Notes: ~......~ = mental conversations
//.....// = thoughts
The Beginning Of A New Pain
Seiji knew Touma was wondering what they had to talk about, and just smirked. "C'mon. Let's walk around for a bit." Seiji said. He wanted to put off their 'talk' for as long as possible. He knew that the day's events would cause Touma to breakdown once again. And Seiji wasn't sure if he could handle it without doing something rash.
They walked until they were about a mile away from the house. He knew that they would not be disturbed. He made sure that Shuu understood that no one was to disturb them at all.
Reaching a shallow lake, Seiji sat down leaning against a tree. He looked up at Touma. He wasn't sure how to bring anything up. He didn't want to see Touma so distraught, yet if he didn't make the archer talk about it, he knew it would drive his friend crazy.
Touma sat down next to Seiji, half leaning against the tree, half leaning against Seiji. He was emotionally tired and Seiji could see it. He decided he'd let Touma start the conversation when he was ready.
Seiji watched Touma from the corner of his eyes. His friend looked so lost. So opposite of how he usually was, up until a month ago. Before one month ago, nothing would bother his friend. Not even the problems that they had from a year ago. Sure, as soon as it happened Seiji had tried to avoid Touma. But he soon realized how childish his actions were.
At first he had just gone back so he could keep Touma as his friend. After all, that's what mattered the most to him. But now it was as clear as day that he had been in denial for so many months, maybe even years. And it had taken one simple action one month ago to realize that....
Before he could continue that train of thought, he felt a pair of eyes on him. Seiji turned his head to see Touma watching him with watery eyes. A sad, pained look filled soft lavender eyes. He was the only one that knew how much this relationship meant to Touma. He had seemed so happy.
"Touma..." Seiji had started. His voice was sad, and showed his sympathy for his friend. But it also held a tone that offered comfort. Something Touma seriously needed at that moment.
Within moments, the tears started falling. There were no words. Nothing could describe the pain his friend was feeling. Wracked with sobs, Touma had his head buried in Seiji's chest muttering something about how Brianne was the only girl he had ever loved in his whole life.
All Seiji could do was hold Touma in a gentle embrace, hoping to calm him down. On the inside, however, he could feel his heart tearing. To hear those words from the only one he fully cares about, hurt. But then again, it was his fault wasn't it. If only he didn't push Touma away a year ago. If he had realized it sooner...
//But now it's too late. And it's all my fault Touma had to go through all this...// was the only thing Seiji could think of as he closed his eyes in pained guilt. He held Touma closer, wanting nothing more than to just kiss those tears away. //It was my fault Touma. I'm so sorry.//
~~~TBC~~~
The Beginning Of A New Pain
Seiji knew Touma was wondering what they had to talk about, and just smirked. "C'mon. Let's walk around for a bit." Seiji said. He wanted to put off their 'talk' for as long as possible. He knew that the day's events would cause Touma to breakdown once again. And Seiji wasn't sure if he could handle it without doing something rash.
They walked until they were about a mile away from the house. He knew that they would not be disturbed. He made sure that Shuu understood that no one was to disturb them at all.
Reaching a shallow lake, Seiji sat down leaning against a tree. He looked up at Touma. He wasn't sure how to bring anything up. He didn't want to see Touma so distraught, yet if he didn't make the archer talk about it, he knew it would drive his friend crazy.
Touma sat down next to Seiji, half leaning against the tree, half leaning against Seiji. He was emotionally tired and Seiji could see it. He decided he'd let Touma start the conversation when he was ready.
Seiji watched Touma from the corner of his eyes. His friend looked so lost. So opposite of how he usually was, up until a month ago. Before one month ago, nothing would bother his friend. Not even the problems that they had from a year ago. Sure, as soon as it happened Seiji had tried to avoid Touma. But he soon realized how childish his actions were.
At first he had just gone back so he could keep Touma as his friend. After all, that's what mattered the most to him. But now it was as clear as day that he had been in denial for so many months, maybe even years. And it had taken one simple action one month ago to realize that....
Before he could continue that train of thought, he felt a pair of eyes on him. Seiji turned his head to see Touma watching him with watery eyes. A sad, pained look filled soft lavender eyes. He was the only one that knew how much this relationship meant to Touma. He had seemed so happy.
"Touma..." Seiji had started. His voice was sad, and showed his sympathy for his friend. But it also held a tone that offered comfort. Something Touma seriously needed at that moment.
Within moments, the tears started falling. There were no words. Nothing could describe the pain his friend was feeling. Wracked with sobs, Touma had his head buried in Seiji's chest muttering something about how Brianne was the only girl he had ever loved in his whole life.
All Seiji could do was hold Touma in a gentle embrace, hoping to calm him down. On the inside, however, he could feel his heart tearing. To hear those words from the only one he fully cares about, hurt. But then again, it was his fault wasn't it. If only he didn't push Touma away a year ago. If he had realized it sooner...
//But now it's too late. And it's all my fault Touma had to go through all this...// was the only thing Seiji could think of as he closed his eyes in pained guilt. He held Touma closer, wanting nothing more than to just kiss those tears away. //It was my fault Touma. I'm so sorry.//
~~~TBC~~~