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A? N: Okay here is one more chapter I have written couple of days ago. For all those who asked; the Haldir's heartbreaking moment is coming in couple of more parts.
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(Present time/Lorien)
(Legolas's POV)
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/blah / = indicates thoughts
**blah**= indicates italics
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I sighed as I was led by the younger Galadrhim, through the various paths of the Caras Galadhon.
I tried to breathe more calmly as we came to stop beside the ladders, which were leading to a Lady's talan, but I couldn't help it as I felt some feelings of trepidation inside of me. What did she want from me? Why did she call for me?
While we climbed the ladders, I unexpectedly shivered because the chill of the morning air swiped through me. I knew that the elves shouldn't feel any changes in the temperatures, and I tried to figure out why was my body responding to these effects of the weather.
Without any announcement we entered the Galadriel's talan, and almost automatically I started to search for her presence.
"Thank you, Rumil. That would be all." I heard her voice coming from the corner of the room, and I saw her standing beside window; her body was clad in the silvery-blue dress.
"My Lady." I bowed to her, but then I saw her form turning to me, and giving me her scanning gaze.
"Take a seat, Prince Legolas." She pointed at the chair beside the large wooden table in a middle of the room, and I reluctantly obliged.
"I know you are wondering why I had called you by my side this morning." She paused and she let out the deep sigh.
"Yes, that is what I was wondering, my Lady."
"I called you here because I wanted to ask you something, Legolas. And, I pray you will tell me a truth regarding this matter."
Galadriel cocked her head a little, and I knew that something of the great importance was holding a Lady's mind.
"What is the question?" I arched the eyebrow and with challenge I met her exploring gaze, but I knew I couldn't match her lingering observation.
"I know what you feel for Haldir and I had seen it in your mind, but my question is regarding the deepness of your feelings. How much of your heart have you sacrificed for this love that you feel for him?" She uttered all those questions, and I knew she expected for me to be truthful while answering them.
"I sacrificed all of it, my Lady, but I was too foolish to see it until I broke his heart. I only hope he will forgive me for what I have done to him."
"Past is the insignificant factor in your relationship with Haldir. The only question I am asking you is, how sincerely is your heart weeping for him. I may be a mind reader but my only restriction is that I cannot meddle into the matters of a heart. I need to know if your true intent is sincere."
She asked me that question again and I knew she was doubting me. She was doubting my love for Haldir. She didn't trust me and she thought that I was the same old Legolas, whose only mission was to break more hearts.
"I have already revealed the answer to this question, and I really cannot figure out why are you asking me this, again. I have suffered enough for my past deeds, and I don't need somebody like you judging my every step." I felt offended and I stood up proudly, taking a few steps toward the door.
"Be at ease, Legolas." Her voice stopped me.
" Many have judged you, so why should I. My only concern is for my captain's welfare, because I don't want him to be broken again. I sense the truth in your words and I shall not doubt your words again." Galadriel said in a calming voice and I turned myself around to meet the regal Lady.
"Also! I have called you here, because I needed to tell you something. Haldir has been ordered to be your escort, while you are spending time here in Lothlorien. I trust you will take this opportunity to mend the loneliness in the Haldir's heart." Galadriel said those words with honesty and I looked at her with a surprise.
She wasn't judging me at all. She was only trying to figure out the true feelings I held for Haldir.
"But, our past isn't a perfect one. He will never let me inside of his heart, again. I had hurt him deeply."
"That you did, Legolas. But as I said before, the past is something that should be long forgotten. Look into your future and find your lost love there. If you linger near the past it will do you no good." Her warning voice penetrated me and I smiled at her, as she came closer to me.
"Now, I think you should go and work on those things I have told you. Haldir is waiting for you beside my husband's quarters. Rumil will take you there, to meet him. I trust I shall see you at dinner this eve."
She dismissed me before I even had a chance to reply. I was so shocked to hear those things coming from her mouth. Was she encouraging my relationship with Haldir? Why was she doing this?
I saw Rumil standing beside the door and I smiled at the younger MarchWarden. My heart was beating in the fast pace when I realized that I would be spending this day with Haldir.
/Oh how faith tends to be so wicked, sometimes./ I knew I needed to calm myself, because I saw Rumil giving me some strange looks.
"Follow me, Legolas." His voice sounded almost as the Haldir's own and I could see that Rumil's looks mostly resembled his brother's.
His eyes were as gray as Haldir's and he had shown the same grace in a movement, as Haldir had usually possessed.
