Chapter 2

Heero looked at Kono and lifted his hand to her face and wiped her tear.

" That's one of the reasons why I saved you. I can't let that happen to anyone. I've seen what happens to these girls and it's horrible."

"I'm so sorry for asking it wasn't my place"

"You wanted to know, it's fine a lot worse things have happened to me than that. You should get some rest, I'll leave."

"Before you g I'd like to know the name of my rescuer."

"Heero Yuy"

"Konomeitsuki or Kono."

"Well I hope to see you again Kono."

"Thank you Heero."

Hero smiled and walked out of Kono's apartment.

Heero was walking home and he was thinking about Kono. Kono is really great. I wonder if I should see her again? No that wouldn't be right, what about Relena? I can't forget. I thought about forgetting, I can't see her again.

When Heero got home he went strait to his bathroom and pulled out a razor blade and set it on the counter. Heero walked over to the medicine cabinet and opened a small box filled with drugs. Cocaine, acid, marijuana he had it all in there. Heero got out hairspray and set it next to the razor blade.

I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you

After Heero had drugged himself he went back to the razor blade and started engraving Relena's name into his arm. Heero just watched all the blood poor down his arm, making sure the pain was real. After the bleeding had stopped Heero covered his cuts in hairspray and watched the cuts swell.

I don't know how to let you go

Heero went into the kitchen and started mixing alcohol. Once he was done mixing he drank everything. Heero's toxic level in his blood started rising to the point where it could kill him. Heero eventually passed out and laid there in his own filth.

It was getting close to closing at the Midnight Club and Duo and Nameiko were the only ones still dancing. Duo felt the warmth of Nameiko on him. Duo's eye's shot open when he realized that he was getting to close. Duo pushed Nameiko away from him and walked out of the club. Nameiko just stood there stunned at what just happened. Did I do something wrong? What's wrong with me? This always happens to me.

Nameiko went home and looked in the mirror. Nameiko looked deep into the mirror, searching for someone better. After minutes of looking and not finding anything Nameiko felt tears slide down her face. Nameiko lifted her right hand and curled it into a fist and aimed straight for the center of the mirror. The mirror shattered and glass went flying everywhere.

Kono heard the glass shatter and ran into the bathroom to see Nameiko huddled up in the corner crying. Blood dripped down Nameiko's arm and Kono saw glass stuck in Nameiko's hand.

"What did you do?"

"He ..."

"Did you try to talk to him again. I told you that he is dangerous ever since you to broke up."

"Not him."

"Then who?" Kono asked wondering who could've hurt her friend.

"I met this guy"

"Before you finish, you aren't ready to be dating again. You are more hurt now then you were earlier today. I don't want this to happen to you."

"I thought he was different..."

"Nameiko... what did he do to you?"

Duo made it home and sat in his one bedroom apartment in the dark wondering why he always pushes away. Why did I do that? She probably hates me now. Why should I even care, I'm gonna be alone the rest of my life anyways. She made things easier, I forgot about life for just a second.

Duo didn't sleep the rest of the night he just thought about why he always pushed people away.

"So Kono how was your night?"

"It was.... I have to tell you something."

"What's wrong."

"When I went jogging earlier..." Kono started to choke on her words and she tasted a salt water tear land in her mouth.

"What happened?" Nameiko asked hopping that her friend would be OK.

Heero woke up to find himself laying on the kitchen floor covered in blood and alcohol. Heero was dazed and he couldn't remember what had happened last night. Heero walked into the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror with his blood shot eyes. All I see is a drunk loser with no future. Heero looked at he other side of the bathroom and saw razor blades and his blood on the floor. All of the memories of last night came flooding back to him. Oh no Kono, I should go check on her. Heero grabbed his coat and ran out the door to Kono's only if he remembered where it was.

Nameiko could feel a flood of tears come down her face as she cried with her friend. Nameiko sat there holding Kono.

"Everything is going to be OK." Nameiko reassured her.

" I couldn't do anything about it. I was defenseless."

A loud thunderous knock came at the door that startled Kono and Nameiko.

"Don't worry Kono I'll get it." Nameiko gets up from the couch and answers the door to find Heero standing there.

"Is Kono home?"

"Yeah hold on." Nameiko walk over to Kono.

"Kono, some guy is here to see you." Kono looks at Nameiko with a puzzled look then gets up to see who it is. Kono reaches the door to see Heero standing there.

"I just came to see how you are."

"I'm doing better."

"I was wondering if I could talk to you alone?" Kono looked at Nameiko and Nameiko nodded her head in as a yes and grabbed her jacket and walked to the park. As Nameiko was leaving she smiled at Kono.

"What's up?" Kono asked growing concern.

"I can't be around you because it makes me forgot about her."

"I'm sorry you feel that way but.."

Heero ran up to Kono and grabbed her arms and squeezed them tightly.

"Listen I can't see you, I'd just be using you."

"If you can't see me then why did you come here?"

"This way instead of never seeing you again without saying a word you'll now what happened.'

"So tell me to my face and hurting my arms wouldn't pain me even more."

Heero looked at Kono angrily and pushed her into a wall and walked out of the apartment. Kono slid down the wall and felt tears coming on. Kono wouldn't let herself cry not this time. I need to be strong I can't let this always happen. I have to be strong. Kono got up from the floor and brushed herself off knowing that this would never happen again.

Quatre broke away from Trowa's kiss before it went any farther.

"Maybe we should go for a walk." Quatre implied.

" I don't know."

"Well that's ok I'll go by myself." Quatre got up and left before Trowa could stop him.

Trowa just sat there wondering why he had just said that.

Duo decide it was time for him to stop sulking in his room. Duo got up out of his bed and knew where he should go. Duo walked out of his house and headed to the park where he had met Nameiko.

Nameiko walked alone in the park where she had met Duo. It was cold out and Nameiko didn't care she just wanted to be alone. Across the park Quatre walked around searching for answers. Why didn't Trowa want to come? Will dad ever approve? Why am I thinking of these things they are just going to hurt me even more upset. Quatre walked around the lake to the other side of the park where he and Trowa had first met.

Duo sat on the park bench where he had met Nameiko and thought about what he had done at the club. I can't believe I pushed her away like that. Why do I always do these things?

What's wrong with me? No one wants to be around me. Nameioko thought to herself as she walked around the lake.

Why can't I be stronger? I need to be strong I can't be hurt anymore, I wont be hurt anymore. Kono battled with her inner voice on what to do next.

Why didn't I go with Quatre he needs me right now. What's wrong with me? Trowa sat in his apartment, alone thinking.

I need to let go, but I can't she was so important to me. I spend so much time sulking over Relena I can't see what's right in front of me. Heero wondered the streets of Tokyo hoping the sun wouldn't rise soon.