Authors Note- Sorry for the lack of chapters lately. I know I said yesterday would be a double update day, but I didn't manage to get two uploaded... Sorry :( But here is another chapter, and I would just like to say we have big plans for this story. Oh yes we do. Stick with it, we have some things that we have planned....
Chapter 44
I slowly make my way up the stairs to my apartment. It's been one hell of a weekend. The hospital was great. Everyone there was so pleasant and comforting. It really looked like a place I want to be. Its a place I'm going to be working at in less than a month and a half. Eric was really excited when I told him I accepted the position. I'll be leaving a few things behind in Chicago, but every change has some sacrifices, and I think that this one is the ultimate one. I can't stay here. It's all too complicated. I don't' feel like dealing with this all anymore. I'm the queen of running away, and that's what he will tell me I'm doing. I don't care what he says. This is my life, not him. I just know I will miss those kids. Especially Sebastian. I throw my bag on the floor and shift through the mail. I walk to my answering machine and press the play button. I probably have a few telemarketers calling, telling me that I won a trip to Vegas or Florida or someplace else. What a pile of crap. Susan's voice come on the machine next, telling me to call her as soon as I get back. Okay so I'm back. I'm really not in the mood to talk to her, but being the generous person I am, I'll call her. I'm so full of shit myself sometimes. I dial her number and wait her for her to pick up. It keeps ringing with no answer. I click it off, and decide to take a shower. I got delayed, and my shift starts in about 2 hours. Its going to be an interesting night.
So two hours later, I'm standing with Weaver in the lounge. She's giving me a strange look and I'm afraid to ask what I did. Did I kill someone? Did I do something? What the hell is going on? I'm not in the mood for this right now.
"You accepted the residency in Minneapolis?" I had a feeling that it was going to be our topic. I nod my head slowly and stuff the rest of my crap into my locker. These things really need to be bigger. Like triple the size they are now.
"Yeah. I didn't hear anything from County, and I want to be closer to my family." She pours herself a cup of coffee and I finally turn around to look at her. We were sort of having that half here half wishing I was gone on another planet type conversation
"You should have known we'd always take you." I shrug my shoulders. How was I supposed to know, all I ever get is yelled at for every mistake I make. I haven't heard a compliment from anyone here.
"You're one of the best, Abby." Now, after I've already said yes there, they suddenly want me? I don't think so. I push my ID into my pocket and pull my hair back quickly with a scrunchie.
"Sorry. The place is great. My mind is set." I walk out towards the door, swinging it open before I say yes, I'll stay here.
"If you change your mind, we'll always find room for you." Thank you Weaver. But I'm not that interested. Really. I'm not. I push through the doors and practically plough into Carter. Just made a wonderfully great day, even better. I reek of sarcasm on a daily basis. It's something I've gotten used to. I think Susan has to, since I probably got it from her anyway. I quickly mumble an I'm sorry and walk off. He follows me as I walk away. I have a very bad feeling he knows about my plans. I'm not sure who told him or how he found out. But at least I'm not the one that has to originally tell him.
I pull a chart from the rack, only to have it slammed back down. Okay, so maybe he's just a little angry I haven't talked to him. He grabs my arm and starts pulling me towards the ambulance bay. It's dark outside, and if he plans on murdering me, no one will notice. I push him hand off my arm. He's slowly cutting off the circulation to my hands. I sort of need them, thank you. I press against the brick wall to make some distance from him.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" I wrap my arms closer around my body. It's freezing outside and I'm wearing my thin lab coat with a sleeveless shirt on underneath. Why did I choose that for today? I rub my arms, trying to circulate some form of body warmth in my arms.
"What are you talking about?" I know very well what he's talking about. Or maybe I don't. We can figure this all out together. What a joke. I dig my hands into my pockets, the cold defeating me at the moment. He stares out at the darkness to our right.
"Minnesota?" I shrug my shoulders, he gives me a dirty look. This is the game we play. We just don't' work. We end up hurting each other more than this is all worth. I could have sworn Susan said he had some whore over for the weekend anyway. It doesn't matter. We're not exclusive. We're not married. We're not even engaged. He can do whatever he wants as long as I'm not involved.
"They offered and I accepted. Simple as that." He looks about ready to either punch the wall behind me, or throw my body against it and watch me bleed. I don't know which would be more appealing to him right now. He shakes his head in disgust and walks away. Okay that went fairly well. For now at least. I know that its not the end. Its never the end with Carter. There is always some twist or turn he has to add to keep things interesting. Otherwise we would be boring. I would love boring right about now.
I head in after him, staring a quick jog. I'm still freezing. If I catch pneumonia, I will personally blame him. I grab a chart and head off to work. Hopefully we will have the option of avoiding each other for the shift.
"We're talking after work."
His voice hangs in the air behind me. Damn it.
Review Responses
trish- The updates have been a little relaxed? shall we say lol... I'll try to be a little more frequent...
ER-Carby-Luva- Haha, Dana was the only name that came to mind lol.
Kayla- Thanks, I always feel bad for Carter, Abby is taking over his parenting in a way. His kids seem to take to her more than him, they're all he has left lol. I duno I have a soft spot for him...
march- Thank you very much... I hope you like the rest of the chapters :D
smilez4eva- You are going to love Dana.
Tracey- I'm actually not sure if we are or not.