"I don't know if I can do this. I am afraid to meet him again." I released my fears out loud and I could hear Rumil chuckling in front of me.
"Of, who? Are you afraid of my brother. Don't be ridiculous, Legolas. He is not going to bite you, you know." Rumil tried to ease my mind a little and he smiled at my foolish fears.
"I almost lost my life, when I met him yesterday. I don't think he will be happy, spending all of his time with me."
Rumil stopped and I came closer to his side. He shook his head and he started speaking again.
"You know what, Legolas. You two are really meant for each other. One is very stubborn and the other one had lost his all of his senses. I think you and Haldir make a perfect couple;a couple of lunatics that is."
I couldn't believe that Rumil's words could be so blunt. His words were mostly playful, but at the same time they almost sounded true to me. /Are we really meant for each other?/ I thought.
Rumil smirked at me and we continued with our small journey to the Celeborn's study.
I saw Haldir standing beside the ladders of the Celeborn's study and I saw him biting his lip, as the thoughts rushed through his being.
"Haldir!" Rumil called his brother's name and I couldn't help but flinch as suddenly Haldir glared daggers at me.
I knew that he would act like this toward me, but still I felt vulnerable when his eyes were showing a malice and when they were cast at my direction.
"'Ai, Rumil what is it." His response was short and cruel and I lowered my head to the ground, so I could avoid any of those deserving glances.
"I deliver you, your prince, brother. I trust you will act civilized toward him." Rumil grinned when Haldir huffed at him, but my gaze was still hidden from the Haldir's sight.
Rumil's eyebrow was arched as he looked upon his brother and I knew that something had silently passed between them.
"Don't count on that, Rumil." Haldir's eyes were back on me and I felt like I was melting into the ground.
"Hmmm, I think I shall leave you two alone. You have a lot to talk about, I think. And brother, please try not to do something stupid" Rumil playfully warned his brother and Haldir just waved it of with a loud growl.
Rumil shook his head and he left us alone. I knew this was going to be very uncomfortable for both of us, especially with me trying to communicate with this stubborn Galadrhim.
"So what should we do. I know this is not something you want to do right now, but it would be easier if you would tell me; what are your plans for today."
I knew that speaking to him was a bad thing to do, because I felt that the anger was awakening inside of him.
"Valar, you really don't know when to shut up. Do you, Prince Legolas. I admit it, I am stuck with you today and tomorrow, and the day after that, but during that time I don't want you to speak to me or to even ask any questions. Just follow me and keep your mouth shut."
I knew that a fury within him was ruling over his good senses and I knew that *I* was it's only target. I had to fight to cease this war between us, but at least I had this chance to spend some time with him, and to try to win his heart again.
I knew that this time I had my past working against me, but I didn't care about it. I knew that a hope was not lost for us to be together, and I realized that Galadriel's *set- up* was not that useless at all.
Spending time with him would give me a chance to observe his actions, and to set up the tactics on how to invade the corner's of a Haldir's heart.
I was following him behind, while he started walking and I didn't want to keep any distance between us. I knew that being closer to him was something that I had desired, and I didn't hear him complain, when every time I would accidentally brush up beside him.
He was not completely immune to my charms and I knew I had to take this to my advantage. This time the fight for his heart would occupy my very being. This time I would do my best to mend his broken soul;a soul that was once destroyed by my cruelty.
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"Legolas, where were you. I was so worried about you." Frodo came running toward me and I smiled at the concerned expression, I saw on his face.
"Oh, I am so sorry I worried you, Frodo. But, you'll never guess who I was spending my time with today."
I took a seat beside that same tree, as I did yesterday, and I saw that a hobbit was doing the same thing.
"Who, Legolas? Who?"
"I was with Haldir." I heard Frodo gasp and I chuckled at his shocked expression.
"And you're still alive. Valar, that's a miracle. Tell me about it. What happened?" Frodo rubbed his hands together and he relaxed himself beside the tree stump.
"Well, this morning while you were still sleeping, Lady Galadriel had called me by her side. To cut this story short, I found out that Haldir is being ordered to be my escort, while I am staying here in Lothlorien."
"What?" Frodo couldn't believe his ears when I told him that.
"Yes, and naturally he had to take me everywhere today, because his superiors would be cross with him if he didn't do it." Frodo shook his head while a small giggle escaped his throat.
"Poor thing. But tell me, did he tried to kill you. How was he acting toward you?"
