Ah! Another extremely short one-shot. Although, unlike Only as he Slept I
didn't write this in the middle of the night... So it's quite different.
(lol) Speaking of such! NO! This is not related to Only as he Slept! But
hey, we could certainly pretend it is... Meh, whatever you want. In addition
to everything else I've just said, I'm very sorry that I haven't been
updating frequently. I've been working and watching a lot of DVDs (I've
been on a DVD buying spree x.x;;;). But rest assured (...HA!)! I'm every bit
as inspired as always. So the lack of updates isn't due to a lack of ideas
or anything TERRIBLE like that! Expect more soon! (T.T DON'T LEAVE ME! I'm
so insecure x.x;;)
I don't own YYH!
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Hiei and I continued our walk, our destination being nowhere I could accurately recall. All I knew was that my mind was full enough of puzzling questions.
I had decided. After thinking and weighing possible outcomes for so long... I was ready to take the risk.
I was going to tell Hiei that I loved him. No more putting it off until tomorrow... for years....
Love was such an odd emotion. I wanted to relay it to him. I wanted to be alone no longer. I now put him above myself. I now, right now, wanted so much to embrace the little demon....
But how was I going to go about it...?
To simply tell him outright would give him too much time to panic, to think, to conclude, and ultimately reject.
There was a dark ally coming up ahead.... Perhaps forcefully dragging him in to it and.... Hmm.... No. That wasn't really affectionate....
He was close enough to grab. Close enough to grab without him getting away, even.
Perhaps a... kiss...?
A kiss so soft, tender, loving... A passionate show of my feelings for him... So perfectly portraying my desires and needs... It was too temping.
But how would a kiss keep him from running, fleeing from my love? He surely wouldn't stay around for the speech I would give him afterwards.
No. A kiss would not work.
If maybe I simply took his hand...?
A gentle grasp, one to show I would be there for him; I would love him, but never do anything he didn't want me to. A silent proposal... If he wanted me, he could just return the gesture. Nothing had to be said. No awkward conversations or confessions.
And yet... If Hiei didn't approve of this, he would spare no time in slicing me in two. I wasn't quite ready to die at his hands.
Could it be that the best way would be to just come right out and say it?
Slowly stop him, gaze into his beautiful, large eyes, let free all the feelings that had been residing deep inside my heart.... Let those carefully chosen words confess my undying love and affection.
However, I saw little chance of Hiei even taking me seriously. He'd just laugh, sarcastically. If I went on, even if he finally believed it, the moment would be lost. No... I couldn't.
I should just reach out hug him.
Caring arms, warmly holding him, melting all the frozen emotions, relieving all the fears, the nightmares... Hands caressing his back, assuring him that this time it wasn't a lie, that I really cared about him. He was the one I wanted close to me... To show him exactly how near he was to my heart... Tenderly resting my chin on his shoulder... I needed him too much.
A hug...
Now was the time. With no one around to see, with my heart and mind as ready to go through with it as I've ever been...
Finally...
"Kurama?"
"Hm...?"
"We're here...."
...Maybe tomorrow...
--End--
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Hiei and I continued our walk, our destination being nowhere I could accurately recall. All I knew was that my mind was full enough of puzzling questions.
I had decided. After thinking and weighing possible outcomes for so long... I was ready to take the risk.
I was going to tell Hiei that I loved him. No more putting it off until tomorrow... for years....
Love was such an odd emotion. I wanted to relay it to him. I wanted to be alone no longer. I now put him above myself. I now, right now, wanted so much to embrace the little demon....
But how was I going to go about it...?
To simply tell him outright would give him too much time to panic, to think, to conclude, and ultimately reject.
There was a dark ally coming up ahead.... Perhaps forcefully dragging him in to it and.... Hmm.... No. That wasn't really affectionate....
He was close enough to grab. Close enough to grab without him getting away, even.
Perhaps a... kiss...?
A kiss so soft, tender, loving... A passionate show of my feelings for him... So perfectly portraying my desires and needs... It was too temping.
But how would a kiss keep him from running, fleeing from my love? He surely wouldn't stay around for the speech I would give him afterwards.
No. A kiss would not work.
If maybe I simply took his hand...?
A gentle grasp, one to show I would be there for him; I would love him, but never do anything he didn't want me to. A silent proposal... If he wanted me, he could just return the gesture. Nothing had to be said. No awkward conversations or confessions.
And yet... If Hiei didn't approve of this, he would spare no time in slicing me in two. I wasn't quite ready to die at his hands.
Could it be that the best way would be to just come right out and say it?
Slowly stop him, gaze into his beautiful, large eyes, let free all the feelings that had been residing deep inside my heart.... Let those carefully chosen words confess my undying love and affection.
However, I saw little chance of Hiei even taking me seriously. He'd just laugh, sarcastically. If I went on, even if he finally believed it, the moment would be lost. No... I couldn't.
I should just reach out hug him.
Caring arms, warmly holding him, melting all the frozen emotions, relieving all the fears, the nightmares... Hands caressing his back, assuring him that this time it wasn't a lie, that I really cared about him. He was the one I wanted close to me... To show him exactly how near he was to my heart... Tenderly resting my chin on his shoulder... I needed him too much.
A hug...
Now was the time. With no one around to see, with my heart and mind as ready to go through with it as I've ever been...
Finally...
"Kurama?"
"Hm...?"
"We're here...."
...Maybe tomorrow...
--End--