Episode 07: Let Me Be With You
Bra:Marron looked at me and gave me the signal to be quiet as we listened to their conversation
Kirei "Goten?"
"H-hey Kirei."
"So, I take it you can't come in today?"
"No, I'm sorry I know I should've called earlier but I didn't know till an hour ago."
"That's ok, I'll cover for you today, but you have to come in tomorrow regardless ok?"
"Ok, I'll be there for the full day and make up for today."
"So where are you?"
"I'm at Paris' house right now." AGH! Just the words coming out of his mouth like that sent shivers down my spine as I got more frustrated.
"Really? How are things?"
"It's ok, she's still feeling ill but she's getting better."
"And the baby?"
"Ah-um, The baby, it's ok. I mean it's still early, I can't tell much really."
I pressed my lips together as the fact and truth came out of his mouth. I wanted to so badly just yell at him right there but I still needed to know what else he'd spill out.
"Did you two think of names yet?"
"Paris has. I don't really know it's up to her."
"Really? What are they?"
"If it's a girl, she wants it to be named Karume. If it's a boy, she wants me to come up with a name."
"Oh, that's nice."
"Yeah..."
"Ok, well you better start coming into work more often. I don't want to have to fire you under these circumstances."
"I know."
"Besides, you can't make any money if you don't show up for work."
"Ok, I'll be in tomorrow."
"Ok, bye."
"Bye"
Kirei "Ok, I hung his line up, are you still there."
"Yeah. Thank you."
I started crying into the pillow as I cried louder while Marron rubbed my back continuing to talk to Kirei.
"So what's the big deal why did you want me to ask him?"
"... Can you hear someone crying in the background?"
".........faintly. Why?"
"That's Bra."
"Oh, I spoke to her just a while ago. How's she doing?"
"Not too well."
"But she sounded just fine when I talked to her."
"To make a long story short, that phone call was to get the facts straight."
"Ok?"
"In other words, she didn't find out about this till you told her this morning."
"Found out what?"
"That Goten and Paris are having a baby."
"What? That can't be. Goten specifically told me that he had already talked with Bra about this."
"Apparently, he didn't."
"Oh... I'm SO sorry Bra, I-I didn't know. I-I thou--"
"It's ok you're not at fault here. I'm glad you let me know though" I said with a small voice full of pain, confusion, and tears.
"I can't believe he told me and not you."
Marron "Ok, well we're going to go. Thanks for your cooperation Kirei and can you please please please keep this information about Bra finding out to yourself."
"Sure thing, I'm so sorry Bra."
"Bye."
Marron hung up the phone as I laid there not knowing what to do now that I was 100% sure of all of this. It was like a re-run from the last time I came crying to Marron 2 years ago when I caught them only this was 10, no 100 times worse. She was pregnant, Paris was pregnant and Goten lied to me about it.
"I'm so sorry Bra."
"I-I dropped a note he gave me this morning, it's close to the front of your door. Can you get it for me and read it to yourself?"
"Sure. I'll be back." She left the room as I curled into a ball letting all my emotions out.
"BULLSHIT!" Marron's outburst echoed throughout the house from the response to the note two minutes later. She came into the room with the note cumbled in her hand and her own anger appearing on her face. She threw the note in the trash and sat next to me.
"I'm so sorry Bra. You shouldn't be going through this, you don't deserve this. Maybe it was best if you two didn't get together the first time when you were like this, then you wouldn't be where you are right now. I'm so so so sorry Bra. Is there anything I can do?"
"I'm sorry I just came crashing in like this."
"Don't even worry about that. It doesn't matter. What matters is trying to get back at him for doing this to you."
"C-can I just be alone right now. I need time to let it sink in."
"Oh, sure, sure. If you need anything, I mean ANYTHING, don't hesitate to let me know. I'll be here for you if you need me ok."
"Thank you..." She kissed my temple and rubbed my back one more time.
"Please take care Bra. We'll pull through this, I'll help you." With that said she left the room quietly.
