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Chapter 8
"Fairy Memories."
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"You called, Mr. Turner?" the young woman politely asked.
"That was five minutes ago!" he angrily barked.
"I'm sorry but I was just looking for the file case you asked for." She explained. "I swear-"
"I don't care." He angrily cut off. "Give me that." He ordered.
"What?" she replied clueless.
"Give me the damn file." He indicated in not a kind tone. The woman quickly gave it to him and stepped back, fast, like fearing he might bite her or something. "Now leave." He ordered; she just nodded and left.
He had been acting like this for a while now. His mood was turning worst every time. He had been raging for days... Raging because he was mad, angry, pissed off. He had been rude to everyone around and he only interacted with the others yelling, screaming and giving dirty looks. He yelled to his secretary, to the messenger, to the phone and to Alex... he had avoided to talk to other partners from the staff of the firm or his bosses 'Jackman, Carter and Kline.' He'd been acting like that since a couple of weeks ago and he was getting worst and worst with the days.
But truth he was mad at everything, even at life itself, mostly at life itself. It wasn't fair. It just wasn't fair that he loved a woman; he had a daughter with her and he had to see how she was looking for happiness in other arms, not his own, not anymore... he rather not to know, but there was no way back, he KNEW it. He knew Prue was his daughter and he was suffering because...
"Excuse me, Mr. Turner, Mr. Carter on the phone." His secretary interrupted his meditations through the intercom. He sighed and closed his eyes in exasperation.
"Come here now." He coldly ordered. In no time she was at the door. "Come in and close the door." He ordered and she nodded and did as she was told.
"Mr. Carter is waiting on the line." She said.
Cole said nothing, came to the phone, took it and hit it again.
"Didn't I tell you not to pass any calls?" he madly questioned her.
She turned really nervous, "I'm sorry, I just thought it was important." She quickly justified herself.
"You thought..." he repeated. "That was the problem, you thought. And you... you're not supposed to think here, you just do as I command. Did I make myself clear?" he angrily questioned.
She just nodded. "But Mr. Carter sounded pretty upset and I didn't know what to tell him." She said.
"You could have told him I wasn't here, you could have told him I went out for coffee, you could have told him I was dead!" he shouted.
She nodded again. She didn't understand what was happening with him. He had always been a serious person, with a dark and sarcastic sense of humor, but still very mannered and respectful, sometimes he was even kind... and Charming; the half of the female staff from the law firm had a Crush on him, you could say there even was a 'Cole Turner's fan club', including herself as a fan. But lately he hadn't done anything else but rage at everyone... he could be reported and suspended for bad Anger Management.
He couldn't focus his mind on anything, he always ended up torturing himself thinking about Phoebe, Prue, Jonathan and the worst of all, The Past.
Maybe that could be the solution, he needed to think about something else, someone else.
She stayed there unmoved as a statue and he came closer and the most unexpected happened. He suddenly grabbed her and kissed her, hard and deep.
She was caught off guard, but still responded to him. She was the kind of woman who was willing to even sleep with the boss to keep a work, and this time it wasn't one of those old creepy man, her boss was a hot guy, so she even was enjoying, so she let him do and go as far as he wanted. Oh my god, she would be the envy of the rest of the staff when they heard about this.
He kept kissing her and he let his hand go up under her skirt to her tight. She was moaning of pleasure wanting things to go farther and farther than this. She left his lips and started kissing his neck while loosing up his tie, suddenly he just broke apart.
"I can't... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to... I just..." he tried to apologize himself. "Just go home." He said.
"But my shift is not over yet." She said still breathless. He just walked to his window.
"Just go home!" he ordered and she left.
He didn't know what the hell was going on with him anymore... this wasn't what he wanted to do. Those weren't the lips he wanted to kiss, that wasn't the skin he wanted to feel, those weren't the eyes he wanted to look at... he just... he was even angrier than before and everything was HER fault...
He just sat on his chair till he decided to go home, around midnight...
Once Home, he did what he always did lately... he used to leave pretty early and always checked on Alex and by the time she was always sound asleep in her bed, when he came back home very late at night, he checked on Alex and she already was sound asleep... he hadn't crossed a couple of words with her in days, she knew he was mad, pretty angry and she wanted to help but didn't know how...
So as usual he went to check on his little sister. He opened the door expecting to watch her asleep, but he became a fury when he didn't find her and obviously she hadn't come because her bed was straightly made...
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"...Then the glass slipper perfectly fitted Cinderella's foot so the Prince knew she was the mysterious girl from the Ball, he knew he was the love of his life. So they got married and they lived happily ever after. The end." Phoebe Halliwell related to her four months baby.
'Cinderella' was the tale she was telling this night while trying to get little Prue to sleep. She knew the tale perfectly so she didn't even have to read; she just remembered and repeated it every time. It reduced her heart to the size of a little peanut when she remembered that time when she felt herself as Cinderella, even though she had been a little freaked out at first, then she had so much illusions in her white wedding and the fact that her dream, which was the same as any woman, would soon become true, she was going to marry the guy of her dreams, her prince and they would be happy together; and they were till everything fell down. 'Don't go there.' She mentally commanded herself, she knew that when she went to that passage of her life, tears ended up coming out of her eyes. But things were the way they were meant to be.
