Disclaimie: If I owned YnM then you would all see a whole lot of lemon in
the series...
Anger By: dreameaterishungry
Tsuzuki stood there transfixed outside Hisoka's apartment, staring at the door. 'What did I do wrong this time?' he asked himself, straining to remember. He closed his eyes and replayed everything that happened that night in his mind. But all that gained him was a headache. "I'll just apologize tomorrow," he promised himself as he retreated back to his own apartment next door, "for whatever I did..."
o0o
Hisoka stood against the locked door, panting. "This is all a bad dream," he whispered to no one in particular, "this is just a very bad and sick nightmare... and I'm sure pretty soon I will wake up, in my bed..." But his thoughts stopped short. He almost caught himself saying "in my bed, with Tsuzuki's arms wrapped protectively around me..." With that in thought, he suddenly felt an ache in his heart. Hisoka closed his eyes. 'Why do you make me feel this way, Tsuzuki?' he thought, "why do you make me feel so empty and so alone...so guilty... even though I did nothing... even after what you've done to me tonight..."
Hisoka trudged to his bathroom to wash his face. The tap water felt cool against his sticky and perspiring skin. As he looked up, he caught sight of his reflection. "Why?!" he asked his boy staring right back at him, hoping that his reflection might him give him an answer. But the boy in the mirror simply stared back, mimicking him in every way. And in frustration, he slammed his fist to the mirror, shattering it. "Why! Why! Why!" he cried, as his knees gave way, and he dropped to the floor.
His knuckles bled. But he didn't care. He was confused, at Tsuzuki's actions that night, and at his own feelings. "Why am I feeling this way? Why? Why?" This mantra played over and over again in his mind, and it didn't cease to repeat even when a loud banging was heard.
"Hisoka?!" a muffled cried called, "Hisoka?! What's going on in there?! I heard a loud crash! Are you okay?!"
Hisoka heard Tsuzuki's cries, but he made no move to stand up. He lowered his shields a bit and snorted when he felt a wave of worry and concern flow through. "Baka..." he scoffed, "you are worried that I might be hurt just but you didn't show any worry earlier this evening when you almost, scratch that, when you violated me... how ironic"
Hisoka stood up, grasping the sink for support and headed towards the kitchen. He then, took out a glass from the cabinet and poured himself a glass of water. Then, he made his way back to his bedroom. But half way there, he stopped at the door.
o0o
Tsuzuki desperately pounded at Hisoka's door. He was in his room, getting ready for bed when he heard a loud crash coming from Hisoka's room. Automatically, he went into panic mode. "Hisoka... open the damn door will you?!" he cried. He pounded at the door, not anymore caring about the racket he was making.
o0o
Hisoka stood in front of the door, listening to Tsuzuki's incessant shouting. "Shut up..." he whispered, already irritated at the sound of the older man's voice. Realizing that Tsuzuki won't shut up until he entertained the man, he did the only thing that he could think of at that moment, he hurled the glass of water that he held in his hand. The glass collided with his door and almost instantly, the pounding and shouting stopped. "Finally..." he thought angrily. He then, trudged back to his bedroom, not anymore giving a damn about the amethyst eyed standing outside his door. "You can stay there all night for all I care..." he thought. o0o
Sunlight streamed through the window, making a pair of amethyst eyes blink open. Usually, Tsuzuki would wake up and happily do his everyday morning routine then he would happily bound for work. But not today, nothing was happy about this particular day; nothing happy at all. "I guess its because Hisoka's angry at me for I don't know what," he mused, "not only that, but I wasn't able get much sleep last night worrying about Hisoka and that crash I heard."
Last night had been a blur for Tsuzuki. One minute, he was "sleeping" with Hisoka, the next thing he knew Hisoka was mad, then, a door was slammed at his face. So he left and headed for his place. But then, he heard a crash and hurried back to Hisoka's apartment. He tried to get in but the door was locked and Hisoka didn't bother answering it. After a lot of shouting and pounding, he heard something crash at the door. And with that, he concluded that Hisoka was not only fine, but still, very angry with him.
Tsuzuki sighed. "Whatever happened last night, all I know is that I'm going to apologize to Hisoka as soon as I see him at work," he exclaimed with a look of determination.
Suddenly, the phone rang. "Hello?" Tsuzuki said through the receiver.
