Authors Note- First I'd like to apologize for the lack of updates lately. I have been kind of busy doing a pile of different things so its been hard to post a chapter everyday. But I am trying. We have a few chapters written that have yet to be posted, but I will try to get them posted over the next little while! Thanks for the reviews. I probably won't be posting chapters as frequently, but at least three times a week. That will be my goal:) W
Chapter 47
I pull her closer to me, trying to make us one almost. She tucks her hands under my shirt, running her fingers along my chest. I kiss her again, I can't believe this. I really thought she was gone, for good. I didn't think I would get her back, not in this lifetime at least. I run my fingers through her messy hair, slowly walking us back into the warmth of the house. She pulls away, staring me in the eye. I can't help but smile. I really can't. If there was one thing I wanted, above anything, it was to have her... Here. I move down to kiss her again, her tongue explores my mouth. I love her. I know it now. For sure, not a doubt in my mind. Nothing could have proved it more, she showed up. I didn't push her, she did it.
"I love you." She says it in one breath. It practically takes my feet out from underneath me. I lean down kissing her gently, passionately, afraid that I might loose her once again. I couldn't bear that. I need to be with her, always, forever. I hold her against me, our hearts beating together. Yah, this is what I always wanted. Its not perfect, but that's okay, cause perfect is boring. She is anything but perfect. Before I can respond two sets of feet pound against the hard wood floor.
"MOMMY!" Their voices shriek, cutting through the air. And for once, I don't wince, cringe, or wish that they wouldn't call her that. Its true. She is their mother. I can't do anything to change that... Madison hasn't taken to calling her mom quite as much as Seb, but she still sees her in that light.
Abby pulls away from me slightly our hands still connected. Sebastian leaps into her arms, clinging to her. I have had to listen to him scream for her in the middle of the night for two weeks straight, hell longer than that. Madison, a little shyer than Sebastian, reaches for Abby, who obliges, taking her into her arms. Planting a kiss on her forehead. I reach down pulling her into my arms.
"Are you going to leave again?" Seb asks sadly. A tear falls down her cheek, as she shakes her head no. She's hooked now, we have her, hook, line and sinker. Yah, she's all mine. Theirs too. Maddie pulls out of my arms and into Abby's. Sebastian refuses to let go. Its quite a reunion. I never thought I would see these two become so attached. They do anything to be around her. They adore her. Which is amazing, because so do I. I love her more than life its self. She means the world to me. As cheesy as that sounds, and it sounds cheesy, I can't help it. I need her. The kids need her, we're nothing without her.
"I'm never going anywhere." Abby assures Seb. The tears are flowing more freely now, flooding down her cheeks. The gates have opened.
"Promise?" Madison asks helplessly. All Abby can do is nod and kiss her.
"Hey guys, why don't you go watch TV, Abby and I will be in, in a minute." I say, the smile still plastered on my face. I'm a grinning idiot. Seb and Maddie run into the living room, I can hear them leap onto the couch. I pull Abby up the stairs leading her to my bedroom to talk. Later we'll be doing other things up there, but this time, I just need to be near her.
I pull her onto the bed, lying down. She wraps her arms around my chest, lying on top of me. I kiss the top of her head, pulling arms around her body. I breath in her scent, trying to memorize her, just in case something happens. Something horrible that takes her away from me. Something unbearable. I want to remember, I never want to forget anything about her. Her hands trail up my chest.
"What made you come back?" I ask looking down at her. She rests her chin on my chest, thinking for a second. Trying to piece together the right words to use.
"Um-" She starts, suddenly she looks puzzled. Which worries me, but only for a second, cause soon a smile passes over her lips. "Something happened. Something made me realise how great you are. How much I..." She swallows, "how much I love you, how much I love Madison and Sebastian. I never thought I would have this, you know?" I nod understanding. She always thought the worst. Thought she could never be loved, never love. But she's so damn loveable. Once you meet her, she's just unbelievingly amazing.
"I have it though. I have a family." She smiles, I lean down kissing her again. I can never do that enough.
I run my tongue along her lips. "Don't leave me again. Don't threaten to leave... Just stay with me... Forever?" She laughs, sitting up a bit more.
"Don't be a stubborn jackass and I won't have too." I laugh with her, yeah she makes a point. But I think we understand each other a bit more. That time a part gave us a chance to really experience life apart. Its not good, not at all. They say you shouldn't base your happiness on just one person. I haven't. I've based it on three individual people. The people that make everyday worth while, and without one of them.... Everything- everything just seems so dull. Life seems less exciting...
"I deserve that... How about, we both admit how we feel and things should be dandy." She pulls herself up to my eye level.
"I've never had dandy before... I'm sure it doesn't exist... But okay." She laughs. Kissing me once again.
"You're probably right." I pull my arms tighter around her, her head nestles into my shoulder. She places lazy kisses up my neck to my mouth, god, how did I go without her. I rub her back soothingly...
"Hey Abby..." Her eyes are closed, I can hear a slight happy hum from her throat...
"Mmmm?" I laugh a little.
"I love you too." She looks up at me, smiling a bit.
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Kayla- Hehe thanks, its the many colours of Carter.
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Preview
"Can you leave? Just, please... Leave?" I glance back at him, he sends me a dejected look. Right now I don't care what he feels about me. I need this to myself. I need to revive my life. I need to feel some form of pain or joy, to fill the emptiness inside me.