"He tried to cut me off couple of times, when I started speaking. But I couldn't help myself and I didn't listen to any of his warnings, when he was telling me to stay quiet. I sensed that couple of times he was attempting to choke me, but luckily he restrained himself from doing it."
I said and I chuckled when I remembered how his face would turn red, every time I started a conversation with him. I knew that he wanted to keep me quiet, so he could almost imagine that I was not with him today. But, I knew if I listened to his warnings that I would be giving up easily on him. I was not that weak to accept the things as they were.
"That's great Legolas. That means he is getting softer. Don't give up on him?" I scanned the Frodo's features and I knew that a halfling had read my mind.
"I don't intend to, Frodo. I don't intend to."
"So anyway, I have realized that you didn't finish your story last night. I want to know what happened to Haldir, after he was poisoned. What did you do, after that? How did you break his heart?"
I frowned as all those memories came rushing to me. I knew I had to finish this story, so I could come face to face with my past. I knew that a hobbit was willing to listen to the rest of my story, and I knew I had to reveal the worst part of it.
"If you are willing to listen, then I will do my best to tell you the rest of it as I have kept it in my memory. Are you sure you are not sleepy tonight."
I asked, but I knew that the hobbit's curiosity was bigger than any need a tired body would ask for.
"Nay, I cannot sleep. I have slept all day today and when I woke up, I realized that this was a first time I got the full rest. If you are willing to continue, so am I willing to listen. Tell me, what happened next."
I sighed as the memories brought me to that place I really didn't want to go. I knew if I reveal this to someone, then I could finally let it all go. I heard all those sounds my memories where bringing out, from the dark corners of my mind.
I heard those scaring words I would remember forever. I saw the anguished face that would stay in my mind, for all the centuries my heart would be beating.
But those *last words* were something that I had remembered well, and I had erased all those people that were around us, on that day when I made *his* heart weep. Just those words were left there to rule over my memories; the words that marked me and had eventually changed me into this person.
**"But I thought you were different..... "**
Were those words!
TBC
(A?N: "But I thought you were different..... ", were the Haldir's last words before he left Mirkwood. Just giving you a little insight before the real thing.)
A? N: Okay here is one more chapter I have written couple of days ago. For all those who asked; the Haldir's heartbreaking moment is coming in couple of more parts.
***
Review if you like. feedback at ihgs123@yahoo.com.Thank's for fb's and emails,I appreciate it.
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(Present time/Lorien)
(Legolas's POV)
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/blah / = indicates thoughts
**blah**= indicates italics
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I sighed as I was led by the younger Galadrhim, through the various paths of the Caras Galadhon.
I tried to breathe more calmly as we came to stop beside the ladders, which were leading to a Lady's talan, but I couldn't help it as I felt some feelings of trepidation inside of me. What did she want from me? Why did she call for me?
While we climbed the ladders, I unexpectedly shivered because the chill of the morning air swiped through me. I knew that the elves shouldn't feel any changes in the temperatures, and I tried to figure out why was my body responding to these effects of the weather.
Without any announcement we entered the Galadriel's talan, and almost automatically I started to search for her presence.
"Thank you, Rumil. That would be all." I heard her voice coming from the corner of the room, and I saw her standing beside window; her body was clad in the silvery-blue dress.
"My Lady." I bowed to her, but then I saw her form turning to me, and giving me her scanning gaze.
"Take a seat, Prince Legolas." She pointed at the chair beside the large wooden table in a middle of the room, and I reluctantly obliged.
"I know you are wondering why I had called you by my side this morning." She paused and she let out the deep sigh.
"Yes, that is what I was wondering, my Lady."
"I called you here because I wanted to ask you something, Legolas. And, I pray you will tell me a truth regarding this matter."
Galadriel cocked her head a little, and I knew that something of the great importance was holding a Lady's mind.
"What is the question?" I arched the eyebrow and with challenge I met her exploring gaze, but I knew I couldn't match her lingering observation.
"I know what you feel for Haldir and I had seen it in your mind, but my question is regarding the deepness of your feelings. How much of your heart have you sacrificed for this love that you feel for him?" She uttered all those questions, and I knew she expected for me to be truthful while answering them.
"I sacrificed all of it, my Lady, but I was too foolish to see it until I broke his heart. I only hope he will forgive me for what I have done to him."
