Disclaimer: I own nothin'. Except Moira, Danny, Denise, Jessica, Justin, Richy, April and Chrissy. And the story plot and stuff that comes from my imagination. That's actually a quite a lot. Crazy man Joss whedon, UPN, 20th century fox, sand dollar, mutant enemy, David greenwalt and all that I don't know a bout own BtVs and A; ts. I'm just writin' this for meself and people that are so nice to read my stories.
A/N:all spelling errors are my fault.
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CHAPTER.6
"So, what do you do now? And Oz?" Buffy asked her former best friend,
"Well, Umh, I'm a doctor and a Wicca and Oz has his computer company and the Dingoes. Why did you call anyway, Buffy, we thought you were dead because we haven't seen or heard from you in seventeen years. Why did you run? Do you know how much you hurt us? There are so much you missed that happened in our lives and we in yours. We could have been there for you but once again you ran away. I thought you had learnt something when you ran away the last time." Willow asked with tears flowing down her cheeks,
"I don't know, Will, I just was so scared and ashamed and hurt by Parker....and Angel. I just didn't want to be a bagage to you all."
"If he hurt you why did you go to him?"
"Because I knew he would let me stay there, first I thought my dad but then he was never home and I hadn't seen him for a long time. Not since before I became 17. I just was sure dad had forgotten about me and I knew Angel would never intentionally hurt me. Anyway, is my daughter, Moira, there? She ran out of here into a car with Spike after she declared that she would stake her dad if he came closer and then said she hated each and everyone in this house."
"Umh, her and Danny went to the Bronze with Spike, well, he went with them but I don't think he himself went to the Bronze. Umh, how does she dress when she goes out when she's at home?"
"What do you mean? Well, Umh, jeans, tops, denim jackets, sneakers. Why?"
"Well, when she came down both Spike and Danny had there mouths on the floor. She had on a red mini skirt, a red silk shirt that was way too big on her but tied so you could see her bellybutton-ring and tattoo and strappy, high-heeled shoes which were off course red too. Wasn't that Darla's favorite color? Danny followed her like a puppy out of here."
"What do you mean Tattoo and who is Danny? She probably stole one of her dad's shirts. She's known to do that." Buffy thought Will had just thought she had seen a tattoo, her daughter so did not have a tattoo,
"Well, the tattoo on her lower back, the bird, like the one in 'Pocahontas', ring a bell? And Danny is Oz's & my son. Daniel Osbourne like Oz." Willow thought it was kinda weird that Buffy didn't know that her own daughter had a tattoo,
"Do you know that Wes has been training her to do slayer-ly things?"
"He's been what!!!!!!? I have to go kick some ex-watcher butt. Talk to you later and please tell my daughter that I love her and everybody else in this home do too. That her dad was hurt when she threatened to stake him and that she's in soooo much trouble."
"Why do you keep on calling Angel her dad when he's not?"
"Because he is her dad, because he's been her dad since she was born, from the first day, he may not be her birth-dad but he's been there for her all her life, so he's her one and only dad. And that's that! I have to go."
"Okay, bye. Talk to you later."
"Bye. Say good night to Moira from me when she comes home." Then they hang up, and Will goes to watch TV,
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LA:
Anne hangs up the phone; Angel comes into their flat on the second floor, where Anne had been on the phone. Anne was hurt and felt like she had lost contact with her baby girl, what kinda mother didn't know her baby had gotten her bellybutton pierced, her tongue pierced and a tattoo. She had been way to busy to notice these things. She had told Will, who she hadn't talked to in 17 years from some buried and hurtful feelings, and then her hurt feelings turned into anger and since Angel had once hurt her, she let it out on him. He was hugging her because he had been the father to her daughter for all her daughters life, so you kinda could call it his baby too and this was hurting him too but then Anne starts to push him away and punching him,
"Anne, what are you doing?"
"This is all your fault, Angel!!!" She runs out of the flat but he chases her and when they are in the hallway he catches her,
"Buffy, what is all my fault?" She was crying her eyes out,
"This!!" She throws her hands up,
"What do you mean by 'This!!!', Buff what's the matter?"
