Authors Note-- Two chapters for today, because I double posted chapter 30... not sure how guess I am insane. Also there are no review responses or previes, cause its my bday (yes I tell everyone while I enjoy it,c ause one day I will get so old that I will not want anyone to know...)due to that I dont have time to do the whole review response thing:(, so you get double chapters... enjoy :)
Chapter 31
"Are you going to get married?"
"Not today..."
"Maybe tomorrow?"
"Not likely..."
"How about babies?"
"What about them? You want kids..."
"I HAVE kids."
"But, do you want kids with Abby?"
"Who are you?" I throw my news paper down on the bed, he shrugs his shoulders, continuing to run his toy cars up and down my chest.
"Abby only wants Dad for his money." Maddie says crinkling the corners of her math book.
"No, she actually wants me for you, and your loving personality." I crack... Her tongue shoots out of her mouth, before slamming her math book closed. She jumps off the bed, almost sending Sebastian flying off my chest and into the wall... His fingers claw into my arms, he rests his head back on my chest, before returning to his previous game of leaving track marks, no not that kind, along his fathers chest.
"Is Abby going to move in with us?" Sebastian asks without batting an eye. I'm not sure if this is something he wants, or just curiosity.
"No... Are you going to keep asking me these questions?"
"What else do you want me to do?" I shrug, then a great idea pops into my head.
"Go bug your sister." A grin spreads across his face, he leaps off the bed, I bounce in the air, before settling nicely into a comfy position. I hear Abby puttering about in the closet, she's helping me pick something out for my important foundation meeting tomorrow. I don't actually need help, I can dress myself for the most part. But she has been bored lately. And itching to get out of my house. I don't blame her, Maddie has been nothing but a hellish little devil. Someone should smack her, oh wait, that would have to be me. Shit. Well, I guess she will just have to stay a brat a little longer, seeing as I don't have the balls to punish her.
"How you doing in there?" I call, not making any attempt to go up and help her, even if she is hurt, or struggling.
"Fine, just listening to your daughter berate me... Its pleasant, really."
"Well you know Maddie, full of sunshine and happiness... Sees the good in everyone." She walks out of the closet rolling her eyes. She plops a pile of clothes down on the chair. She takes a look at them, debating whether she should continue her assault on my closet, or climb into bed with me. She chooses the latter, obviously. It is me, and I am irresistible. How could she not? She'd be a fool not too. Carefully she crawl into bed with me, she's been out of the hospital for a few days now. Slowly getting better. I watch over her, she hates it. I don't blame her. I am pretty protective.
"She's a sweetheart." She sighs, plopping her head down on my chest, her fingers, lazily, running through my hair. I catch her other hand in my own, lacing her fingers through mine.
"She is... Just she's also a little-" I search for the words to finish my sentence.
"Spoiled?" Exactly. I know its my fault, but I can't help it. She has me wrapped around her little finger.
"She is spoiled. There is nothing I can do about it." I sigh, hugging Abby closer to me. We sit in silence for a few moments, relishing in being alone, without tension. I finger her necklace, like I have done every day since I found it. She hasn't answered my questions of where its from and I haven't pushed her too. I know she'll tell me when she's ready. I can feel her eyes bore into me, waiting for me to ask again, she's been waiting for two weeks...
"SEBASTIAN!" We both jerk up, looking out the ajar bedroom door. Sebastian is running away, terror etched across his face. Abby looks up at me quizzically, I shrug, just as curious as her. I know I told him to bug his sister, but that has never resulted in him running away scared. Soon we see Maddie run by with a knife in her hands. Great. I knew I should of hid those higher. I extract myself from Abby's grip running into the hallway. I manage to catch Madison by the tail of her shirt. She screeches as I pick her up. Taking the knife from her hands, thanking god that I kept the hard plastic covers on them. I can hear Abby padding up slowly behind us, taking the knife from me. I take a screaming Madison into her bedroom, throwing her onto the bed. I wait for a few moments hoping that she will calm down. No such luck. Her screams only grow louder, more desperate, and I think she even pops my ear drums. I watch her. Her arms and legs flailing in the air, face beet red. For some reason I don't think this has anything to do with her wayward brother. I reach for the door handle, taking another glance back, tears pouring down her cheeks.
