"If only I could read your mind"
Disclaimer: Nope...I still don't own them, maybe in my dreams. ^_^ and I also don't own the lyrics of the song I used in this chapter, but I did change it a little. So don't sue me.
"..." = speaking
*...* = thoughts
~~~...~~~ = flashback
Chapter 11: Another kiss?
"Eh..." I didn't know what to say. I looked away. "I don't know..." I said carefully. *What could I say to him?* I thought. "Um...give me some time to think about it..." I said, trying to say something that wouldn't hurt him.
But it didn't work. His face fell and the little hope he had left, was gone. I saw it all by looking in his eyes. *No! Trunks, don't give up yet!* my heart yelled, but I couldn't get one word out of my mouth...
After a few minutes of silence, he finally said something. "Are you still going to Paris?" he asked, hoping I wouldn't go.
"Um... I...uh...I already said yes to him, so..." I said, looking at the ground. I just couldn't look him in the eye anymore. I thought he was going to leave or something like that, but he didn't instead he began walking towards me and stopped a few inches in front of me. I slowly turned my head to face him, curious of what he was about to do. His face came closer to mine, so that our faces were just a few inches away from each other.
"Can I have one last kiss then?" he whispered hopefully and he moved closer and closer. Our lips almost met. *Oh my god, he's going to kiss me again!* I thought. My heart was racing. I didn't know what to do. *Should I kiss him?* I asked myself.
*No, you can't let this happen again! Think about Mirai Trunks!* my mind suddenly yelled at me. Hearing that name made me think. *If I kiss him then it would be cheating on Mirai Trunks. I can't do that to him!* I thought, so I stopped him from coming any closer by putting my hand on his mouth.
"I...I don't think this is a good idea" I said to him. He stood there for a while, looking at me and said nothing. Then he stepped back.
"Well...I guess I better go then..." he said in a sad tone and began walking towards the window. "Bye" he said, before flying out the window. I couldn't say anything, I just stood there watching him fly away...
~May 27th~
Last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I just couldn't stop thinking about him (you know who I mean, right?) and what happened yesterday. This is the thousandth time I can't sleep because of him...why is he always on my mind? I ask myself.
My stomach growled, so I got dressed and went downstairs for some breakfast. My mother was in the kitchen, sitting at the kitchen table eating breakfast.
"Hi mom" I said, when I walked in.
"Good morning honey" she said to me.
"Where's dad?" I asked her, when I didn't see my dad sitting on his usual seat.
"Oh he's still sleeping. It's his day off" she replied.
"Ok" I said and sat down on the seat next to my mom and began to eat. Suddenly I realised, I hadn't told my parents, I was going to Paris with Mirai Trunks. "Um...mom I almost forgot to tell you that I'm going to Paris with Mirai Trunks for one week" I said a rather quickly.
"Oh when?" she asked, a little overwhelmed.
"The day after tomorrow" I said, eating the last bit of my food.
"I'm ok with it, but does your dad know you're going? You know he will get concerned and all" she said, "So you will have to ask him"
Before I could say something back, the doorbell rang. "I'll get it" I said. I stood up and walked to the door to open it. It was Goten and Bra.
"Hi, you guys. What are you two doing here?" I said.
"Can't I visit my favourite niece, before she goes to Paris?" Goten said with a big Son smile on his face.
"Can we come in?" Bra then asked, before I could say something back to Goten.
"Of course you can" I said and stepped aside, so that they could come in. "But to be honest, I don't have much time to hang out with you two today, because I haven't start packing yet and I'm leaving the day after tomorrow".
"Ok, hey maybe we can help" Bra said.
"Don't you have anything better to do then?" I asked, wondering why they would want to help me pack.
"Eh no, not really" Goten said.
"Ok then. Let's go upstairs" I said and began walking up the stairs to my room and Goten and Bra soon followed.
"Wait here" I said to them when we were in my room. "I have to ask my dad something" I said and walked to my parent's room. I knocked on the door, but nobody answered so I opened the door and walked towards the bed.