Phoebe kept rocking her baby, trying to get her to sleep, but the little one just kept starring at her mother with wide open eyes between giggles, like wanting to keep playing. She was even trying to send tiny energy balls but Alex's potion had worked so she wasn't able to play with her powers anymore and even if she was only 4 months, it was boring her a lot. Of course, Phoebe didn't know what her daughter was trying to do.
"Baby, good little girls sleep and you're my cutie little girl." The mother said in baby voice. Phoebe was really exhausted. It had been a hard day, a hard week you could say. Work was giving her a hard time, besides she had to bear the most annoying and pathetic being she could have ever get involve with, better known as Jonathan and the guilt was eating her from the inside. It had been more than two weeks since she had last seen Cole; it was the day when she took Prue back home.
Alex had been the one frequenting the Manor lately to hang out with Paige and check out on Prue. Phoebe had asked her for Cole a couple times, but Alex tried to avoid the subject, she just nodded like 'he's fine' and immediately changed the subject, Phoebe didn't insist so not to show any interest. But truth she thought about him every second of every minute, of every hour of every day; mostly because she felt the mother of GUITLS, it wasn't fair Cole didn't know he had a daughter.
Her thoughts were interrupted by Prue's cries. "Baby... please let's go to sleep, for mommy." She said yawning. She looked at her daughter again and calmed her down, she kissed her in the forehead and it seemed to work since Prue closed her eyes.
Suddenly strong laughs interrupted the sleep. "Oh Boy..." she thought and Prue started crying again.
"Could you guys, please keep it down?!" she shouted madly. "I'm trying to get my baby to sleep!" she added.
The laughs came back once in a while, but after breastfeeding and Snow white, Prue got tired and finally fell asleep. Phoebe put baby Prue on her crib and then she walked out to the next room to give a piece of her mind to the two whores on it. Whores because it was a Wednesday night and they had such a noisy party that didn't let her baby sleep.
"And you know since when I don't get a good one?... Since that 'quickly' between my legal writing... or was it philosophy?... and criminal law class... " Alex said and she broke out laughing.
"Ewww... you're such a school girl." Paige barely said giggling.
"Well, College is where I can do it, cuz it's against the rules... Cole said it's against the rules..." she said babbling. Then whispered: "To have S-E-X." she laughed as she spelled the last word.
"Why can't you say just 'sex' you bitch?" Paige asked.
"Because there's a baby on this house. My niece is in this house!!" she stated and she meant it.
"The last time I had-" Paige started.
"Oh my god!" Phoebe said jaw dropped from the doorframe.
"Oopps..." Paige said and then leaned to Alex. "Don't say S-E-X in front of Phoebe." She whispered.
"Why?" the demon drunk friend asked.
"Because she's a mom and coz she forgot what it was like since Cole." The witch girl replied and they both broke out laughing again.
"Oh my god, I can't believe you guys are drunk!" Phoebe started as she got in the room.
"I am not drunk!" Alex said. "I am not drunk because my niece is in this house!" she yelled.
"Phoebe!!!" Paige tried to run towards her sister but failed and fell on her bed. "I love Phoebe." She said. "She doesn't screw her boyfriend and she has a baby." She said and giggled.
"Oh God." Phoebe said madly. "How could you start drinking today?"
"We weren't drinking anything." Alex said.
"We were just drinking some of that Apple Cidra that Piper left in the fridge." Paige said defensibly.
Phoebe took one of the cups in the vanity. "That was not a Cidra, that was the Apple's new cocktail Piper was trying on for the club!" she shouted.
"Ooops!" Alex said.
"Ooops? Alex, Cole will kill you if he sees you like this! He hates when women drink." Phoebe lectured her.
"Cole is mad at you!" Alex stated.
"What?" Phoebe questioned.
"Didn't you hear??" Paige said. "COLE IS MAD AT YOU!" her little sister repeated.
Phoebe just turned back and went back in her room and laid down on her bed. She didn't want to hear about the bullshits of two drunk girls.
She sighed deeply, guilt was heavy and it was killing her. She wanted to tell Cole the truth and even if she knew she wouldn't be able to have him back with her, at least he would be a part of their family. Jonathan interrupted her thoughts by entering in the room.
"Hey baby." He said as he walked next to the bed to kiss Phoebe on the cheek. He started to undress and Phoebe got up and walked in the bathroom to do the same.
When she came back, wearing her Pj's, Jonathan was already under the covers. She laid down and he immediately came on top of her and started to kiss her, it was the last think she wanted right now. Actually not just right now, never. She didn't want him to kiss her, to look at her, to talk to her, she didn't want him to try to get her to the bed... she just wanted to not see him again, but she didn't know how to sent him away. But she felt in some level commitment to him.
'It's for Evil to kill innocent people.' She kept repeating herself mentally.
"Jonathan, I'm tired." She said.
"Come one, you can't be tired every nights." He said, kissing her neck.
Prue started to cry to Phoebe's relieve, she was going to be able to go away from him. It was still the same, she couldn't think about sleep with him... and she hadn't done it again after she gave birth.
