Well, on the ride home from the coffee shop, we were sitting there very
quietly. I've been thinking about what to do about the enemies. I haven't
quite explained them either.....its kind of confusing. James is a guy that we
think, in our past lives was obsessed with Hotaru, and, so, he must have
tried something and been severely punished by the royal family of Saturn.
We think it has to be somewhere along those lines since he likes to torture
Hotaru so much now. So, basically what happened, since I mentioned he had a
partner , is......well, less than a year ago, I cant quite remember when, he
decided he wanted a child, for power more or less, and maybe a companion as
well.
He's raped her many times in there, don't be fooled, just not out here, so have I......I've been raped by many women.......no men thank god, but quite a few women. It is not a good experience.....but it seems like all people want to do in there these days is rape others. So, he raped her as many times as it was necessary to get a child, although he still would have even if he wasn't trying to get a kid, and he does. He got what he wanted, anyway....and as soon as the child was old enough that she wouldn't die without a mother's care......pretty young......he snatched her away from Hotaru. Her name is Amber, and I shudder at the name.
I think he was a bit impatient with the growing process of the child even though it is relatively fast, because he decided to grab the older Amber from the future to be his companion, while still torturing the little one.. That is how he made the future one such a bitch: tortured the hell out of her since she was a little kid. Luckily, the younger Amber came to lie in our grasp,, but we still have to deal with the other one.
It is one thing to snap a child out of it.......but not after she's all grown up, and the damage is irreversible. Amber is.....ugh.....such a bitch....and, if you wanted to know, one of the women I've been raped by. Only once., I believe, but, ugh, I hate her. I have a little more sympathy for her than her father,though, because he made her that way.....she didn't really have a choice.
So, that's the story of our two "lovely" enemies. They all have stories somewhat like that......it's sad to see how much life can fuck somebody up..
Anyway, so I decided to make a proposition to her.
"Hotaru?"
"Hmm?"
"I've got an idea about what to do about James and Amber."
"What?"
"See, you can't take it, Hotaru, you really can't.......I mean....it's been.....how long since he raped you, at least a like, three months, and you still aren't quite alright from it."
"It's okay..."
"No, it isn't," I said kind of forcefully. Sometimes you had to be forceful with Hotaru because she just doesn't care about herself very much. Take a normal situation, and she'll feel bad for anybody else in it, but not herself. It bothers me sometimes. She's great, she really is.....and she thinks nothing of herself. I guess it's the balance.......you can't have everything. "It isn't okay, Hotaru, you can't take it. So, listen, I can."
I do not want to get raped as much as the next person, but, she is my best friend, and, honestly, we might be the same while we're being raped, and right afterwards, but in the way of long term stuff, I can recover a lot better than she can.
Her voice sounded a little shaky, you could tell she didn't like the idea. "No, no, Lita."
"Yes, Hotaru, I can take it."
"No, I can't let you do that."
"Hotaru, I'll be okay, but you.....you are still recovering from last time!"
"No, Lita,. I can't let you do that, I couldn't take it."
"Hotaru, I'd be alright, I can take it a lot better than you."
Her voice sounded even more emotional now. "No, I can't.....besides, they wouldn't want you."
"I'm going to, they'll do it if I offer, it's rape, they'll take it."
"Yeah, if you're so intent on it, and are offering it so freely they will. But, you don't get it......they'll have their way with you, and then do you know what they will do? They with rape me too."
"No., I'll think it over, I'll make a deal with them so they won't be able to hurt you" I said, making my voice sound very set on it.
She sighed. "I really can't take this, I really can't talk about this right now. It's been very tough lately.....and I just don't feel right, and I can't take anything else, especially this.....I don't even want to think about that happening to you."
"I can take it" I said again with conviction.
"Listen, Lita, I'll try to think of something else, some other alternative, and, we will deal with it when it comes, but, for now, can we please not talk about it?"
"Alright" I said, slumping back into my seat.
We turned onto my street, and made our way to my house. We usually sit in her car in my driveway and talk for a while after we go someplace, but today she had to run somewhere, so, we said our goodbyes, and I went into the house.
It was around four, and my mom was starting up dinner. My dad was out playing gold of something, I don't know, he's so obsessed with that damn sport that I hate it now.
I grabbed some of my leftovers from the other day from the fridge, poured it on a plate, mixed it up at bit, and shoved it in the microwave. I don't eat with my family, I am a vegetarian., and hey aren't. Occasionally our dinners cross paths and she'll make some for me, but, usually I'm on my own. My dad's on some diet, anyway, so he usually cooks for himself. We all kind of cook for ourselves.
My mom looked up from her cooking. "Hi, Lita, how was coffee?"
"Fine" I said half-assedly. I don't really like talking to my mom much,. We don't really see eye to eye, and she doesn't really know me very well. All the Negaverse stuff, it's not like I can tell her that stuff, or off to the nut house I'd go. Sometimes I'm in the mood to talk to her, but today wasn't one of them.
The microwave beeped, and I grabbed my dinner and some chopsticks and headed upstairs. I eat upstairs......I see no point at sitting at the table when no one's there, or sitting talking to my mom. I entered my room and did the usual routine. I took off my shirt and pants, and replaced them with pajama pants and a t-shirt. I like to wear that stuff in the evening and stuff, but I like to sleep naked. I grabbed a pillow, put it on the floor, plopped down on it, and grabbed the remote. I watch TV A LOT. I swear I can sit there and recite every damn commercial there is. I've done it before too.
