Nightmare Dream
Avatar Alchemist
Duo ran into the apartment and jumped around joyously as he looked for Heero. "Hee-chan! Where are you, Hee-chan?"
"In here," came a hazy voice from the bedroom.
Duo smiled and walked into the room, "Still in bed? You lazy ass."
Heero ignored Duo and stood. He walked over to his lover and kissed him deeply, "I was waiting for you."
"Liar, you just woke up," Duo said and moved away with a teasing smile.
Heero shrugged and put on a pair of jeans, "The graveyard shift is a pain in the ass."
"Poor baby," Duo giggled and ran to hug him.
Duo came home and sat on the couch. Heero was probably still in bed he had gotten the late shift again. Usually Duo would wake him up and drag him here or there or they would spend a good time at home but today Duo didn't feel like seeing Heero at all.
He had been doing some thinking. He had been doing a lot of thinking and it was strange, a couple of days ago he couldn't have cared less what the future held for him. He could've been ok with everything as long as Heero was going to be there with him all the way but...Now, it seemed that Duo did want things from the future and he couldn't find a way to achieve these things with Heero.
Duo felt two arms encircle him and he smiled weakly. Could he leave his love for the sake of his future?
Heero kissed the one spot on Duo's neck that drove him crazy and when Duo didn't react he stepped away from him and went around the couch to sit next to him.
He looked all right. No, something was bothering him. Something big.
Duo looked over at Heero. He was worried for him and that made Duo's heart flutter. Heero cared for him more than anyone could imagine and they loved each other, they really did. Back when people hated guy/guy relationships things were hard but they surpassed all and now here they were living a happy normal life.
Duo closed his eyes. He'd never even considered himself gay until he met Heero. He had always been a ladies man and here came Heero to bring him down but...Heero had been the same way. They didn't question why it happened. It just did. They fell in love out of the blue and ever since then they were together and happy. It seemed, to Duo, that their love grew stronger everyday...but it was beginning to falter. Duo's heart wanted more.
"What's wrong with you? Are you ok?" Heero whispered gently and hugged Duo.
"I...I was just thinking abo...about the future," Duo answered timidly.
"The future? Ah, c'mon, we have time for that kind of stuff. We're 23 and in our prime the future comes later," Heero said and kissed Duo.
Duo pulled away and got up. He walked to the door, "I need to go out for a walk."
"You just got home," Heero said but Duo went out as if he hadn't heard.
Heero walked into their apartment after a day at the office and smiled. Today had been Duo's day off which meant that any moment soon Duo would jump out at him and announce that he had a plan on how to spend the rest of the day. Movies and dinner usually but sometimes dancing. Heero loved to go dancing with Duo even if he didn't dance he loved to watch Duo out on the dance floor. It was right out fucking sexy and a huge turn on.
Heero looked around the apartment for the first time noticing how quiet it was. He walked around still expecting Duo to jump out but when he didn't he became worried. He went into their bedroom and found clothes all over the floor. He looked around the room his eyes scanning for Duo.
"Duo!" he ran into the restroom and found Duo, tears in his eyes, standing over locks and locks of his hair.
Heero stared with bewilderment, "Duo...Why...What are you doing?"
Duo smiled bitterly, "New look."
Heero bent down and grabbed a lock of hair. He held it lightly in his hand and stood straight to look Duo in the eye. He held out the piece of hair in Duo's face. Heero took Duo in his arms as Duo began to cry.
"No," Duo exclaimed and pulled himself away from Heero. He ran out into the room and took a suit case from near the door.
Heero stared at the suitcase. He hadn't noticed it before with his worry but now he was worried all over again, "Duo, I don't understand. Tell me what's going on? Duo, what is all this?"
"Heero, I'm leaving. I can't do this anymore. I don't want to hide from the scorning and from the finger pointing. I love you and it hurts so much but I'm losing my will power and all my strength and I can't...I can't! I can't!" Duo shook his head and ran out of the room.
"Duo! Duo, no, wait!" Heero ran after Duo and grabbed his arm, "Tell me what's going on. What are you talking about? Tell me what it is you can't do anymore."
"This. You, me...Us. It's not normal. Not right. People talk about us and can't have children. Everyday we have to fight for our love and our rights. I'm tired. I don't want this anymore. I don't want to be hurt by their words. I want to be normal...Even if it means going on without you."
Heero let go of Duo and fell back on a couch. He felt as if a physical blow had just hit him. He felt as if Duo had taken his heart and thrown it out the window.
"No! What are you talking about? I won't accept this! We've been together for far too long for you to just wake up one day and throw it all away! This is bullshit. People don't matter only you and I matter. Fuck what the rest of the world says! You and I belong together despite what the world says. Fuck everything!" Heero stood, took the suitcase from Duo, and opened it. He emptied its contents and threw it across the room.
Duo went up to Heero and cupped his face, "I can't Heero. I want to be normal. I want to have children."
Heero said nothing. Nothing he could do or say could stop Duo now. He watched as Duo looked around and ignored the scattered clothing and walked to the door.
He looked back at Heero one last time then turned and walked out the door.
Heero grabbed one of Duo's shirts and laid on the floor. The sun went down sometime while he lay there motionless holding Duo's shirt to himself and without him noticing the room went completely dark.
Duo was gone and so was the light.
Ah this chapter was short, yes? But I felt it would be easier to explain Duo's actual 'decision' in a chapter of it's own. Please review. Sankyuu