"Dad?" I whispered, but he still didn't answer. *He must be still asleep* I thought. "Dad?" I said a little louder this time.
"Mm..what?" my dad said yawning.
"I have to ask you something" I said.
He looked up. "What is it?" he said still half-sleeping.
"Uh...I'm going to Paris with Mirai Trunks for one week the day after tomorrow" I said rather quickly.
"Oh ok" he said and went back to sleep.
*That's weird* I thought, *He usually gets concerned and all and starts asking all sorts of questions* I didn't think much about it, because I was happy that I could go so I went back to my room, where Goten and Bra were waiting for me.
"Ok, let's start packing" I said happy, when I entered my room. I walked to the closet to get my suitcase out, so that we could start packing.
One hour later we were almost finished packing. "So where were you when we had our annual picnic of the Sons and Briefs?" I asked my uncle Goten.
"I forgot!" he said almost yelling, "I can't believe I mist all the food! And nobody left something for me!" he said, sounding like a little child, whose candy had just been stolen.
I almost couldn't hold my laugh. It was just the way, he said it that was so funny.
"Oh wait, I almost forgot to tell you. My brother came home very late last night and I could swear he was sobbing in his room, when I walked past his room to the bathroom" Bra suddenly came in the middle of the conversation.
*What?!* I thought, *He was crying, because of me??* At that thought my heart ached. "W-What? Are you sure?" I said, still not believing it.
"Yeah I'm sure, he's been doing that a lot lately" she said, "Do you know what happened?" she asked me.
I didn't know what to say to her, but I did want to tell her what had happened yesterday. "Um..." I began, "...Remember when you came back from shopping with Mirai Trunks?" I said.
"Yes, what happened?!" she asked, very curious.
"Well...just before you walked in, Trunks kissed me..." I said, wondering how she would react. From the corner of my eyes I could see Goten sitting there listening very carefully.
"HE DID WHAT?!" she yelled, getting all excited.
I didn't want to respond to that so I just went on... "And last night, he came to my room to ask me if there was any chance for him and me..." I said, while thinking back of what happened last night.
~~~"I have to know..." he said softly, "If there's any chance for you and me..."~~~ I heard in my head repeatedly...
"And what did you say?" Bra and Goten asked at the same time.
"I said that I didn't know and that I have to think about that" I carefully said.
"You still don't know who you love more?!" Bra asked me. I slowly shook my head. "Well...you better find out soon!" she said.
"I know, I know..." I said, putting my last things in my suitcase. "Done!" I said. "Let's go get something to eat, packing makes you hungry"
"Yeah, I'm hungry too!" Goten said getting excited and jumped up from the bed.
"Fine..." Bra said and we walked to the kitchen to get something to eat.
On our way downstairs, I saw my parents sitting together in the living room watching the TV. I walked to the refrigerator to get something to eat. Bra and Goten sat down at the table. "Here" I said to them and gave them a sandwich. I also sat down and began eating my sandwich.
"Hey did you know Marron and Uub broke up?" Bra said with her mouth almost full.
"WHAT!? They broke up?! I thought they were very happy together!" I yelled, I couldn't believe what I was hearing, Marron with her perfect little life, her perfect boyfriend, broke up??
"Yeah, I can't believe it either! They are having a big fight, but I think it will be over soon. You know how Marron is" Bra said.
"Yeah, unfortunately I do..." I said, taking another bite.
"Yeah, I bet they will get together by next week or something like that, they always do" Bra said very convincing.
"Ypeamhh..." Goten said with his mouth full, trying to join the conversation.
After we eat all the sandwiches in the refrigerator, Goten and Bra left and I went to the living room to watch TV with my parents...
~May 29th~
We (Mirai Trunks and I) are sitting in the plane right now. Mirai Trunks is sitting beside me. He's busy typing something important on his laptop and I'm sitting here writing in my diary, looking at the letter Trunks wrote...
