Authors Note- Sorry for the lack of updates this weekend. Its been pretty crazy.
Chapter 33
"You ready?" I poke my head into her bedroom once again. She's dressed this time, unfortunately. She scans the room, making a mental checklist of all the things she needs, and has to do before leaving. Everything seems to be okay, so she picks up her purse. I remain leaning against the frame, watching as she approaches me. She looks at a lot healthier, happier even. Her hair resting on her shoulders. She stops in front of me, pulling me in for a short kiss, all the while placing her hand in my own.
"Ew." We both turn, seeing her standing in front of us. Arms dangling at her side. Anger written all over her face. Oh great. This is the last thing I need. She runs away, which only makes matters worse. If I go after her Abby will call me a sucker, if I don't my daughter will hate me for all eternity, or until the next Barbie doll comes out. I decide Madison can hate me. If I go after her its not going to help anything.
"Come on kids..." I holler up the stairs. Abby ties my fingers with her own, leading me towards the front door. "She might not come down." I sigh, running my fingers through my hair.
"John-" She says it in a warning tone, that for some reason upsets me. Its as though she is trying to tell me how to raise me kids.
"Don't speak to me like that." I say it with a little force, "don't talk to me about this. You don't know a thing about kids, you've never had any kids. So don't lecture me on my own. I don't even know why I am listening to you-"
"Dad." Abby's angry face, along with my own, turns toward Sebastian. He looks a little frightened, I don't speak to them in that voice, so I guess he would be.
"Come on Seb, we'll meet up with your dad and Maddie later, okay?" He nods, a little frightened, he takes off up the stairs to grab something. Abby waits until he is gone before turning to me.
"Don't act like you know a thing about me or my life, guess what baby, you don't. You have no fucking clue." Her voice an angry whisper. I mimic her tone.
"Right back at you. You stay out of my business then. Don't tell me how to raise my daughter, I've been doing it fine for three years."
"Obviously not." As if on cue Sebastian comes barrelling down the stairs grabbing Abby's hand and leading her out the door. I'm not sure what just went down. But I have a feeling its not good, and can't lead to anything good. I want to run after her, apologise, but I can't. I have a seven year old who is depending on me right now. Although she may not know it right now. Another part of me wants to shut her out completely. Leave her. But I can't. She means too much to me, I know she is right. I've been doing the best I can, it hasn't been easy. I'm not sure she understands that. She can waltz in here and out of here when ever she wants. These are my kids, my responsibility. Don't have the luxury of being able to leave.
"Madison. Let's go." I break myself out of my thoughts, knowing I can't be late for the appointment.
"I don't want to see her." She screeches. I shake my head. Why does she think she can just treat other people so badly, Abby has been nothing but nice. And Madison thinks she's her person punishing bag, or shit bowl. She has no respect. A good smack is probably in order.
"Abby left." I call up to her. I wait a moment, knowing any minute she will appear down here. Tear stained cheeks, begging for forgiveness. How are all women the same? Even at seven. I see her silhouette appear at the stairs. There is my little girl. Just as I thought. Her chubby cheeks stained, her arms outstretched waiting for a hug. I grab her by the hand, refusing the hug offer. She whimpers softly, then a tear makes its way down her cheek. Not going to work Madison, just not going to work. I lead her out to the car, opening the door for her. She doesn't get in. Instead she crosses her arms firmly over her chest, protesting. Yeah, you be stubborn. I can be stubborn right back. I hop into the car, starting the engine. Preparing to back out just as she screeches. I watch as she jumps in the car, quickly buckling her seat belt, then closing the door. Yup, I out stubborned her.
"Where are we going?" She baby talks. I roll my eyes, time for lesson two. I clamp my mouth closed. She knows how we speak in the house. Big girl voices. None of this whiny voiced crap.
"Daddy..." She tries again. Still wrong voice. This time she exaggerates her words. Dragging each letter through the ground. I concentrate on my driving, trying to ignore her, and think about ways I can broach these kinds of subjects with Abby without having her blow up at me. For some reason she is very sensitive when it comes to children. I know everyone is. But it seems to go a little deeper with her. She has personal ties of some sort in this case. I know she lost a child... I cringe at the thought. I know I shouldn't. But I don't want her having a child with Luka. He didn't treat her right. Not badly, just not right. I think her loosing that child has hit her very hard. Getting hit by a car, then finding out that car wreck any hope she had of having a child. I am not sure she wants any. When she first met me she had no problem with voicing her dislike for children. Now... She seems to love them. At least Sebastian.
"DAD!" Now she's screeching. I almost swerved into the other lane. Damn it.
"Madison! No. Not in the car." I holler at her, not turning around. "You could have killed us. Do not, never again, never, scream in the car. I don't want to hear another damn word out of you." I turn around, as we have his a red light. "Got it?" My voice has lowered a bit. She nods, a little frightened. That sure as hell shut her up.
