AN: I rate this story PG-15 for maturecontent including drugs, violence, self- harm, sexuality of people and some sexual content.

Prologue

AC 187

The cold air hit the young boy's cheek as rain poured down on him. Duo just sat there emotionless, Solo laid in front of Duo, frozen and dead. Duo stared into the hallow eyes of Solo. He replayed the images of what happened earlier that evening. What could I have done different to save him?

Duo thought. Screams of children raced through his brain. Duo denied that Solo was dead and left the building where his friend laid. Duo went back to where he and Solo usually stayed and packed up Solo's things and knew that he would have to be the new leader.

No one ever asked Duo what happened that night at the military base because if you would ask him today he would tell you that Solo never existed. Duo never talked to anyone he just stayed quite until it was time to give orders. The pain was always too much to bare and everyone knew it. Everyone tried to help Duo but he wouldn't listen.

One day everybody just aggravated Duo to the last straw.

"Duo we want to help"

"Well don't!"

"We know you're hurt and we want to make it better"

I'm so tired of being here

"You don't know that's the problem all of you want to help but none of you know!'

Suppressed by all my childish fears

"Because you wont tell us"

And if you want to leave

"Just don't I don't want this'

I wish that you would just leave

"Then leave"

With those words ringing in his ears Duo grabbed his things and left his family. Duo didn't know where he was going or what he was going to do he just knew that it hurt more than anything.

Chapter One

AC 195

Nameiko walked down the cold streets of Tokyo letting the cool air brush her face. As she walked alone she closed her eyes dreaming of the day that everything would be right again. Nameiko just walked not really paying attention to anyone but she was paying attention to the stranger sitting on the park bench. Why would anyone want to be alone on a night like this? Maybe I should talk to him? Nameiko walked over to the bench and sat down next to the stranger.

"Beautiful aren't they"

"Huh?"

"The stars."

"I really don't pay attention to things like that"

"What's wrong?"

"Where to start?"

"One of those days"

"One of those life's"

" Well if it can make you feel any better I just lost my boyfriend and car."

"I lost those things a long time ago"

"I'm sorry"

" It's fine I don't need them"

"When you say them, it sounds more like people."

"Maybe because it is"

"Dark past?"

"And dark future."

" You can change that."

"I don't know if I want to"

"You want to be all sad and depressed the rest of your life?"

"You're just like the rest of them you don't know."

" I do. I've seen death, hell I've experienced it, and yeah it sucks but ... come with me."

"What?"
"Come with me."
"Where?"
"That doesn't matter, I want to show you something"

"OK"

Nameiko drug Duo into the Midnight Club. The clubs music was blaring as the speakers pounded. People everywhere were swaying to the music. Nameiko picked out a table in the corner of the room and sat down. Duo just looked at Nameiko and decided it was best if he sat down too.

"Everyone in here has a past."

"I know that"

"Yes, they all have one but that's not my point. Everyone in here has a past some good more twisted than yours and mine put together. They all have a secret, some dark. Yeah I have a secret not one to be too proud of either. Now what's yours?"

The wind blew hard on Kono as she took her nightly jog. Kono heard a rattle in the bushes but choose to ignore it. It's nothing, just a rabbit. Probably. Kono kept running until she heard footsteps following behind her. Kono stopped just for a second but didn't turn around because she knew someone was behind her. Just keep running Kono, your almost home. Kono started running again this time getting faster and faster. As Kono ran she heard the footsteps behind her picked up their pace. Kono never turned around she just kept running as fast as her legs could push. The attacker caught up with Kono and pushed her on the ground. The attacker went over to Kono and sat on top of her with a knife.

"You want my money here take it." Kono threw her money at the attacker.

" I don't want your money bitch." The attacker pinned Kono's hands behind her head and pushed his lips against hers. Kono pursed her mouth shut as the attacker tried to put his tongue in her mouth. The attacker lifted his mouth from Kono's.

"Don't try to resist"

"AHhhhhhhhhhhh" Kono screamed at the top of her lungs hoping that someone might hear her.

Across the park Heero Yuy heard Kono's scream and decided to go check it out.

"Shhhh, do you want someone to hear us." The attacker covered Kono's mouth with his hands.

Heero ran over to where he has heard the scream and saw what the man was doing to Kono. Heero ran over to Kono and pulled the man off of her. The attacker stood up to see Heero ready to fight.

" Why don't you leave"?