I will start from the beginning.
This morning I woke up very early, because the plane would leave 9 o'clock sharp. I got dressed, got my suitcase and went downstairs. My parents were already standing by the door, waiting for me. We drove to the airport, where we would meet Mirai Trunks and the others of the Briefs family. When we arrived there they were already there waiting for us. Everyone was there, Mirai Trunks, Bra, Bulma and even Vegeta showed up. There was only one person missing, of course, it was Trunks. "Hi" I said cheerfully to everyone, but inside I was sad, because Trunks didn't show up to say goodbye. "Hey" Mirai Trunks said and walked towards me. He kissed me and I saw from the corner of my eyes that Vegeta was standing there shaking his head. *What's wrong with him?* I thought a second, then I remembered what he had said earlier.
~~~Flashback~~~
"Hmpf" said a voice behind me. I jumped a little and turned around to see who it was. I saw Vegeta standing there. "What are you doing, brat?" he asked me.
"Um nothing" I said casually.
"Trying to avoid my brat, I see" he said.
*How does he know that?* I asked myself. "Which one?" I asked, pretending I didn't know.
"You know perfectly fine which one!" he said with his harsh voice.
"Why do you care?" I said and tried to walk pass him. He grabbed my arm and said, "Because I want my son to be happy" he said. He let go of my arm and walked away.
"Wait! What do you mean?" I yelled after him, but he already disappeared into the Gravity Room.
~~~End flashback~~~
*Does he want me to be with Trunks?* I asked myself, but before I could think about it more the speaker said our plane was about the take off. "Well, we'd better go" Mirai Trunks said to me, so I said goodbye to everyone.
"Have a good flight!" my parents both said to me and I hugged them. "Thanks" I said to them.
"You have to tell me everything about Paris when you get back!" Bra said excited. "I will" I said happy.
"Oh wait, I had to give you this" she said and took out an envelope. "It's from Trunks" she said and gave it to me. I looked at it for a while, and then suddenly Vegeta came to me.
"I hope you know what you are doing, brat" he said to me, so that nobody else would hear it.
"Pan, Let's go, we will miss our flight if we don't go now" Mirai Trunks said to me and grabbed my hand, before I could say something back to Vegeta. "Bye" I said quickly to everyone.
Now I'm sitting here in the plane and I still haven't opened the letter from Trunks. I sighed. I picked up the envelope and slowly opened it. I took out the letter and started to read it. It was the lyrics of a song:
To Pan,
-
Never thought the end would be like this
The endless love in my mind,
was not what I expected
-
Each night I cry myself to sleep
Wondering why you're not here next to me
Love is a wonderful thing
But why must I have this feeling
-
Why did you leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But everything we get to close
and I tell myself, nothing's gonna happen
-
My love for you is like God to the world
And now I have his rain and you get the sunshine
Ohh baby, we had a lovely time together
And now I miss you like crazy, that why I'm writing you this letter
-
Each night I cry myself to sleep
You're not here kissing me tenderly
Love is a wonderful thing
That's why this song for you I sing
-
Why did have to leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But every time we get to close
and I tell myself there's nothing gonna happen
-
Yeah, I miss you, do you miss me too
You're so far away from me now
But I'll have to climb that tree and forget
You're leaving my life
-
Why did you leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But every time we get too close
And I tell myself, nothing's gonna happen......
-
Love you forever, Trunks
I let go of the letter. My heart ached. *Is this how he feels?* I thought. I looked at Mirai Trunks, but he was still typing on his laptop and then I looked at the letter and saw something written on the backside. I picked it up and read it.
"Have you ever loved someone that you just waited to long to tell them what you're feeling?"
A/N: Wow, this is the longest chapter I ever wrote. So what do think?? PLEASE review to say what you think!!! And then I will get the next chapter out as soon as possible!! P.S.: I know I don't say it much, but I want to say to everyone who reviewed: THANK YOU!!!
