A/N: I'm baaaaaaack!!!!!!
Chapter 6:
She sat there, her arm stretched out towards him as tears fell, so afraid that any minuet he would fade into the dark room leaving her once again alone. But he never did, he just stood there. Looking at her with a small smile, even though she could see the great amount of sadness in his eyes.
He looked the same, same wild hair and same clothes. The same love in his eyes that was always there still showed just as bright. Seeing that love still there filled her with so much hope of being with him again. But would it happen, was he real. Were they going to have a second chance at being happy?
He stood there looking at her. Remembering what she had said before he opened the door. Did he really cause that? Her pain and loneliness, along with their son's pain. He was so happy when he showed up at the front door of their home. So happy to be able to comfort Chichi from her confusion...but now he realized that he was comforting her because of the pain he caused her. Pain he never wanted to make her feel.
He still kept a small smile on though, he didn't want chichi to feel bad about what she had said. She needed to get it out, if not it would have eaten at her for the rest of her life. And he didn't want that. He only wanted to see her smile. But he knew he was about to cause more trouble for her, and was going to have to be ready for it.
Laughing stupidly to lighten the mood, he put his hand behind his head and looked at her. "Hey babe, sorry for the late return. Traffic is terrible in the after life." He laughed hoping the comment would work and break her fearful gaze.
Bring her shaky hand back to her; she gently touched her mouth realizing the truth. He was back...."Oh Goku...." She cried into her hand as if the name was forbidden to be spoken.
With the sound of his sorrow filled name Goku ran up to ChiChi and pulled her into his protective arms, supporting her weak body that was worn out from her crying. Climbing on to the bed he kneeled and held her closely as if she was going to disappear in his arms. They sat like that for at lest five minuets just holding on to each other like a lifeline hopping the other wouldn't let go first.
Putting his hand behind Chichi's head, he held her to him as she continued to sob into his chest as if trying to hide inside of him, so that he could not leave with out her if he did. " Chi....Baby? Come on, now. Don't cry. Please..." He quietly cooed her as he kissed the top of her head.
Pulling away she pushed her hair, that was stuck to her tear stained face, to the side. Horrified she looked into his eyes, her thoughts of what she said before he showed up coming back to her. She knew he had to have heard her yelling. He always had good hearing. "Oh my God! I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it! I love you. I always did. I always have. I didn't mean it! I swear. Please believe me, I didn't mean it. I..I.I..." She said being silenced bye Goku who 'shhh'ed her softly.
"It's ok, Chi. Don't' worry. I know you love me." He softly said smiling down at her, pushing a stand of hair behind her ear lovingly.
"I do." She continued to say.
Goku put a finger to her lips and pulled her close to him again. "I know, baby. I know. And I love you too. I don't blame you for saying that. I did leave you and the boys alone. And I did cause your loneliness. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. But I did what I thought I had to do. I had to keep you safe." He said as he held her small soft body to him.
Pulling her hand up to her chest she frowned. "Isn't not your fault. Do say you're sorry. Please. You didn't-"
"Yes. Yes I did." He cut her off again. "I left you alone. But Chi. Please realize I didn't do it because I didn't want to be with you. Because I did want to be with you. But I had to protect the earth, not 'just' because of all the people living here, but because you live here. Your what pushed me to fight, to save the world and you. I gave up my life so many times so that you could live. Because I love you so much." His words making her silently cry to herself. "I know you love me and the boys. I know that's why your were so protective of us. You just wanted a nice normal safe family you could take care of. And I'm sorry I couldn't give it to you. I'm so sorry I couldn't give you the life you wanted........."He ending quietly, mostly to himself.
"But you did." Her words shocking Goku and having him look down into her eyes.
"You gave me a wonderful life. A wonderful home, with two wonderful kids, who are growing up and becoming just like their father,.....loving and caring. I just wish that you were in it more, but that's ok. Cuz your back, and we can be happy now." She smiled sadly. "Gohan will be so happy, and Goten. I can't wait for you to meet Goten. He looks just like you and so innocent. He'll be so ......." She continued with a true happy smile. They where going to be a family again. And she didn't know what to do first or whom she should call fist.
But as she continued to talk about what they could do as a family, his smile he had when he was told he gave her a wonderful life, was soon replaced with a saddened frown. I knew this would be the worst part, but he had to do it, no matter how much it was going to hurt her.