"I have to go, my baby is crying." She said.
"Let her cry, she has to learn she can't have everything whenever she cries." He told her.
She hated it when someone tried to put Prue on a second level, for her NO ONE could ever come before her. Not innocent, not demon, not sister, not boyfriend, not friend, work nor even Cole could come before her. Phoebe was a mother now; and her baby was about EVERYTHING.
"If she's crying, I'm going to see her, no matter what you say." She said almost pushing.
Jonathan just stayed there looking as she went to Prue.
He felt anger every time Phoebe turned him down, and it was because of her... she used to be nicer, and sweeter to him until she was born and everything changed. She started to ignore him and to reject him; he was getting tired and he had to do something... he wouldn't loose Phoebe to other's guy child.
She got up and came to Prue's crib. "Mommy is here sweetie." She told her daughter.
She took Prue in her arms and kissed her on the forehead but the little girl didn't stop crying. Phoebe just walked out of her room ignoring Jonathan's dirty look and got in the sunroom and sat still rocking Prue. Phoebe's first thought was to call Cole. Maybe he could have shimmered Prue somewhere so that she'll stop crying and fall asleep but then she realized that she just couldn't call him. She didn't know why, it just didn't feel right for her. 'Of course it's not right.' She reproached. She didn't wanted to use him, she was thinking that it was too unfair to let him see Prue only because she needed him to take care of her daughter.
"Come on little one, stop crying." She said, rocking Prue.
"I wish your daddy was here." She added with sadness.
She lained her back on the rocking chair and said: "Once upon a time, a witch and her two sisters, were trying their best to same innocent people. One day, while trying the save someone, the youngest witch met a nice guy named Cole Turner. It was amazing how he attracted her in the first moment. She immediately noticed his awesome deep blue eyes and his awesome smile."
Prue was crying less and less so Phoebe went on: "They started dating. The witch liked him more and more every time she was seeing him, she liked to see him smile, she liked to be next to him, but still she felt like there was something wrong with him. They continued dating and the girl fell in love with the guy, even if she knew he was hiding things from her, she couldn't help, she wanted to see him, she wanted to be in his strong arms. She could always feel safe in his strong arms."
Prue finally stopped crying and she was looking at her mother with round eyes.
"But one day, she found out the guy's secret, he was in fact a demon, but only half demon, but still, it was very wrong being with him, it was against the rules. She had to fake she had to sent him away for good..." she continued trying to find a right language, no way she was talking to her four months daughter about death. "...she was supposed to do it but she couldn't, she was in love with him and she believed when he said he was in love with her as well. He said she had woken up his human half and she truly wanted to believe him. They were apart for a while and some time after, he came back and a lot happened, but still they had the happiest moments together. But still Evil was calling him back... till he lost his demon half, he became The Source and they got married; it was a pretty beautiful wedding, even though it was all a lie. Then they were very happy when she got pregnant. But still Evil came between them and she and her sisters had to kil- send him away and he was sent to the wasteland and the witch lost their baby boy." Phoebe said with a sad tone.
She took a deep breath and continued: "When the guy came back from the wasteland, the witch made the biggest mistake she had ever done in her whole life, she told him she didn't want to be with him again and that she wanted to divorce. She was still in love with, but she just didn't want to admit it, she was scared and she turned this love in hatred and anger... and the demon guy became crazy and she kept rejecting him. One day she went to see him to make him understand their relationship was over and... but the feeling between were still so strong and they made love one last time and that's how we created you little one." She finished at the verge of tears. "And even if I can't tell you the end of this story because it's not happy, I only can tell you that no matter all that happened... this witch still loves her demon... and even if he probably doesn't love her anymore, I'll always love him." She said wiping the tears.
Prue was now sleeping peacefully so she was about to walk to her room to put the baby in her crib when she heard: "That's an amazing story." Alex said.
Phoebe jumped and turned shocked. "How long ago have you been listening?" she nervously asked.
"Long enough." She coldly replied.
"How drunk are you?" she questioned eyeing Alex.
"Drunk enough so I'm not able to drive but not enough so I can know and understand to what I just heard." She replied.
"Well, I guess now you know everything." Phoebe said. Why bother in hiding?
"Yeah, and I'd like some explanations." Alex replied.
"Let me put Prue back in her crib and I'll answer to all your questions." She said, walking upstairs towards her room.
A moment later, Phoebe went out of her room where Prue and Jonathan were both sleeping. Alex was waiting in the hallway.
"I don't know where to start." Phoebe whispered.
"You still love him?" Alex asked to beginning the conversation.
"Yeah, but it's hard and complicated you know." She said.
"Why that?" Cole's sister asked.
"Because, I love him but I can't trust him... Not after everything he did to me... it's too hard... we already tried it, more than once and I didn't work, and... I lied to him about Prue." Phoebe explained as she looked down.
"He loves that little one, you should see the spark in his eyes when he plays with her, they've already bonded, even if he doesn't know who she really is." Alex half-lied.
"I know... It's so hard, I know he loves her, and I can tell she loves him as well, I feel so guilty Alex, it's killing me. You have no idea." Phoebe explained. She didn't know why but she was feeling like she could talk to Alex, she liked her, of course she was a rebel teenager but she was a really good listener.