Jane- Someone finally agrees with me lol. I do have some sympathy for Abby, but I'm a full supporter of Carter, I think he just wants to do what's right and he's finding it hard... I might be bias though cause I write for him... lol...Abby is kicking this season on the real ER though, I love her on it. She's been great. I hope you continue to read... You don't sound much like an Abby supporter though lol.
tars- lol Abby's cool lol...
smilez4eva- lol yeah,we have some nifty ideas that we have planned out.. Are you up for a surprise? lol
Chapter 44
I slowly make my way up the stairs to my apartment. It's been one hell of a weekend. The hospital was great. Everyone there was so pleasant and comforting. It really looked like a place I want to be. Its a place I'm going to be working at in less than a month and a half. Eric was really excited when I told him I accepted the position. I'll be leaving a few things behind in Chicago, but every change has some sacrifices, and I think that this one is the ultimate one. I can't stay here. It's all too complicated. I don't' feel like dealing with this all anymore. I'm the queen of running away, and that's what he will tell me I'm doing. I don't care what he says. This is my life, not him. I just know I will miss those kids. Especially Sebastian. I throw my bag on the floor and shift through the mail. I walk to my answering machine and press the play button. I probably have a few telemarketers calling, telling me that I won a trip to Vegas or Florida or someplace else. What a pile of crap. Susan's voice come on the machine next, telling me to call her as soon as I get back. Okay so I'm back. I'm really not in the mood to talk to her, but being the generous person I am, I'll call her. I'm so full of shit myself sometimes. I dial her number and wait her for her to pick up. It keeps ringing with no answer. I click it off, and decide to take a shower. I got delayed, and my shift starts in about 2 hours. Its going to be an interesting night.
So two hours later, I'm standing with Weaver in the lounge. She's giving me a strange look and I'm afraid to ask what I did. Did I kill someone? Did I do something? What the hell is going on? I'm not in the mood for this right now.
"You accepted the residency in Minneapolis?" I had a feeling that it was going to be our topic. I nod my head slowly and stuff the rest of my crap into my locker. These things really need to be bigger. Like triple the size they are now.
"Yeah. I didn't hear anything from County, and I want to be closer to my family." She pours herself a cup of coffee and I finally turn around to look at her. We were sort of having that half here half wishing I was gone on another planet type conversation
"You should have known we'd always take you." I shrug my shoulders. How was I supposed to know, all I ever get is yelled at for every mistake I make. I haven't heard a compliment from anyone here.
"You're one of the best, Abby." Now, after I've already said yes there, they suddenly want me? I don't think so. I push my ID into my pocket and pull my hair back quickly with a scrunchie.
"Sorry. The place is great. My mind is set." I walk out towards the door, swinging it open before I say yes, I'll stay here.
"If you change your mind, we'll always find room for you." Thank you Weaver. But I'm not that interested. Really. I'm not. I push through the doors and practically plough into Carter. Just made a wonderfully great day, even better. I reek of sarcasm on a daily basis. It's something I've gotten used to. I think Susan has to, since I probably got it from her anyway. I quickly mumble an I'm sorry and walk off. He follows me as I walk away. I have a very bad feeling he knows about my plans. I'm not sure who told him or how he found out. But at least I'm not the one that has to originally tell him.
I pull a chart from the rack, only to have it slammed back down. Okay, so maybe he's just a little angry I haven't talked to him. He grabs my arm and starts pulling me towards the ambulance bay. It's dark outside, and if he plans on murdering me, no one will notice. I push him hand off my arm. He's slowly cutting off the circulation to my hands. I sort of need them, thank you. I press against the brick wall to make some distance from him.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" I wrap my arms closer around my body. It's freezing outside and I'm wearing my thin lab coat with a sleeveless shirt on underneath. Why did I choose that for today? I rub my arms, trying to circulate some form of body warmth in my arms.
"What are you talking about?" I know very well what he's talking about. Or maybe I don't. We can figure this all out together. What a joke. I dig my hands into my pockets, the cold defeating me at the moment. He stares out at the darkness to our right.
"Minnesota?" I shrug my shoulders, he gives me a dirty look. This is the game we play. We just don't' work. We end up hurting each other more than this is all worth. I could have sworn Susan said he had some whore over for the weekend anyway. It doesn't matter. We're not exclusive. We're not married. We're not even engaged. He can do whatever he wants as long as I'm not involved.
"They offered and I accepted. Simple as that." He looks about ready to either punch the wall behind me, or throw my body against it and watch me bleed. I don't know which would be more appealing to him right now. He shakes his head in disgust and walks away. Okay that went fairly well. For now at least. I know that its not the end. Its never the end with Carter. There is always some twist or turn he has to add to keep things interesting. Otherwise we would be boring. I would love boring right about now.
I head in after him, staring a quick jog. I'm still freezing. If I catch pneumonia, I will personally blame him. I grab a chart and head off to work. Hopefully we will have the option of avoiding each other for the shift.
"We're talking after work."
His voice hangs in the air behind me. Damn it.
Review Responses
trish- The updates have been a little relaxed? shall we say lol... I'll try to be a little more frequent...
ER-Carby-Luva- Haha, Dana was the only name that came to mind lol.
Kayla- Thanks, I always feel bad for Carter, Abby is taking over his parenting in a way. His kids seem to take to her more than him, they're all he has left lol. I duno I have a soft spot for him...
march- Thank you very much... I hope you like the rest of the chapters :D
smilez4eva- You are going to love Dana.
Tracey- I'm actually not sure if we are or not.
Jane- Someone finally agrees with me lol. I do have some sympathy for Abby, but I'm a full supporter of Carter, I think he just wants to do what's right and he's finding it hard... I might be bias though cause I write for him... lol...Abby is kicking this season on the real ER though, I love her on it. She's been great. I hope you continue to read... You don't sound much like an Abby supporter though lol.
tars- lol Abby's cool lol...
smilez4eva- lol yeah,we have some nifty ideas that we have planned out.. Are you up for a surprise? lol