Off we go again, standard disclaimer as always.
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Hakkai scrambled to his feet and stumbled over to Gojyo, tears shimmering in his eyes and guilt eating away at him.
*I hurt them. I lost control. It should have never have happened. How will they ever be able to forgive me? Must I be always punished like this? I must always lose those I love through my own fault?*
He climbed back into the jeep and saw his unconscious lover lying in the back seats where Goku had laid him. Gojyo looked like a puppet with its strings cut, Hakkai gave a low moan of distress and knelt beside him, squeezing his body into the backseat to get a better look. He stumbled a little as he did so, grasping the spare tire for support, nearly falling back out as Sanzo fired up the Jeep. Goku leapt into the seat next to Sanzo and Hakkai dimly heard him talking about a copse of trees he could see. Jeep responded with a ferocious roar of the engine, just as concerned for his companions' safety. Sanzo then set off at a dangerous speed, getting them away from the wretched town to a place of safety.
Hakkai ignored the bumpy journey and carefully started inspecting Gojyo's injuries, trying hard not to let the prickling tears fall from his eyes. Thankfully, Gojyo was still breathing, each breath a long drawn-out rasp of discomfort that pulled at Hakkai's heart every time he heard it. He fought to ignore the sound and gingerly pulled at the mangled pieces of cloth that stubbornly clung to skin so he could begin to clear the areas that desperately needed healing.
Jeep hit another bump as Sanzo started to drive towards the clump of trees in the shade of some rocks that Goku had pointed out. Gojyo moaned as the movement jarred the wounds on his legs and Hakkai gasped as his stomach wound began to throb again; he ran his finger across the tattered dressing and felt a slight stickiness. Goku poked his head between the seats at the sounds of pain.
"Hakkai?! Are you okay?" he asked, looking at the brunette's sweat-shiny face and reddened fingertips. Hakkai nodded wearily.
"We need water and a clean cloth." He said, pulling away another burnt gob of fabric from Gojyo's leg and flicking it away in distaste.
Sanzo ground Jeep to a halt in a clearing near to a small river and Goku leapt out of the Jeep bearing a water bottle. Sanzo leaned back between the seats.
"We're out of trouble, you can start." He snapped. "What do you need?"
"Goku's getting water." Murmured Hakkai. "There's a first aid kit in the glove box for some bandages or something." Hakkai's head spun with worry and he struggled to think about what he would need next.
Goku ran back and handed over a bottle of water to Hakkai who nodded his thanks. Sanzo thrust another empty bottle at the boy.
"Go get more water." He said coolly, rummaging for the first-aid kit. Goku ran to the river without another word.
Hakkai ignored them and tipped the water over the redhead's legs, hoping it would be enough to cleanse the area for now. He then concentrated on summoning his ki energy for healing. It came to him easily now, pale white light enveloping his hands like gloves. He breathed out carefully and set to work relieved that he was feeling well enough to do this. Glowing fronds of light spread from his hands and gently enveloped Gojyo's legs.
Hakkai fought to brush away his overwhelming sense of guilt and let his ki abilities take over his mind, leaving his own mental worries for later. He sent the healing light coasting down Gojyo's right leg, forcing ruined flesh to start regenerating and knit itself together. When it struggled to respond, he offered his own strength to help, letting Gojyo's body take it eagerly. He repeated the process on the left leg, letting the skeins of light soothe burning flesh and pull together eaten muscle, leaving evil dark red stripes. Hakkai silently moved his hands up, forcing his own body to give up more energy to healing Gojyo and concentrating this time on his lungs, which were clogged with smoke. He let the green light absorb itself into Gojyo's skin, past his muscles and into the lungs, letting the healing power spread itself over his lungs like a spiders web that gathered smoke to it and let it seep through Gojyo's pores. He then took hold of Gojyo's hands and let his energy flow into the redhead who appeared to be stirring.
*I will do this. Gojyo is my friend and my lover and will not die*
"Sanzo?" asked Goku, tugging lightly at Sanzo's sleeve.
"What?" answered Sanzo staring not at Goku but out at the horizon as if he expected an army of angry people demanding their sacrifice back any second now.
"Is Gojyo going to die?" asked Goku with wide golden eyes.
The monk looked back at the jeep where green light was still emanating from the backseat. He heard a gasp of frustration from Hakkai and started striding towards the jeep with his gun drawn.
"No he's not, but I think Hakkai might if he keeps going at this fucking rate."
Sanzo reached Jeep before Goku and grabbed Hakkai by the shoulder shaking him out of the trance.
"Gods damn it, Hakkai!" he shouted. "You've done enough, stop it."
Hakkai slung his hand away.
"No. Leave me. He's still hurt." Hakkai snapped. More green light was summoned, this time tracing its way back down Gojyo's legs, having given the body a little time to rest, before he could continue. He repeated his attentions to put together more skin and muscle, following each wound with his fingers as if he was working with the finest silk.