" Oh, what are you going to do about it?" The man asked taunting Heero.

Heero punched the man in his face then threw some more punches until the attacker had a bloody nose. The attacker wiped his nose with his hand and looked up at Heero. Heero took the knife from the attacker and stabbed him in the chest. The attacker fell to the ground and Heero went over to Kono to help her up.

"Thank you" Kono can said trying to hold back her tears

"Why don't I walk you home?"

"That ... would be..."

"Save your strength, everything will be OK" Heero said looking into Kono's eyes. Kono looked at Heero and they both knew.

Nameiko looked at Duo waiting for a response. Duo new he couldn't just tell anyone what happened so he got up from the table and grabbed Nameiko hand and took her to the dance floor. Duo pulled Nameiko in close to him. Maybe this will distract her from that question. Nameiko loosened up to his war touch. Nameiko and Duo slowly danced to the music.

Kono and Heero reached Kono's apartment.

"Thank you for everything." Kono noticed a deep cut from the attackers knife on Heero's face.

Kono gently touched the wound and Heero winced. "You should come up and get that wound cleaned."

"Alright"

Kono lightly took Heero's hand and led him up the stairs. Kono and Heero walked into her apartment. The apartment was nicely furnished with candles and inscents in certain places. Kono turned on the light and walked towards her bathroom to get some alcohol and bandages. Heero looked around her apartment to find some mangas laying on her coffee table but for the most part it was clean. Kono walked back into the living room with a first aid kit. Kono looked at Heero and noticed that some of the blood from the cut had gotten on his T-shirt.

"You're going to have to take that shirt off so I can try and clean it."

Heero just looked at Kono and slowly took off his shirt trying not to get anymore blood on it.

"You don't have to do this for me."

"It is the least I can do."

Kono put some alcohol on a cotton ball and gently rubbed it on Heero's face. The cotton ball had already filled up with blood and Kono reached down to get another one when she noticed Heero's arm.

" You know I have spent all this time with you and I don't know your name?" Duo asked Nameiko sweetly.

"Nameiko"

"Duo"

"Well Duo do you care to answer my question?"

"I will, just no yet."

"Is that saying I'll see you again?"

"You are the only person that has ever understood me without even knowing my name"

" I'm the only the person that can. You don't understand what is to come, that's why I am here. I understand all the pain, chaos, death, love, caring, and bliss. I know the sorrow; you need to know too." Nameiko lifted her head off of Duo's shoulder and looked deep down into his eyes searching for something more.

I don't know how to let you go

Heero had scars all along his arms and some newly added cuts. Kono didn't want to say anything but she knew something was wrong. Heero realized that Kono was looking down at his arms.

" I'm sorry" Kono said putting her head down in shame for looking.

every moment marked with apparitions of your soul

"Her name was Relena. She was an old girlfriend of mine."

"I'm sorry to be asking you this but what happened to her?"

"She was murdered. There was this group of people I was in debt to. They really didn't like it that I kept on making promises and never keeping them. One day they decided to tell me times up. I found out where they had taken Relena and went to save her, but when I got there I was to late. They had chained her to a wall and raped her several times then slit her throat for my mistakes." Heero's eyes started to water and he looked over at Kono and saw a tear run down her face.

Trowa stood outside Mr. Winner's office listening to Quatre and his father yell.

"Son, do you really think that I approve of this so-called relationship that you have with this boy!"

" You don't understand, I love him"
" Love! Is that what that is! You are wasting your life with him Quatre!"

" I'm sorry that I can't be what you want me to be! I can't be perfect, I can't be you!" Quatre felt a tear slide down his face. Quatre walked over to the office door and paused hoping that his father would say something, anything.

"Quatre.... if you walk out of that door I will disown you as my son."

"If that is how it is going to be then disown me." Quatre stormed out of the office and to Trowa. Trowa just held Quatre gently and rocked him back and forth hoping that everything would be OK.

Mr. Winner stood in his office stunned at what he just heard. His son was gay and he couldn't handle that. He actually said that he would disown his own flesh and blood. Mr. Winner just hopped that his son wouldn't do anything to harsh to get back at him.

Trowa and Quatre walked back to Trowa's place.

" I really thought he would approve of us."

" He will you just need to give him time."

"It's to late for that. The only thing that matters now is that I am with you."

Trowa looked into Quatre's eyes as if for the first time to really see him. Trowa knelt his head down to Quatre's and kissed him lightly in the lips.