It is hard to think that it has been nearly 6 months since Fred has been
gone now... it still feels like yesterday we had his funeral.... I don't know
what I would have done without Bosco.. he was the one who helped keep me
together though all this.. he is the one who when I needed someone for
support he was there... when my kids needed someone to talk to... he was
there.. Fred was their father but Bosco was their friend... they found that
they could talk about anything with him.. and for that I was eternally
grateful..
I roll out of bed and look around the room... I have to remind myself again where I am... I hate this.. we moved into a new apartment because we all agreed that we couldn't keep living where we were because there were too many memories for us to continue with life... Bosco told me that there was an apartment for rent in his building and we jumped at the chance to rent it... it was a 3 bedroom apartment with a full bath and lots of windows.. I like windows.. well I like people watching most of all.. sometimes I will sit outside on the fire escape and watch people go by.. I wonder where they are going and what business they have to conduct... and there is always Bosco two floors down... Rent is cheaper here.. but I don't have to worry much about money at the moment... After the first heart attack Fred and I had decided to each get life insurance... when Fred died his policy had matured and it paid out almost $200,000 all to us.. so we were able to pay off some bills... cover the funeral expenses.. and be able to put first and last months rent down on this place.. and get the kids some more furniture for their rooms. I am ripped out of my thought pattern by the alarm clock that I have set to go off an hour before I start work.... I walk though the apartment and get dressed and call Em to make sure that she has her keys... she is old enough now that she can stay at home and look after Charlie.. hell Charlie is almost 11 now so he is old enough to stay at home with Em.
There is a knock at the door.. I throw my shirt on and grab my uniform out of the closet.. I open the door and Bosco is standing in the hallway.. that is another definite bonus to me living here.. Bosco and I ride together everyday to and from work. I decided to keep the truck just because it was something that I couldn't part with... I just couldn't bring myself to... the backseat had too many memories for me to just up and sell it..
"You ready?"
Bosco's voice brings me back to reality
"Yeah, Is it your turn to drive or mine?"
"You drove last night.. we can take my car if you want.."
"Sure Boz, that would be a great idea.."
We leave the building and climb into his car... I love this car... and I know that Bosco does too.. this is his baby... he wouldn't trade it for the world and I am the only other person who he would let drive it... and I know that...
"You all right? Your kinda quiet today..."
"No I'm allright Boz....just thinking that's all..."
"I thought I could smell wood burning..."
I smack him in the shoulder and laugh as he starts the car and pulls away from the curb. I am lost in thought and I don't even hear Bosco calling to me... I finally feel his hand on my thigh... rather bold move.. but then again I didn't care... I turn around and see that we are already at work.. oops... I had better get my brain in gear before we start work or I am a gonner...
"What are you thinking about Faith? You gotta be thinking about something... you didn't smack me again when I touched you..."
"I was just thinking how lucky I am to have you as a partner... Boz you were there for me when Fred died... you were there for the kids... you helped us find a new place to live... you have done so much for us.. I don't know how I could ever thank you for that"
I watched as his cheeks went red... I love it when they do that... he looks so cute when that happens... and his ears turn too.. I know that he is blushing... but he doesn't want to look at me so I reach out in the car and place my hand on the side of his face and turn it towards me... he looks at me with those piercing blue eyes of his and smiles..
"I would do anything for you Faith.. for you and the kids... I am here for you always never forget that Faith.. I will never leave.."
I cant say anything I just pull him into a hug.. it is all that I can do.. I never realized how much this man meant to me... Sully and Ty have told me numerous times that they thought that we should be married.. I mean we talk like a married couple... we know each other better than any book... he is my best friend... we would die for each other... and when we fight... it sounds like a married couple... now I look at it.. they are right.. we are inseparable.. I feel a small smile come to my lips as Bosco pulls away and looks at me..
"Come on Faith, we are going to be late.. I don't want to give Swersky an excuse to kick my arse to kingdom come.. and I don't think that you do either..."