Hakkai then let out a shallow cry and Sanzo went to pull him away again. Every time Hakkai summoned his healing powers, he gave up his own life energy to do it. Sanzo had seen him collapse after healing Gojyo from the gunshot wound that had destroyed the seed planted by Chin Isou. Now he was going beyond that, he was going to kill himself so he could save another. Sanzo grabbed his shoulder and Hakkai slung him away again, but with far less strength than before. Sanzo noticed the green light had become weaker and paler. He also saw Hakkai's nose was bleeding now, dripping onto Gojyo's leg and mingling with Gojyo's own blood. Hakkai was using so much of his own life energy that his already-weakened blood vessels were starting to burst.
"Hakkai." Sanzo said coldly, climbing into the Jeep next to Hakkai "You don't need to do anymore." He reached into his sleeve and drew out his fan ready to slap the healer into the next decade at his flagrant waste of ki.
"No, Sanzo! I will do this!" Hakkai shouted back, almost bent double now, as if he was finding it difficult to breathe. Although Hakkai's efforts meant that, the wounds on Gojyo's legs were almost fully closed by now.
"You're going to fucking kill yourself!" snapped Sanzo
"I don't care!" came the panted and rasped reply. "I will not let someone else die because of me!"
Sanzo was about to tell Goku to knock the increasingly-anguished Hakkai out when a pink recently-healed hand gripped the healer's shirt that was hanging onto his body by bare threads alone. The green light blinked out and Hakkai stared down at Gojyo who was staring back, his eyes burning like rubies out of his smudged face.
"Fucking stop it." Croaked Gojyo hoarsely.
"Gojyo!" cried Hakkai, clasping the hand gratefully: beads of sweat were running down his face and mingling with the blood oozing from the corner of his mouth. Gojyo heaved his whole body upright and stared at Hakkai who tilted his head checking his for any more injuries. Gojyo then saw the blood now dripping from his ears onto his shoulders.
"Shit, Hakkai! What have you done?!"
Hakkai didn't hear him. The whole world was going hazy now and he couldn't really hear anymore. He saw Sanzo mouth something and felt Gojyo grip his trembling hand that he tried to raise to his lips to kiss. Hakkai didn't understand the concern, just felt like he was floating away from them and that this was all perfectly normal. However, this time there were no awful hallucinations to accompany and torment him, just that wonderful feeling of total exhaustion taking up his body and mind and dropping him gently into the comforts of darkness.
"Hakkai?" asked Gojyo softly, his voice choked up with worry.
The brunette didn't reply, he had fallen back into Sanzo's arm, head lolling back with the faint hint of a smile remaining on his still face.
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A/N: Another chapter up. Thanks for sticking with me, those people who have been following. Music recommendation this time is Gravitation's Blind Game Again. A very funky song. Review me as well if you would be so kind.
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Hakkai scrambled to his feet and stumbled over to Gojyo, tears shimmering in his eyes and guilt eating away at him.
*I hurt them. I lost control. It should have never have happened. How will they ever be able to forgive me? Must I be always punished like this? I must always lose those I love through my own fault?*
He climbed back into the jeep and saw his unconscious lover lying in the back seats where Goku had laid him. Gojyo looked like a puppet with its strings cut, Hakkai gave a low moan of distress and knelt beside him, squeezing his body into the backseat to get a better look. He stumbled a little as he did so, grasping the spare tire for support, nearly falling back out as Sanzo fired up the Jeep. Goku leapt into the seat next to Sanzo and Hakkai dimly heard him talking about a copse of trees he could see. Jeep responded with a ferocious roar of the engine, just as concerned for his companions' safety. Sanzo then set off at a dangerous speed, getting them away from the wretched town to a place of safety.
Hakkai ignored the bumpy journey and carefully started inspecting Gojyo's injuries, trying hard not to let the prickling tears fall from his eyes. Thankfully, Gojyo was still breathing, each breath a long drawn-out rasp of discomfort that pulled at Hakkai's heart every time he heard it. He fought to ignore the sound and gingerly pulled at the mangled pieces of cloth that stubbornly clung to skin so he could begin to clear the areas that desperately needed healing.
Jeep hit another bump as Sanzo started to drive towards the clump of trees in the shade of some rocks that Goku had pointed out. Gojyo moaned as the movement jarred the wounds on his legs and Hakkai gasped as his stomach wound began to throb again; he ran his finger across the tattered dressing and felt a slight stickiness. Goku poked his head between the seats at the sounds of pain.
"Hakkai?! Are you okay?" he asked, looking at the brunette's sweat-shiny face and reddened fingertips. Hakkai nodded wearily.
"We need water and a clean cloth." He said, pulling away another burnt gob of fabric from Gojyo's leg and flicking it away in distaste.
Sanzo ground Jeep to a halt in a clearing near to a small river and Goku leapt out of the Jeep bearing a water bottle. Sanzo leaned back between the seats.
"We're out of trouble, you can start." He snapped. "What do you need?"
"Goku's getting water." Murmured Hakkai. "There's a first aid kit in the glove box for some bandages or something." Hakkai's head spun with worry and he struggled to think about what he would need next.
Goku ran back and handed over a bottle of water to Hakkai who nodded his thanks. Sanzo thrust another empty bottle at the boy.
"Go get more water." He said coolly, rummaging for the first-aid kit. Goku ran to the river without another word.