"I know I have to tell him, I have to... but I don't know how." Phoebe added.
"Yes, you have to tell him." Alex nodded.
Phoebe nodded slightly. "Please, don't tell him, please..." she begged.
"I won't." Alex said.
Phoebe was kinda surprised by Alex's reply, she thought she would run to tell everything to Cole.
"Really?" Phoebe asking not believing it.
"No. it's not my secret, it doesn't belong to me the right to tell Cole." She said.
Phoebe couldn't believe such a wise conception.
"One of the things that Cole taught me is that when something doesn't belong to us, and we take it, it doesn't have any meaning, because it's not ours, even when we posses it, it'll never belong to us." She explained. Cole had done a great work so far. "Even if you don't go back with him, I'd like you to go back with him by the way..." she added, "...but, if you don't, you still owe him the truth about the little cutie you have." Alex said.
"Yeah, thanks a lot Alex, I'm glad you don't judge me, I know I've made mistake and I've hurt your brother but that was the last thing I wanted, I just was so scared and I wanted to keep my baby daughter safe." Phoebe explained.
Alex nodded and hugged Phoebe, she didn't know if she was supposed to do that, but after this little talk they had together, she was feeling closer to the witch, a little as if she was her big sister.
"You should go home, and try to do something about this drunk state." Phoebe said and she realized that she was talking to Alex as a sister.
"Yeah, I know... Coleridge Turner is going to notice I'm breaking the rules, but you know what? I don't care." She said with a smile.
"Knowing Cole, there'll be hell to pay, he's way to rigid towards rules." Phoebe said.
"Bye- bye." She added as she shimmered away from the manor.
Phoebe smiled and shook her head but her smiled went away when she realized that she had to go back in her room where Jonathan was probably waiting for her.
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When Alex came back to the penthouse, Cole was fighting with what looked like a demon. The guy dressed in black was looking unconscious and seriously beaten up, but still Cole was hitting him with anger and rage. In a way it didn't surprise Alex, she knew Cole was feeling more than bad since he found out that Prue was in fact his daughter but it was really scaring her to see her big brother in such a bad and angry emotional state. In less than one second, she wasn't drunk anymore, the scene playing in front of her was enough to sober her up.
"Get up!" Cole yelled at the guy.
"When I summoned you I thought you were one of the best fighters of the underworld. Get up and fight." He yelled again.
But the demon wasn't able to get up so Cole started to kick him. Alex couldn't stand to see him doing that anymore, even if the guy was a demon, Cole couldn't act like this.
He threw a fireball at the demon who burned into flames. Then he started to throw everything that was close to him against the walls, screaming with anger. The couch, the furniture, the table, the chair, in no time everything was upside down.
Cole stopped, he was breathing roughly because of the anger that was consuming him.
He noticed Alex and yelled: "Where the hell were you?"
"Out." Alex simply replied.
Cole walked towards her, grabbed her by the shoulders and shouted: "That is not an answer, tell me where have you been."
At this point, he was scaring her more and more, but what she was fearing the most was his reaction once she'll tell him that she was at the manor.
"Spill it, damn it, tell me where you've gone." He said.
He grabbed her by the fist with one hand and formed an energy ball with the other.
Alex was so scared that she started crying and begged him to let her go.
"I'm sorry Cole." She whispered.
Suddenly Cole realized what he was doing, he let her go and stumbled back, looking shocked.
"I... I'm sorry." He mumbled.
"I... I've lost it, I'm sorry Alex." He added.
"It's okay." She told him and made a step towards him.
He broke down into tears and fell on his knees. Alex knelt down and pulled him close to her. He rested his head on her shoulder and cried.
"I love them so much." He sobbed.
"I know." Alex said, she was trying to comfort him the best she could and she was holding him tightly.
She shimmered the both of them into his room and forced him to lay down on his bed.
She knelt down by his side and kissed him on the forehead.
"Come on Cole, you have to get some rest, you hadn't sleep in days." She told him.
"I'm so angry she didn't tell me." He said. "I'm so angry I wasn't there!! I missed it!!! Everything, I missed everything..."
"Shh, we'll talk about it later." She ordered him.
"You didn't tell me where you've gone." He said, this time it was in a normal tone, not a threatening one.
"I... was at the manor." She admitted, she didn't want to lie to him.
"Did you see them?" He asked.
"Yes I did." She replied, not wanting to tell him more about his daughter and ex wife doing well without him.
"Are they both okay?" He asked.
Alex nodded and said: "You have to sleep now, I'm staying right here."
Cole nodded and closed his eyes. He still smelled something so opened his eyes and asked: "Have you been drinking?"
Alex didn't know what to say... "No, you've been drinking." She turned the facts to him, trying to sound convincing.
It was in fact true, he had been drinking. "I though I could smell like alcohol breath for a moment..." he said.
"That was yours." Alex quickly confirmed.
Cole just accepted and close his eyes again. Alex sighed of relief. 'That was close.' She thought.
Alex was so glad she could help him, of course it wasn't like she was resolving this huge problem but at least she was helping him the best she could. Since she had moved in with him, he had always been there for her and now it was her turn to help him.
