A/N: Sorry it took so long, but you know how writer's block goes and I'm still suffering from it sort of so this is going to be a shorty but goody, I promise. This takes place after Cirque Des Merveilles.
Cirque Des Merveilles
Lexa walked down the hall to her room, her heart pounding, face hot, and stomach in knots. She had just kissed Jesse Kilmartin, again. Her nervousness didn't kick in until after she had walked away, and that scared her. Lexa wasn't nervous in that moment their lips met because it had felt so right. Lexa thought Jesse could phase through any walls except hers, and that was true, until now. She was letting him see the real Lexa and they both knew it. Lexa warned Jesse when they first met not to let people in too easily because it was a good way to get him killed, but it didn't. Jesse was alive and kicking and it wasn't because he had followed Lexa's advice, just the opposite. In reality, Jesse saved her life because he cared about her, because he let her in. In reality, it was because she didn't let anyone in that made her make pigheaded decisions and almost got herself killed. I guess I should get off that theory Lexa thought to herself.
Another thing that scared her was that Jesse lied to Brennan and Shalimar for her. Jesse had lied to his family for Lexa, to save her from some problems among the three of them if they did know. Sure, it wasn't a very big lie but Lexa remembered something she had heard on a television sitcom; if you can lie about the little things, what's to stop you from lying about the big things?
Damn that man, he seems to do everything right Lexa thought. Then why am I so scared? Lexa opened the door to her bedroom and sat down on her bed, thinking about the day. "Bren and Shal," she thought outloud. Jesse and Lexa were so close to losing them that day and it was all her fault. Even if they were alive, she still felt a pang of guilt every time she thought about the situation. Seeing them unconscious, it was almost too much to handle. Seeing Jesse crouched over Shalimar, his best friend in probably the entire world, trying to wake her up almost broke her heart realizing that she might have never woke up. For a few seconds, Lexa thought she had lost them. All the cold shoulders, not so subtle attempts to hurt her feelings, arguments, all of it faded away that day. Even before seeing them in Chamber of Souls, all hope had seemed to empty from her when her contact told her that Cirque Des Merveilles was a death camp. Lexa experienced enough guilt to bring her to tears and it didn't seem to stop. Jesse held her and assured her that everything was going to be all right and that they would find Brennan and Shalimar together, and they had which brought along that kiss. Jesse had given her faith and hope and love for all her teammates. Deep inside she cared about them all and somehow, she felt that she would need that love in the near future.
A/N Hope you like it!
Cirque Des Merveilles
Lexa walked down the hall to her room, her heart pounding, face hot, and stomach in knots. She had just kissed Jesse Kilmartin, again. Her nervousness didn't kick in until after she had walked away, and that scared her. Lexa wasn't nervous in that moment their lips met because it had felt so right. Lexa thought Jesse could phase through any walls except hers, and that was true, until now. She was letting him see the real Lexa and they both knew it. Lexa warned Jesse when they first met not to let people in too easily because it was a good way to get him killed, but it didn't. Jesse was alive and kicking and it wasn't because he had followed Lexa's advice, just the opposite. In reality, Jesse saved her life because he cared about her, because he let her in. In reality, it was because she didn't let anyone in that made her make pigheaded decisions and almost got herself killed. I guess I should get off that theory Lexa thought to herself.
Another thing that scared her was that Jesse lied to Brennan and Shalimar for her. Jesse had lied to his family for Lexa, to save her from some problems among the three of them if they did know. Sure, it wasn't a very big lie but Lexa remembered something she had heard on a television sitcom; if you can lie about the little things, what's to stop you from lying about the big things?
Damn that man, he seems to do everything right Lexa thought. Then why am I so scared? Lexa opened the door to her bedroom and sat down on her bed, thinking about the day. "Bren and Shal," she thought outloud. Jesse and Lexa were so close to losing them that day and it was all her fault. Even if they were alive, she still felt a pang of guilt every time she thought about the situation. Seeing them unconscious, it was almost too much to handle. Seeing Jesse crouched over Shalimar, his best friend in probably the entire world, trying to wake her up almost broke her heart realizing that she might have never woke up. For a few seconds, Lexa thought she had lost them. All the cold shoulders, not so subtle attempts to hurt her feelings, arguments, all of it faded away that day. Even before seeing them in Chamber of Souls, all hope had seemed to empty from her when her contact told her that Cirque Des Merveilles was a death camp. Lexa experienced enough guilt to bring her to tears and it didn't seem to stop. Jesse held her and assured her that everything was going to be all right and that they would find Brennan and Shalimar together, and they had which brought along that kiss. Jesse had given her faith and hope and love for all her teammates. Deep inside she cared about them all and somehow, she felt that she would need that love in the near future.
A/N Hope you like it!