"Tsuzuki! Where the hell are you?" Tatsumi exclaimed through the other line, "you're late, did you know that?!"
At these words, Tsuzuki glanced at the clocked. "10:55?!" he exclaimed. And with that, he quickly hung up, got dressed, and flew out the door.
o0o
Tsuzuki ran to work and made it there in a mere 5 minutes, but Tatsumi was not pleased.
"You should be more like your partner, Tsuzuki-san," Tatsumi scolded, " always punctual..."
"Uh-huh..." Tsuzuki mumbled half-heatedly, "um.. Tatsumi? Do you know where 'Soka is?"
"He's at your office, doing paperwork," the secretary answered, "and speaking of paperwork..."
"Thanks, Tatsumi! Bye!" Tsuzuki replied and dashed off to his office before Tatsumi could say more and give him extra paperwork for being tardy again.
It was like Tatsumi said, Hisoka was there in their office, doing paperwork. "I'm really sorry 'Soka for whatever happened last night... please forgive me..." he rehearsed in his mind. Tsuzuki took a deep breath and strided to where Hisoka was. When he was in front of his Hisoka's desk, he cleared his throat to get the boy's attention.
The boy looked up, an icy glare crossed his eyes when he saw who it was. Tsuzuki winced at the sight of it but he was still determined as ever to patch things up with Hisoka.
"Hisoka, can we talk?" Tsuzuki asked him nervously.
"What's there to talk about?" Hisoka replied icily.
Tsuzuki was taken aback by the boy's response but he quickly brushed away his shock. "Please..." the older man pleaded.
Hisoka sighed. "Might as well do so..." he thought, "or else he'll never leave me alone..." He stood up and motioned Tsuzuki to follow him. When they were outside their office, out of earshot, Hisoka then questioned him. "So what do you want to talk about?" he asked, tapping his foot in impatience. "Look, Hisoka," Tsuzuki started, "I just wanted to say sorry..." He then moved towards Hisoka and enveloped the younger boy in a tight hug.
At first, Hisoka stiffened but he then, melted in the embrace.
"I'm really sorry 'Soka..." Tsuzuki whispered, "for whatever did..."
Suddenly, Hisoka pushed Tsuzuki away form him, anger burning in his eyes. "Hisoka, what's wrong? I thought we're friends now..." Tsuzuki pleaded but he was cut off by Hisoka.
"Friends? Is that what this is?" he cried, "you apologized to me even though you didn't know what you did, just so we can be friends again? So your apology didn't mean a thing?"
"No... Hisoka, that's not it..." Tsuzuki pleaded, "I really meant it... and I really don't know what I did wrong... but if you just tell me..."
"What's wrong?" Hisoka exclaimed, tear brimming at his eyes, "what's wrong is that you've pushed too far, Tsuzuki... you violated me last night..." 'And what's worse is that, I liked it... even though I know beyond reason that what you did was wrong...' Hisoka added mentally. "I thought you were nothing like him," Hisoka continued, "but I was wrong..." And with that Hisoka stormed away.
Evil-In-Purity coughcough: nice name O.o anyway, I planned to make the ending sad but the story is suddenly going down the happy ending road... uh- oh...
Chibi Dibi: ummm... I don't really know myself if the fic is going somehwere... but it's moving alright!
cloudia scheffer: me too... hate exams.. esp. the math exam...
Hayashi-kutsuki: yeah... poor both... and I'm going to make it a whole lot harder for them... bwahahaha cough cough
Ola: I agree... Tsuzuki can be an ass sometimes...
kaori-chan: you'll find out soon why Tsuzuki was acting that way... but not for now...
AnimeWriter2: I'm glad you found it good
SapphireDragon: Like I told Kaori-chan.. you'll find out about Tsuzuki's behavior very soon...
xXLil Yu JahXx:: I hope you like the first part as much as you liked this one..
Senko-Rio: Unfortunately, I won't be doing those kinds of A/N's for the time being but maybe in my other fic, Saiyuki Day Care, those A/N's will stay...