I watched TV and ate my dinner, but, what was really on my mind was James and Amber. They are going to be back soon, I can feel it, and, I was a bit uneasy with losing my virginity and all to that bitch Amber. You see, part of the deal if they threaten rape you is you can't struggle and you let them tie you up. That means they can do whatever the HELL they want to you. Not a comforting thought......but I'd do it for Hotaru, she deserved that.
He's raped her many times in there, don't be fooled, just not out here, so have I......I've been raped by many women.......no men thank god, but quite a few women. It is not a good experience.....but it seems like all people want to do in there these days is rape others. So, he raped her as many times as it was necessary to get a child, although he still would have even if he wasn't trying to get a kid, and he does. He got what he wanted, anyway....and as soon as the child was old enough that she wouldn't die without a mother's care......pretty young......he snatched her away from Hotaru. Her name is Amber, and I shudder at the name.
I think he was a bit impatient with the growing process of the child even though it is relatively fast, because he decided to grab the older Amber from the future to be his companion, while still torturing the little one.. That is how he made the future one such a bitch: tortured the hell out of her since she was a little kid. Luckily, the younger Amber came to lie in our grasp,, but we still have to deal with the other one.
It is one thing to snap a child out of it.......but not after she's all grown up, and the damage is irreversible. Amber is.....ugh.....such a bitch....and, if you wanted to know, one of the women I've been raped by. Only once., I believe, but, ugh, I hate her. I have a little more sympathy for her than her father,though, because he made her that way.....she didn't really have a choice.
So, that's the story of our two "lovely" enemies. They all have stories somewhat like that......it's sad to see how much life can fuck somebody up..
Anyway, so I decided to make a proposition to her.
"Hotaru?"
"Hmm?"
"I've got an idea about what to do about James and Amber."
"What?"
"See, you can't take it, Hotaru, you really can't.......I mean....it's been.....how long since he raped you, at least a like, three months, and you still aren't quite alright from it."
"It's okay..."
"No, it isn't," I said kind of forcefully. Sometimes you had to be forceful with Hotaru because she just doesn't care about herself very much. Take a normal situation, and she'll feel bad for anybody else in it, but not herself. It bothers me sometimes. She's great, she really is.....and she thinks nothing of herself. I guess it's the balance.......you can't have everything. "It isn't okay, Hotaru, you can't take it. So, listen, I can."
I do not want to get raped as much as the next person, but, she is my best friend, and, honestly, we might be the same while we're being raped, and right afterwards, but in the way of long term stuff, I can recover a lot better than she can.
Her voice sounded a little shaky, you could tell she didn't like the idea. "No, no, Lita."
"Yes, Hotaru, I can take it."
"No, I can't let you do that."
"Hotaru, I'll be okay, but you.....you are still recovering from last time!"
"No, Lita,. I can't let you do that, I couldn't take it."
"Hotaru, I'd be alright, I can take it a lot better than you."
Her voice sounded even more emotional now. "No, I can't.....besides, they wouldn't want you."
"I'm going to, they'll do it if I offer, it's rape, they'll take it."
"Yeah, if you're so intent on it, and are offering it so freely they will. But, you don't get it......they'll have their way with you, and then do you know what they will do? They with rape me too."
"No., I'll think it over, I'll make a deal with them so they won't be able to hurt you" I said, making my voice sound very set on it.
She sighed. "I really can't take this, I really can't talk about this right now. It's been very tough lately.....and I just don't feel right, and I can't take anything else, especially this.....I don't even want to think about that happening to you."
"I can take it" I said again with conviction.
"Listen, Lita, I'll try to think of something else, some other alternative, and, we will deal with it when it comes, but, for now, can we please not talk about it?"
"Alright" I said, slumping back into my seat.
We turned onto my street, and made our way to my house. We usually sit in her car in my driveway and talk for a while after we go someplace, but today she had to run somewhere, so, we said our goodbyes, and I went into the house.
It was around four, and my mom was starting up dinner. My dad was out playing gold of something, I don't know, he's so obsessed with that damn sport that I hate it now.
I grabbed some of my leftovers from the other day from the fridge, poured it on a plate, mixed it up at bit, and shoved it in the microwave. I don't eat with my family, I am a vegetarian., and hey aren't. Occasionally our dinners cross paths and she'll make some for me, but, usually I'm on my own. My dad's on some diet, anyway, so he usually cooks for himself. We all kind of cook for ourselves.
My mom looked up from her cooking. "Hi, Lita, how was coffee?"
"Fine" I said half-assedly. I don't really like talking to my mom much,. We don't really see eye to eye, and she doesn't really know me very well. All the Negaverse stuff, it's not like I can tell her that stuff, or off to the nut house I'd go. Sometimes I'm in the mood to talk to her, but today wasn't one of them.
The microwave beeped, and I grabbed my dinner and some chopsticks and headed upstairs. I eat upstairs......I see no point at sitting at the table when no one's there, or sitting talking to my mom. I entered my room and did the usual routine. I took off my shirt and pants, and replaced them with pajama pants and a t-shirt. I like to wear that stuff in the evening and stuff, but I like to sleep naked. I grabbed a pillow, put it on the floor, plopped down on it, and grabbed the remote. I watch TV A LOT. I swear I can sit there and recite every damn commercial there is. I've done it before too.
I watched TV and ate my dinner, but, what was really on my mind was James and Amber. They are going to be back soon, I can feel it, and, I was a bit uneasy with losing my virginity and all to that bitch Amber. You see, part of the deal if they threaten rape you is you can't struggle and you let them tie you up. That means they can do whatever the HELL they want to you. Not a comforting thought......but I'd do it for Hotaru, she deserved that.