I laugh and we walk into the house together... Since I came back to work we have been walking in like this together... Swersky looks up at us from the desk and smiles.. I think that he is glad to see that we are getting along again.. when we were fighting I think that it was hurting him too.. he is like a dad to us... when two of his "kids" are fighting you can see the hurt in his eyes...
"Hi Boss" Both of us said it together as we walk to the change rooms and then we realized what we just did and start laughing letting the door close behind us.. I head off to my locker and start changing while Bosco is hurrying to throw his clothes on.. Sasha and Ty are just finishing changing as well... I figure that they lost track of the time as well.. this is good because this way we wont be singled out when we walk into roll call late.
"Faith, you took off your rings...." Sasha was the first to notice... I needed to get on with my life and this was the only way that I was going to make headway.. I took them off this morning but I still couldn't part with them.. they had after all been on my finger for 15 years.. so I put them on a chain and hung them around my neck. At least it is one more step closer to fully letting go..
"Yeah it was hard to get them off... but I have to get on with my life.."
Bosco looked up at me and finished buttoning his shirt.. and then we looked at the clock.. Roll call was in 2 min! so we all raced down the hall to where Swersky was waiting... all four of us got dirty looks as we walked into the room...
"Now guys today we have three look outs posted for three escapees from that prison breakout yesterday there is a description being passed around... take a good look at it... remember Be Smart be safe!... now for the assignments... Adder... Potter you are together in 55-Edward...
I look at Bosco and smile.
"I'll grab our radios and you can get the RMP.. you get the first ½ and I will drive the second ½ of the tour..."
"Works for me just DON'T get...."
"Yeah, Yeah I know don't get KX519.. I know that you hate that radio... just DON'T get.."
"Yeah, Yeah I know you hate the acceleration on 5536 I wont get that car"
I turned and smiled... you know I think that Sul and Ty might be right about that... we know each other too well....
"Where do you want to go for dinner?"
Holy crap it was nearly 7.. where the hell did the day go? It has been pretty quiet lately and I don't want to jinx it... I look over at Bosco and smile.. I don't know where we should go.. I don't really care.. I am not picky tonight... although subs sound like a good idea to me...
"What about that sub place? You know the one that is just down the street from the apartment that way we can bring dinner home to Emmy and Charlie.."
Bosco smiles and nods "Subs it is then"
I walk in the door and hand off two subs to Em and Charlie.. they were both working on homework when we walked in the door. It's Friday night... usually they wait until the last minute on a Sunday to do their homework.. Em looks up at me and smiles... same with Charlie..
"Mom I am glad that you are home..."
"Are you guys feeling all right? You are doing homework on a Friday night!"
"Well we wanted to ask you if it was all right if we went to sleepovers.. and we knew that you would ask us if our homework was done... so we are finishing it now... Can we go? Charlie's friend Joseph wanted to know if he could go to his house for a sleepover and I want to go to Veronica's for her sleepover.. all of it is parent approved... we were just waiting to talk to you before we said that we could go....so can we??"
I look at Bosco and he is hiding a smile with the back of his hand... I think that is cute.. well hell they have done their homework... and it is Friday.. Veronica lives in our old building and Joseph lives in the building across the street..
"Sure, have fun guys.. just make sure the kitchen is clean before you leave and call me when you get there just so I know that you are safe"
"Thanks mom!" Charlie lept out of his seat and hugged me... and Em just nodded at me with a smile on her face... "Thanks mom"
Just then our radios crackled into life... it was about time.. we hadn't had a call all bloody night.. it was driving me insane...
"55-David respond to a report of a burglary at 125 & Lexx..."
"We have to go... don't forget to call me... 10-4 Central 55-David responding 125 & Lexx"
Almost 4 hours later Bosco looked at me and smiled..
"Faith it is 11.. wanna get back to the house and call it a night?"