A/N: O.o... okay... I don't know if that made any sense at all. btw, for those who also been reading my other fics, you might have noticed my long disclaimers, and sad to say but I might not be doing those for a while... so good-bye for now to "EviL" and "Dream." oh and before I forget, can you guys please join my forum. You really don't have to, but you can take a look and if you like it, please join. Here's the add:
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Anger By: dreameaterishungry
Tsuzuki stood there transfixed outside Hisoka's apartment, staring at the door. 'What did I do wrong this time?' he asked himself, straining to remember. He closed his eyes and replayed everything that happened that night in his mind. But all that gained him was a headache. "I'll just apologize tomorrow," he promised himself as he retreated back to his own apartment next door, "for whatever I did..."
o0o
Hisoka stood against the locked door, panting. "This is all a bad dream," he whispered to no one in particular, "this is just a very bad and sick nightmare... and I'm sure pretty soon I will wake up, in my bed..." But his thoughts stopped short. He almost caught himself saying "in my bed, with Tsuzuki's arms wrapped protectively around me..." With that in thought, he suddenly felt an ache in his heart. Hisoka closed his eyes. 'Why do you make me feel this way, Tsuzuki?' he thought, "why do you make me feel so empty and so alone...so guilty... even though I did nothing... even after what you've done to me tonight..."
Hisoka trudged to his bathroom to wash his face. The tap water felt cool against his sticky and perspiring skin. As he looked up, he caught sight of his reflection. "Why?!" he asked his boy staring right back at him, hoping that his reflection might him give him an answer. But the boy in the mirror simply stared back, mimicking him in every way. And in frustration, he slammed his fist to the mirror, shattering it. "Why! Why! Why!" he cried, as his knees gave way, and he dropped to the floor.
His knuckles bled. But he didn't care. He was confused, at Tsuzuki's actions that night, and at his own feelings. "Why am I feeling this way? Why? Why?" This mantra played over and over again in his mind, and it didn't cease to repeat even when a loud banging was heard.
"Hisoka?!" a muffled cried called, "Hisoka?! What's going on in there?! I heard a loud crash! Are you okay?!"
Hisoka heard Tsuzuki's cries, but he made no move to stand up. He lowered his shields a bit and snorted when he felt a wave of worry and concern flow through. "Baka..." he scoffed, "you are worried that I might be hurt just but you didn't show any worry earlier this evening when you almost, scratch that, when you violated me... how ironic"
Hisoka stood up, grasping the sink for support and headed towards the kitchen. He then, took out a glass from the cabinet and poured himself a glass of water. Then, he made his way back to his bedroom. But half way there, he stopped at the door.
o0o
Tsuzuki desperately pounded at Hisoka's door. He was in his room, getting ready for bed when he heard a loud crash coming from Hisoka's room. Automatically, he went into panic mode. "Hisoka... open the damn door will you?!" he cried. He pounded at the door, not anymore caring about the racket he was making.
o0o
Hisoka stood in front of the door, listening to Tsuzuki's incessant shouting. "Shut up..." he whispered, already irritated at the sound of the older man's voice. Realizing that Tsuzuki won't shut up until he entertained the man, he did the only thing that he could think of at that moment, he hurled the glass of water that he held in his hand. The glass collided with his door and almost instantly, the pounding and shouting stopped. "Finally..." he thought angrily. He then, trudged back to his bedroom, not anymore giving a damn about the amethyst eyed standing outside his door. "You can stay there all night for all I care..." he thought. o0o
Sunlight streamed through the window, making a pair of amethyst eyes blink open. Usually, Tsuzuki would wake up and happily do his everyday morning routine then he would happily bound for work. But not today, nothing was happy about this particular day; nothing happy at all. "I guess its because Hisoka's angry at me for I don't know what," he mused, "not only that, but I wasn't able get much sleep last night worrying about Hisoka and that crash I heard."
Last night had been a blur for Tsuzuki. One minute, he was "sleeping" with Hisoka, the next thing he knew Hisoka was mad, then, a door was slammed at his face. So he left and headed for his place. But then, he heard a crash and hurried back to Hisoka's apartment. He tried to get in but the door was locked and Hisoka didn't bother answering it. After a lot of shouting and pounding, he heard something crash at the door. And with that, he concluded that Hisoka was not only fine, but still, very angry with him.
Tsuzuki sighed. "Whatever happened last night, all I know is that I'm going to apologize to Hisoka as soon as I see him at work," he exclaimed with a look of determination.
Suddenly, the phone rang. "Hello?" Tsuzuki said through the receiver.
