.::Chapter 3::. Forgotten Fears
"Lord Claudius..." I thought gravely to myself. During dinner, there he was, so charming and so very lordly. "You silly girl," I told myself. "He had been trying so hard just to make eye contact with you. But what did I do? Nothing. Just sat there like a pathetic little creature staring at your soup. I wouldn't be surprise if he gives up on me." My heart cooed. "But after all, how could I face him?" That afternoon, he tried so desperately to befriend me but, I couldn't help but fear them; men. I slumped against the bed frame, pondering hard whether I should go find him. Suddenly, I heard the soft murmur of foot steps outside my door. "Who could be out here at this hour?" I thought. The door opened with a groan, as I looked up and faced the beautiful face of Claudius himself. I blushed deeply, at a loss for words. He closed the door silently behind him and whispered in a soothing voice," My Lady, I trust that I did not arouse you." I stared right into his eyes as they darkened. He walked over to my bedside and sat by my side. I am sure he felt me stiffened. Never had I ever been this close to a man before. My breath got shorter and I tried hard to look away. But he reached out and held my chin with such gentleness that it scared me. With a satisfied smile on his face, Claudius grinned and said" My Lady, have you been avoiding me? Whatever for?" I was dumbfounded, he saw right through me. I stammered" Have I been My Lord? My humble apologies if I have been." He gave me a knowing smile and soon, we were talking right into the deep night about our interests. I never knew that Claudius had a soft sport for horses. He looked so manly, so very unmovable.
Dawn had begun to break as Claudius got up to his feet and stretched lazily. He looked really adorable with the sleepy look on his face. He flashed me a weary smile and said" I better get going before one of the servants find me missing and heaven knows what chaos that might cause" I grinned at the cheeky prince before me. I gazed at my surroundings vaguely, certainly I needed some rest. Suddenly I felt Claudius' lips on mine. It was as though our lips fuse together. I opened my mouth and I felt as he sled his tongue in and instinctively, I drew mine out. The sensation tingled in my mouth, and my knees went weak. I had to hold onto Claudius like he was my life support. My heart burned like infernos. When he pulled away, I collapsed onto the grounds with my hand over my lips. This man, he had robbed me of my first kiss. My eyes began to tear as drops of salty tears flowed fast and furiously down my pale face. Claudius panicked, he stooped down and stared right into my eyes. His heart reached out to mine. He stared at me with a stricken look on his face. I wanted to reach out to him, to embrace him in my warmth and tell him it was alright. But he scrambled to his knees and stammered "My greatest apologies my Lady." And he rushed out of the room even before I could grasp his hand.
I slowly got up to my knees. "Did I hurt him?" I feared so. I flopped down wearily onto my bed staring at the curtain covering the four-poster bed. The sun had risen and the morning rays filtered through the windows and stung my eyes. I couldn't think straight, I worried about Claudius. The way he rushed out earlier. Somehow, my heart told me that I would lose him very soon. But I couldn't bring myself to admit that. After all, that kissed. It was amazing and surprisingly I craved for it. Feeling all shabby and horrible, I picked myself up and took a quick rinse in the tub. I yearned to see him again." Probably I might at the dining table later during breakfast." I secretly prayed.
"Lord Claudius..." I thought gravely to myself. During dinner, there he was, so charming and so very lordly. "You silly girl," I told myself. "He had been trying so hard just to make eye contact with you. But what did I do? Nothing. Just sat there like a pathetic little creature staring at your soup. I wouldn't be surprise if he gives up on me." My heart cooed. "But after all, how could I face him?" That afternoon, he tried so desperately to befriend me but, I couldn't help but fear them; men. I slumped against the bed frame, pondering hard whether I should go find him. Suddenly, I heard the soft murmur of foot steps outside my door. "Who could be out here at this hour?" I thought. The door opened with a groan, as I looked up and faced the beautiful face of Claudius himself. I blushed deeply, at a loss for words. He closed the door silently behind him and whispered in a soothing voice," My Lady, I trust that I did not arouse you." I stared right into his eyes as they darkened. He walked over to my bedside and sat by my side. I am sure he felt me stiffened. Never had I ever been this close to a man before. My breath got shorter and I tried hard to look away. But he reached out and held my chin with such gentleness that it scared me. With a satisfied smile on his face, Claudius grinned and said" My Lady, have you been avoiding me? Whatever for?" I was dumbfounded, he saw right through me. I stammered" Have I been My Lord? My humble apologies if I have been." He gave me a knowing smile and soon, we were talking right into the deep night about our interests. I never knew that Claudius had a soft sport for horses. He looked so manly, so very unmovable.
Dawn had begun to break as Claudius got up to his feet and stretched lazily. He looked really adorable with the sleepy look on his face. He flashed me a weary smile and said" I better get going before one of the servants find me missing and heaven knows what chaos that might cause" I grinned at the cheeky prince before me. I gazed at my surroundings vaguely, certainly I needed some rest. Suddenly I felt Claudius' lips on mine. It was as though our lips fuse together. I opened my mouth and I felt as he sled his tongue in and instinctively, I drew mine out. The sensation tingled in my mouth, and my knees went weak. I had to hold onto Claudius like he was my life support. My heart burned like infernos. When he pulled away, I collapsed onto the grounds with my hand over my lips. This man, he had robbed me of my first kiss. My eyes began to tear as drops of salty tears flowed fast and furiously down my pale face. Claudius panicked, he stooped down and stared right into my eyes. His heart reached out to mine. He stared at me with a stricken look on his face. I wanted to reach out to him, to embrace him in my warmth and tell him it was alright. But he scrambled to his knees and stammered "My greatest apologies my Lady." And he rushed out of the room even before I could grasp his hand.
I slowly got up to my knees. "Did I hurt him?" I feared so. I flopped down wearily onto my bed staring at the curtain covering the four-poster bed. The sun had risen and the morning rays filtered through the windows and stung my eyes. I couldn't think straight, I worried about Claudius. The way he rushed out earlier. Somehow, my heart told me that I would lose him very soon. But I couldn't bring myself to admit that. After all, that kissed. It was amazing and surprisingly I craved for it. Feeling all shabby and horrible, I picked myself up and took a quick rinse in the tub. I yearned to see him again." Probably I might at the dining table later during breakfast." I secretly prayed.