the one that he found that mattered.
For once Remy didn't feel like himself. He didn't feel like he was in control. In control of his emotions, the control of not getting hurt. He wasn't the one that was called Magneto's favorite even putting aside his own son. He wasn't the one that held the heart of every girl plus his own in the palm of his hand. And that scared the hell out of him.
He realized that, yes, he did have Kitty's heart, but he didn't have his.
He had given it away to her, the girl that was trying so hard to gain him back.
Could he actually overcome this new challenge.
'No.... Remy can't do this.'
About to about to actually walk out of there he suddenly heard her again. He heard her speak loudly, yet a whisper to other's ear.
"You're probably think that this pathetic, and I agree that maybe it is. I felt something with Lance, I did. I won't lie to you. Last night when he told me he broke up with Tabitha my heart kind of leapt and-"
But she was quickly cut off by Remy's hand coming up to her mouth.
"No more," he said solemnly.
Getting up to his feet he quickly left the room.
"What have I done?" Kitty choked out.
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I'm sorry guys. I really am. You don't know how much it took me not to change that ending, but come on the greater challenges a love can face and overcome just strengthens it. And by the end of this story Kitty's and Remy's love will probably be the strongest of them all.
Sorry that this chapter was totally corny; I told you I can't write very well, but I try.
Please Review!
Would love to hear from you again!!
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No matter how much I love writing it really frustrates me. Knowing that I don't have the ideas and the writing technique that I want seriously gets on my nerves. You know I see great writers, and I think I can do that. But when I actually start writing it turns out to be a complete mess.
And to make things worse I totally and completely overdid this chapter!!
I think I'm going to cry now!
*^*
"Stupid Canadian," Remy muttered softly under his breath.
'It is his fault now dat Remy has to share de' room wit rockhead,' he thought darkly. An image of Wolverine's head and a chainsaw coming clearly into view.
The morning hadn't exactly been gracious with Remy, so with the goal of trying to be happy in mind he went off in search of Kitty.
*^*
Kitty felt kind of disappointed, she had just ran into Rogue, and was told that Remy was moved out of their room. It wasn't that Kitty was mad about getting her old roommate back, she would just miss the Cajun's company.
But there was a nagging question in her mind that just wouldn't leave.
'What's going to happen with him and Lance?'
Her mind then drifted to last nights meeting. How were they going to play this?
"Stop it Kitty!" she quickly directed herself out loud.
'You have Remy now, and nothing is going to change that. Not Lance, not Tabitha, not anything,' she explained stubbornly to herself in a 5-year old manner, even crossing her arms over her chest to continue it.
But the fact still remained that if Remy actually knew what had happened, and also about the doubt that came along with it would he forget about it or hold it true to him.
*^*
"Chere," Remy greeted her happily as he finally found his treasure watching TV in the surprisingly empty rec. room.
"Hey, Rem. I was looking for you. Have you heard?" she asked him, her happy tone equally matching his. She was forgetting her situation for the time being.
He nodded and sat down next to her. Since the couch wasn't that long, he lifted her head onto his lap, and started to play with the loose tendrils of hair from her ponytail.
"Yeah, " his voice not living up to his greeting.
"And.....?!?" Kitty obviously wanting more input on the matter.
"And Remy will be missing waking up to your beautiful face."
She giggled as he ran his hands gently down her sides tickling her ribs.
"Such a charmer, Lebeau."
"Kitty....."
"Yeah," she said while abandoning herself to his actions.
"Is de reason you were sad last night, because of Monsieur Alvers? And if it is why didn't you tell Remy?"
Kitty could tell he wasn't trying to pry deeply or was that angry with the whole situation. He was just simply trying to understand. Though she immediately felt troubled by his words.
She closed her eyes trying to believe that it would close out all her problems, but knowing that this was only going to get worse.
"I'm going to be honest, okay? So try to understand."
Kitty sat up, and pulled her knees up to her chest. She took a breath while promising to herself and to Remy that she was going to tell it all. Every feeling of everything.
"Last night they came, the brotherhood. They were terrified, and well so was I. I care about all of them, even Toad and Blob. I have no idea why I just do. Pietro and Lance came first.
"Lance was injured. He took a bullet that grazed his shoulder, and he lost consciousness. They took him to the Med-lab, where Mr. McCoy examined him.