We walk into the hospital, Maddie walking a few feet ahead of me, trying her best to ignore me. Although every few seconds she glances back at me. She walks through the hospital door first. Seeing Susan and Sebastian she heads over to them. I spy Abby talking to Weaver. She sees me, rolls her eyes, then turns away. I love you too Abby. Thanks, I hope we can always treat each other this well. I start towards her anyways.
"Are you here to yell at me some more? Didn't get enough of it earlier?" Her back is to me, and she is filling out some paper work.
"No. I'm here so you can continue telling me what a horrible parent I am to my kids." I hear her sigh, I wait a second. I came over here, she can turn around. No suck luck. She continues to ignore me. First she leaves at the house, after calling me a bad parent, now this. She's a real bitch today.
"Madison, lets go." I get her from Susan. I can feel Abby staring at me. She's going to have to talk to me this time. I'm not doing it. She can stop being such a bitch. Its as simple as that. Madison rolls her eyes, hey her and Abby are getting more and more alike every day, she decides to walk behind me. Instead of beside me. I let her. I am not going to argue over this. If she gets lost, well... that wouldn't be good. I turn around, grabbing her hand roughly, she whines for a moment. I lead her to the elevator. Its crowded. A stank fills the air, Maddie turns her nose upward, yah the smells not pleasant for anyone.
"Is Abby going to leave you?" She says, a little smile present on her face. I get this. She is trying to drive Abby away. I knell down to her level, taking her hands in my own.
"No. But even if she did, there will be other women, Mad. There always will be. I love you, I love Seb, but you two will not be the only people in my life. I will always love you, you always mean a lot to me. But I will date. I care about Abby very much, and I don't plan on breaking up with her, so she could be around for a very long time. You are going to have to stop being like this." I tell her softly, but the lecture part is not lost on her. The doors open at the next floor.
"I don't like her!" She stomps her foot, then quickly runs out the doors, just as they close. Oh fuck. Great, I lost my kid in a hospital. This is all I need. I shake my head, planning to get off at the next stop...
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Kayla- Heh... Seb is cute..... hmm I'll think about the adoption thing lol
smilez4eva- lol
smilez4eva- lol thanks.
FoxyWombat- lol thanks seb is so cute
ER-Carby-Luva- We have 38 chapters writtten, so we will try to get at least one up a day...
Fran- lol I know I am insane...
trish- Lol no, that chapter was posted twice...
Fran- lol I did thanks
ER-Carby-Luva- lol we aren't that far ahead in our writing yet, but if we get far ahead we may be able to post two chapters everyday... hmmm... my bdayw as the 23rd
Kayla- thanks, until we get far ahead it'll be one a day lol...
Chapter 33
"You ready?" I poke my head into her bedroom once again. She's dressed this time, unfortunately. She scans the room, making a mental checklist of all the things she needs, and has to do before leaving. Everything seems to be okay, so she picks up her purse. I remain leaning against the frame, watching as she approaches me. She looks at a lot healthier, happier even. Her hair resting on her shoulders. She stops in front of me, pulling me in for a short kiss, all the while placing her hand in my own.
"Ew." We both turn, seeing her standing in front of us. Arms dangling at her side. Anger written all over her face. Oh great. This is the last thing I need. She runs away, which only makes matters worse. If I go after her Abby will call me a sucker, if I don't my daughter will hate me for all eternity, or until the next Barbie doll comes out. I decide Madison can hate me. If I go after her its not going to help anything.
"Come on kids..." I holler up the stairs. Abby ties my fingers with her own, leading me towards the front door. "She might not come down." I sigh, running my fingers through my hair.
"John-" She says it in a warning tone, that for some reason upsets me. Its as though she is trying to tell me how to raise me kids.
"Don't speak to me like that." I say it with a little force, "don't talk to me about this. You don't know a thing about kids, you've never had any kids. So don't lecture me on my own. I don't even know why I am listening to you-"
"Dad." Abby's angry face, along with my own, turns toward Sebastian. He looks a little frightened, I don't speak to them in that voice, so I guess he would be.
"Come on Seb, we'll meet up with your dad and Maddie later, okay?" He nods, a little frightened, he takes off up the stairs to grab something. Abby waits until he is gone before turning to me.
"Don't act like you know a thing about me or my life, guess what baby, you don't. You have no fucking clue." Her voice an angry whisper. I mimic her tone.
"Right back at you. You stay out of my business then. Don't tell me how to raise my daughter, I've been doing it fine for three years."
"Obviously not." As if on cue Sebastian comes barrelling down the stairs grabbing Abby's hand and leading her out the door. I'm not sure what just went down. But I have a feeling its not good, and can't lead to anything good. I want to run after her, apologise, but I can't. I have a seven year old who is depending on me right now. Although she may not know it right now. Another part of me wants to shut her out completely. Leave her. But I can't. She means too much to me, I know she is right. I've been doing the best I can, it hasn't been easy. I'm not sure she understands that. She can waltz in here and out of here when ever she wants. These are my kids, my responsibility. Don't have the luxury of being able to leave.
"Madison. Let's go." I break myself out of my thoughts, knowing I can't be late for the appointment.