Disclaimer: Nope...I still don't own them, maybe in my dreams. ^_^ and I also don't own the lyrics of the song I used in this chapter, but I did change it a little. So don't sue me.
"..." = speaking
*...* = thoughts
~~~...~~~ = flashback
Chapter 11: Another kiss?
"Eh..." I didn't know what to say. I looked away. "I don't know..." I said carefully. *What could I say to him?* I thought. "Um...give me some time to think about it..." I said, trying to say something that wouldn't hurt him.
But it didn't work. His face fell and the little hope he had left, was gone. I saw it all by looking in his eyes. *No! Trunks, don't give up yet!* my heart yelled, but I couldn't get one word out of my mouth...
After a few minutes of silence, he finally said something. "Are you still going to Paris?" he asked, hoping I wouldn't go.
"Um... I...uh...I already said yes to him, so..." I said, looking at the ground. I just couldn't look him in the eye anymore. I thought he was going to leave or something like that, but he didn't instead he began walking towards me and stopped a few inches in front of me. I slowly turned my head to face him, curious of what he was about to do. His face came closer to mine, so that our faces were just a few inches away from each other.
"Can I have one last kiss then?" he whispered hopefully and he moved closer and closer. Our lips almost met. *Oh my god, he's going to kiss me again!* I thought. My heart was racing. I didn't know what to do. *Should I kiss him?* I asked myself.
*No, you can't let this happen again! Think about Mirai Trunks!* my mind suddenly yelled at me. Hearing that name made me think. *If I kiss him then it would be cheating on Mirai Trunks. I can't do that to him!* I thought, so I stopped him from coming any closer by putting my hand on his mouth.
"I...I don't think this is a good idea" I said to him. He stood there for a while, looking at me and said nothing. Then he stepped back.
"Well...I guess I better go then..." he said in a sad tone and began walking towards the window. "Bye" he said, before flying out the window. I couldn't say anything, I just stood there watching him fly away...
~May 27th~
Last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I just couldn't stop thinking about him (you know who I mean, right?) and what happened yesterday. This is the thousandth time I can't sleep because of him...why is he always on my mind? I ask myself.
My stomach growled, so I got dressed and went downstairs for some breakfast. My mother was in the kitchen, sitting at the kitchen table eating breakfast.
"Hi mom" I said, when I walked in.
"Good morning honey" she said to me.
"Where's dad?" I asked her, when I didn't see my dad sitting on his usual seat.
"Oh he's still sleeping. It's his day off" she replied.
"Ok" I said and sat down on the seat next to my mom and began to eat. Suddenly I realised, I hadn't told my parents, I was going to Paris with Mirai Trunks. "Um...mom I almost forgot to tell you that I'm going to Paris with Mirai Trunks for one week" I said a rather quickly.
"Oh when?" she asked, a little overwhelmed.
"The day after tomorrow" I said, eating the last bit of my food.
"I'm ok with it, but does your dad know you're going? You know he will get concerned and all" she said, "So you will have to ask him"
Before I could say something back, the doorbell rang. "I'll get it" I said. I stood up and walked to the door to open it. It was Goten and Bra.
"Hi, you guys. What are you two doing here?" I said.
"Can't I visit my favourite niece, before she goes to Paris?" Goten said with a big Son smile on his face.
"Can we come in?" Bra then asked, before I could say something back to Goten.
"Of course you can" I said and stepped aside, so that they could come in. "But to be honest, I don't have much time to hang out with you two today, because I haven't start packing yet and I'm leaving the day after tomorrow".
"Ok, hey maybe we can help" Bra said.
"Don't you have anything better to do then?" I asked, wondering why they would want to help me pack.
"Eh no, not really" Goten said.
"Ok then. Let's go upstairs" I said and began walking up the stairs to my room and Goten and Bra soon followed.
"Wait here" I said to them when we were in my room. "I have to ask my dad something" I said and walked to my parent's room. I knocked on the door, but nobody answered so I opened the door and walked towards the bed.
