author's note: sorry that i haven't updated in a loooonnnggg time. i've wanted to, but theres a lot of shit going on right now in my life. for starters, i tried to kill myself. well, i was going to, but someone in my class read my suicide letter before i did, and she turned me in. in result, i was suspended from school a week and a half, my parents were acting so off it isnt funny, my mother got 10 times worse than before, i didnt hear from any of my friends, and i had to be with my parents at all times. i come back to school, and i end up going back to being an outcast in 2 days. guess i was the flavor of the week. also, i am sending a message to all of you mother fuckers out there who have no fucking clue what its like to live 30 seconds in my life, and who say shit like ' go find a reason to live, and don't bother anyone with crap writings like this. ' well guess what bitch!! nobody fuckin asked u or told u to read this fuckin story!! i didn't fuckin send it to your e-mail tellin u to read it, now did i?!?! if ya don't like it, fine!!! BUT DON'T START TALKING ABOUT SHIT U WILL NEVER UNDER-FUCKING-STAND UNTIL YOU LIVE IT!!! that means u, See You Auntie, whoever the fuck you are. shut the fuck up. u have no fuckin clue what its like to live a life like this. u couldn't begin to comprehend it. so shut ur face, don't read anymore of the fuckin story, and try to understand someone else's life. maybe this will enlighten you, all of you, who read this story. i hope i made my point clear. as for those of u who didn't tell me nothin about findin a reason to live or to stop writing, i thank u, and im sorry i haven't updated. its gonna be a while. this note was not directed towards any of the good reviewers, at least not the angry part. - Thunder46.