"All this. Me living here, having a daughter when I was 19, me as a lawyer, me dating Pike for 14 years, me leaving Sunnydale, leaving Will, Xander, my mom, Giles, abandoning my life. ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!" She runs down to the lobby where Cordy and the gang where, Wes was just about to come up to tell them to come down, because Cordy just had a vision,
"How is all that my fault, Buffy?" He catches he, and holds her at arms length, her still crying, even harder now, her blouse wet from salty tears. She looks up into his eyes with her tear-filled-eyes; he sees so much hurt that had been building up over the years,
"It's all your fault because.......you...you...you left me. I loved you but I lost you, got you back only to lose you again. You thought if you left I could have a normal life, since I became the slayer I never had after that a normal life and I knew I never could again. I wanted my life to be with you. But you didn't and then you left. And see what happened I slept with the first guy who paid any attention to me, but then he kicked me out the morning after because 'his parents were coming' and I got drunk because when he did that, it's almost the same as Angelus did, but Parker was human and I didn't think a human could be so mean. And then I slept with fish-face because I was too drunk to know what I was doing, and I didn't want to be me. You're still the only one I've ever loved! But you seemed to have moved onto....I'm sorry I have to go." With that she was out the door, everybody was in shock, he didn't know that Buffy had blamed him for all this, she seemed to have been over him, though he doubted that he or she would ever be 100% over each other,
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##Flashback:##
###1998###
ANGEL: "I'm sorry. Buffy, you know how much I love you. It kills me to say this--"
BUFFY: "Then don't! Who are you to tell me what's right for me? You think I haven't thought about this?"
ANGEL: "Have you? Rationally?"
BUFFY: "No, no, of course not. I'm just some swoony little schoolgirl, right?"
ANGEL: "I'm trying to do what's right here. I'm trying to think with my head instead of my heart."
BUFFY: "Heart? You have a heart? It isn't even beating."
ANGEL: "Don't."
BUFFY: "Don't what? Don't love you? I'm sorry. You know what, I didn't know I got a choice in that. I'm never going to change. I want my life to be with you."
ANGEL: "I don't."
BUFFY: "You don't...want to be with me?"
ANGEL: "It doesn't mean that I don't--"
BUFFY: "How am I supposed to stay away from you?"
ANGEL: "I'm leaving. After the Ascension, after it's finished with the Mayor and Faith. If we survive, I'll go."
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BUFFY: "Right now, I'm just trying to keep from dying."
WILLOW: "Oh, Buffy..."
BUFFY: "I can't breathe, Will. I feel like I can't breathe."
(The quotes are from BtVs, season 3, episode, "The Prom." ~CrazyDru.)
##END OF FLASHBACK.##
That feeling was coming over her again, that feeling like she couldn't breath, that feeling she got when she told Will about her breakup with Angel. She was having a hard time driving to Pike's flat, he had proposed a few days ago, she had said she had to think about it and she hadn't talked to him since then. She was thinking about saying 'yes', he would hopefully not break her heart, but they had been a couple for fourteen years so he was kinda one of her closet friends and she loved him, just not like she loved Angel. But she could see herself with Pike in the feature.
*~*~*
TBC.....
(Please e-mail, or if your on ff.net review. Please let me know what you thought. I'll try to put up the next ch. as soon as I can. But I have school and a life. But not that much life.)
A/N:all spelling errors are my fault.
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CHAPTER.6
"So, what do you do now? And Oz?" Buffy asked her former best friend,
"Well, Umh, I'm a doctor and a Wicca and Oz has his computer company and the Dingoes. Why did you call anyway, Buffy, we thought you were dead because we haven't seen or heard from you in seventeen years. Why did you run? Do you know how much you hurt us? There are so much you missed that happened in our lives and we in yours. We could have been there for you but once again you ran away. I thought you had learnt something when you ran away the last time." Willow asked with tears flowing down her cheeks,
"I don't know, Will, I just was so scared and ashamed and hurt by Parker....and Angel. I just didn't want to be a bagage to you all."
"If he hurt you why did you go to him?"
"Because I knew he would let me stay there, first I thought my dad but then he was never home and I hadn't seen him for a long time. Not since before I became 17. I just was sure dad had forgotten about me and I knew Angel would never intentionally hurt me. Anyway, is my daughter, Moira, there? She ran out of here into a car with Spike after she declared that she would stake her dad if he came closer and then said she hated each and everyone in this house."
"Umh, her and Danny went to the Bronze with Spike, well, he went with them but I don't think he himself went to the Bronze. Umh, how does she dress when she goes out when she's at home?"
"What do you mean? Well, Umh, jeans, tops, denim jackets, sneakers. Why?"
"Well, when she came down both Spike and Danny had there mouths on the floor. She had on a red mini skirt, a red silk shirt that was way too big on her but tied so you could see her bellybutton-ring and tattoo and strappy, high-heeled shoes which were off course red too. Wasn't that Darla's favorite color? Danny followed her like a puppy out of here."
"What do you mean Tattoo and who is Danny? She probably stole one of her dad's shirts. She's known to do that." Buffy thought Will had just thought she had seen a tattoo, her daughter so did not have a tattoo,
"Well, the tattoo on her lower back, the bird, like the one in 'Pocahontas', ring a bell? And Danny is Oz's & my son. Daniel Osbourne like Oz." Willow thought it was kinda weird that Buffy didn't know that her own daughter had a tattoo,
"Do you know that Wes has been training her to do slayer-ly things?"