"Dad?" I whispered, but he still didn't answer. *He must be still asleep* I thought. "Dad?" I said a little louder this time.
"Mm..what?" my dad said yawning.
"I have to ask you something" I said.
He looked up. "What is it?" he said still half-sleeping.
"Uh...I'm going to Paris with Mirai Trunks for one week the day after tomorrow" I said rather quickly.
"Oh ok" he said and went back to sleep.
*That's weird* I thought, *He usually gets concerned and all and starts asking all sorts of questions* I didn't think much about it, because I was happy that I could go so I went back to my room, where Goten and Bra were waiting for me.
"Ok, let's start packing" I said happy, when I entered my room. I walked to the closet to get my suitcase out, so that we could start packing.
One hour later we were almost finished packing. "So where were you when we had our annual picnic of the Sons and Briefs?" I asked my uncle Goten.
"I forgot!" he said almost yelling, "I can't believe I mist all the food! And nobody left something for me!" he said, sounding like a little child, whose candy had just been stolen.
I almost couldn't hold my laugh. It was just the way, he said it that was so funny.
"Oh wait, I almost forgot to tell you. My brother came home very late last night and I could swear he was sobbing in his room, when I walked past his room to the bathroom" Bra suddenly came in the middle of the conversation.
*What?!* I thought, *He was crying, because of me??* At that thought my heart ached. "W-What? Are you sure?" I said, still not believing it.
"Yeah I'm sure, he's been doing that a lot lately" she said, "Do you know what happened?" she asked me.
I didn't know what to say to her, but I did want to tell her what had happened yesterday. "Um..." I began, "...Remember when you came back from shopping with Mirai Trunks?" I said.
"Yes, what happened?!" she asked, very curious.
"Well...just before you walked in, Trunks kissed me..." I said, wondering how she would react. From the corner of my eyes I could see Goten sitting there listening very carefully.
"HE DID WHAT?!" she yelled, getting all excited.
I didn't want to respond to that so I just went on... "And last night, he came to my room to ask me if there was any chance for him and me..." I said, while thinking back of what happened last night.
~~~"I have to know..." he said softly, "If there's any chance for you and me..."~~~ I heard in my head repeatedly...
"And what did you say?" Bra and Goten asked at the same time.
"I said that I didn't know and that I have to think about that" I carefully said.
"You still don't know who you love more?!" Bra asked me. I slowly shook my head. "Well...you better find out soon!" she said.
"I know, I know..." I said, putting my last things in my suitcase. "Done!" I said. "Let's go get something to eat, packing makes you hungry"
"Yeah, I'm hungry too!" Goten said getting excited and jumped up from the bed.
"Fine..." Bra said and we walked to the kitchen to get something to eat.
On our way downstairs, I saw my parents sitting together in the living room watching the TV. I walked to the refrigerator to get something to eat. Bra and Goten sat down at the table. "Here" I said to them and gave them a sandwich. I also sat down and began eating my sandwich.
"Hey did you know Marron and Uub broke up?" Bra said with her mouth almost full.
"WHAT!? They broke up?! I thought they were very happy together!" I yelled, I couldn't believe what I was hearing, Marron with her perfect little life, her perfect boyfriend, broke up??
"Yeah, I can't believe it either! They are having a big fight, but I think it will be over soon. You know how Marron is" Bra said.
"Yeah, unfortunately I do..." I said, taking another bite.
"Yeah, I bet they will get together by next week or something like that, they always do" Bra said very convincing.
"Ypeamhh..." Goten said with his mouth full, trying to join the conversation.
After we eat all the sandwiches in the refrigerator, Goten and Bra left and I went to the living room to watch TV with my parents...
~May 29th~
We (Mirai Trunks and I) are sitting in the plane right now. Mirai Trunks is sitting beside me. He's busy typing something important on his laptop and I'm sitting here writing in my diary, looking at the letter Trunks wrote...
I will start from the beginning.
