Episode 07: Let Me Be With You
Part 2

2 weeks later

Knock Knock Knock

"Bra?"

"..."

"Bra?"

"I don't feel like talking."

"It's me Marron."

"..."

"I'm coming in."

I stayed laying in my bed with my back to the door, crumpled up like a ball when she walked in. Tears slowly came down as I knew she came in to try to comfort me.

"You're brother sent me in here."

'Great just what I needed...' I thought sarcastically to myself

"They all left to work at the offices for the rest of the day when they sent me over. So it's just you and me if you want to vent about anything."

"..."

"She told me you didn't want to talk to anyone, kept yourself locked in your room, and have barely finished the food they send up here for you for almost two weeks now."

"..."

"I know this is bugging you right now, but you need to just let it go. Goten is a dick we all know that, but it doesn't change the fact with him and Paris."

"...oh gee, thanks for the support." I said in an angry manner.

"I'm sorry, I know I should be more supportive. But how much longer can you keep this up Bra?"

"Can you just go please?"

"Bra, I'm s-"

"You're not helping my situation in anyway, so please. I'd like to deal with this on my own."

"No, I'm not lea-"

"Marron...please just go. I'll be fine. I just need time to process everything."

"Then will you call me as soon as you can?"

"Yeah..."

"bye."

She left my room and I began crying a bit as soon as she left. How could she say to 'just let it go'? LET IT GO? LET KIREI CARRY TRUNKS' BABY AND ASK YOURSELF IF YOU CAN JUST LET IT GO! I laid still in my bed, all cried out, just in silence as I stared at the wall ahead of me. I began dazing off at the picture I placed there about 3 weeks ago. It was a picture of Goten and I. I was standing behind him with my arms wrapped around him and his hands placed on my arms with smiles of happiness on our faces.

"Aww Goten!"

"I know it's your favorite picture of us, so I thought I'd enlarge it to an 8X10 so you could place it in your room somewhere with the other pictures."

"I remember taking this picture on my birthday at the beach! Aww thank you Goten! I love you!"

"I love you too."

I had gotten weak over the past two weeks, doing nothing but staying in my room, barely eating as Marron mentioned. I sat up at the head of my bed and stared at my room, my heart pounded with hatred as I stared looking at all the pictures that were up of him or us. Anger grew hard and deep in my mind, my teeth began cringing, without looking my arm extended, grabbing the picture attached to the wall and I ripped it off and tossed it up. I got up and pulled down more pictures on the walls, and smashing it on the ground as I began tearing up.

"YOU ASSHOLE! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?" I yelled as I swept the top of my dresser clean of all the frames.

"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GOTEN! DAMMIT! I HATE YOU GOTEN! I HATE YOU!" I continued yelling sweeping more picture off the tops of my things in my room, just clearing out things that reminded me of him.

"DAMMIT I LOVED YOU! HOW THE HELL CAN THIS HAPPEN IF YOU LOVED ME? WHY? WHY GOTEN? WHY DID I EVEN BEGIN THIS SHIT WITH YOU!" I grabbed one of the frames and smashed it against my dresser, breaking it. I pulled the picture out, not caring that I had recieved a small cut or two from the glass.

"You meant everything to me! AGHHHHHH!" I was frustrated and was finally letting all my anger out since no one was home.

"AHHHHH! GOOOTEEENNN!" I ripped the picture in tons of pieces and threw it up like snow. I continued on yelling and breaking frames either with my fist or smashing another frame into it then taking out the pictures and ripping them. I was so angry. Finally after an hour or two passed, I was sitting in the middle of my room just crying my eyes dry. My eyes were full of pain, they had been drained out for the past two weeks. My complexion was unbarable, I looked terrible, but had no sense in caring. Who would I need to look good for anyways? It's not like I had the strength to get up and go out. I sat in silence, thinking about everything as I was calming down.

"Dammit Goten... I hate you... i hate you... GOTEN I HATE YOU!" I finally yelled outloud before collapsing into my hands crying again.

"...so you really hate me that much?"

I quickly turned around clearing my eyes, there he stood in my doorway looking miserable.

"Get out of here." I got up and pathetically began pushing onto his chest to leave. I stared at nothing but his chest. I didn't want to look up to see his face at all.

"GET OUT GOTEN! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU! GO!" I yelled, as I began pounding on his chest. "GOTEN GO HOME GO TO PARIS & YOUR KID, AND LEAVE ME ALOOONE!"

I continued pounding weaker and weaker as I continued crying. My voice grew weak, and all HE could do was stand still with his arms by his sides staring at whatever. "goten please... just leave me alone... don't you think you've done enough... i hate you and i don't want to see you ever again... don't you get it?"