"Absolutely!!" I was more than willing to go home.. after we saw the kids the night crawled by without anything eventful happening.. I was glad to go home... I was tired.. it had been a long week and we had the day off tomorrow... I was thinking on painting the master bedroom this weekend.. I had bought the paint but every time I went to go and get some done.. some thing would pop up and I would have to postpone it.. now I was getting sick of looking at white... Bosco and I had gone to the hardware store and I chose a light teal to paint the walls... I liked the colour and it was on sale... which was a bonus... I handed in the radios and Bosco handed in the car... and we went and changed in a matter of minutes.. both of us wanted to get home...
Bosco gets that grimace on his face but then it is replaced with a smile...
"Sure what time?"
"Around 11? I usually wake up around 10 or so..."
"11 it is then"
We climbed into his Mustang and headed home.. I was busy thinking on how the hell I would arrange the furniture in the room to accommodate for painting.. I had absolutely no clue how the hell I was going to get everything in the middle of the room... I had lots of space but the bed was heavy... maybe I could get Bosco to help move it.. Before I knew it we were home... Bosco got out of the car and we walked to the front door.. Bosco always walks me to my apartment now... he has always been protective and I feel safe when he is around...
"Wanna come in for a drink?" hell it is all I can offer...
"Sure" Bosco walks into the apartment.. the kids had gone earlier.. each calling me when they had arrived at their parties... so there was nobody here in the apartment... I walked to the kitchen and turned on the light.. it was clean... good but then again the kids knew not to try me... when I said I wanted it clean... they knew that I would be pissed if I came home and it wasn't looking decent. I walked to the fridge and pulled out a beer for Bosco and a cooler for me. I popped the top and handed to him.
"Are you all right Boz? You look kinda pale..."
"Faith, I have to tell you something...and I don't want to wait any longer to say it..."
"What is it Boz?" I turned towards him and took a drink.. what the hell could he want to tell me that would make him go so pale like this?
"Faith I have been your partner for 12 years... and we know each other better than we do our favourite books.. you know me better than I know myself... and well I guess that there is no other way of saying this to you... Faith, I love you...I have always loved you..."
Holy Mary mother of God did I hear right? Bosco just said he loved me... holy crap.. I must have just looked at him funny because he turned away from me and put his beer on the table and started walking towards the door... I heard him mumbling as he walked ".... I knew that I shouldn't have told you..."
I put my drink next to his and chased after him, catching him just as he was getting his shoes... I put my hand on his arm and squeezed it gently...
"Boz.... Don't go... I love you too...."
He turned around and looked at me with those beautiful blue eyes of his.. and as we locked our gaze into each other... we shared a whole conversation... that we felt the same way.. that by admitting this to each other we were passing over barriers that should never be passed and that we didn't care about it... that after this day nothing would ever be the same again...
"I was so afraid that you would reject me... Faith I had to tell you... it was eating me up inside.. I had to tell you how I felt... Especially after that way you looked at me this morning..."
I didn't say anything more.. I just drew him into an embrace.. it just felt right... and I put my head against his chest I felt myself sigh and I felt him wrap his arms around me. I looked up at his face and I saw that he had tears welling in his eyes.. I reached up and gently wiped the tears away.. he leaned into my hand and nuzzled it gently.. I couldn't help what happened next... I don't think that I have ever felt attraction like this... but I felt my head move towards his and I felt the soft brush of his lips against mine.. I felt the sharp breath that Bosco took and then I felt his lips against mine again... this time more demanding as we deepened this kiss... both of us pouring all our love and affection that we had been repressing into this one moment...
When we decided that we couldn't share each others breath forever and I felt him wrap his arms around me again, pulling him closer towards me as I pulled him away from the door.. he came with me willingly as I lead him towards the bedroom... I don't know if I was ready to do this... but with Bosco... I was ready for anything.. the kids weren't home and they weren't going to be until tomorrow sometime in the evening.. so I looked at Bosco and he must have known what I was thinking because he hesitated...
"Faith are you sure that you want to do this?"
I looked back at him and he kissed me with a fierce tenderness... "Boz I am not sure but with you I know I wont regret it"
He didn't say anything more to me.. he just picked me up off the floor.. he always makes me weak when he does this because he acts like I weigh no more than a feather.. he turns towards the bedroom door.. When I woke up in the morning.. he was there still with his arms wrapped around me and his face nuzzled in my hair... I sighed deeply and I felt his arms tighten around my waist... I was where I belonged....