"Uh....Chichi? About this..... Ummm...." He was so confused as to how he should put this in to words. This was so hard.
ChiChi looked at him, her tears already drying on her face as she looked at him. Her smile making him regret doing it, when he hadn't even started.
"....I.....I ......" He stumbled for his words afraid of her reaction, which he knew wouldn't be a good one.
Chichi rose as eyebrow at him and laughed softly. "Goku. Spit it out." She said with a giggle.
Sighing he looked down afraid to see the look on her face. He felt as though his heart jumped up into his throat and was taking his breath away. "Chi.... I can't stay. I'm just here for today. It's kinda like a reward for being good and all. I was saving it for a special time, but with every thing happening, I figured I should set things strait." His head still low as he spoke softly.
Moving off the bed, she stood up and looked down at him shaking her head. "You, your not here to stay?..... You just, you just...... why are you doing this....." She said turning around and wrapping her arms around herself as she tried to hold back her tears and failing.
Goku quickly stood up behind her and touched her shoulder, having her pull away. "ChiChi, I don't mean to make this hard. I just thought we could talk....... You know... about Trunks."
"What does Trunks have to do with any of this!?" She yelled as she turned to him with anger. She could just hear the loneliness mocking her from the back of her head. Telling her she would always be alone.... Always. "I don't love Trunks! I love you! I want to be with you. Trunks is just confused!" Shaking her head as if to dismiss the thought before she continued. "This isn't about Trunks. You think you can just show up and comfort me, just to turn right back around and walk out! Dieing on me is one thing Son Goku! But showing up just to say it will probably be the last time I see you is just cruel!" She cried out in pain.
"Chi... I-" Goku tried but stopped as she cut him off.
"No! No, you don't! Don't try and make this out to be nothing." She pointed at him trying to regain control; tears falling. "I may have not being living a happy care free life, but I was ok. I was in control. I was dealing with you not being here. I was dealing! I may have been a terrible mess a few minuets ago, but I would have been able to get it together in time. But you coming back and then leaving... I can't do that. I can't Goku! Do you hear me! It hurts! Do you hear me! It hurt! To much!" She yelled, chocking the last words out, as she pointed to her heart as if showing him it was breaking at that very moment. She then turned her back to him not wanting to fight any more.
Goku looked at her, not realizing that it was going to be this bad, but now that it was, he wished he didn't have to leave. He didn't want this, he wanted to make her happy, not make her cry her heart out. Walking up to her, he wrapped his arms around her, refusing to let go as she struggled to walk away. After a minuet of trying she realized he wasn't going to let go and she stilled; her back to his chest.
He kissed the top of her head and breathed in the sweet sent of her hair. "Chi. I didn't mean to do this. I didn't want it to happen like this. Or make it harder for you. But I have to go back. My time here is over on this earth..... But yours isn't. You shouldn't be morning over me any more. I'm still here with you, even if you can't see me. I'm always watching over you and the boys. You should be trying to be happy." Goku softly said as he nuzzled the back of her head.
Looking strait at the wall she tried to fight back the tears. "Is that why you came, to tell me this..... Don't you think I've tried? I can't Goku. I love you way too much. I hate the thought of living the rest of my life alone." Her voice so quiet, only he could hear it.
Turning Chichi around he looked at her and smiled. "But you're not alone right now." He said as he lend down and kissed her. Hearing her moan into his mouth, he knew he shouldn't go any further, but she need this just as much as he did, so he gently pulled her closer to him as he deepened the kiss having her wrap her arms around his neck; telling him not to stop.
As he laid her on the bed, he slowly crawled up on top of her ready to make all her worries disappear for the time being. So only thoughts of them would be what she was thinking. Gently but wantingly, he slowly kissed his way from her neck up and along her jaw line to her tender pink lips that were slightly swollen from his greedy kiss. Her silk like hands rooming under his shirt and up his muscular back making him breath in deeply. Her hands always knowing the right places to touch him. Going back to her neck he sucked on the bite mark he gave her so many years ago having her arch against him as he then proceeded to grind against her clothed body to heighten her desire for him.
It was all about her tonight, and he wanted it to be perfect since it would be the one of the last times for the two of them to be together. But as her desire for him heighten faster, and this thought coming to him, as well as her sweet sent the was coming off in waves it began to drive him crazy and he didn't know how slow he could take it with out ravishing her right away.