"Hey." I crawl into bed, Sebastian resting his head on the pillow next to her.
"She okay?" I shrug. Probably not. But I can't let her keep doing this. Getting whatever she wants, I'm only hurting her. I can't force her to like Abby, but I can teach her to respect people. Something only I can teach her. I place a kiss on Abby's forehead. Instead of returning the gesture she ignores me completely. I shoot her a puzzled look, which she also chooses to ignore. Preferring to focus her attention on a scared looking Sebastian. I run my fingers down her back, she flinches, and I don't think its from her injuries. Curling Sebastian in her arms, she turns her back to me. He rests his head on her shoulder, grimacing at the shrill shrieks coming from Madison's room.
"Hey, Seb... You want to go to bed." He looks at me with pleading eyes. Before digging his head into Abby's shoulder.
"Can I sleep in Abby's room tonight?" Given the events of tonight, I figure its best to not tell him that Abby and I have been sleeping together. Abby places a kiss on his forehead.
"Sure." Well, I guess my bed mate is leaving me. "Go get ready for bed..." Seb, jumps off the bed. Abby attempts to get up, I help her a little, she doesn't really seem thankful. I'm kind of disappointed she's leaving me for the night. I know we can't exactly have sex right now, I wouldn't want to hurt her more than she already is. She needs to heal up for all those positions I've read about in Karma Sutra. Becca wasn't very creative in the bedroom... Abby... I can tell she'd be a different story. I run my fingers along her back, my thoughts getting the best of me. I sit up, figuring its easier for me to start something, even though it won't be much, if I'm actually close to her. She looks at me, then quickly turns her face, but not before I can capture her lips with my own. The kiss starts off sweet, as usual, but her hands digging in my chest are telling me this is not going to go the way it usually does.
"Piss off Carter." She stands up unsteadily. Reaching out for my shoulder to balance herself. I help her, then stand up myself.
"What? What did I do?" Really, what did I do? I am not sure, clueless actually. Everything seemed to be going fine, these last few days have been wonderful. Now all the sudden she's glaring at me. PMS? Maybe... Hmmm, if this is what it's going to be like every month, if she's going to have mood swings I will have to figure a way to cope.
"The way you dealt with Sebastian." Okay, now I am sure it has to be PMS, seeing as I am not sure what is wrong with the way I dealt with Seb. I saved him from his knife bearing sister, did I not?
"What was wrong with the way I dealt with him?" I ask, a little offended, that she would even imply that I am not good with my children. Or that I may treat them badly.
"You're so less affectionate with him then Maddie..." Well yah, he's never really needed the affection. Maddie on the other hand has. She's also a girl. She's more cuddly then he is. Sometimes this woman leaves me so confused.
"Well... that- that's just the relationship we have... I guess... Is that okay with you? Am I allowed to have a certain type of relationship with each of my kids, or do I have to have the same one-"
"Jesus Carter. I never said that! You're putting words in my mouth." She is getting angry right now. I am kind of lost.
"You seem like you're implying it..." I say, my voice getting softer. She shakes her head.
"No. I am saying you seem to spoil Madison, give her whatever she wants. Sebastian doesn't get the same treatment." What? Does she want me to spoil both my kids now, or drop the spoilage on Maddie down a level? Because if that is what she is saying then I agree. Madison has it to good. I am afraid that is because of her mother. The moment Becky died, I spoiled her, trying to fill the void of loosing her mother with materialistic things. It didn't work all that well, she's now a tad spoiled. She's even bratty. I haven't spoiled her as much lately, but I have given her the impression that she is a princess, which she is not. Right now I am attempting to give her a reality check. I guess Abby's stay has prompted that.