The rest of the day passed as well as night, I did nothing but lie in bed crying aloud. Marron checked in once in a while to comfort me. I didn't even have enough strength to eat the entire day, I never even really got up. My phone rang a couple times during the day, my watch too, all were Goten. I threw my phone and watch across the room the first time I saw his name appear when it rang. Marron had informed my parents I was at her house and not to mention my whereabouts to Goten. It was about 4:30 in the morning and I had cried myself to sleep for about 3 hours before hand. I got up and walked over to my phone and watch. I had missed 14 calls and had 5 messages on my watch. I began dialing my voice mail to check the messages he left
"New message sent yesterday, 3:45pm: Hey baby it's me just calling to see where you were since you weren't at the beach house. Um, give me a call when you can ok. I love you. Bye."
"New message sent yesterday 6:34pm: It's me again, I guess you're still busy or something because you still haven't called. Well, just calling to see if you wanted to have dinner with me tonight to make up for leaving this morning and uh, you know to maybe get a little frisky under the sheets again. Unless, you're still tired from last night's marathon, whoo you're beautiful baby. I mean it. I love you so so so much, give me a call if you still want to eat out or if you want me to eat you rarr. Hehe, I love you baby, call me later ok love you ok, bye."
I rolled my eyes and wanted to yell at the message but I was still too weak to do anything.
"New message sent yesterday 11:48pm: Ah, you know it's me again. Baby where are you? I've been calling you all day and you haven't picked up or called me back. I don't even know where you are. You're not at the beach house, you're not at home, not at my house, not with Pan, not even with Marron. Where are you? Did you go with your brother to a business trip and forgot to tell me or something? Honey where are you? Are you mad at me? Baby if you're mad at me let me know, I'm getting worried here. Please don't be mad. I know leaving this morning was wrong but it was an emergency. I'm sorry baby. Please pick up your phone or watch anything just let me know you're ok... give me a call please? I love you... I love you, ok Bye baby."
"New message sent today 2:02am: Baby...sigh it's 2am right now and you still haven't called back. I'm getting tired and sleepy but I'm still waiting for you to call back. Your phone isn't off since I get the voicemail after a couple rings, but where are you. Are you ok? Are you mad at me for leaving this morning? If you are please let me know and I'll make it up to you please baby, I'm getting really worried back here... please. I love you, bye.- End of new messages."
I shook my head, I'm not calling you back not now not ever. I don't want to talk to you again. You're worried about me, fine! worry all the fuck you want. You desereve everything you get you lying son of a bitch!
Next up, the messages on the watch. I was kind of afraid to play them since I'd see his face, but at least I could see the reaction of him being worried... I played them as he looked a bit normal during the first couple of messages then his expression got worse with every message, his messages were basically the same but he seemed to leave more camera messages between 2-3am asking where I was and that he was really worried. I could see it on his face. It hurt like hell just seeing him on the screen as he said false words in the message.
I cried more again that night and wrote Marron a note thanking her and I had to get going and I'd call her ASAP. Then I flew to Goten's. I had the whole day to mope around about it, now it was time to let my feelings out to him. I couldn't lie around crying and not letting him know WHY I was crying. He needs to know that I know. If he even attempts to comfort me in ANY WAY AGH! I'm not going to have him try to get me back no!
I got there and began knocking on his window. The curtain opened and there he stood in his boxers as my eyes began helplessly flooding in tears. I couldn't help myself. How was I supposed to keep a straight face when the person I was told who loved me and I fell in love with, be right in front of my face after knowing that during the last 2 months he's been lying to me? He instantly came out and held me in his arms.
"Oh, baby, baby, baby what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
After realizing I was crying on his chest I shoved him as hard as I could as he hit the wall behind him. I flew up in hopes he'd follow me as I heard him in a rush fumbling into the house to grab some clothes
"Wait, Bra?"
I could hear him flying behind me trying to catch up.
"Bra, honey what's wrong? Bra... will you stop? HEY!"
I stopped unnoticingly at the beach where we were at last night. I was too emotionally drained and physically worn out to fly anywhere else.
"Hey, hey. Baby, what's wrong?"
He stood in front of me and rubbed my arms as my face was cupped in my hands. I shook him off me and took steps back as he took them forward. I tried clearing my face from the tears that flowed uncontrollably. But it seemed as if every time it would clear up, the site of his worried face made everything go blurry again.