"Past is the insignificant factor in your relationship with Haldir. The only question I am asking you is, how sincerely is your heart weeping for him. I may be a mind reader but my only restriction is that I cannot meddle into the matters of a heart. I need to know if your true intent is sincere."
She asked me that question again and I knew she was doubting me. She was doubting my love for Haldir. She didn't trust me and she thought that I was the same old Legolas, whose only mission was to break more hearts.
"I have already revealed the answer to this question, and I really cannot figure out why are you asking me this, again. I have suffered enough for my past deeds, and I don't need somebody like you judging my every step." I felt offended and I stood up proudly, taking a few steps toward the door.
"Be at ease, Legolas." Her voice stopped me.
" Many have judged you, so why should I. My only concern is for my captain's welfare, because I don't want him to be broken again. I sense the truth in your words and I shall not doubt your words again." Galadriel said in a calming voice and I turned myself around to meet the regal Lady.
"Also! I have called you here, because I needed to tell you something. Haldir has been ordered to be your escort, while you are spending time here in Lothlorien. I trust you will take this opportunity to mend the loneliness in the Haldir's heart." Galadriel said those words with honesty and I looked at her with a surprise.
She wasn't judging me at all. She was only trying to figure out the true feelings I held for Haldir.
"But, our past isn't a perfect one. He will never let me inside of his heart, again. I had hurt him deeply."
"That you did, Legolas. But as I said before, the past is something that should be long forgotten. Look into your future and find your lost love there. If you linger near the past it will do you no good." Her warning voice penetrated me and I smiled at her, as she came closer to me.
"Now, I think you should go and work on those things I have told you. Haldir is waiting for you beside my husband's quarters. Rumil will take you there, to meet him. I trust I shall see you at dinner this eve."
She dismissed me before I even had a chance to reply. I was so shocked to hear those things coming from her mouth. Was she encouraging my relationship with Haldir? Why was she doing this?
I saw Rumil standing beside the door and I smiled at the younger MarchWarden. My heart was beating in the fast pace when I realized that I would be spending this day with Haldir.
/Oh how faith tends to be so wicked, sometimes./ I knew I needed to calm myself, because I saw Rumil giving me some strange looks.
"Follow me, Legolas." His voice sounded almost as the Haldir's own and I could see that Rumil's looks mostly resembled his brother's.
His eyes were as gray as Haldir's and he had shown the same grace in a movement, as Haldir had usually possessed.
"I don't know if I can do this. I am afraid to meet him again." I released my fears out loud and I could hear Rumil chuckling in front of me.
"Of, who? Are you afraid of my brother. Don't be ridiculous, Legolas. He is not going to bite you, you know." Rumil tried to ease my mind a little and he smiled at my foolish fears.
"I almost lost my life, when I met him yesterday. I don't think he will be happy, spending all of his time with me."
Rumil stopped and I came closer to his side. He shook his head and he started speaking again.
"You know what, Legolas. You two are really meant for each other. One is very stubborn and the other one had lost his all of his senses. I think you and Haldir make a perfect couple;a couple of lunatics that is."
I couldn't believe that Rumil's words could be so blunt. His words were mostly playful, but at the same time they almost sounded true to me. /Are we really meant for each other?/ I thought.
Rumil smirked at me and we continued with our small journey to the Celeborn's study.
I saw Haldir standing beside the ladders of the Celeborn's study and I saw him biting his lip, as the thoughts rushed through his being.
"Haldir!" Rumil called his brother's name and I couldn't help but flinch as suddenly Haldir glared daggers at me.
I knew that he would act like this toward me, but still I felt vulnerable when his eyes were showing a malice and when they were cast at my direction.
"'Ai, Rumil what is it." His response was short and cruel and I lowered my head to the ground, so I could avoid any of those deserving glances.
"I deliver you, your prince, brother. I trust you will act civilized toward him." Rumil grinned when Haldir huffed at him, but my gaze was still hidden from the Haldir's sight.
Rumil's eyebrow was arched as he looked upon his brother and I knew that something had silently passed between them.
"Don't count on that, Rumil." Haldir's eyes were back on me and I felt like I was melting into the ground.
"Hmmm, I think I shall leave you two alone. You have a lot to talk about, I think. And brother, please try not to do something stupid" Rumil playfully warned his brother and Haldir just waved it of with a loud growl.
Rumil shook his head and he left us alone. I knew this was going to be very uncomfortable for both of us, especially with me trying to communicate with this stubborn Galadrhim.
