I saw your face stare at me in confusion, then in apprehension for the pain of loneliness to come...and I was sorry. I tried to put on a smile, to try and ease a little of the pain, but I knew what happened now was out of my hands. Something boiled in my chest, erupting slowly...quietly. Next thing I knew, you were in my arms. I was all too aware of the silky smoothness of your cheek against mine. The intoxicating smell of your hair. I didn't want to leave then, I wanted to stay frozen in this moment forever, just to hold you. Just to...
I managed to keep my voice untainted with the army of feelings I was battling with at that moment. "Goodbye Kaoru...Thank you."
I released you then, intending to leave you in that place, surrounded by the fireflies. But I heard your cries. My body trembled slightly as each lamentation cut through me like a serrated knife. I never felt more guilt than in that moment. Not even when I stood amid the bloody carnage of the last days of the Tokogawa.
I wanted to turn around and hold you. Wipe away your tears and tell you every thing would be fine. But I knew that if I did so, I would never be able to leave. I would be hunted by Makota Shisho and his lapdog Seta and I would be putting you in danger. And probably more pain then you were in then. So I left...like a coward in the night I left you to dry your own tears.
I had never felt so...weak. I hated the feeling, despised it with every ounce of my being and yet, knowing that the feeling had come from you made it acceptable.
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