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Chapter 8
"Fairy Memories."
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"You called, Mr. Turner?" the young woman politely asked.
"That was five minutes ago!" he angrily barked.
"I'm sorry but I was just looking for the file case you asked for." She explained. "I swear-"
"I don't care." He angrily cut off. "Give me that." He ordered.
"What?" she replied clueless.
"Give me the damn file." He indicated in not a kind tone. The woman quickly gave it to him and stepped back, fast, like fearing he might bite her or something. "Now leave." He ordered; she just nodded and left.
He had been acting like this for a while now. His mood was turning worst every time. He had been raging for days... Raging because he was mad, angry, pissed off. He had been rude to everyone around and he only interacted with the others yelling, screaming and giving dirty looks. He yelled to his secretary, to the messenger, to the phone and to Alex... he had avoided to talk to other partners from the staff of the firm or his bosses 'Jackman, Carter and Kline.' He'd been acting like that since a couple of weeks ago and he was getting worst and worst with the days.
But truth he was mad at everything, even at life itself, mostly at life itself. It wasn't fair. It just wasn't fair that he loved a woman; he had a daughter with her and he had to see how she was looking for happiness in other arms, not his own, not anymore... he rather not to know, but there was no way back, he KNEW it. He knew Prue was his daughter and he was suffering because...
"Excuse me, Mr. Turner, Mr. Carter on the phone." His secretary interrupted his meditations through the intercom. He sighed and closed his eyes in exasperation.
"Come here now." He coldly ordered. In no time she was at the door. "Come in and close the door." He ordered and she nodded and did as she was told.
"Mr. Carter is waiting on the line." She said.
Cole said nothing, came to the phone, took it and hit it again.
"Didn't I tell you not to pass any calls?" he madly questioned her.
She turned really nervous, "I'm sorry, I just thought it was important." She quickly justified herself.
"You thought..." he repeated. "That was the problem, you thought. And you... you're not supposed to think here, you just do as I command. Did I make myself clear?" he angrily questioned.
She just nodded. "But Mr. Carter sounded pretty upset and I didn't know what to tell him." She said.
"You could have told him I wasn't here, you could have told him I went out for coffee, you could have told him I was dead!" he shouted.
She nodded again. She didn't understand what was happening with him. He had always been a serious person, with a dark and sarcastic sense of humor, but still very mannered and respectful, sometimes he was even kind... and Charming; the half of the female staff from the law firm had a Crush on him, you could say there even was a 'Cole Turner's fan club', including herself as a fan. But lately he hadn't done anything else but rage at everyone... he could be reported and suspended for bad Anger Management.
He couldn't focus his mind on anything, he always ended up torturing himself thinking about Phoebe, Prue, Jonathan and the worst of all, The Past.
Maybe that could be the solution, he needed to think about something else, someone else.
She stayed there unmoved as a statue and he came closer and the most unexpected happened. He suddenly grabbed her and kissed her, hard and deep.
She was caught off guard, but still responded to him. She was the kind of woman who was willing to even sleep with the boss to keep a work, and this time it wasn't one of those old creepy man, her boss was a hot guy, so she even was enjoying, so she let him do and go as far as he wanted. Oh my god, she would be the envy of the rest of the staff when they heard about this.
He kept kissing her and he let his hand go up under her skirt to her tight. She was moaning of pleasure wanting things to go farther and farther than this. She left his lips and started kissing his neck while loosing up his tie, suddenly he just broke apart.
"I can't... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to... I just..." he tried to apologize himself. "Just go home." He said.
"But my shift is not over yet." She said still breathless. He just walked to his window.
"Just go home!" he ordered and she left.
He didn't know what the hell was going on with him anymore... this wasn't what he wanted to do. Those weren't the lips he wanted to kiss, that wasn't the skin he wanted to feel, those weren't the eyes he wanted to look at... he just... he was even angrier than before and everything was HER fault...
He just sat on his chair till he decided to go home, around midnight...
Once Home, he did what he always did lately... he used to leave pretty early and always checked on Alex and by the time she was always sound asleep in her bed, when he came back home very late at night, he checked on Alex and she already was sound asleep... he hadn't crossed a couple of words with her in days, she knew he was mad, pretty angry and she wanted to help but didn't know how...
So as usual he went to check on his little sister. He opened the door expecting to watch her asleep, but he became a fury when he didn't find her and obviously she hadn't come because her bed was straightly made...
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"...Then the glass slipper perfectly fitted Cinderella's foot so the Prince knew she was the mysterious girl from the Ball, he knew he was the love of his life. So they got married and they lived happily ever after. The end." Phoebe Halliwell related to her four months baby.
'Cinderella' was the tale she was telling this night while trying to get little Prue to sleep. She knew the tale perfectly so she didn't even have to read; she just remembered and repeated it every time. It reduced her heart to the size of a little peanut when she remembered that time when she felt herself as Cinderella, even though she had been a little freaked out at first, then she had so much illusions in her white wedding and the fact that her dream, which was the same as any woman, would soon become true, she was going to marry the guy of her dreams, her prince and they would be happy together; and they were till everything fell down. 'Don't go there.' She mentally commanded herself, she knew that when she went to that passage of her life, tears ended up coming out of her eyes. But things were the way they were meant to be.
