Looking IN
Disclaimer: I supposed that I know that you know that I'm not the owner of
Naruto and the rest of it's characters.
Author's notes:
This is a songfic entitled "Looking In" from Mariah Carey's Daydream Album.
This is my first songfic ever and I know it would probably suckz knowing
myself that I'm used to write yaoi NC-17 rating. I'd like to write
something different this time a straight pairings and at the same time a
songfic. And please review co'z I'm trying not to sound harsh and violent
here now that I rated it as for general readers.
Summary: Sakura x Sasuke songfic
You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me
I can see behind those darkly pigmented eyes the hate residing in it. You
still doesn't treat me the way I expected it. I know that for your own
reason, I'm not deserving for your love. If you can't treat me as a friend,
just treat me as a normal person. You think I doesn't got hurt from all
those mean words you'd bestowed upon but instead of minding those as
painful, I perceived that as a sign that you still can recognized me.
Behind those cheerful face of mine is a shadow of a lonely me. My outer
"self" is acting quite reciprocated to show off in the real world.
She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me
After those caring and loving care and touches I've given you, efforts soon
be rewarded by a stern act of displeasure. And again I thanked the day that
you'd recognized me ironically once and for all. But nevertheless, I would
be happy and smile through a thousand tears. Yet my inner "Sakura" keeps
dreaming of not being as her, she would rather be a flower or a tenacious
rock, thus, eternally emotionless despite of erosion. She doesn't want to
give in instead hides her true color. And why should she? She just wanted
to act painfully strong, strong enough to love but not being loved.
Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand
I came to realization that all my actions would turn to nothing. I would be
forever disheartened...disheartened...disheartened if I would keep it on.
It seems it would be a tough task to disenchant myself to you but don't
worry, you've nothing to worry my dear Sasuke, after all, I'm nothing but
a piece of jinx for you. And that was for sure.
It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me.
I looked grimacedly at myself but I can't despise my inner me. I would be
here no matter what and won't despair devising to be noticed. I don't care
those hindrances including my fears to mislead my heart. I will cling to my
faith and just pushed all the obstacles aside because they will never know
what's of inside me.
Disclaimer: I supposed that I know that you know that I'm not the owner of
Naruto and the rest of it's characters.
Author's notes:
This is a songfic entitled "Looking In" from Mariah Carey's Daydream Album.
This is my first songfic ever and I know it would probably suckz knowing
myself that I'm used to write yaoi NC-17 rating. I'd like to write
something different this time a straight pairings and at the same time a
songfic. And please review co'z I'm trying not to sound harsh and violent
here now that I rated it as for general readers.
Summary: Sakura x Sasuke songfic
You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me
I can see behind those darkly pigmented eyes the hate residing in it. You
still doesn't treat me the way I expected it. I know that for your own
reason, I'm not deserving for your love. If you can't treat me as a friend,
just treat me as a normal person. You think I doesn't got hurt from all
those mean words you'd bestowed upon but instead of minding those as
painful, I perceived that as a sign that you still can recognized me.
Behind those cheerful face of mine is a shadow of a lonely me. My outer
"self" is acting quite reciprocated to show off in the real world.
She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me
After those caring and loving care and touches I've given you, efforts soon
be rewarded by a stern act of displeasure. And again I thanked the day that
you'd recognized me ironically once and for all. But nevertheless, I would
be happy and smile through a thousand tears. Yet my inner "Sakura" keeps
dreaming of not being as her, she would rather be a flower or a tenacious
rock, thus, eternally emotionless despite of erosion. She doesn't want to
give in instead hides her true color. And why should she? She just wanted
to act painfully strong, strong enough to love but not being loved.
Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand
I came to realization that all my actions would turn to nothing. I would be
forever disheartened...disheartened...disheartened if I would keep it on.
It seems it would be a tough task to disenchant myself to you but don't
worry, you've nothing to worry my dear Sasuke, after all, I'm nothing but
a piece of jinx for you. And that was for sure.
It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me.
I looked grimacedly at myself but I can't despise my inner me. I would be
here no matter what and won't despair devising to be noticed. I don't care
those hindrances including my fears to mislead my heart. I will cling to my
faith and just pushed all the obstacles aside because they will never know
what's of inside me.