"He's been what!!!!!!? I have to go kick some ex-watcher butt. Talk to you later and please tell my daughter that I love her and everybody else in this home do too. That her dad was hurt when she threatened to stake him and that she's in soooo much trouble."
"Why do you keep on calling Angel her dad when he's not?"
"Because he is her dad, because he's been her dad since she was born, from the first day, he may not be her birth-dad but he's been there for her all her life, so he's her one and only dad. And that's that! I have to go."
"Okay, bye. Talk to you later."
"Bye. Say good night to Moira from me when she comes home." Then they hang up, and Will goes to watch TV,
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LA:
Anne hangs up the phone; Angel comes into their flat on the second floor, where Anne had been on the phone. Anne was hurt and felt like she had lost contact with her baby girl, what kinda mother didn't know her baby had gotten her bellybutton pierced, her tongue pierced and a tattoo. She had been way to busy to notice these things. She had told Will, who she hadn't talked to in 17 years from some buried and hurtful feelings, and then her hurt feelings turned into anger and since Angel had once hurt her, she let it out on him. He was hugging her because he had been the father to her daughter for all her daughters life, so you kinda could call it his baby too and this was hurting him too but then Anne starts to push him away and punching him,
"Anne, what are you doing?"
"This is all your fault, Angel!!!" She runs out of the flat but he chases her and when they are in the hallway he catches her,
"Buffy, what is all my fault?" She was crying her eyes out,
"This!!" She throws her hands up,
"What do you mean by 'This!!!', Buff what's the matter?"
"All this. Me living here, having a daughter when I was 19, me as a lawyer, me dating Pike for 14 years, me leaving Sunnydale, leaving Will, Xander, my mom, Giles, abandoning my life. ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!" She runs down to the lobby where Cordy and the gang where, Wes was just about to come up to tell them to come down, because Cordy just had a vision,
"How is all that my fault, Buffy?" He catches he, and holds her at arms length, her still crying, even harder now, her blouse wet from salty tears. She looks up into his eyes with her tear-filled-eyes; he sees so much hurt that had been building up over the years,
"It's all your fault because.......you...you...you left me. I loved you but I lost you, got you back only to lose you again. You thought if you left I could have a normal life, since I became the slayer I never had after that a normal life and I knew I never could again. I wanted my life to be with you. But you didn't and then you left. And see what happened I slept with the first guy who paid any attention to me, but then he kicked me out the morning after because 'his parents were coming' and I got drunk because when he did that, it's almost the same as Angelus did, but Parker was human and I didn't think a human could be so mean. And then I slept with fish-face because I was too drunk to know what I was doing, and I didn't want to be me. You're still the only one I've ever loved! But you seemed to have moved onto....I'm sorry I have to go." With that she was out the door, everybody was in shock, he didn't know that Buffy had blamed him for all this, she seemed to have been over him, though he doubted that he or she would ever be 100% over each other,
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##Flashback:##
###1998###
ANGEL: "I'm sorry. Buffy, you know how much I love you. It kills me to say this--"
BUFFY: "Then don't! Who are you to tell me what's right for me? You think I haven't thought about this?"
ANGEL: "Have you? Rationally?"
BUFFY: "No, no, of course not. I'm just some swoony little schoolgirl, right?"
ANGEL: "I'm trying to do what's right here. I'm trying to think with my head instead of my heart."
BUFFY: "Heart? You have a heart? It isn't even beating."
ANGEL: "Don't."
BUFFY: "Don't what? Don't love you? I'm sorry. You know what, I didn't know I got a choice in that. I'm never going to change. I want my life to be with you."
ANGEL: "I don't."
BUFFY: "You don't...want to be with me?"
ANGEL: "It doesn't mean that I don't--"
BUFFY: "How am I supposed to stay away from you?"
ANGEL: "I'm leaving. After the Ascension, after it's finished with the Mayor and Faith. If we survive, I'll go."
*~*~*
BUFFY: "Right now, I'm just trying to keep from dying."
WILLOW: "Oh, Buffy..."
BUFFY: "I can't breathe, Will. I feel like I can't breathe."
(The quotes are from BtVs, season 3, episode, "The Prom." ~CrazyDru.)
##END OF FLASHBACK.##
That feeling was coming over her again, that feeling like she couldn't breath, that feeling she got when she told Will about her breakup with Angel. She was having a hard time driving to Pike's flat, he had proposed a few days ago, she had said she had to think about it and she hadn't talked to him since then. She was thinking about saying 'yes', he would hopefully not break her heart, but they had been a couple for fourteen years so he was kinda one of her closet friends and she loved him, just not like she loved Angel. But she could see herself with Pike in the feature.
*~*~*
TBC.....
(Please e-mail, or if your on ff.net review. Please let me know what you thought. I'll try to put up the next ch. as soon as I can. But I have school and a life. But not that much life.)