Phoebe kept rocking her baby, trying to get her to sleep, but the little one just kept starring at her mother with wide open eyes between giggles, like wanting to keep playing. She was even trying to send tiny energy balls but Alex's potion had worked so she wasn't able to play with her powers anymore and even if she was only 4 months, it was boring her a lot. Of course, Phoebe didn't know what her daughter was trying to do.
"Baby, good little girls sleep and you're my cutie little girl." The mother said in baby voice. Phoebe was really exhausted. It had been a hard day, a hard week you could say. Work was giving her a hard time, besides she had to bear the most annoying and pathetic being she could have ever get involve with, better known as Jonathan and the guilt was eating her from the inside. It had been more than two weeks since she had last seen Cole; it was the day when she took Prue back home.
Alex had been the one frequenting the Manor lately to hang out with Paige and check out on Prue. Phoebe had asked her for Cole a couple times, but Alex tried to avoid the subject, she just nodded like 'he's fine' and immediately changed the subject, Phoebe didn't insist so not to show any interest. But truth she thought about him every second of every minute, of every hour of every day; mostly because she felt the mother of GUITLS, it wasn't fair Cole didn't know he had a daughter.
Her thoughts were interrupted by Prue's cries. "Baby... please let's go to sleep, for mommy." She said yawning. She looked at her daughter again and calmed her down, she kissed her in the forehead and it seemed to work since Prue closed her eyes.
Suddenly strong laughs interrupted the sleep. "Oh Boy..." she thought and Prue started crying again.
"Could you guys, please keep it down?!" she shouted madly. "I'm trying to get my baby to sleep!" she added.
The laughs came back once in a while, but after breastfeeding and Snow white, Prue got tired and finally fell asleep. Phoebe put baby Prue on her crib and then she walked out to the next room to give a piece of her mind to the two whores on it. Whores because it was a Wednesday night and they had such a noisy party that didn't let her baby sleep.
"And you know since when I don't get a good one?... Since that 'quickly' between my legal writing... or was it philosophy?... and criminal law class... " Alex said and she broke out laughing.
"Ewww... you're such a school girl." Paige barely said giggling.
"Well, College is where I can do it, cuz it's against the rules... Cole said it's against the rules..." she said babbling. Then whispered: "To have S-E-X." she laughed as she spelled the last word.
"Why can't you say just 'sex' you bitch?" Paige asked.
"Because there's a baby on this house. My niece is in this house!!" she stated and she meant it.
"The last time I had-" Paige started.
"Oh my god!" Phoebe said jaw dropped from the doorframe.
"Oopps..." Paige said and then leaned to Alex. "Don't say S-E-X in front of Phoebe." She whispered.
"Why?" the demon drunk friend asked.
"Because she's a mom and coz she forgot what it was like since Cole." The witch girl replied and they both broke out laughing again.
"Oh my god, I can't believe you guys are drunk!" Phoebe started as she got in the room.
"I am not drunk!" Alex said. "I am not drunk because my niece is in this house!" she yelled.
"Phoebe!!!" Paige tried to run towards her sister but failed and fell on her bed. "I love Phoebe." She said. "She doesn't screw her boyfriend and she has a baby." She said and giggled.
"Oh God." Phoebe said madly. "How could you start drinking today?"
"We weren't drinking anything." Alex said.
"We were just drinking some of that Apple Cidra that Piper left in the fridge." Paige said defensibly.
Phoebe took one of the cups in the vanity. "That was not a Cidra, that was the Apple's new cocktail Piper was trying on for the club!" she shouted.
"Ooops!" Alex said.
"Ooops? Alex, Cole will kill you if he sees you like this! He hates when women drink." Phoebe lectured her.
"Cole is mad at you!" Alex stated.
"What?" Phoebe questioned.
"Didn't you hear??" Paige said. "COLE IS MAD AT YOU!" her little sister repeated.
Phoebe just turned back and went back in her room and laid down on her bed. She didn't want to hear about the bullshits of two drunk girls.
She sighed deeply, guilt was heavy and it was killing her. She wanted to tell Cole the truth and even if she knew she wouldn't be able to have him back with her, at least he would be a part of their family. Jonathan interrupted her thoughts by entering in the room.
"Hey baby." He said as he walked next to the bed to kiss Phoebe on the cheek. He started to undress and Phoebe got up and walked in the bathroom to do the same.
When she came back, wearing her Pj's, Jonathan was already under the covers. She laid down and he immediately came on top of her and started to kiss her, it was the last think she wanted right now. Actually not just right now, never. She didn't want him to kiss her, to look at her, to talk to her, she didn't want him to try to get her to the bed... she just wanted to not see him again, but she didn't know how to sent him away. But she felt in some level commitment to him.
'It's for Evil to kill innocent people.' She kept repeating herself mentally.
"Jonathan, I'm tired." She said.
"Come one, you can't be tired every nights." He said, kissing her neck.
Prue started to cry to Phoebe's relieve, she was going to be able to go away from him. It was still the same, she couldn't think about sleep with him... and she hadn't done it again after she gave birth.
