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Family Interlude
Zan POV
Fear...Confusion...Surprise....Anger...Guilt.
Fear for Angel, fear for myself that she will die and I won't be able to save her. That he has a new life and family that doesn't include me. That he is like Mother and only will like me as the heir to the throne. Fear that if I find Angel and she is alive we will never be safe. I can't feel her anymore. Since the day I first healed her we have been connected. I could always feel her. She was always with me. The connection with the crystal allowed me to feel her again briefly. Just a small one. Enough to know she's scared, and alone. I need to find her.
If only I hadn't left her alone upstairs. I should have known they would find us eventually. The only people who would grab her when I was there would be Mother or Khivar. I could have protected her better. I've failed her so many times. I've tried to keep her safe and I keep failing, the multiple broken bones she's suffered is enough to confirm that. I'm all she's got. I don't want to fail her again. I can't fail her again. I have to find her and I can't get distracted. Then we will go someplace big, someplace where it will be easier to hide. Maybe New York, or California.
My father is standing in front of me. That's another thing I have to deal with. I should be angry at him. He did leave mother alone with me. If mother is to be believed he ran away with someone. A witch who cast a spell over him and dragged him from us, but he had the choice to stay away for fifteen years or come back. I'm more angry at myself for leaving Angel alone, than I am at him for the moment. Maybe when I find Angel I will be angry at him then.
I feel like I'm missing a part of me. I've never connected with the Granolith that much before. Its power is so large. Overwhelming actually and it knew them. That's how I knew for sure that he was my father. I could doubt the flashes. Mother has used memories against me before. But I trust the Granolith.
They are staring at me now. My father and his wife. Will they help me find Angel? Would they accept us if I decided to stay? They aren't completely human, they could protect themselves against Mother and Khivar. But could they protect me? Could they protect Angel? More importantly can I trust them? I feel like I can, but feelings can be manipulated and trust abused. Mother taught me that.
Thank you for reading
April
Family Interlude
Zan POV
Fear...Confusion...Surprise....Anger...Guilt.
Fear for Angel, fear for myself that she will die and I won't be able to save her. That he has a new life and family that doesn't include me. That he is like Mother and only will like me as the heir to the throne. Fear that if I find Angel and she is alive we will never be safe. I can't feel her anymore. Since the day I first healed her we have been connected. I could always feel her. She was always with me. The connection with the crystal allowed me to feel her again briefly. Just a small one. Enough to know she's scared, and alone. I need to find her.
If only I hadn't left her alone upstairs. I should have known they would find us eventually. The only people who would grab her when I was there would be Mother or Khivar. I could have protected her better. I've failed her so many times. I've tried to keep her safe and I keep failing, the multiple broken bones she's suffered is enough to confirm that. I'm all she's got. I don't want to fail her again. I can't fail her again. I have to find her and I can't get distracted. Then we will go someplace big, someplace where it will be easier to hide. Maybe New York, or California.
My father is standing in front of me. That's another thing I have to deal with. I should be angry at him. He did leave mother alone with me. If mother is to be believed he ran away with someone. A witch who cast a spell over him and dragged him from us, but he had the choice to stay away for fifteen years or come back. I'm more angry at myself for leaving Angel alone, than I am at him for the moment. Maybe when I find Angel I will be angry at him then.
I feel like I'm missing a part of me. I've never connected with the Granolith that much before. Its power is so large. Overwhelming actually and it knew them. That's how I knew for sure that he was my father. I could doubt the flashes. Mother has used memories against me before. But I trust the Granolith.
They are staring at me now. My father and his wife. Will they help me find Angel? Would they accept us if I decided to stay? They aren't completely human, they could protect themselves against Mother and Khivar. But could they protect me? Could they protect Angel? More importantly can I trust them? I feel like I can, but feelings can be manipulated and trust abused. Mother taught me that.
Thank you for reading
April