"I'm not sure I follow..." She runs her fingers through her somewhat tangled hair. Dropping her hand to her side she pushes past me and out the door. "Goodnight." Goodnight? That's it. I seem to be more at a lost today, than any other day. She seems fed up with me. I love my children equally.
Chapter 31
"Are you going to get married?"
"Not today..."
"Maybe tomorrow?"
"Not likely..."
"How about babies?"
"What about them? You want kids..."
"I HAVE kids."
"But, do you want kids with Abby?"
"Who are you?" I throw my news paper down on the bed, he shrugs his shoulders, continuing to run his toy cars up and down my chest.
"Abby only wants Dad for his money." Maddie says crinkling the corners of her math book.
"No, she actually wants me for you, and your loving personality." I crack... Her tongue shoots out of her mouth, before slamming her math book closed. She jumps off the bed, almost sending Sebastian flying off my chest and into the wall... His fingers claw into my arms, he rests his head back on my chest, before returning to his previous game of leaving track marks, no not that kind, along his fathers chest.
"Is Abby going to move in with us?" Sebastian asks without batting an eye. I'm not sure if this is something he wants, or just curiosity.
"No... Are you going to keep asking me these questions?"
"What else do you want me to do?" I shrug, then a great idea pops into my head.
"Go bug your sister." A grin spreads across his face, he leaps off the bed, I bounce in the air, before settling nicely into a comfy position. I hear Abby puttering about in the closet, she's helping me pick something out for my important foundation meeting tomorrow. I don't actually need help, I can dress myself for the most part. But she has been bored lately. And itching to get out of my house. I don't blame her, Maddie has been nothing but a hellish little devil. Someone should smack her, oh wait, that would have to be me. Shit. Well, I guess she will just have to stay a brat a little longer, seeing as I don't have the balls to punish her.
"How you doing in there?" I call, not making any attempt to go up and help her, even if she is hurt, or struggling.
"Fine, just listening to your daughter berate me... Its pleasant, really."
"Well you know Maddie, full of sunshine and happiness... Sees the good in everyone." She walks out of the closet rolling her eyes. She plops a pile of clothes down on the chair. She takes a look at them, debating whether she should continue her assault on my closet, or climb into bed with me. She chooses the latter, obviously. It is me, and I am irresistible. How could she not? She'd be a fool not too. Carefully she crawl into bed with me, she's been out of the hospital for a few days now. Slowly getting better. I watch over her, she hates it. I don't blame her. I am pretty protective.
"She's a sweetheart." She sighs, plopping her head down on my chest, her fingers, lazily, running through my hair. I catch her other hand in my own, lacing her fingers through mine.
"She is... Just she's also a little-" I search for the words to finish my sentence.
"Spoiled?" Exactly. I know its my fault, but I can't help it. She has me wrapped around her little finger.
"She is spoiled. There is nothing I can do about it." I sigh, hugging Abby closer to me. We sit in silence for a few moments, relishing in being alone, without tension. I finger her necklace, like I have done every day since I found it. She hasn't answered my questions of where its from and I haven't pushed her too. I know she'll tell me when she's ready. I can feel her eyes bore into me, waiting for me to ask again, she's been waiting for two weeks...
"SEBASTIAN!" We both jerk up, looking out the ajar bedroom door. Sebastian is running away, terror etched across his face. Abby looks up at me quizzically, I shrug, just as curious as her. I know I told him to bug his sister, but that has never resulted in him running away scared. Soon we see Maddie run by with a knife in her hands. Great. I knew I should of hid those higher. I extract myself from Abby's grip running into the hallway. I manage to catch Madison by the tail of her shirt. She screeches as I pick her up. Taking the knife from her hands, thanking god that I kept the hard plastic covers on them. I can hear Abby padding up slowly behind us, taking the knife from me. I take a screaming Madison into her bedroom, throwing her onto the bed. I wait for a few moments hoping that she will calm down. No such luck. Her screams only grow louder, more desperate, and I think she even pops my ear drums. I watch her. Her arms and legs flailing in the air, face beet red. For some reason I don't think this has anything to do with her wayward brother. I reach for the door handle, taking another glance back, tears pouring down her cheeks.