"I have to go, my baby is crying." She said.
"Let her cry, she has to learn she can't have everything whenever she cries." He told her.
She hated it when someone tried to put Prue on a second level, for her NO ONE could ever come before her. Not innocent, not demon, not sister, not boyfriend, not friend, work nor even Cole could come before her. Phoebe was a mother now; and her baby was about EVERYTHING.
"If she's crying, I'm going to see her, no matter what you say." She said almost pushing.
Jonathan just stayed there looking as she went to Prue.
He felt anger every time Phoebe turned him down, and it was because of her... she used to be nicer, and sweeter to him until she was born and everything changed. She started to ignore him and to reject him; he was getting tired and he had to do something... he wouldn't loose Phoebe to other's guy child.
She got up and came to Prue's crib. "Mommy is here sweetie." She told her daughter.
She took Prue in her arms and kissed her on the forehead but the little girl didn't stop crying. Phoebe just walked out of her room ignoring Jonathan's dirty look and got in the sunroom and sat still rocking Prue. Phoebe's first thought was to call Cole. Maybe he could have shimmered Prue somewhere so that she'll stop crying and fall asleep but then she realized that she just couldn't call him. She didn't know why, it just didn't feel right for her. 'Of course it's not right.' She reproached. She didn't wanted to use him, she was thinking that it was too unfair to let him see Prue only because she needed him to take care of her daughter.
"Come on little one, stop crying." She said, rocking Prue.
"I wish your daddy was here." She added with sadness.
She lained her back on the rocking chair and said: "Once upon a time, a witch and her two sisters, were trying their best to same innocent people. One day, while trying the save someone, the youngest witch met a nice guy named Cole Turner. It was amazing how he attracted her in the first moment. She immediately noticed his awesome deep blue eyes and his awesome smile."
Prue was crying less and less so Phoebe went on: "They started dating. The witch liked him more and more every time she was seeing him, she liked to see him smile, she liked to be next to him, but still she felt like there was something wrong with him. They continued dating and the girl fell in love with the guy, even if she knew he was hiding things from her, she couldn't help, she wanted to see him, she wanted to be in his strong arms. She could always feel safe in his strong arms."
Prue finally stopped crying and she was looking at her mother with round eyes.
"But one day, she found out the guy's secret, he was in fact a demon, but only half demon, but still, it was very wrong being with him, it was against the rules. She had to fake she had to sent him away for good..." she continued trying to find a right language, no way she was talking to her four months daughter about death. "...she was supposed to do it but she couldn't, she was in love with him and she believed when he said he was in love with her as well. He said she had woken up his human half and she truly wanted to believe him. They were apart for a while and some time after, he came back and a lot happened, but still they had the happiest moments together. But still Evil was calling him back... till he lost his demon half, he became The Source and they got married; it was a pretty beautiful wedding, even though it was all a lie. Then they were very happy when she got pregnant. But still Evil came between them and she and her sisters had to kil- send him away and he was sent to the wasteland and the witch lost their baby boy." Phoebe said with a sad tone.
She took a deep breath and continued: "When the guy came back from the wasteland, the witch made the biggest mistake she had ever done in her whole life, she told him she didn't want to be with him again and that she wanted to divorce. She was still in love with, but she just didn't want to admit it, she was scared and she turned this love in hatred and anger... and the demon guy became crazy and she kept rejecting him. One day she went to see him to make him understand their relationship was over and... but the feeling between were still so strong and they made love one last time and that's how we created you little one." She finished at the verge of tears. "And even if I can't tell you the end of this story because it's not happy, I only can tell you that no matter all that happened... this witch still loves her demon... and even if he probably doesn't love her anymore, I'll always love him." She said wiping the tears.
Prue was now sleeping peacefully so she was about to walk to her room to put the baby in her crib when she heard: "That's an amazing story." Alex said.
Phoebe jumped and turned shocked. "How long ago have you been listening?" she nervously asked.
"Long enough." She coldly replied.
"How drunk are you?" she questioned eyeing Alex.
"Drunk enough so I'm not able to drive but not enough so I can know and understand to what I just heard." She replied.
"Well, I guess now you know everything." Phoebe said. Why bother in hiding?
"Yeah, and I'd like some explanations." Alex replied.
"Let me put Prue back in her crib and I'll answer to all your questions." She said, walking upstairs towards her room.
A moment later, Phoebe went out of her room where Prue and Jonathan were both sleeping. Alex was waiting in the hallway.
"I don't know where to start." Phoebe whispered.
"You still love him?" Alex asked to beginning the conversation.
"Yeah, but it's hard and complicated you know." She said.
"Why that?" Cole's sister asked.
"Because, I love him but I can't trust him... Not after everything he did to me... it's too hard... we already tried it, more than once and I didn't work, and... I lied to him about Prue." Phoebe explained as she looked down.
"He loves that little one, you should see the spark in his eyes when he plays with her, they've already bonded, even if he doesn't know who she really is." Alex half-lied.
"I know... It's so hard, I know he loves her, and I can tell she loves him as well, I feel so guilty Alex, it's killing me. You have no idea." Phoebe explained. She didn't know why but she was feeling like she could talk to Alex, she liked her, of course she was a rebel teenager but she was a really good listener.