(Hehe, sorry, I'm not all that good with lemon so I'll let your imagination take over form here. I know mine did, I just wish I could get it in words. :()
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He didn't know what to think as he floated there in the air, wondering if it was true or not. He looked down at the small house and front of him shocked. Trunks had been on his way to Chichi house when he was stopped bye Gohan. The argument didn't last long and things were finally settled between the two men, but when he got to the Son's house he stopped him self from descending to the ground just as soon as he felt the familiar kie. He was so determined to talk to Chichi that he didn't even notice the kie when it fist appeared on earth.
Pushing down the fear of loosing Chichi again he flew down to the ground and walked up to the wooden door. Not caring to knock, he opened the door and walked in to see if he was right about the unexpected guest. As he made his way in, he saw that the kitchen was empty, so he made his way down the hall way, but as he came closer to Chichi's room he stopped as he blood ran could at the sounds that where coming from there.
::No.....Why now, why is he back......No I can't do this.... He can't do this!:: He thought as his fists tightened and his eyes began to water at the feel of his heart breaking. His chest was tight and his stomach sick, and he didn't think he could handle being there one second longer.
Turning around he ran to the door making his exit and flying as fast as he could away from the small home. He didn't know exactly where he was headed, but one thing he knew is that he would not be able to face Goku. He knew he had no right to be angry at Goku for being there, it was his home after all.... It was his wife. But he couldn't stand the thought of losing her when he thought he was so sure he had his shot to be what she needed. To be the one to make her happy, to make her smile...... to be the one she loved. And he lost it........ again.........
A/N: ohhhhhh hell yell!!!! I'm back online and going crazy! Sorry the chapter isn't really long; I got so much to do and going mad with ideas. Hope you liked the chapter and my little twist. I know I said I wasn't bringing Goku back for his one day, but I just couldn't resist. I needed to cause some pain. In my mind, you can't have happiness if you don't have your pain. I'll have the next chapter out soon. And some one asked about Doujinshi pics. I have a link on my web site to Daughter of Ashes's site. She has some of the best ones there. You got to check it out. She let me use some of her's. She so sweet. Laters! REVIEWS!!! I NEED REVIEWS!!!!!! PLEASE!!!
Chapter 6:
She sat there, her arm stretched out towards him as tears fell, so afraid that any minuet he would fade into the dark room leaving her once again alone. But he never did, he just stood there. Looking at her with a small smile, even though she could see the great amount of sadness in his eyes.
He looked the same, same wild hair and same clothes. The same love in his eyes that was always there still showed just as bright. Seeing that love still there filled her with so much hope of being with him again. But would it happen, was he real. Were they going to have a second chance at being happy?
He stood there looking at her. Remembering what she had said before he opened the door. Did he really cause that? Her pain and loneliness, along with their son's pain. He was so happy when he showed up at the front door of their home. So happy to be able to comfort Chichi from her confusion...but now he realized that he was comforting her because of the pain he caused her. Pain he never wanted to make her feel.
He still kept a small smile on though, he didn't want chichi to feel bad about what she had said. She needed to get it out, if not it would have eaten at her for the rest of her life. And he didn't want that. He only wanted to see her smile. But he knew he was about to cause more trouble for her, and was going to have to be ready for it.
Laughing stupidly to lighten the mood, he put his hand behind his head and looked at her. "Hey babe, sorry for the late return. Traffic is terrible in the after life." He laughed hoping the comment would work and break her fearful gaze.
Bring her shaky hand back to her; she gently touched her mouth realizing the truth. He was back...."Oh Goku...." She cried into her hand as if the name was forbidden to be spoken.
With the sound of his sorrow filled name Goku ran up to ChiChi and pulled her into his protective arms, supporting her weak body that was worn out from her crying. Climbing on to the bed he kneeled and held her closely as if she was going to disappear in his arms. They sat like that for at lest five minuets just holding on to each other like a lifeline hopping the other wouldn't let go first.
Putting his hand behind Chichi's head, he held her to him as she continued to sob into his chest as if trying to hide inside of him, so that he could not leave with out her if he did. " Chi....Baby? Come on, now. Don't cry. Please..." He quietly cooed her as he kissed the top of her head.