"So what should we do. I know this is not something you want to do right now, but it would be easier if you would tell me; what are your plans for today."
I knew that speaking to him was a bad thing to do, because I felt that the anger was awakening inside of him.
"Valar, you really don't know when to shut up. Do you, Prince Legolas. I admit it, I am stuck with you today and tomorrow, and the day after that, but during that time I don't want you to speak to me or to even ask any questions. Just follow me and keep your mouth shut."
I knew that a fury within him was ruling over his good senses and I knew that *I* was it's only target. I had to fight to cease this war between us, but at least I had this chance to spend some time with him, and to try to win his heart again.
I knew that this time I had my past working against me, but I didn't care about it. I knew that a hope was not lost for us to be together, and I realized that Galadriel's *set- up* was not that useless at all.
Spending time with him would give me a chance to observe his actions, and to set up the tactics on how to invade the corner's of a Haldir's heart.
I was following him behind, while he started walking and I didn't want to keep any distance between us. I knew that being closer to him was something that I had desired, and I didn't hear him complain, when every time I would accidentally brush up beside him.
He was not completely immune to my charms and I knew I had to take this to my advantage. This time the fight for his heart would occupy my very being. This time I would do my best to mend his broken soul;a soul that was once destroyed by my cruelty.
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"Legolas, where were you. I was so worried about you." Frodo came running toward me and I smiled at the concerned expression, I saw on his face.
"Oh, I am so sorry I worried you, Frodo. But, you'll never guess who I was spending my time with today."
I took a seat beside that same tree, as I did yesterday, and I saw that a hobbit was doing the same thing.
"Who, Legolas? Who?"
"I was with Haldir." I heard Frodo gasp and I chuckled at his shocked expression.
"And you're still alive. Valar, that's a miracle. Tell me about it. What happened?" Frodo rubbed his hands together and he relaxed himself beside the tree stump.
"Well, this morning while you were still sleeping, Lady Galadriel had called me by her side. To cut this story short, I found out that Haldir is being ordered to be my escort, while I am staying here in Lothlorien."
"What?" Frodo couldn't believe his ears when I told him that.
"Yes, and naturally he had to take me everywhere today, because his superiors would be cross with him if he didn't do it." Frodo shook his head while a small giggle escaped his throat.
"Poor thing. But tell me, did he tried to kill you. How was he acting toward you?"
"He tried to cut me off couple of times, when I started speaking. But I couldn't help myself and I didn't listen to any of his warnings, when he was telling me to stay quiet. I sensed that couple of times he was attempting to choke me, but luckily he restrained himself from doing it."
I said and I chuckled when I remembered how his face would turn red, every time I started a conversation with him. I knew that he wanted to keep me quiet, so he could almost imagine that I was not with him today. But, I knew if I listened to his warnings that I would be giving up easily on him. I was not that weak to accept the things as they were.
"That's great Legolas. That means he is getting softer. Don't give up on him?" I scanned the Frodo's features and I knew that a halfling had read my mind.
"I don't intend to, Frodo. I don't intend to."
"So anyway, I have realized that you didn't finish your story last night. I want to know what happened to Haldir, after he was poisoned. What did you do, after that? How did you break his heart?"
I frowned as all those memories came rushing to me. I knew I had to finish this story, so I could come face to face with my past. I knew that a hobbit was willing to listen to the rest of my story, and I knew I had to reveal the worst part of it.
"If you are willing to listen, then I will do my best to tell you the rest of it as I have kept it in my memory. Are you sure you are not sleepy tonight."
I asked, but I knew that the hobbit's curiosity was bigger than any need a tired body would ask for.
"Nay, I cannot sleep. I have slept all day today and when I woke up, I realized that this was a first time I got the full rest. If you are willing to continue, so am I willing to listen. Tell me, what happened next."
I sighed as the memories brought me to that place I really didn't want to go. I knew if I reveal this to someone, then I could finally let it all go. I heard all those sounds my memories where bringing out, from the dark corners of my mind.
I heard those scaring words I would remember forever. I saw the anguished face that would stay in my mind, for all the centuries my heart would be beating.
But those *last words* were something that I had remembered well, and I had erased all those people that were around us, on that day when I made *his* heart weep. Just those words were left there to rule over my memories; the words that marked me and had eventually changed me into this person.
**"But I thought you were different..... "**
Were those words!
TBC
(A?N: "But I thought you were different..... ", were the Haldir's last words before he left Mirkwood. Just giving you a little insight before the real thing.)