"Tsuzuki! Where the hell are you?" Tatsumi exclaimed through the other line, "you're late, did you know that?!"
At these words, Tsuzuki glanced at the clocked. "10:55?!" he exclaimed. And with that, he quickly hung up, got dressed, and flew out the door.
o0o
Tsuzuki ran to work and made it there in a mere 5 minutes, but Tatsumi was not pleased.
"You should be more like your partner, Tsuzuki-san," Tatsumi scolded, " always punctual..."
"Uh-huh..." Tsuzuki mumbled half-heatedly, "um.. Tatsumi? Do you know where 'Soka is?"
"He's at your office, doing paperwork," the secretary answered, "and speaking of paperwork..."
"Thanks, Tatsumi! Bye!" Tsuzuki replied and dashed off to his office before Tatsumi could say more and give him extra paperwork for being tardy again.
It was like Tatsumi said, Hisoka was there in their office, doing paperwork. "I'm really sorry 'Soka for whatever happened last night... please forgive me..." he rehearsed in his mind. Tsuzuki took a deep breath and strided to where Hisoka was. When he was in front of his Hisoka's desk, he cleared his throat to get the boy's attention.
The boy looked up, an icy glare crossed his eyes when he saw who it was. Tsuzuki winced at the sight of it but he was still determined as ever to patch things up with Hisoka.
"Hisoka, can we talk?" Tsuzuki asked him nervously.
"What's there to talk about?" Hisoka replied icily.
Tsuzuki was taken aback by the boy's response but he quickly brushed away his shock. "Please..." the older man pleaded.
Hisoka sighed. "Might as well do so..." he thought, "or else he'll never leave me alone..." He stood up and motioned Tsuzuki to follow him. When they were outside their office, out of earshot, Hisoka then questioned him. "So what do you want to talk about?" he asked, tapping his foot in impatience. "Look, Hisoka," Tsuzuki started, "I just wanted to say sorry..." He then moved towards Hisoka and enveloped the younger boy in a tight hug.
At first, Hisoka stiffened but he then, melted in the embrace.
"I'm really sorry 'Soka..." Tsuzuki whispered, "for whatever did..."
Suddenly, Hisoka pushed Tsuzuki away form him, anger burning in his eyes. "Hisoka, what's wrong? I thought we're friends now..." Tsuzuki pleaded but he was cut off by Hisoka.
"Friends? Is that what this is?" he cried, "you apologized to me even though you didn't know what you did, just so we can be friends again? So your apology didn't mean a thing?"
"No... Hisoka, that's not it..." Tsuzuki pleaded, "I really meant it... and I really don't know what I did wrong... but if you just tell me..."
"What's wrong?" Hisoka exclaimed, tear brimming at his eyes, "what's wrong is that you've pushed too far, Tsuzuki... you violated me last night..." 'And what's worse is that, I liked it... even though I know beyond reason that what you did was wrong...' Hisoka added mentally. "I thought you were nothing like him," Hisoka continued, "but I was wrong..." And with that Hisoka stormed away.
Evil-In-Purity coughcough: nice name O.o anyway, I planned to make the ending sad but the story is suddenly going down the happy ending road... uh- oh...
Chibi Dibi: ummm... I don't really know myself if the fic is going somehwere... but it's moving alright!
cloudia scheffer: me too... hate exams.. esp. the math exam...
Hayashi-kutsuki: yeah... poor both... and I'm going to make it a whole lot harder for them... bwahahaha cough cough
Ola: I agree... Tsuzuki can be an ass sometimes...
kaori-chan: you'll find out soon why Tsuzuki was acting that way... but not for now...
AnimeWriter2: I'm glad you found it good
SapphireDragon: Like I told Kaori-chan.. you'll find out about Tsuzuki's behavior very soon...
xXLil Yu JahXx:: I hope you like the first part as much as you liked this one..
Senko-Rio: Unfortunately, I won't be doing those kinds of A/N's for the time being but maybe in my other fic, Saiyuki Day Care, those A/N's will stay...
A/N: O.o... okay... I don't know if that made any sense at all. btw, for those who also been reading my other fics, you might have noticed my long disclaimers, and sad to say but I might not be doing those for a while... so good-bye for now to "EviL" and "Dream." oh and before I forget, can you guys please join my forum. You really don't have to, but you can take a look and if you like it, please join. Here's the add:
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