Hakkai ignored them and tipped the water over the redhead's legs, hoping it would be enough to cleanse the area for now. He then concentrated on summoning his ki energy for healing. It came to him easily now, pale white light enveloping his hands like gloves. He breathed out carefully and set to work relieved that he was feeling well enough to do this. Glowing fronds of light spread from his hands and gently enveloped Gojyo's legs.
Hakkai fought to brush away his overwhelming sense of guilt and let his ki abilities take over his mind, leaving his own mental worries for later. He sent the healing light coasting down Gojyo's right leg, forcing ruined flesh to start regenerating and knit itself together. When it struggled to respond, he offered his own strength to help, letting Gojyo's body take it eagerly. He repeated the process on the left leg, letting the skeins of light soothe burning flesh and pull together eaten muscle, leaving evil dark red stripes. Hakkai silently moved his hands up, forcing his own body to give up more energy to healing Gojyo and concentrating this time on his lungs, which were clogged with smoke. He let the green light absorb itself into Gojyo's skin, past his muscles and into the lungs, letting the healing power spread itself over his lungs like a spiders web that gathered smoke to it and let it seep through Gojyo's pores. He then took hold of Gojyo's hands and let his energy flow into the redhead who appeared to be stirring.
*I will do this. Gojyo is my friend and my lover and will not die*
"Sanzo?" asked Goku, tugging lightly at Sanzo's sleeve.
"What?" answered Sanzo staring not at Goku but out at the horizon as if he expected an army of angry people demanding their sacrifice back any second now.
"Is Gojyo going to die?" asked Goku with wide golden eyes.
The monk looked back at the jeep where green light was still emanating from the backseat. He heard a gasp of frustration from Hakkai and started striding towards the jeep with his gun drawn.
"No he's not, but I think Hakkai might if he keeps going at this fucking rate."
Sanzo reached Jeep before Goku and grabbed Hakkai by the shoulder shaking him out of the trance.
"Gods damn it, Hakkai!" he shouted. "You've done enough, stop it."
Hakkai slung his hand away.
"No. Leave me. He's still hurt." Hakkai snapped. More green light was summoned, this time tracing its way back down Gojyo's legs, having given the body a little time to rest, before he could continue. He repeated his attentions to put together more skin and muscle, following each wound with his fingers as if he was working with the finest silk.
Hakkai then let out a shallow cry and Sanzo went to pull him away again. Every time Hakkai summoned his healing powers, he gave up his own life energy to do it. Sanzo had seen him collapse after healing Gojyo from the gunshot wound that had destroyed the seed planted by Chin Isou. Now he was going beyond that, he was going to kill himself so he could save another. Sanzo grabbed his shoulder and Hakkai slung him away again, but with far less strength than before. Sanzo noticed the green light had become weaker and paler. He also saw Hakkai's nose was bleeding now, dripping onto Gojyo's leg and mingling with Gojyo's own blood. Hakkai was using so much of his own life energy that his already-weakened blood vessels were starting to burst.
"Hakkai." Sanzo said coldly, climbing into the Jeep next to Hakkai "You don't need to do anymore." He reached into his sleeve and drew out his fan ready to slap the healer into the next decade at his flagrant waste of ki.
"No, Sanzo! I will do this!" Hakkai shouted back, almost bent double now, as if he was finding it difficult to breathe. Although Hakkai's efforts meant that, the wounds on Gojyo's legs were almost fully closed by now.
"You're going to fucking kill yourself!" snapped Sanzo
"I don't care!" came the panted and rasped reply. "I will not let someone else die because of me!"
Sanzo was about to tell Goku to knock the increasingly-anguished Hakkai out when a pink recently-healed hand gripped the healer's shirt that was hanging onto his body by bare threads alone. The green light blinked out and Hakkai stared down at Gojyo who was staring back, his eyes burning like rubies out of his smudged face.
"Fucking stop it." Croaked Gojyo hoarsely.
"Gojyo!" cried Hakkai, clasping the hand gratefully: beads of sweat were running down his face and mingling with the blood oozing from the corner of his mouth. Gojyo heaved his whole body upright and stared at Hakkai who tilted his head checking his for any more injuries. Gojyo then saw the blood now dripping from his ears onto his shoulders.
"Shit, Hakkai! What have you done?!"
Hakkai didn't hear him. The whole world was going hazy now and he couldn't really hear anymore. He saw Sanzo mouth something and felt Gojyo grip his trembling hand that he tried to raise to his lips to kiss. Hakkai didn't understand the concern, just felt like he was floating away from them and that this was all perfectly normal. However, this time there were no awful hallucinations to accompany and torment him, just that wonderful feeling of total exhaustion taking up his body and mind and dropping him gently into the comforts of darkness.
"Hakkai?" asked Gojyo softly, his voice choked up with worry.
The brunette didn't reply, he had fallen back into Sanzo's arm, head lolling back with the faint hint of a smile remaining on his still face.
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A/N: Another chapter up. Thanks for sticking with me, those people who have been following. Music recommendation this time is Gravitation's Blind Game Again. A very funky song. Review me as well if you would be so kind.