I roll out of bed and look around the room... I have to remind myself again where I am... I hate this.. we moved into a new apartment because we all agreed that we couldn't keep living where we were because there were too many memories for us to continue with life... Bosco told me that there was an apartment for rent in his building and we jumped at the chance to rent it... it was a 3 bedroom apartment with a full bath and lots of windows.. I like windows.. well I like people watching most of all.. sometimes I will sit outside on the fire escape and watch people go by.. I wonder where they are going and what business they have to conduct... and there is always Bosco two floors down... Rent is cheaper here.. but I don't have to worry much about money at the moment... After the first heart attack Fred and I had decided to each get life insurance... when Fred died his policy had matured and it paid out almost $200,000 all to us.. so we were able to pay off some bills... cover the funeral expenses.. and be able to put first and last months rent down on this place.. and get the kids some more furniture for their rooms. I am ripped out of my thought pattern by the alarm clock that I have set to go off an hour before I start work.... I walk though the apartment and get dressed and call Em to make sure that she has her keys... she is old enough now that she can stay at home and look after Charlie.. hell Charlie is almost 11 now so he is old enough to stay at home with Em.
There is a knock at the door.. I throw my shirt on and grab my uniform out of the closet.. I open the door and Bosco is standing in the hallway.. that is another definite bonus to me living here.. Bosco and I ride together everyday to and from work. I decided to keep the truck just because it was something that I couldn't part with... I just couldn't bring myself to... the backseat had too many memories for me to just up and sell it..
"You ready?"
Bosco's voice brings me back to reality
"Yeah, Is it your turn to drive or mine?"
"You drove last night.. we can take my car if you want.."
"Sure Boz, that would be a great idea.."
We leave the building and climb into his car... I love this car... and I know that Bosco does too.. this is his baby... he wouldn't trade it for the world and I am the only other person who he would let drive it... and I know that...
"You all right? Your kinda quiet today..."
"No I'm allright Boz....just thinking that's all..."
"I thought I could smell wood burning..."
I smack him in the shoulder and laugh as he starts the car and pulls away from the curb. I am lost in thought and I don't even hear Bosco calling to me... I finally feel his hand on my thigh... rather bold move.. but then again I didn't care... I turn around and see that we are already at work.. oops... I had better get my brain in gear before we start work or I am a gonner...
"What are you thinking about Faith? You gotta be thinking about something... you didn't smack me again when I touched you..."
"I was just thinking how lucky I am to have you as a partner... Boz you were there for me when Fred died... you were there for the kids... you helped us find a new place to live... you have done so much for us.. I don't know how I could ever thank you for that"
I watched as his cheeks went red... I love it when they do that... he looks so cute when that happens... and his ears turn too.. I know that he is blushing... but he doesn't want to look at me so I reach out in the car and place my hand on the side of his face and turn it towards me... he looks at me with those piercing blue eyes of his and smiles..
"I would do anything for you Faith.. for you and the kids... I am here for you always never forget that Faith.. I will never leave.."
I cant say anything I just pull him into a hug.. it is all that I can do.. I never realized how much this man meant to me... Sully and Ty have told me numerous times that they thought that we should be married.. I mean we talk like a married couple... we know each other better than any book... he is my best friend... we would die for each other... and when we fight... it sounds like a married couple... now I look at it.. they are right.. we are inseparable.. I feel a small smile come to my lips as Bosco pulls away and looks at me..
"Come on Faith, we are going to be late.. I don't want to give Swersky an excuse to kick my arse to kingdom come.. and I don't think that you do either..."
I laugh and we walk into the house together... Since I came back to work we have been walking in like this together... Swersky looks up at us from the desk and smiles.. I think that he is glad to see that we are getting along again.. when we were fighting I think that it was hurting him too.. he is like a dad to us... when two of his "kids" are fighting you can see the hurt in his eyes...
