Well, folks, I finally did it. I told my parents about my account. I told
them that I've been writing, I told them about all these stories, and I
told them I didn't regret writing, but I did regret dishonesty. You see, my
personal demons weren't obsession, weren't that Kyle guy who challenged my
faith, and weren't the mean jerks at school.
My personal demons, watashi-no youkai, were a passive attitude and the lie I've been telling mom and dad. Oh, it feels so good to finally have gotten this off my chest! I've been lying to them and to myself, and you know what? I am happier tonight than I've been in six months.
And now that they know, I can honestly say that I'm finally making Forward Motion. It is harder than it sounds, but by doing the right thing, I know now what my deal these past few months were.
I was vulnerable. I was depressed. I was uncomfortable with my life because I wasn't being truthful, and I was just letting my life pass me by.
In 2001, I made a promise to myself to do whatever I did with all my heart. That promise was soon broken, but now I've realized that I must go for whatever I do with ALL MY HEART. With everything I got.
We all struggle with forward motion.
Watashi-no Youkai
You make this world a better place
When you try your best each day
Just listen and your heart will show the way
And it'll make you strong inside
Every time you do what's right
In a time of Darkness, you'll find light
And you'll find you have the courage within
To fight for what you truly do believe in
With all your heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to the highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find
The strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all your heart
And there's a difference you can make
So never underestimate
The power of what one can really do
And nothing's gonna stand in your way
'Cause now you know you've got what it
Takes to save the day
With all your heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to the highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find the
Strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all your heart
And if you start to stumble
And if you start to fall
Just keep reaching for your dreams
And know you're gonna catch them all
With all you heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to
The highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find the
Strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all you heart
-Plus One
Through the last few months, Kurt has been there as my conscience. He's the voice inside my head that tells me what is and isn't right. He and I share the same beliefs, the same insecurites, and the same fears. Oh, to be accepted and to fit in.
But you know what? Fitting in isnt' the key to life.
Believing in yourself is. Reaching your highest star, and going for it with all your heart. THis isn't the first time I"ve learned this lesson, nor is it the last. God just has to repeat himself so that we simpletons get it right.
It feels so good to be back where I belong: in the arms of my Jesus and safe in his protection.
May you all find your highest star. It's been a privelege to write this and to experience Forward Motion with you all.
Me? I'm going to chase my dreams and conquer my demons.
God Bless you all!
My personal demons, watashi-no youkai, were a passive attitude and the lie I've been telling mom and dad. Oh, it feels so good to finally have gotten this off my chest! I've been lying to them and to myself, and you know what? I am happier tonight than I've been in six months.
And now that they know, I can honestly say that I'm finally making Forward Motion. It is harder than it sounds, but by doing the right thing, I know now what my deal these past few months were.
I was vulnerable. I was depressed. I was uncomfortable with my life because I wasn't being truthful, and I was just letting my life pass me by.
In 2001, I made a promise to myself to do whatever I did with all my heart. That promise was soon broken, but now I've realized that I must go for whatever I do with ALL MY HEART. With everything I got.
We all struggle with forward motion.
Watashi-no Youkai
You make this world a better place
When you try your best each day
Just listen and your heart will show the way
And it'll make you strong inside
Every time you do what's right
In a time of Darkness, you'll find light
And you'll find you have the courage within
To fight for what you truly do believe in
With all your heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to the highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find
The strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all your heart
And there's a difference you can make
So never underestimate
The power of what one can really do
And nothing's gonna stand in your way
'Cause now you know you've got what it
Takes to save the day
With all your heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to the highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find the
Strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all your heart
And if you start to stumble
And if you start to fall
Just keep reaching for your dreams
And know you're gonna catch them all
With all you heart
I know you can do anything
With a little faith you can reach right up to
The highest star
There's no mountain you can't climb
Just look inside your heart you'll find the
Strength inside
All you have to do is try
With all you heart
-Plus One
Through the last few months, Kurt has been there as my conscience. He's the voice inside my head that tells me what is and isn't right. He and I share the same beliefs, the same insecurites, and the same fears. Oh, to be accepted and to fit in.
But you know what? Fitting in isnt' the key to life.
Believing in yourself is. Reaching your highest star, and going for it with all your heart. THis isn't the first time I"ve learned this lesson, nor is it the last. God just has to repeat himself so that we simpletons get it right.
It feels so good to be back where I belong: in the arms of my Jesus and safe in his protection.
May you all find your highest star. It's been a privelege to write this and to experience Forward Motion with you all.
Me? I'm going to chase my dreams and conquer my demons.
God Bless you all!