The Words Spoken
Questions
Sitting under the sakura tree, I watched the two human females in my life splash playfully in the stream, only a few feet from where I sat, my tail spread comfortably around me. Studying the older of the two, I tried to see in her face the answers to my questions. She thought I did not notice the changes in her demeanor but I did. I had been watching her too closely not to.
After that fateful night over a month ago, I had been observing her more closely with the faint hope that she would approach me. My pride and hatred for her kind hinders me from going to her as I desire. I want her to prove herself to me, prove that she is worthy of my attentions, prove that not all humans are bad. But I am afraid that our time together is running out. She has begun to distance herself from us as much as subtlety would allow but it made no difference for I had heard the whispers and wanted answers.
She glances up at me and I gaze straight into those deep blue pools that seemed to suck my soul in. She quickly tears her eyes away but not before I notice the tears. Is she hurt because she has to leave? Or because of my lack of visible emotions? Why should I show her my true feelings when I am unsure of hers? Trust is such a fragile thing, so easily broken and leaves much destruction when lost. How can I risk my heart when i'm not sure she is ready to risk hers?
I silently curse my foolish otou-san for his own actions. Was this his legacy to me? To love a human, the one creature I despise with all my being. To have such a weakness, one that my hanyou onii-san possesses, that is too much for a youkai lord such as myself to bear. I have lands to protect; my title and possessions the inheritance my otou-san left me but not the sword that I still desire. That sword I will take form my brother's dead hands and banish my shame.
Questions run over and over through my mind. I want her but I do not, I can not. The inevitable will soon happen, I feel it in my bones. I just hope that when we say goodbye, it will not be forever.
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How do you guys like this chapter? I had written it before but could not post. My mistake because I lost it and this is a whole different chapter from what I originally wrote, which I honestly can't remember very well. As for it's shortness, expect a nice long chapter next posting cause its the final chapter. If after its ending you guys want me to do another sequel then I will but its totally up to y'all. K minna?
I don't think a disclaimer's that necessary but I'll say it anyway. Don't own the characters just the plot. This stands for the entire fic.
Ja minna!!!!!