I stopped pounding and just grabbed the middle of his shirt as I stared at it continuing to cry.

"how could you do this to me goten..."

I then felt him squeeze me against him, his arms wrapped around my back as he held me tightly to him. This feeling was like before, the feeling of him holding me like this. It was familiar, like nothing had changed...we stayed silent for a long amount of minutes. I let go of his shirt slowly, and wrapped my arms around him tightly as I just cried and cried, like something would change, but I knew deep down it wouldn't.

I felt like any moment he would tilt my head up and kiss me and everything would be alright, like he could look at me with a smile and say 'Bra, honey. Paris isn't pregnant, it was a false alarm, she had her period this morning...' But this didn't work like that. It'll never be like it was before and I'll never be able to have him be mine again...

I felt him tilt his head forward as he continued holding me and quietly spoke, "...did you get any of my messages?"

I shook my head slowly. We never looked at each other, I kept my cheek against his chest, continuing to stare off and I could feel he did nothing but stare straight foreward as well. Maybe it was just too hard for us to look at each other.

"... i left quite a few."

"Goten what's your point? I didn't want to listen to any of your excuses."

"I've had 14 sleepless nights without you Bra."

"..."

"... holding you like this again. Do you know how good this feels?"

"..."

"...bra..." His voice began to weaken almost like a sound of a whisper. I said nothing, instead I slowly raised my head up to try to look at him. He looked straight foreward still, then I felt a drop fall to my face. Tears were beginning to roll down his face. I had seen him cry once before, but this was different, this cry was of more sorrow than I had ever seen on his face. Still he wouldn't look at me. I could tell he was trying to hold his tears back as he stared straight, but it couldn't be helped...

"...bra... i'm... in love with you."

My face expressed anger hearing the words...

"...I love you, Bra."

"NO!" I pushed him as hard as I could out of the door way, slamming it shut and locking it in front of him. I hit the door with the side of my fist as my knees grew weak and I slowly sat on the floor with my forehead against the door. I pounded it one more time as tears dropped once again.

"goten it doesn't work like that... you can't just make this big of a mistake and just say I love you as an apology."

"...I know. I'm sorry. You didn't deserve this Bra. I didn't ever want to see you like this... I'm sorry."

"...sorry won't change anything Goten."

"But I really am in love with you Bra. You have to at least know that much..."

"I thought I knew..."

"Bra, I do love you."

"Then why did you sleep with her again Goten."

"I...I don't know."

"Didn't you think the first time was bad enough?"

"..."

"How did you let this happen Goten? You knew how much I loved you. You don't have any excuse this time..."

"... If I explain myself will you listen?"

I said nothing, what was there for him to explain? He has no excuses for having sex with her again.

Goten: There I was sitting with my back against her door. We stayed quiet for minutes, I didn't know if explaining myself would do us any good at all. I can't tell her it was an accident. She's never going to forgive me. But I'm still going to fight for her. She's still the one person I truely love. Even if I'm having this baby, I don't want to marry Paris, I want to spend the rest of my life with Bra. But she'll never understand that after all I've put her through.

"...it happened two months ago, after we broke up."

Would I really be making any sense? Who cares when it happened, all I know is I bet she's thinking it didn't matter when, the fact is that I had done something I know was wrong.

"...A month and a half had already passed since you broke up with me. Do you remember that night we had that huge argument when I tried to get you back after all that time?"

"..."

"You told me I didn't deserve you and our relationship meant nothing to you. You said it was like a buying a pair of new white sneakers. First you love and take care of it, making sure it's clean and you want to wear them all the time. Then after a while you start to lose intrest and you start to not care anymore, later to just throw them away for a new pair... Do you remember that?"

"..."

"So I felt like I meant nothing to you. Like you didn't love me and just wanted to throw me away for someone new. Isn't that right?"

"..."

"So that week, I was angry and frustrated because I didn't know what I was supposed to do to change the way you felt. Paris called about a week before you told me I was meaningless, then I called her later the week that happened and told her. She then had told me she was coming in to town for a day or two and wanted to see me to make sure everything would be alright."

"..."

"...She laid by my side that night while we talked... then we talked about the good times we used to have. I got caught up in the moment and... that's when it happened."

I could hear her weeping quietly by the door...

"I don't know why it happened or how. If I could change it I would. I'd take back all the pain you're going through right now just to be with you again."

"...Goten, please... just go." She asked in a weakened manner. I knew she was hurting, I wanted to just break through the door to hold her and tell her how sorry I was and no matter what I was going to try and work things out with her... but she didn't seem like she wanted to understand. All she knew was I had slept with someone else and now I was having a child with someone other than herself.