"I don't want to see her." She screeches. I shake my head. Why does she think she can just treat other people so badly, Abby has been nothing but nice. And Madison thinks she's her person punishing bag, or shit bowl. She has no respect. A good smack is probably in order.
"Abby left." I call up to her. I wait a moment, knowing any minute she will appear down here. Tear stained cheeks, begging for forgiveness. How are all women the same? Even at seven. I see her silhouette appear at the stairs. There is my little girl. Just as I thought. Her chubby cheeks stained, her arms outstretched waiting for a hug. I grab her by the hand, refusing the hug offer. She whimpers softly, then a tear makes its way down her cheek. Not going to work Madison, just not going to work. I lead her out to the car, opening the door for her. She doesn't get in. Instead she crosses her arms firmly over her chest, protesting. Yeah, you be stubborn. I can be stubborn right back. I hop into the car, starting the engine. Preparing to back out just as she screeches. I watch as she jumps in the car, quickly buckling her seat belt, then closing the door. Yup, I out stubborned her.
"Where are we going?" She baby talks. I roll my eyes, time for lesson two. I clamp my mouth closed. She knows how we speak in the house. Big girl voices. None of this whiny voiced crap.
"Daddy..." She tries again. Still wrong voice. This time she exaggerates her words. Dragging each letter through the ground. I concentrate on my driving, trying to ignore her, and think about ways I can broach these kinds of subjects with Abby without having her blow up at me. For some reason she is very sensitive when it comes to children. I know everyone is. But it seems to go a little deeper with her. She has personal ties of some sort in this case. I know she lost a child... I cringe at the thought. I know I shouldn't. But I don't want her having a child with Luka. He didn't treat her right. Not badly, just not right. I think her loosing that child has hit her very hard. Getting hit by a car, then finding out that car wreck any hope she had of having a child. I am not sure she wants any. When she first met me she had no problem with voicing her dislike for children. Now... She seems to love them. At least Sebastian.
"DAD!" Now she's screeching. I almost swerved into the other lane. Damn it.
"Madison! No. Not in the car." I holler at her, not turning around. "You could have killed us. Do not, never again, never, scream in the car. I don't want to hear another damn word out of you." I turn around, as we have his a red light. "Got it?" My voice has lowered a bit. She nods, a little frightened. That sure as hell shut her up.
We walk into the hospital, Maddie walking a few feet ahead of me, trying her best to ignore me. Although every few seconds she glances back at me. She walks through the hospital door first. Seeing Susan and Sebastian she heads over to them. I spy Abby talking to Weaver. She sees me, rolls her eyes, then turns away. I love you too Abby. Thanks, I hope we can always treat each other this well. I start towards her anyways.
"Are you here to yell at me some more? Didn't get enough of it earlier?" Her back is to me, and she is filling out some paper work.
"No. I'm here so you can continue telling me what a horrible parent I am to my kids." I hear her sigh, I wait a second. I came over here, she can turn around. No suck luck. She continues to ignore me. First she leaves at the house, after calling me a bad parent, now this. She's a real bitch today.
"Madison, lets go." I get her from Susan. I can feel Abby staring at me. She's going to have to talk to me this time. I'm not doing it. She can stop being such a bitch. Its as simple as that. Madison rolls her eyes, hey her and Abby are getting more and more alike every day, she decides to walk behind me. Instead of beside me. I let her. I am not going to argue over this. If she gets lost, well... that wouldn't be good. I turn around, grabbing her hand roughly, she whines for a moment. I lead her to the elevator. Its crowded. A stank fills the air, Maddie turns her nose upward, yah the smells not pleasant for anyone.
"Is Abby going to leave you?" She says, a little smile present on her face. I get this. She is trying to drive Abby away. I knell down to her level, taking her hands in my own.
"No. But even if she did, there will be other women, Mad. There always will be. I love you, I love Seb, but you two will not be the only people in my life. I will always love you, you always mean a lot to me. But I will date. I care about Abby very much, and I don't plan on breaking up with her, so she could be around for a very long time. You are going to have to stop being like this." I tell her softly, but the lecture part is not lost on her. The doors open at the next floor.
"I don't like her!" She stomps her foot, then quickly runs out the doors, just as they close. Oh fuck. Great, I lost my kid in a hospital. This is all I need. I shake my head, planning to get off at the next stop...
~Review Responses~
Kayla- Heh... Seb is cute..... hmm I'll think about the adoption thing lol
smilez4eva- lol
smilez4eva- lol thanks.
FoxyWombat- lol thanks seb is so cute
ER-Carby-Luva- We have 38 chapters writtten, so we will try to get at least one up a day...
Fran- lol I know I am insane...
trish- Lol no, that chapter was posted twice...
Fran- lol I did thanks
ER-Carby-Luva- lol we aren't that far ahead in our writing yet, but if we get far ahead we may be able to post two chapters everyday... hmmm... my bdayw as the 23rd
Kayla- thanks, until we get far ahead it'll be one a day lol...