This morning I woke up very early, because the plane would leave 9 o'clock sharp. I got dressed, got my suitcase and went downstairs. My parents were already standing by the door, waiting for me. We drove to the airport, where we would meet Mirai Trunks and the others of the Briefs family. When we arrived there they were already there waiting for us. Everyone was there, Mirai Trunks, Bra, Bulma and even Vegeta showed up. There was only one person missing, of course, it was Trunks. "Hi" I said cheerfully to everyone, but inside I was sad, because Trunks didn't show up to say goodbye. "Hey" Mirai Trunks said and walked towards me. He kissed me and I saw from the corner of my eyes that Vegeta was standing there shaking his head. *What's wrong with him?* I thought a second, then I remembered what he had said earlier.
~~~Flashback~~~
"Hmpf" said a voice behind me. I jumped a little and turned around to see who it was. I saw Vegeta standing there. "What are you doing, brat?" he asked me.
"Um nothing" I said casually.
"Trying to avoid my brat, I see" he said.
*How does he know that?* I asked myself. "Which one?" I asked, pretending I didn't know.
"You know perfectly fine which one!" he said with his harsh voice.
"Why do you care?" I said and tried to walk pass him. He grabbed my arm and said, "Because I want my son to be happy" he said. He let go of my arm and walked away.
"Wait! What do you mean?" I yelled after him, but he already disappeared into the Gravity Room.
~~~End flashback~~~
*Does he want me to be with Trunks?* I asked myself, but before I could think about it more the speaker said our plane was about the take off. "Well, we'd better go" Mirai Trunks said to me, so I said goodbye to everyone.
"Have a good flight!" my parents both said to me and I hugged them. "Thanks" I said to them.
"You have to tell me everything about Paris when you get back!" Bra said excited. "I will" I said happy.
"Oh wait, I had to give you this" she said and took out an envelope. "It's from Trunks" she said and gave it to me. I looked at it for a while, and then suddenly Vegeta came to me.
"I hope you know what you are doing, brat" he said to me, so that nobody else would hear it.
"Pan, Let's go, we will miss our flight if we don't go now" Mirai Trunks said to me and grabbed my hand, before I could say something back to Vegeta. "Bye" I said quickly to everyone.
Now I'm sitting here in the plane and I still haven't opened the letter from Trunks. I sighed. I picked up the envelope and slowly opened it. I took out the letter and started to read it. It was the lyrics of a song:
To Pan,
-
Never thought the end would be like this
The endless love in my mind,
was not what I expected
-
Each night I cry myself to sleep
Wondering why you're not here next to me
Love is a wonderful thing
But why must I have this feeling
-
Why did you leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But everything we get to close
and I tell myself, nothing's gonna happen
-
My love for you is like God to the world
And now I have his rain and you get the sunshine
Ohh baby, we had a lovely time together
And now I miss you like crazy, that why I'm writing you this letter
-
Each night I cry myself to sleep
You're not here kissing me tenderly
Love is a wonderful thing
That's why this song for you I sing
-
Why did have to leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But every time we get to close
and I tell myself there's nothing gonna happen
-
Yeah, I miss you, do you miss me too
You're so far away from me now
But I'll have to climb that tree and forget
You're leaving my life
-
Why did you leave my life
Why did you have other thoughts
There's nothing better than this feeling
But every time we get too close
And I tell myself, nothing's gonna happen......
-
Love you forever, Trunks
I let go of the letter. My heart ached. *Is this how he feels?* I thought. I looked at Mirai Trunks, but he was still typing on his laptop and then I looked at the letter and saw something written on the backside. I picked it up and read it.
"Have you ever loved someone that you just waited to long to tell them what you're feeling?"
A/N: Wow, this is the longest chapter I ever wrote. So what do think?? PLEASE review to say what you think!!! And then I will get the next chapter out as soon as possible!! P.S.: I know I don't say it much, but I want to say to everyone who reviewed: THANK YOU!!!