"...Bra..."

"It's pretty obvious you know."

"...What is?"

"The way you say you don't know why or how it happened."

"..."

"You're allowed one mistake Goten. That's what you told me the first time this happened."

"..."

"I took your mistake, now you made it again and I'm not going to be as forgiving."

"I know, that's why I was scared to tell you. I was afraid the first time, now I'm terrified."

"It doesn't matter if you're scared, it's pretty clear to me that you and I just aren't meant to be."

"...but,... how?"

"Deep down inside, you still love Paris. You always have. You might've fallen in love with me, but inside, it's a different story."

"Bra..."

"That's why it happened. If you didn't still have feelings for her, you wouldn't have let it happen. Your feelings for me would've been strong enough to hold you back. But it wasn't."

"But they ARE strong Bra. But I couldn't be strong enough on my own because you weren't there."

"... That's why I'm leaving."

"?"

"I'm moving away from you. My mom has set me up for some company business to take care of away from here. So I'm taking the job."

"..."

"...I'm leaving tomorrow morning. My things are already packed up and in a car. Don't come after me, nothing will change. Even if she were to have her period and the whole pregancy was a mistake, nothing would change. I still wouldn't want you back in my life, nor would I have the need to see you again."

"...So no matter what, you're saying I can't be with you anymore."

"sigh Goodbye Goten."

"So that's it. Everything we worked so hard for, you're just willing to throw it all away?"

"You did, why can't I?"

"Because I'm willing to work at it Bra. I've told you that I'd fight to be with you no matter what the case."

"..."

"But as always, you're wanting to just run away from it like you do with all our problems."

"I don't care. You caused this, so you deal with it. I'm not fighting for something that wasn't fully mine to begin with."

"Bra!"

"Goodbye Goten." I heard a noise, like she had left the room through her window? Fear ran through my vains, did she really leave like that?

"Bra open the door!" I began pounding on the door

"..."

"BRA! OPEN UP!" My pounding became louder... but still no sound.

"..."

With no hesitation I shoved the door open.

"BRA!?"

I saw nothing, I looked around her room hoping she'd be hiding. Nothing, I went outside the window and flew around the area trying to find her.

"BRAAA!!!" I couldn't sense her ki anywhere. Where could she have gone? I continued calling out to her, hoping I'd find some trace...

"BRA!!!" Bra: I heard the sound of his voice continue to yell out my name as I stayed hidden on the branches of a tree not far from my house. I had watched him search for me for hours. Waiting for time to pass before it was clear enough for me to fly to the airport to catch my flight. There was nothing left for him to say to me. So what was the point in showing myself? He looked so lost, I felt bad for doing this to him, but I had to. I loved him so much, although he hurt me more, it hurts me just to leave him like this, but there's nothing else we both can do now... we'll have to get through this on our own. No interruptions, no continuation, no more... us. Good-bye Mizummi, Tegami... and Goten. You're future lies with Karume and Paris now.

"My eternal love has ended... good-bye Goten." I finally said quietly as his back was turned and I left quietly and quickly in the opposite direction as him...

"...FLIGHT 4834 TO TOKYO, JAPAN IS NOW BOARDING. FIRST CLASS SEATS NOW. PLEASE HAVE YOUR TICKETS AND ID OR PASSPORT READY."

I stood up from my seat and looked behind me to my mom.

"This is it..."

"Take care Bra."

"Thanks for doing this for me." I gave her one last long hug.

"Remember, you can always come back here. I'll make sure your father keeps Goten away when you're here." I gave her a little chuckle as I loosened up and picked up my carry on.

"I love you mom."

"I love you too dear."

"Please tell Trunks and dad too. And tell Marron and Pan I'm sorry for not telling them sooner."

"It's ok. I'm sure they'll understand. It's all last minute anyway."

"Bye."

"Bye." I began walking toward the gate, waving bye to my crying mom as I left... not to look back again, to my past and pain. This hurt me more than this hurts you Goten because now, now you'll be free to be happy with her and your child without worrying about how I feel. I'm going now. I won't have to see that cheerful smile of yours. I won't have to feel you hold me safely in your arms. I won't have to hear you breathing next to me. I won't have to hear you say I love you and know how it feels to be in love with you anymore. Because I know with her is where you really belong. So it's alright, it's alright with me because I know deep down you're much happier with her and you love her more deeper than me...

"Goodbye Goten... I love you." I lastly said as I looked out of the window as we were flying out of the city to a place where I would be for some time, a place where maybe I could find that something that makes me happy once again...

The End... or is it?