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**Jess's POV**
I don't remember much from the sex...apart from the fact that it was amazing. Really...fucking...amazing. I kept going and going and it felt like I came like a dozen times. In reality, Rory told me, it had just been twenty minutes, but it felt like eternity. Eternity in heaven. And a thought settled in the back of my head:
I couldn't go back.
**Rory's POV**
When he got that smile on his face I could see the drug was working. His eyes became all sparkly and he spaced out for a minute. But I didn't have time to lose. I had taken my part of the drug and I wanted him. I wanted him now.
When I opened the door to the empty store he started looking around like everything was new to him. I realized I hadn't told him the drug only worked for half an hour. I wanted to take advantage of that.
I guess there are a lot of people who would think I'm a heartless bitch if they knew what I was doing. The truth is...he moved me. I don't know in what way, but whenever I was with him I felt different. More alive. More like the Rory I should have stayed back in New York. And I knew I couldn't get back, but I could get as close as possible. And it worked. Sleeping with him made me realize how much I wanted to get back. Not to New York but to the old me. The me that loved reading, that could talk hours about books. With him I could. Jess was special. He was like a diamond between worthless stones. Okay...so he wasn't perfect...but on some higher level we understood eachother. Understood eachothers need.
About the sex I can be short: it was amazing.
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**Rory's POV**
I felt weak. Whenever he was around me my strength crumbled. I had him right where I wanted him but I couldn't take it. I couldn't abuse him like this. I knew he looked at me sometime, a pleading look in his eyes. He wanted it again. Not just the drugs, but me too.
But I couldn't. The original plan had been easy. Screw him up, fuck him, dump him, make sure his girl found out...and then...the whole town would go crazy. I'd make sure they knew about the coke and they'd send me back to New York. Mission accomplished.
But now I wasn't so sure about that anymore. I did want to go back to New York, it was all I wanted, but I didn't want to drag Jess to the downfall. Since I had given him heaven he wanted more. I could hear his voice, whispering in my ear.
"Please...just one more time"
Wherever I looked, his eyes kept following me...kept looking at me with that desperate look.
"Please..."
And I wanted to say no. That scared me the most. The fact that I let myself care so much for him that I didn't want him to go down. The last time I cared for someone it was my ex-boyfriend who did those awful things to me. And I had the feeling Jess was even more important to me.
So I was going to stop this. I was going to tell him it couldn't happen. Not anymore. Not even if it meant being stuck in Stars Hollow.
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**Regular POV**
The phone rang. With a sigh Rory picked up. She had actually been doing her homework for once, and now she was interrupted.
"Rory Gilmore"
The person on the other line made her jump up and down on her bed.
"Jade!!! Oh my god it's so good to hear you!"
Jade was her only friend in New York. Together they had been perfect. Going to raves, getting drunk, a sniff of coke here and there. And lots of boys. They knew mothers warned their children about them, but as long as they were together they didn't care. She was the main reason Rory wanted to get back to New York.
"How did you get this number?"
Jade laughed.
"I just looked in the phonebook you stupid...I'm sorry I didn't call before but my parents were alarmed cause you got sent away. So they kept watching me for like a month."
Rory groaned.
"You had to go without coke for a month? Without drinks and boys and parties?"
"You're saying it like you did have all those things..."
She grinned.
"Well maybe I did..."
"Rory Gilmore...you're the worst..."
Rory looked at her reflection in the mirror.
"I'll take that as a compliment..."
Jade laughed for a second, then became serious again.
"Come back soon Ror...I miss you..."
Rory smiled.
"I'll be back before you know it Jade..."
She hung up and walked over to the mirror. There it was again. That look in her eyes. That look that sometimes even scared herself. She knew that short talk had changed her mind. She couldn't stay here...she wasn't like these people. For as long as she would be here people would still look at her with disgust. They wouldn't trust her. She didn't belong here.
She belonged in New York. With her kind of people. With people that admired her, people that were like her and didn't treat her like she was terminally ill.
So she would continue with her plan. She tried to reason with herself. It wasn't her fault. Not totally anyway. Jess wanted it. Jess wanted the coke and Jess wanted her. She didn't force him. So it wouldn't be her fault if he screwed up. It would be the fault of this perfect town, who forced him to be perfect.
She took a bit of coke out of her drawer and carefully put it in her backpack. Chilton wasn't so bad when she was stoned. But she had to be careful. There wasn't much left. And if she wanted her mission to succeed, she needed that coke.
And with another sad smile she said goodbye to the girl in the mirror that tried to stop her.
A/N: Read and review!!!