"Hi Boss" Both of us said it together as we walk to the change rooms and then we realized what we just did and start laughing letting the door close behind us.. I head off to my locker and start changing while Bosco is hurrying to throw his clothes on.. Sasha and Ty are just finishing changing as well... I figure that they lost track of the time as well.. this is good because this way we wont be singled out when we walk into roll call late.
"Faith, you took off your rings...." Sasha was the first to notice... I needed to get on with my life and this was the only way that I was going to make headway.. I took them off this morning but I still couldn't part with them.. they had after all been on my finger for 15 years.. so I put them on a chain and hung them around my neck. At least it is one more step closer to fully letting go..
"Yeah it was hard to get them off... but I have to get on with my life.."
Bosco looked up at me and finished buttoning his shirt.. and then we looked at the clock.. Roll call was in 2 min! so we all raced down the hall to where Swersky was waiting... all four of us got dirty looks as we walked into the room...
"Now guys today we have three look outs posted for three escapees from that prison breakout yesterday there is a description being passed around... take a good look at it... remember Be Smart be safe!... now for the assignments... Adder... Potter you are together in 55-Edward...
I look at Bosco and smile.
"I'll grab our radios and you can get the RMP.. you get the first ½ and I will drive the second ½ of the tour..."
"Works for me just DON'T get...."
"Yeah, Yeah I know don't get KX519.. I know that you hate that radio... just DON'T get.."
"Yeah, Yeah I know you hate the acceleration on 5536 I wont get that car"
I turned and smiled... you know I think that Sul and Ty might be right about that... we know each other too well....
"Where do you want to go for dinner?"
Holy crap it was nearly 7.. where the hell did the day go? It has been pretty quiet lately and I don't want to jinx it... I look over at Bosco and smile.. I don't know where we should go.. I don't really care.. I am not picky tonight... although subs sound like a good idea to me...
"What about that sub place? You know the one that is just down the street from the apartment that way we can bring dinner home to Emmy and Charlie.."
Bosco smiles and nods "Subs it is then"
I walk in the door and hand off two subs to Em and Charlie.. they were both working on homework when we walked in the door. It's Friday night... usually they wait until the last minute on a Sunday to do their homework.. Em looks up at me and smiles... same with Charlie..
"Mom I am glad that you are home..."
"Are you guys feeling all right? You are doing homework on a Friday night!"
"Well we wanted to ask you if it was all right if we went to sleepovers.. and we knew that you would ask us if our homework was done... so we are finishing it now... Can we go? Charlie's friend Joseph wanted to know if he could go to his house for a sleepover and I want to go to Veronica's for her sleepover.. all of it is parent approved... we were just waiting to talk to you before we said that we could go....so can we??"
I look at Bosco and he is hiding a smile with the back of his hand... I think that is cute.. well hell they have done their homework... and it is Friday.. Veronica lives in our old building and Joseph lives in the building across the street..
"Sure, have fun guys.. just make sure the kitchen is clean before you leave and call me when you get there just so I know that you are safe"
"Thanks mom!" Charlie lept out of his seat and hugged me... and Em just nodded at me with a smile on her face... "Thanks mom"
Just then our radios crackled into life... it was about time.. we hadn't had a call all bloody night.. it was driving me insane...
"55-David respond to a report of a burglary at 125 & Lexx..."
"We have to go... don't forget to call me... 10-4 Central 55-David responding 125 & Lexx"
Almost 4 hours later Bosco looked at me and smiled..
"Faith it is 11.. wanna get back to the house and call it a night?"
"Absolutely!!" I was more than willing to go home.. after we saw the kids the night crawled by without anything eventful happening.. I was glad to go home... I was tired.. it had been a long week and we had the day off tomorrow... I was thinking on painting the master bedroom this weekend.. I had bought the paint but every time I went to go and get some done.. some thing would pop up and I would have to postpone it.. now I was getting sick of looking at white... Bosco and I had gone to the hardware store and I chose a light teal to paint the walls... I liked the colour and it was on sale... which was a bonus... I handed in the radios and Bosco handed in the car... and we went and changed in a matter of minutes.. both of us wanted to get home...
