Borrowed Heaven
I knew from the start that everything between us is temporary. It was just an illusion. That was my reality...well at least I tried to make it real. But life has been unkind to me. You were the star that I hoped to reach. I aspired and dreamed for everything to be real. And yet when I look in your eyes I see pain. I know the reason behind the smile that fooled the world. Yet I know that I caused it. An illusion will always be an illusion. It hurts so much when I see you everyday. We spend a lot of time and we share a lot of smiles... smiles you give to him. I was there for you every time you shed your tears. I was with you and you were never there. I am willing to give up everything for you to notice me. I want you to love me but fate never allowed it. You were for him.
And I cry....
I'm sorry for everything. I ruined the smile you had for me. I should have told you everything. I wanted to tell you and to show you that despite of this charade I love you. I want you to listen to me. I want you to give me a chance! Let me love you and forget the pain, I want to start again. Yet there will be no more chance.
I am thankful for this distant relation we have. You may never know but I'll always cherish this borrowed heaven. It's all I have and the memory of being close to you ,even if you cared for me as the cursed black pig , you named P-chan.
I knew from the start that everything between us is temporary. It was just an illusion. That was my reality...well at least I tried to make it real. But life has been unkind to me. You were the star that I hoped to reach. I aspired and dreamed for everything to be real. And yet when I look in your eyes I see pain. I know the reason behind the smile that fooled the world. Yet I know that I caused it. An illusion will always be an illusion. It hurts so much when I see you everyday. We spend a lot of time and we share a lot of smiles... smiles you give to him. I was there for you every time you shed your tears. I was with you and you were never there. I am willing to give up everything for you to notice me. I want you to love me but fate never allowed it. You were for him.
And I cry....
I'm sorry for everything. I ruined the smile you had for me. I should have told you everything. I wanted to tell you and to show you that despite of this charade I love you. I want you to listen to me. I want you to give me a chance! Let me love you and forget the pain, I want to start again. Yet there will be no more chance.
I am thankful for this distant relation we have. You may never know but I'll always cherish this borrowed heaven. It's all I have and the memory of being close to you ,even if you cared for me as the cursed black pig , you named P-chan.