"I know I have to tell him, I have to... but I don't know how." Phoebe added.
"Yes, you have to tell him." Alex nodded.
Phoebe nodded slightly. "Please, don't tell him, please..." she begged.
"I won't." Alex said.
Phoebe was kinda surprised by Alex's reply, she thought she would run to tell everything to Cole.
"Really?" Phoebe asking not believing it.
"No. it's not my secret, it doesn't belong to me the right to tell Cole." She said.
Phoebe couldn't believe such a wise conception.
"One of the things that Cole taught me is that when something doesn't belong to us, and we take it, it doesn't have any meaning, because it's not ours, even when we posses it, it'll never belong to us." She explained. Cole had done a great work so far. "Even if you don't go back with him, I'd like you to go back with him by the way..." she added, "...but, if you don't, you still owe him the truth about the little cutie you have." Alex said.
"Yeah, thanks a lot Alex, I'm glad you don't judge me, I know I've made mistake and I've hurt your brother but that was the last thing I wanted, I just was so scared and I wanted to keep my baby daughter safe." Phoebe explained.
Alex nodded and hugged Phoebe, she didn't know if she was supposed to do that, but after this little talk they had together, she was feeling closer to the witch, a little as if she was her big sister.
"You should go home, and try to do something about this drunk state." Phoebe said and she realized that she was talking to Alex as a sister.
"Yeah, I know... Coleridge Turner is going to notice I'm breaking the rules, but you know what? I don't care." She said with a smile.
"Knowing Cole, there'll be hell to pay, he's way to rigid towards rules." Phoebe said.
"Bye- bye." She added as she shimmered away from the manor.
Phoebe smiled and shook her head but her smiled went away when she realized that she had to go back in her room where Jonathan was probably waiting for her.
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When Alex came back to the penthouse, Cole was fighting with what looked like a demon. The guy dressed in black was looking unconscious and seriously beaten up, but still Cole was hitting him with anger and rage. In a way it didn't surprise Alex, she knew Cole was feeling more than bad since he found out that Prue was in fact his daughter but it was really scaring her to see her big brother in such a bad and angry emotional state. In less than one second, she wasn't drunk anymore, the scene playing in front of her was enough to sober her up.
"Get up!" Cole yelled at the guy.
"When I summoned you I thought you were one of the best fighters of the underworld. Get up and fight." He yelled again.
But the demon wasn't able to get up so Cole started to kick him. Alex couldn't stand to see him doing that anymore, even if the guy was a demon, Cole couldn't act like this.
He threw a fireball at the demon who burned into flames. Then he started to throw everything that was close to him against the walls, screaming with anger. The couch, the furniture, the table, the chair, in no time everything was upside down.
Cole stopped, he was breathing roughly because of the anger that was consuming him.
He noticed Alex and yelled: "Where the hell were you?"
"Out." Alex simply replied.
Cole walked towards her, grabbed her by the shoulders and shouted: "That is not an answer, tell me where have you been."
At this point, he was scaring her more and more, but what she was fearing the most was his reaction once she'll tell him that she was at the manor.
"Spill it, damn it, tell me where you've gone." He said.
He grabbed her by the fist with one hand and formed an energy ball with the other.
Alex was so scared that she started crying and begged him to let her go.
"I'm sorry Cole." She whispered.
Suddenly Cole realized what he was doing, he let her go and stumbled back, looking shocked.
"I... I'm sorry." He mumbled.
"I... I've lost it, I'm sorry Alex." He added.
"It's okay." She told him and made a step towards him.
He broke down into tears and fell on his knees. Alex knelt down and pulled him close to her. He rested his head on her shoulder and cried.
"I love them so much." He sobbed.
"I know." Alex said, she was trying to comfort him the best she could and she was holding him tightly.
She shimmered the both of them into his room and forced him to lay down on his bed.
She knelt down by his side and kissed him on the forehead.
"Come on Cole, you have to get some rest, you hadn't sleep in days." She told him.
"I'm so angry she didn't tell me." He said. "I'm so angry I wasn't there!! I missed it!!! Everything, I missed everything..."
"Shh, we'll talk about it later." She ordered him.
"You didn't tell me where you've gone." He said, this time it was in a normal tone, not a threatening one.
"I... was at the manor." She admitted, she didn't want to lie to him.
"Did you see them?" He asked.
"Yes I did." She replied, not wanting to tell him more about his daughter and ex wife doing well without him.
"Are they both okay?" He asked.
Alex nodded and said: "You have to sleep now, I'm staying right here."
Cole nodded and closed his eyes. He still smelled something so opened his eyes and asked: "Have you been drinking?"
Alex didn't know what to say... "No, you've been drinking." She turned the facts to him, trying to sound convincing.
It was in fact true, he had been drinking. "I though I could smell like alcohol breath for a moment..." he said.
"That was yours." Alex quickly confirmed.
Cole just accepted and close his eyes again. Alex sighed of relief. 'That was close.' She thought.
Alex was so glad she could help him, of course it wasn't like she was resolving this huge problem but at least she was helping him the best she could. Since she had moved in with him, he had always been there for her and now it was her turn to help him.
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