A/N: Things will start to veer away from what actually happened in the
show and where I think things will go eventually. I still have not edited
the first chapters of this story and will go back eventually, but I need to
get the idea "down on paper" first.
Chapter 5: Rory on a Wire
Lorelai thought back over the day as she tossed and turned trying to sleep without worrying about Rory and Dean, The Dragonfly's official opening, her parents, Jason and not surprisingly Luke. He invaded her thoughts constantly now. She sighed as she heard the doors slamming below her and rolled again look for comfort in her bed. Since Rory's encounter with Dean Lorelai's relationship with her daughter had been strained to say the least. Rory still got up in the middle of the night and Lorelai could hear her washing dishes, doing laundry and every now and the Lorelai would hear her daughter breakdown. Her muffled sobs tore at Lorelai's heart. Lorelai knew Rory was dealing with what she had done and knew that her presence would only make dealing with wronging herself harder, but tonight the cries were so broken and harsh Lorelai couldn't bear to hear anymore. Finding Rory sitting with her head in her hands and basket of warm laundry beside Lorelai sighed. "Honey." She said as she laid a hand on Rory's back.
"Why, Mom?" She looked up at Lorelai her eyes puffy and red. "Why did I do this to myself? Do you know that I never think about that night with out knowing it was wrong and knowing whether Lindsey and Dean get a divorce, we--her husband and I--cheated on her. Whether it's over or not she'd be heartbroken. Why, Mom?"
"Baby, this has been going on for almost three weeks now. You can't do this to yourself everyday." Lorelai wrapped an arm around her little girl. "Yes, what you did was wrong, yes, Dean shouldn't have instigated it, and you should have stopped it, but it is over, Rory. Have you talked to Dean?" Rory shook her head mutely. "Has he moved out?" Rory shook her head as a fresh wave of sobs racked her body. "Okay, honey. Here's what we're going to do. You and I are going to pack up and get out of town tonight. I'll call Michele and Sookie, they can handle the Inn for a couple of days. We need to get away from all this for a while." Rory shook her head and took a steadying breath.
"You can't." Rory said quietly. "Luke's coming back tomorrow." Lorelai smiled at her; Rory always thought of other which is why her night with Dean had been such a shock for Lorelai.
"I'll call him. We've been talking a lot lately. He'll understand." Rory face went suddenly pale.
"He doesn't know?" she asked scared and embarrassed by what Luke might think of her if he knew. Lorelai caught the embarrassed flush that crept into Rory's face.
"No, of course not. And relax, I think Dean would have to worry about Luke beating him senseless if anyone ever finds out."
"How is Liz?" Rory asked.
"She's better." Lorelai sighed. "The accident happened so fast and she couldn't take care of herself while the new hubby was out of town." Rory took the hand her mother offered to help her up. Perhaps they could mend the fences after all Rory thought. "You've missed him." Rory accused.
"A little." Lorelai countered, and threw her hand up in defense, "Really it's just the coffee. He makes really good coffee."
"And he can waltz." Rory joked. Lorelai smiled up at her. The tension melted a little as they stood on the stairs. Lorelai started to head back up to her room. But stopped as Rory called her. "Mom?" she asked tears in her voice again. "I'm sorry I disappointed you so much. I love you."
Lorelai descended the stairs and held her daughter. "I love you, too, Rory. It'll get better. We'll make it through this together."
Chapter 5: Rory on a Wire
Lorelai thought back over the day as she tossed and turned trying to sleep without worrying about Rory and Dean, The Dragonfly's official opening, her parents, Jason and not surprisingly Luke. He invaded her thoughts constantly now. She sighed as she heard the doors slamming below her and rolled again look for comfort in her bed. Since Rory's encounter with Dean Lorelai's relationship with her daughter had been strained to say the least. Rory still got up in the middle of the night and Lorelai could hear her washing dishes, doing laundry and every now and the Lorelai would hear her daughter breakdown. Her muffled sobs tore at Lorelai's heart. Lorelai knew Rory was dealing with what she had done and knew that her presence would only make dealing with wronging herself harder, but tonight the cries were so broken and harsh Lorelai couldn't bear to hear anymore. Finding Rory sitting with her head in her hands and basket of warm laundry beside Lorelai sighed. "Honey." She said as she laid a hand on Rory's back.
"Why, Mom?" She looked up at Lorelai her eyes puffy and red. "Why did I do this to myself? Do you know that I never think about that night with out knowing it was wrong and knowing whether Lindsey and Dean get a divorce, we--her husband and I--cheated on her. Whether it's over or not she'd be heartbroken. Why, Mom?"
"Baby, this has been going on for almost three weeks now. You can't do this to yourself everyday." Lorelai wrapped an arm around her little girl. "Yes, what you did was wrong, yes, Dean shouldn't have instigated it, and you should have stopped it, but it is over, Rory. Have you talked to Dean?" Rory shook her head mutely. "Has he moved out?" Rory shook her head as a fresh wave of sobs racked her body. "Okay, honey. Here's what we're going to do. You and I are going to pack up and get out of town tonight. I'll call Michele and Sookie, they can handle the Inn for a couple of days. We need to get away from all this for a while." Rory shook her head and took a steadying breath.
"You can't." Rory said quietly. "Luke's coming back tomorrow." Lorelai smiled at her; Rory always thought of other which is why her night with Dean had been such a shock for Lorelai.
"I'll call him. We've been talking a lot lately. He'll understand." Rory face went suddenly pale.
"He doesn't know?" she asked scared and embarrassed by what Luke might think of her if he knew. Lorelai caught the embarrassed flush that crept into Rory's face.
"No, of course not. And relax, I think Dean would have to worry about Luke beating him senseless if anyone ever finds out."
"How is Liz?" Rory asked.
"She's better." Lorelai sighed. "The accident happened so fast and she couldn't take care of herself while the new hubby was out of town." Rory took the hand her mother offered to help her up. Perhaps they could mend the fences after all Rory thought. "You've missed him." Rory accused.
"A little." Lorelai countered, and threw her hand up in defense, "Really it's just the coffee. He makes really good coffee."
"And he can waltz." Rory joked. Lorelai smiled up at her. The tension melted a little as they stood on the stairs. Lorelai started to head back up to her room. But stopped as Rory called her. "Mom?" she asked tears in her voice again. "I'm sorry I disappointed you so much. I love you."
Lorelai descended the stairs and held her daughter. "I love you, too, Rory. It'll get better. We'll make it through this together."