Pulling away she pushed her hair, that was stuck to her tear stained face, to the side. Horrified she looked into his eyes, her thoughts of what she said before he showed up coming back to her. She knew he had to have heard her yelling. He always had good hearing. "Oh my God! I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it! I love you. I always did. I always have. I didn't mean it! I swear. Please believe me, I didn't mean it. I..I.I..." She said being silenced bye Goku who 'shhh'ed her softly.
"It's ok, Chi. Don't' worry. I know you love me." He softly said smiling down at her, pushing a stand of hair behind her ear lovingly.
"I do." She continued to say.
Goku put a finger to her lips and pulled her close to him again. "I know, baby. I know. And I love you too. I don't blame you for saying that. I did leave you and the boys alone. And I did cause your loneliness. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. But I did what I thought I had to do. I had to keep you safe." He said as he held her small soft body to him.
Pulling her hand up to her chest she frowned. "Isn't not your fault. Do say you're sorry. Please. You didn't-"
"Yes. Yes I did." He cut her off again. "I left you alone. But Chi. Please realize I didn't do it because I didn't want to be with you. Because I did want to be with you. But I had to protect the earth, not 'just' because of all the people living here, but because you live here. Your what pushed me to fight, to save the world and you. I gave up my life so many times so that you could live. Because I love you so much." His words making her silently cry to herself. "I know you love me and the boys. I know that's why your were so protective of us. You just wanted a nice normal safe family you could take care of. And I'm sorry I couldn't give it to you. I'm so sorry I couldn't give you the life you wanted........."He ending quietly, mostly to himself.
"But you did." Her words shocking Goku and having him look down into her eyes.
"You gave me a wonderful life. A wonderful home, with two wonderful kids, who are growing up and becoming just like their father,.....loving and caring. I just wish that you were in it more, but that's ok. Cuz your back, and we can be happy now." She smiled sadly. "Gohan will be so happy, and Goten. I can't wait for you to meet Goten. He looks just like you and so innocent. He'll be so ......." She continued with a true happy smile. They where going to be a family again. And she didn't know what to do first or whom she should call fist.
But as she continued to talk about what they could do as a family, his smile he had when he was told he gave her a wonderful life, was soon replaced with a saddened frown. I knew this would be the worst part, but he had to do it, no matter how much it was going to hurt her.
"Uh....Chichi? About this..... Ummm...." He was so confused as to how he should put this in to words. This was so hard.
ChiChi looked at him, her tears already drying on her face as she looked at him. Her smile making him regret doing it, when he hadn't even started.
"....I.....I ......" He stumbled for his words afraid of her reaction, which he knew wouldn't be a good one.
Chichi rose as eyebrow at him and laughed softly. "Goku. Spit it out." She said with a giggle.
Sighing he looked down afraid to see the look on her face. He felt as though his heart jumped up into his throat and was taking his breath away. "Chi.... I can't stay. I'm just here for today. It's kinda like a reward for being good and all. I was saving it for a special time, but with every thing happening, I figured I should set things strait." His head still low as he spoke softly.
Moving off the bed, she stood up and looked down at him shaking her head. "You, your not here to stay?..... You just, you just...... why are you doing this....." She said turning around and wrapping her arms around herself as she tried to hold back her tears and failing.
Goku quickly stood up behind her and touched her shoulder, having her pull away. "ChiChi, I don't mean to make this hard. I just thought we could talk....... You know... about Trunks."
"What does Trunks have to do with any of this!?" She yelled as she turned to him with anger. She could just hear the loneliness mocking her from the back of her head. Telling her she would always be alone.... Always. "I don't love Trunks! I love you! I want to be with you. Trunks is just confused!" Shaking her head as if to dismiss the thought before she continued. "This isn't about Trunks. You think you can just show up and comfort me, just to turn right back around and walk out! Dieing on me is one thing Son Goku! But showing up just to say it will probably be the last time I see you is just cruel!" She cried out in pain.
"Chi... I-" Goku tried but stopped as she cut him off.
"No! No, you don't! Don't try and make this out to be nothing." She pointed at him trying to regain control; tears falling. "I may have not being living a happy care free life, but I was ok. I was in control. I was dealing with you not being here. I was dealing! I may have been a terrible mess a few minuets ago, but I would have been able to get it together in time. But you coming back and then leaving... I can't do that. I can't Goku! Do you hear me! It hurts! Do you hear me! It hurt! To much!" She yelled, chocking the last words out, as she pointed to her heart as if showing him it was breaking at that very moment. She then turned her back to him not wanting to fight any more.