Bosco gets that grimace on his face but then it is replaced with a smile...
"Sure what time?"
"Around 11? I usually wake up around 10 or so..."
"11 it is then"
We climbed into his Mustang and headed home.. I was busy thinking on how the hell I would arrange the furniture in the room to accommodate for painting.. I had absolutely no clue how the hell I was going to get everything in the middle of the room... I had lots of space but the bed was heavy... maybe I could get Bosco to help move it.. Before I knew it we were home... Bosco got out of the car and we walked to the front door.. Bosco always walks me to my apartment now... he has always been protective and I feel safe when he is around...
"Wanna come in for a drink?" hell it is all I can offer...
"Sure" Bosco walks into the apartment.. the kids had gone earlier.. each calling me when they had arrived at their parties... so there was nobody here in the apartment... I walked to the kitchen and turned on the light.. it was clean... good but then again the kids knew not to try me... when I said I wanted it clean... they knew that I would be pissed if I came home and it wasn't looking decent. I walked to the fridge and pulled out a beer for Bosco and a cooler for me. I popped the top and handed to him.
"Are you all right Boz? You look kinda pale..."
"Faith, I have to tell you something...and I don't want to wait any longer to say it..."
"What is it Boz?" I turned towards him and took a drink.. what the hell could he want to tell me that would make him go so pale like this?
"Faith I have been your partner for 12 years... and we know each other better than we do our favourite books.. you know me better than I know myself... and well I guess that there is no other way of saying this to you... Faith, I love you...I have always loved you..."
Holy Mary mother of God did I hear right? Bosco just said he loved me... holy crap.. I must have just looked at him funny because he turned away from me and put his beer on the table and started walking towards the door... I heard him mumbling as he walked ".... I knew that I shouldn't have told you..."
I put my drink next to his and chased after him, catching him just as he was getting his shoes... I put my hand on his arm and squeezed it gently...
"Boz.... Don't go... I love you too...."
He turned around and looked at me with those beautiful blue eyes of his.. and as we locked our gaze into each other... we shared a whole conversation... that we felt the same way.. that by admitting this to each other we were passing over barriers that should never be passed and that we didn't care about it... that after this day nothing would ever be the same again...
"I was so afraid that you would reject me... Faith I had to tell you... it was eating me up inside.. I had to tell you how I felt... Especially after that way you looked at me this morning..."
I didn't say anything more.. I just drew him into an embrace.. it just felt right... and I put my head against his chest I felt myself sigh and I felt him wrap his arms around me. I looked up at his face and I saw that he had tears welling in his eyes.. I reached up and gently wiped the tears away.. he leaned into my hand and nuzzled it gently.. I couldn't help what happened next... I don't think that I have ever felt attraction like this... but I felt my head move towards his and I felt the soft brush of his lips against mine.. I felt the sharp breath that Bosco took and then I felt his lips against mine again... this time more demanding as we deepened this kiss... both of us pouring all our love and affection that we had been repressing into this one moment...
When we decided that we couldn't share each others breath forever and I felt him wrap his arms around me again, pulling him closer towards me as I pulled him away from the door.. he came with me willingly as I lead him towards the bedroom... I don't know if I was ready to do this... but with Bosco... I was ready for anything.. the kids weren't home and they weren't going to be until tomorrow sometime in the evening.. so I looked at Bosco and he must have known what I was thinking because he hesitated...
"Faith are you sure that you want to do this?"
I looked back at him and he kissed me with a fierce tenderness... "Boz I am not sure but with you I know I wont regret it"
He didn't say anything more to me.. he just picked me up off the floor.. he always makes me weak when he does this because he acts like I weigh no more than a feather.. he turns towards the bedroom door.. When I woke up in the morning.. he was there still with his arms wrapped around me and his face nuzzled in my hair... I sighed deeply and I felt his arms tighten around my waist... I was where I belonged....