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**Jess's POV**
I don't remember much from the sex...apart from the fact that it was amazing. Really...fucking...amazing. I kept going and going and it felt like I came like a dozen times. In reality, Rory told me, it had just been twenty minutes, but it felt like eternity. Eternity in heaven. And a thought settled in the back of my head:
I couldn't go back.
**Rory's POV**
When he got that smile on his face I could see the drug was working. His eyes became all sparkly and he spaced out for a minute. But I didn't have time to lose. I had taken my part of the drug and I wanted him. I wanted him now.
When I opened the door to the empty store he started looking around like everything was new to him. I realized I hadn't told him the drug only worked for half an hour. I wanted to take advantage of that.
I guess there are a lot of people who would think I'm a heartless bitch if they knew what I was doing. The truth is...he moved me. I don't know in what way, but whenever I was with him I felt different. More alive. More like the Rory I should have stayed back in New York. And I knew I couldn't get back, but I could get as close as possible. And it worked. Sleeping with him made me realize how much I wanted to get back. Not to New York but to the old me. The me that loved reading, that could talk hours about books. With him I could. Jess was special. He was like a diamond between worthless stones. Okay...so he wasn't perfect...but on some higher level we understood eachother. Understood eachothers need.
About the sex I can be short: it was amazing.
~~
**Rory's POV**
I felt weak. Whenever he was around me my strength crumbled. I had him right where I wanted him but I couldn't take it. I couldn't abuse him like this. I knew he looked at me sometime, a pleading look in his eyes. He wanted it again. Not just the drugs, but me too.
But I couldn't. The original plan had been easy. Screw him up, fuck him, dump him, make sure his girl found out...and then...the whole town would go crazy. I'd make sure they knew about the coke and they'd send me back to New York. Mission accomplished.
But now I wasn't so sure about that anymore. I did want to go back to New York, it was all I wanted, but I didn't want to drag Jess to the downfall. Since I had given him heaven he wanted more. I could hear his voice, whispering in my ear.
"Please...just one more time"
Wherever I looked, his eyes kept following me...kept looking at me with that desperate look.
"Please..."
And I wanted to say no. That scared me the most. The fact that I let myself care so much for him that I didn't want him to go down. The last time I cared for someone it was my ex-boyfriend who did those awful things to me. And I had the feeling Jess was even more important to me.
So I was going to stop this. I was going to tell him it couldn't happen. Not anymore. Not even if it meant being stuck in Stars Hollow.
~~
**Regular POV**
The phone rang. With a sigh Rory picked up. She had actually been doing her homework for once, and now she was interrupted.
"Rory Gilmore"
The person on the other line made her jump up and down on her bed.
"Jade!!! Oh my god it's so good to hear you!"
Jade was her only friend in New York. Together they had been perfect. Going to raves, getting drunk, a sniff of coke here and there. And lots of boys. They knew mothers warned their children about them, but as long as they were together they didn't care. She was the main reason Rory wanted to get back to New York.
"How did you get this number?"
Jade laughed.
"I just looked in the phonebook you stupid...I'm sorry I didn't call before but my parents were alarmed cause you got sent away. So they kept watching me for like a month."
Rory groaned.
"You had to go without coke for a month? Without drinks and boys and parties?"
"You're saying it like you did have all those things..."
She grinned.
"Well maybe I did..."
"Rory Gilmore...you're the worst..."
Rory looked at her reflection in the mirror.
"I'll take that as a compliment..."
Jade laughed for a second, then became serious again.
"Come back soon Ror...I miss you..."
Rory smiled.
"I'll be back before you know it Jade..."
She hung up and walked over to the mirror. There it was again. That look in her eyes. That look that sometimes even scared herself. She knew that short talk had changed her mind. She couldn't stay here...she wasn't like these people. For as long as she would be here people would still look at her with disgust. They wouldn't trust her. She didn't belong here.
She belonged in New York. With her kind of people. With people that admired her, people that were like her and didn't treat her like she was terminally ill.
So she would continue with her plan. She tried to reason with herself. It wasn't her fault. Not totally anyway. Jess wanted it. Jess wanted the coke and Jess wanted her. She didn't force him. So it wouldn't be her fault if he screwed up. It would be the fault of this perfect town, who forced him to be perfect.
She took a bit of coke out of her drawer and carefully put it in her backpack. Chilton wasn't so bad when she was stoned. But she had to be careful. There wasn't much left. And if she wanted her mission to succeed, she needed that coke.
And with another sad smile she said goodbye to the girl in the mirror that tried to stop her.