Goku looked at her, not realizing that it was going to be this bad, but now that it was, he wished he didn't have to leave. He didn't want this, he wanted to make her happy, not make her cry her heart out. Walking up to her, he wrapped his arms around her, refusing to let go as she struggled to walk away. After a minuet of trying she realized he wasn't going to let go and she stilled; her back to his chest.
He kissed the top of her head and breathed in the sweet sent of her hair. "Chi. I didn't mean to do this. I didn't want it to happen like this. Or make it harder for you. But I have to go back. My time here is over on this earth..... But yours isn't. You shouldn't be morning over me any more. I'm still here with you, even if you can't see me. I'm always watching over you and the boys. You should be trying to be happy." Goku softly said as he nuzzled the back of her head.
Looking strait at the wall she tried to fight back the tears. "Is that why you came, to tell me this..... Don't you think I've tried? I can't Goku. I love you way too much. I hate the thought of living the rest of my life alone." Her voice so quiet, only he could hear it.
Turning Chichi around he looked at her and smiled. "But you're not alone right now." He said as he lend down and kissed her. Hearing her moan into his mouth, he knew he shouldn't go any further, but she need this just as much as he did, so he gently pulled her closer to him as he deepened the kiss having her wrap her arms around his neck; telling him not to stop.
As he laid her on the bed, he slowly crawled up on top of her ready to make all her worries disappear for the time being. So only thoughts of them would be what she was thinking. Gently but wantingly, he slowly kissed his way from her neck up and along her jaw line to her tender pink lips that were slightly swollen from his greedy kiss. Her silk like hands rooming under his shirt and up his muscular back making him breath in deeply. Her hands always knowing the right places to touch him. Going back to her neck he sucked on the bite mark he gave her so many years ago having her arch against him as he then proceeded to grind against her clothed body to heighten her desire for him.
It was all about her tonight, and he wanted it to be perfect since it would be the one of the last times for the two of them to be together. But as her desire for him heighten faster, and this thought coming to him, as well as her sweet sent the was coming off in waves it began to drive him crazy and he didn't know how slow he could take it with out ravishing her right away.
(Hehe, sorry, I'm not all that good with lemon so I'll let your imagination take over form here. I know mine did, I just wish I could get it in words. :()
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He didn't know what to think as he floated there in the air, wondering if it was true or not. He looked down at the small house and front of him shocked. Trunks had been on his way to Chichi house when he was stopped bye Gohan. The argument didn't last long and things were finally settled between the two men, but when he got to the Son's house he stopped him self from descending to the ground just as soon as he felt the familiar kie. He was so determined to talk to Chichi that he didn't even notice the kie when it fist appeared on earth.
Pushing down the fear of loosing Chichi again he flew down to the ground and walked up to the wooden door. Not caring to knock, he opened the door and walked in to see if he was right about the unexpected guest. As he made his way in, he saw that the kitchen was empty, so he made his way down the hall way, but as he came closer to Chichi's room he stopped as he blood ran could at the sounds that where coming from there.
::No.....Why now, why is he back......No I can't do this.... He can't do this!:: He thought as his fists tightened and his eyes began to water at the feel of his heart breaking. His chest was tight and his stomach sick, and he didn't think he could handle being there one second longer.
Turning around he ran to the door making his exit and flying as fast as he could away from the small home. He didn't know exactly where he was headed, but one thing he knew is that he would not be able to face Goku. He knew he had no right to be angry at Goku for being there, it was his home after all.... It was his wife. But he couldn't stand the thought of losing her when he thought he was so sure he had his shot to be what she needed. To be the one to make her happy, to make her smile...... to be the one she loved. And he lost it........ again.........
A/N: ohhhhhh hell yell!!!! I'm back online and going crazy! Sorry the chapter isn't really long; I got so much to do and going mad with ideas. Hope you liked the chapter and my little twist. I know I said I wasn't bringing Goku back for his one day, but I just couldn't resist. I needed to cause some pain. In my mind, you can't have happiness if you don't have your pain. I'll have the next chapter out soon. And some one asked about Doujinshi pics. I have a link on my web site to Daughter of Ashes's site. She has some of the best ones there. You got to check it out. She let me use some of her's. She so sweet. Laters! REVIEWS!!! I NEED REVIEWS!!!!!! PLEASE!!!