Abandon
by: schu-chan
disclaimer: not mine, never will be unless the kind owners would like to leave it all to me at the event of their deaths... no? darn.
*thoughts*
//flashback//
~*Chapter 8*~
Schuldich held Ken in his arms as the brunette slept peacefully. "Mmn…"
Ken snuggled in closer against him, seeking the warmth of his body, as the small breeze that came from the window blew the window open wider, letting in more wind. Schuldich grabbed the blanket that had slipped down to Ken's knees and pulled it up around Ken's shoulders, shifting slightly to get more comfortable. Ken held him tighter, as though he thought that Schuldich might leave him. Schuldich closed his eyes, thinking back to what had happened earlier.
A while after Yohji had left and Ken had cried himself to sleep in Omi's arms and Schuldich had also fallen asleep next to him, Schuldich had woken up and gotten dinner ready. Omi was already gone. By the time he was done, Ken was awake; but Ken had refused to eat. After much pleading, Ken had eaten some of the salad before going back to the room. Schuldich had followed, losing his appetite. Ken had apologized with a sad look in his eyes, and Schuldich had hugged him tightly, and Ken had started crying once again. Ken had finally stopped crying and gone to sleep again, leaving Schuldich awake in a somewhat uncomfortable position with Ken asleep in his arms.
"What am I going to do…" Schuldich felt like Ken would never open up to him and the idea of dating him; as though he would always be there at the side whenever Ken needed someone or something after being hurt. The way Ken acted about Yohji, it was as though he would never fall in love again.
"Ne, Schu, you need anything?" Omi stuck his head in and smiled softly at the view on the bed. Schuldich shook his head slightly, staring down at the blanket.
"Schu, what's wrong?"
"Nothing."
"Bullshit! I can tell; you're depressed about something."
Schuldich sighed. "It'll figure itself out, don't worry."
Omi frowned and sat at the foot of the bed. To Omi's surprise – as well as his own - Schuldich let out a small, choked sob.
"Schu! What's wrong?"
"I… He'll never love me, will he? He'll always be in love with Yohji, no matter how much Yohji hurts him…"
"Schu…"
"I don't know why, Omi, but I just… I get the feeling that Ken won't love me… Not many people can love me, you know that, with my twisted personality."
Omi gave Schuldich a soft smile and gave him a kiss on the forehead. "Schuldich, all you've shown Ken is kindness and love. He notices that… and even if you show him your so-called twisted personality, Ken will never hold that against you, you know that. He will accept you as you are."
Schuldich nodded silently and Omi left the room.
*Schuldich…?*
"Ken, you're awake?"
Ken nodded. "I… heard your conversation. I'm sorry."
"You don't need to apologize."
*Datte, I -*
"It's okay." Schuldich gave Ken a warm smile and said, "Hey, you mind if we just go to sleep now… but this time on the bed? That was kind of uncomfortable."
Ken blushed. "Next time, just shove me away; I probably won't even wake up."
Schuldich smiled and lay down on the bed to sleep.
"Ne, Schuldich?"
"Hm…?"
"Thanks."
~*~*~*~*~*
TBC….
*sigh* I kno that I haven't updated in…. a really long time. I kno that schuschu and kenken are MAJORLY MAJORLY OOC…. and that this chapter is reeeaaaally short… but….. i'll try to update more often, really
oh and ma-kun…. DON'T call me mi-chan online!!! And DON'T mention tig or Ito in your reviews. EVER.
er…. i kno i dun really deserve it, but… review, onegai?
by: schu-chan
disclaimer: not mine, never will be unless the kind owners would like to leave it all to me at the event of their deaths... no? darn.
*thoughts*
//flashback//
~*Chapter 8*~
Schuldich held Ken in his arms as the brunette slept peacefully. "Mmn…"
Ken snuggled in closer against him, seeking the warmth of his body, as the small breeze that came from the window blew the window open wider, letting in more wind. Schuldich grabbed the blanket that had slipped down to Ken's knees and pulled it up around Ken's shoulders, shifting slightly to get more comfortable. Ken held him tighter, as though he thought that Schuldich might leave him. Schuldich closed his eyes, thinking back to what had happened earlier.
A while after Yohji had left and Ken had cried himself to sleep in Omi's arms and Schuldich had also fallen asleep next to him, Schuldich had woken up and gotten dinner ready. Omi was already gone. By the time he was done, Ken was awake; but Ken had refused to eat. After much pleading, Ken had eaten some of the salad before going back to the room. Schuldich had followed, losing his appetite. Ken had apologized with a sad look in his eyes, and Schuldich had hugged him tightly, and Ken had started crying once again. Ken had finally stopped crying and gone to sleep again, leaving Schuldich awake in a somewhat uncomfortable position with Ken asleep in his arms.
"What am I going to do…" Schuldich felt like Ken would never open up to him and the idea of dating him; as though he would always be there at the side whenever Ken needed someone or something after being hurt. The way Ken acted about Yohji, it was as though he would never fall in love again.
"Ne, Schu, you need anything?" Omi stuck his head in and smiled softly at the view on the bed. Schuldich shook his head slightly, staring down at the blanket.
"Schu, what's wrong?"
"Nothing."
"Bullshit! I can tell; you're depressed about something."
Schuldich sighed. "It'll figure itself out, don't worry."
Omi frowned and sat at the foot of the bed. To Omi's surprise – as well as his own - Schuldich let out a small, choked sob.
"Schu! What's wrong?"
"I… He'll never love me, will he? He'll always be in love with Yohji, no matter how much Yohji hurts him…"
"Schu…"
"I don't know why, Omi, but I just… I get the feeling that Ken won't love me… Not many people can love me, you know that, with my twisted personality."
Omi gave Schuldich a soft smile and gave him a kiss on the forehead. "Schuldich, all you've shown Ken is kindness and love. He notices that… and even if you show him your so-called twisted personality, Ken will never hold that against you, you know that. He will accept you as you are."
Schuldich nodded silently and Omi left the room.
*Schuldich…?*
"Ken, you're awake?"
Ken nodded. "I… heard your conversation. I'm sorry."
"You don't need to apologize."
*Datte, I -*
"It's okay." Schuldich gave Ken a warm smile and said, "Hey, you mind if we just go to sleep now… but this time on the bed? That was kind of uncomfortable."
Ken blushed. "Next time, just shove me away; I probably won't even wake up."
Schuldich smiled and lay down on the bed to sleep.
"Ne, Schuldich?"
"Hm…?"
"Thanks."
~*~*~*~*~*
TBC….
*sigh* I kno that I haven't updated in…. a really long time. I kno that schuschu and kenken are MAJORLY MAJORLY OOC…. and that this chapter is reeeaaaally short… but….. i'll try to update more often, really
oh and ma-kun…. DON'T call me mi-chan online!!! And DON'T mention tig or Ito in your reviews. EVER.
er…. i kno i dun really deserve it, but… review, onegai?