Chapter 47
I pull her closer to me, trying to make us one almost. She tucks her hands under my shirt, running her fingers along my chest. I kiss her again, I can't believe this. I really thought she was gone, for good. I didn't think I would get her back, not in this lifetime at least. I run my fingers through her messy hair, slowly walking us back into the warmth of the house. She pulls away, staring me in the eye. I can't help but smile. I really can't. If there was one thing I wanted, above anything, it was to have her... Here. I move down to kiss her again, her tongue explores my mouth. I love her. I know it now. For sure, not a doubt in my mind. Nothing could have proved it more, she showed up. I didn't push her, she did it.
"I love you." She says it in one breath. It practically takes my feet out from underneath me. I lean down kissing her gently, passionately, afraid that I might loose her once again. I couldn't bear that. I need to be with her, always, forever. I hold her against me, our hearts beating together. Yah, this is what I always wanted. Its not perfect, but that's okay, cause perfect is boring. She is anything but perfect. Before I can respond two sets of feet pound against the hard wood floor.
"MOMMY!" Their voices shriek, cutting through the air. And for once, I don't wince, cringe, or wish that they wouldn't call her that. Its true. She is their mother. I can't do anything to change that... Madison hasn't taken to calling her mom quite as much as Seb, but she still sees her in that light.
Abby pulls away from me slightly our hands still connected. Sebastian leaps into her arms, clinging to her. I have had to listen to him scream for her in the middle of the night for two weeks straight, hell longer than that. Madison, a little shyer than Sebastian, reaches for Abby, who obliges, taking her into her arms. Planting a kiss on her forehead. I reach down pulling her into my arms.
"Are you going to leave again?" Seb asks sadly. A tear falls down her cheek, as she shakes her head no. She's hooked now, we have her, hook, line and sinker. Yah, she's all mine. Theirs too. Maddie pulls out of my arms and into Abby's. Sebastian refuses to let go. Its quite a reunion. I never thought I would see these two become so attached. They do anything to be around her. They adore her. Which is amazing, because so do I. I love her more than life its self. She means the world to me. As cheesy as that sounds, and it sounds cheesy, I can't help it. I need her. The kids need her, we're nothing without her.
"I'm never going anywhere." Abby assures Seb. The tears are flowing more freely now, flooding down her cheeks. The gates have opened.
"Promise?" Madison asks helplessly. All Abby can do is nod and kiss her.
"Hey guys, why don't you go watch TV, Abby and I will be in, in a minute." I say, the smile still plastered on my face. I'm a grinning idiot. Seb and Maddie run into the living room, I can hear them leap onto the couch. I pull Abby up the stairs leading her to my bedroom to talk. Later we'll be doing other things up there, but this time, I just need to be near her.
I pull her onto the bed, lying down. She wraps her arms around my chest, lying on top of me. I kiss the top of her head, pulling arms around her body. I breath in her scent, trying to memorize her, just in case something happens. Something horrible that takes her away from me. Something unbearable. I want to remember, I never want to forget anything about her. Her hands trail up my chest.
"What made you come back?" I ask looking down at her. She rests her chin on my chest, thinking for a second. Trying to piece together the right words to use.
"Um-" She starts, suddenly she looks puzzled. Which worries me, but only for a second, cause soon a smile passes over her lips. "Something happened. Something made me realise how great you are. How much I..." She swallows, "how much I love you, how much I love Madison and Sebastian. I never thought I would have this, you know?" I nod understanding. She always thought the worst. Thought she could never be loved, never love. But she's so damn loveable. Once you meet her, she's just unbelievingly amazing.
"I have it though. I have a family." She smiles, I lean down kissing her again. I can never do that enough.
I run my tongue along her lips. "Don't leave me again. Don't threaten to leave... Just stay with me... Forever?" She laughs, sitting up a bit more.
"Don't be a stubborn jackass and I won't have too." I laugh with her, yeah she makes a point. But I think we understand each other a bit more. That time a part gave us a chance to really experience life apart. Its not good, not at all. They say you shouldn't base your happiness on just one person. I haven't. I've based it on three individual people. The people that make everyday worth while, and without one of them.... Everything- everything just seems so dull. Life seems less exciting...
"I deserve that... How about, we both admit how we feel and things should be dandy." She pulls herself up to my eye level.
"I've never had dandy before... I'm sure it doesn't exist... But okay." She laughs. Kissing me once again.
"You're probably right." I pull my arms tighter around her, her head nestles into my shoulder. She places lazy kisses up my neck to my mouth, god, how did I go without her. I rub her back soothingly...
"Hey Abby..." Her eyes are closed, I can hear a slight happy hum from her throat...
"Mmmm?" I laugh a little.
"I love you too." She looks up at me, smiling a bit.
Review Responses
Kayla- Thanks!
Kayla- Hehe thanks, its the many colours of Carter.
ER-Carby-Luva- Heh, we're trying to make it as unlike HTLAB as possible lol... So twists will be coming your way;)
smilez4eva- Thanks! Studying sucks lol, I was always horrible at it.
Preview
"Can you leave? Just, please... Leave?" I glance back at him, he sends me a dejected look. Right now I don't care what he feels about me. I need this to myself. I need to revive my life. I need to feel some form of pain or joy, to fill the emptiness inside me.