"Bra. Bra? Will you say something?"
"STOP IT GET AWAY FROM ME!"
"Get away from you?"
"Don't touch me Goten."
"Bra, what's wrong? What did I do?"
"Will you just STAY AWAY FROM ME!" I turned around, my back facing him as I walked furiously on the shore of the beach.
"Are you mad at me for leaving this morning?"
"Stop following me Goten!"
"Bra, you came to my house crying, did you honestly think I wouldn't follow you and find out what's wrong?"
"And did YOU honestly think I wouldn't FIND OUT!"
"Find out? Find out what?"
"This morning! This morning when you left to go to work! OR Should I say DIDN'T go to work and left me to go to PARIS' HOUSE!"
"Oh... yeah. I'm sorry honey, but I didn't want you to know I went to Paris' again. But... baby she's still sick and I-"
"STOP IT!"
"Baby come on will you let me t--"
"STOP CALLING ME BABY!"
"What? Why? I always call you baby."
"STOP CALLING ME THAT! It's BRA ok! I'm tired of you calling me BABY!"
"What's the big idea Bra?"
"I'm tired of hearing about damn babies Goten! So shut up!"
"Tell me what's wrong and I'll stop calling you baby!"
"SHUT... UP GOTEN!"
"Bra, whatever I did I-"
"I'M SICK OF THIS!"
"What do you mean?"
"Geez, did you think you could just go on about our relationship just fine and NOT tell me she was PREGNANT!"
"Bra, what're you talking about I told you Paris isn't pregnant."
"..."
"Bra."
"..." I continued walking faster.
"So this is what happens. I call you all day wondering where you are. You show up knocking on my window at 5am CRYING while I, TRYING to be a good boyfriend try to figure out what's wrong and fix things and ALL you can do is RUN AWAY LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO BRA!"
"a good boyfriend, you don't know how to be a good boyfriend." I said quietly to myself.
"Hey! If you're going to say something SAY IT TO MY FACE!"
"..."
"Bra."
"..."
"BRA WILL YOU STOP!" He caught up and grabbed my arm swinging me to face him
"FUCK OFF GOTEN! I HEARD THE WHOLE THING!"
"Heard the whole thing? Bra what are you talking about? What did you hear?" I yanked my arm off his grip as the hot tears continued flowing down my face.
"Geez, Goten will you STOP playing dumb with me you idiot! I was on three-way when Kirei called you this afternoon and you two talked about KARUME!"
"What?"
"That'll be her name right? Karume is what Paris chose if it's a girl and you would choose if it's a BOY!"
"What are you--?"
"Today, when Kirei called you. I was at Marron's house and I had told her to call you but with me on the other line."
"You... were on the other line?"
"Yes. So don't deny the fact that you and Paris are having a baby together."
"Bra... I... I'm sorry Bra."
"Yeah, sure. See that's all you do Goten, when something bad happens ALL you do is say 'I'm sorry' and you think I'll forgive you EVERYTIME?"
"I just found out about a week ago and I... I just didn't know how to tell you."
"When did you plan to tell me Goten?"
"I don't know. I just found out. I didn't know how to tell you. Everything just happened so fast. All I tried to do was keep you happy."
"And this was how you did it? Keeping something like that away from me?"
"I knew something shitty would come out of this, so I tried to hold onto how happy we were for as long as I could."
"If you had TOLD me something happened between you, I wouldn't be as mad about you as I am NOW!"
"I... What was I supposed to do? Just bring it up 'hey Bra, I'm having a baby with Paris see ya.' No. I loved you too much to hurt you like that."
"Fuck off with that love shit. It doesn't work on me anymore, Goten."
"Bay- AH, Bra I'm sorry."
"..."
"...I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry isn't the key for me to forgive you, I don't care Goten. This is it. It's over. Go be with her. I have a lot to say believe me. But right now, I don't want to see you. I just came to let you know that I found out and I don't want to be with you ever. Goodbye Goten"
"..." He said nothing as I flew off home... My phone and watch kept ringing non-stop with Goten all over it.