"Hey." I crawl into bed, Sebastian resting his head on the pillow next to her.
"She okay?" I shrug. Probably not. But I can't let her keep doing this. Getting whatever she wants, I'm only hurting her. I can't force her to like Abby, but I can teach her to respect people. Something only I can teach her. I place a kiss on Abby's forehead. Instead of returning the gesture she ignores me completely. I shoot her a puzzled look, which she also chooses to ignore. Preferring to focus her attention on a scared looking Sebastian. I run my fingers down her back, she flinches, and I don't think its from her injuries. Curling Sebastian in her arms, she turns her back to me. He rests his head on her shoulder, grimacing at the shrill shrieks coming from Madison's room.
"Hey, Seb... You want to go to bed." He looks at me with pleading eyes. Before digging his head into Abby's shoulder.
"Can I sleep in Abby's room tonight?" Given the events of tonight, I figure its best to not tell him that Abby and I have been sleeping together. Abby places a kiss on his forehead.
"Sure." Well, I guess my bed mate is leaving me. "Go get ready for bed..." Seb, jumps off the bed. Abby attempts to get up, I help her a little, she doesn't really seem thankful. I'm kind of disappointed she's leaving me for the night. I know we can't exactly have sex right now, I wouldn't want to hurt her more than she already is. She needs to heal up for all those positions I've read about in Karma Sutra. Becca wasn't very creative in the bedroom... Abby... I can tell she'd be a different story. I run my fingers along her back, my thoughts getting the best of me. I sit up, figuring its easier for me to start something, even though it won't be much, if I'm actually close to her. She looks at me, then quickly turns her face, but not before I can capture her lips with my own. The kiss starts off sweet, as usual, but her hands digging in my chest are telling me this is not going to go the way it usually does.
"Piss off Carter." She stands up unsteadily. Reaching out for my shoulder to balance herself. I help her, then stand up myself.
"What? What did I do?" Really, what did I do? I am not sure, clueless actually. Everything seemed to be going fine, these last few days have been wonderful. Now all the sudden she's glaring at me. PMS? Maybe... Hmmm, if this is what it's going to be like every month, if she's going to have mood swings I will have to figure a way to cope.
"The way you dealt with Sebastian." Okay, now I am sure it has to be PMS, seeing as I am not sure what is wrong with the way I dealt with Seb. I saved him from his knife bearing sister, did I not?
"What was wrong with the way I dealt with him?" I ask, a little offended, that she would even imply that I am not good with my children. Or that I may treat them badly.
"You're so less affectionate with him then Maddie..." Well yah, he's never really needed the affection. Maddie on the other hand has. She's also a girl. She's more cuddly then he is. Sometimes this woman leaves me so confused.
"Well... that- that's just the relationship we have... I guess... Is that okay with you? Am I allowed to have a certain type of relationship with each of my kids, or do I have to have the same one-"
"Jesus Carter. I never said that! You're putting words in my mouth." She is getting angry right now. I am kind of lost.
"You seem like you're implying it..." I say, my voice getting softer. She shakes her head.
"No. I am saying you seem to spoil Madison, give her whatever she wants. Sebastian doesn't get the same treatment." What? Does she want me to spoil both my kids now, or drop the spoilage on Maddie down a level? Because if that is what she is saying then I agree. Madison has it to good. I am afraid that is because of her mother. The moment Becky died, I spoiled her, trying to fill the void of loosing her mother with materialistic things. It didn't work all that well, she's now a tad spoiled. She's even bratty. I haven't spoiled her as much lately, but I have given her the impression that she is a princess, which she is not. Right now I am attempting to give her a reality check. I guess Abby's stay has prompted that.
"I'm not sure I follow..." She runs her fingers through her somewhat tangled hair. Dropping her hand to her side she pushes past me and out the door. "Goodnight." Goodnight? That's it. I seem to be more at a lost today, than any other day. She seems fed up with me. I love my children equally.