"It turns out he's going to be fine." Kitty's voice became less stable with every word spoken, but Remy knew that he couldn't comfort her right now. She had to get through this; whatever it was.
"I learned that bit of information before today actually. H-H-How is that possible you may wonder? Well....."
'Please help me' Kitty inwardly prayed to any great power out there listening.
"I went to visit him last night, right before I woke you up. Mr. McCoy left a little bit after I came in. And after Mr. McCoy left Lance sorta woke up, and we started talking."
Remy's eyes became a narrowed glare, though it wasn't directed to Kitty just at the concept of her previous words.
"And I don't know what he's thinking right now. Because he told me something. He broke up with Tabitha, Remy. H-H-He broke up with her. But I know I don't care anymore. I know it.
"Last night I was just confused. I needed you, and you proved to me that I-I only need you. Not Lance, you. I'm sorry for doubting us."
Time seemed to stop. To them it literally seemed to stop. All their thoughts of them together seemed to flood through their minds.
All the happiness, the love, the connection, and even the worry just came straight forward into the two of them.
Remy looked at the girl sitting just across from him. How she had her face, her beautiful face, buried into her fragile hands. How she was trembling violently from the sobs that were openly heard. How she was whispering. Though barely understandable, he listened at how she was whispering.
"It's only you. Only you Remy."
The room was then again silent.
'How could it be only Remy?,' he asked himself, 'How could it be only him when she needed actually proof to how it was him that she needed? She wasn't even honest with him.' Remy didn't know if Kitty actually did something wrong; he just felt as if she betrayed him.
Remy thought about the situation. Knowing that if this was any other girl he would be pissed right now. He would be breaking things, including the girl's heart. He wouldn't stand for knowing that she was even the slightest bit undecided of who to choose. Just because he was him.
If it was another girl right now he would be on his bike leaving her in the dust. Leaving her to wonder.
To wonder how it would have been different. To wonder if she would've enjoyed being in his arms rather than that someone else. To wonder how it might have been if she was sure that he was the one.
And then there was Remy's wonder.
Would he think of Kitty as that other girl, or he would think of her of that one that was too valuable to lose.
Which one?
"I don't know Kitty....." he gave her his answer out loud.
She raised her head in shock. She didn't picture it to be like this. She pictured him immediately taking her into his arms, and whispering into her ear that he forgave her, that she was the only one too. But her perfect picture seemed to have vanished with those four words.
He was doubting.
Her heart just felt as if it was all over. The world, love, everything to her that made life worth living all over. Breathing, hearts pumping, every single thing that made her live seemed to stop functioning.
He didn't know. He was doubting just like she had when she heard Lance's former words.
Remy watched her. How her eyes were staring at him. How she looked like he was the only thing there. The only that she was thinking about. The only thing that was worth thinking about.
'I can't do this.' he told himself. Was he actually about to walk out of there? Was he actually about to walk out on the one that he found that mattered.
For once Remy didn't feel like himself. He didn't feel like he was in control. In control of his emotions, the control of not getting hurt. He wasn't the one that was called Magneto's favorite even putting aside his own son. He wasn't the one that held the heart of every girl plus his own in the palm of his hand. And that scared the hell out of him.
He realized that, yes, he did have Kitty's heart, but he didn't have his.
He had given it away to her, the girl that was trying so hard to gain him back.
Could he actually overcome this new challenge.
'No.... Remy can't do this.'
About to about to actually walk out of there he suddenly heard her again. He heard her speak loudly, yet a whisper to other's ear.
"You're probably think that this pathetic, and I agree that maybe it is. I felt something with Lance, I did. I won't lie to you. Last night when he told me he broke up with Tabitha my heart kind of leapt and-"
But she was quickly cut off by Remy's hand coming up to her mouth.
"No more," he said solemnly.
Getting up to his feet he quickly left the room.
"What have I done?" Kitty choked out.
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I'm sorry guys. I really am. You don't know how much it took me not to change that ending, but come on the greater challenges a love can face and overcome just strengthens it. And by the end of this story Kitty's and Remy's love will probably be the strongest of them all.
Sorry that this chapter was totally corny; I told you I can't write very well, but I try.
Please Review!