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Once again, I sigh.
I have been doing that a lot lately and I cant for the life of me figure out why. I caught him staring at me again. He's been doing that too. With wide amethysts he's just been watching me. He also hasn't been as bothersome lately. I guess that's why I got so angry. I finally asked him what was troubling him and he met my eyes, startled. He seemed to ponder the question. From the look on his face I thought he was really going to tell me. Perhaps he wasn't so bad after all. "Sore wa himitsu desu."
Perhaps not. I am confused because he doesn't seem very happy at all about his answer. He isn't smiling. He was about to say something, but looked at the others surrounding us and obviously thought better of his comment. I waited but he remained silent. I feel regret for the fact that we aren't alone so he could speak his mind to me. Then hurt. How could he do this to me?!? I wanted to wail to the skies. Very easily, the colder part of me replied. Shut up! I mentally yelled. I reason with myself that he must have a very good reason for this, but I still feel doubt.
Of all the emotions I feel, not one of them is anger. I wait for it to bubble up in my heart, but I feel none. I feel a sinking feeling instead. I have to admit to myself that it is true. I had a growing fondness and affection for that annoying purple-haired mazoku. I have fallen head over heels in love with him. 3 things hold me back from letting myself believe this last statement. One, he is a mazoku and can't love. Two, he would never love me anyways, even if he could.
Three, me, being a ryuuzoku, I cannot be with a monster. It is against all laws of nature. L-sama wouldn't allow our relationship to last. It also goes completely against what I've been taught. Funny. I'm still relying on what my elders told me. I have learned my race were murderers. We killed ancient dragons for absolutely no reason except for dominance and power. We claim it was preserving peace and we were afraid. Fear comes from ignorance and we knew almost nothing of the ancient dragon clan except they had a mighty weapon.
Now I am starting to sound like my love. He would probably say the same things about my race and has done so before. Of course, then I would never have believed him, but now I know it's factual. I will talk to him in private and tell him how much he means to me. Someday. For now I pretend to become angry and hit him. 'sigh.' Filia Ul Copt
Once again, I sigh.
I have been doing that a lot lately and I cant for the life of me figure out why. I caught him staring at me again. He's been doing that too. With wide amethysts he's just been watching me. He also hasn't been as bothersome lately. I guess that's why I got so angry. I finally asked him what was troubling him and he met my eyes, startled. He seemed to ponder the question. From the look on his face I thought he was really going to tell me. Perhaps he wasn't so bad after all. "Sore wa himitsu desu."
Perhaps not. I am confused because he doesn't seem very happy at all about his answer. He isn't smiling. He was about to say something, but looked at the others surrounding us and obviously thought better of his comment. I waited but he remained silent. I feel regret for the fact that we aren't alone so he could speak his mind to me. Then hurt. How could he do this to me?!? I wanted to wail to the skies. Very easily, the colder part of me replied. Shut up! I mentally yelled. I reason with myself that he must have a very good reason for this, but I still feel doubt.
Of all the emotions I feel, not one of them is anger. I wait for it to bubble up in my heart, but I feel none. I feel a sinking feeling instead. I have to admit to myself that it is true. I had a growing fondness and affection for that annoying purple-haired mazoku. I have fallen head over heels in love with him. 3 things hold me back from letting myself believe this last statement. One, he is a mazoku and can't love. Two, he would never love me anyways, even if he could.
Three, me, being a ryuuzoku, I cannot be with a monster. It is against all laws of nature. L-sama wouldn't allow our relationship to last. It also goes completely against what I've been taught. Funny. I'm still relying on what my elders told me. I have learned my race were murderers. We killed ancient dragons for absolutely no reason except for dominance and power. We claim it was preserving peace and we were afraid. Fear comes from ignorance and we knew almost nothing of the ancient dragon clan except they had a mighty weapon.
Now I am starting to sound like my love. He would probably say the same things about my race and has done so before. Of course, then I would never have believed him, but now I know it's factual. I will talk to him in private and tell him how much he means to me. Someday. For now I pretend to become angry and hit him. 'sigh.' Filia Ul Copt