well, here's chapter six. I'm so sorry I took so long. I've been very busy with r/l and not to mention I've got restricted time on the comp now. so anyway, to make this a news update as well, I have most of chapter 7 written, and I'm sorry to say, that that will be the end. there may be possibilities for an epilogue later on, but my mind is pretty much tired with this story. it was extremely fun to write. though it didn't start out that way in the beginning. it was pretty much to vent the bad happennings of my life.
anyway, I'd like to thank Misako and Acuamaine for having been reading from the beginning. and Misako again for being a great source of inspiration for not only this fic, but for all my other fics and originals. Mis, I know I don't talk to you anymore, but one day I'd like to. just like how it was before. this chapter is dedicated to the two of you.
The First Steps Towards Healing
When I awoke, it was night-time, as the sun was already setting. I was still a bit tired, but hunger and a much needed talk pulled me out of my bed. Looking around a bit, I noticed that the room was empty, meaning that Seiji was either downstairs or he was out. There were many questions I had in the back of my mind that I had wanted to ask him when I first awoke, earlier in the afternoon. Unfortunately, my hunger has once again won the battle, and I went to the bathroom to rinse my face and mouth before heading downstairs to find something to eat.
Downstairs in the den, Shuu sat in front of the TV absorbed in the game he was playing. I easily went by him unnoticed and headed for the kitchen. Shin was in there making a simple dinner of somen. No sign of Seiji though, so he must've went out somewhere.
"Touma, are you all right? You've been asleep all day. You're not sick are you?" Shin asked, voice full of concern as he stopped what he was doing for a bit to look up at me.
"I'm fine Shin." I say as I give him a brief smile, before making myself a cup of tea to hopefully wake me up. "I was up till sometime this morning reading. I sorta lost track of time. Where'd Ryo, Nasuti, and Seiji go?"
"Ryo and Nasuti have been out all day. Seiji came down a few hours ago to eat something, then I think he went out to the forest. Do you think you could go get him for dinner soon?" he asked me as he checked the softness of the noodles.
I thought on that question for a bit before answering Shin. "You and Shuu go ahead and enjoy the somen. I'll just make some sandwiches and go find Seiji." Shin gave me a curious and questioning look. I continued. "If he's out in the forest, it's probably to think and he wouldn't want to be bothered. 'Sides, it's a long walk to where he'd be anyway. This way, you guys don't have to wait so long for the both of us to come back and I need to talk to him anyway." K'so... wasn't supposed to mention that. Hurry up and say something so he doesn't start worrying again baka! "uhh... he said he'd help me think of new ideas and designs for my astrology page on the net."
He looked at me for a bit longer before turning back to the cooking noodles. "Okay, go ahead." he said as he waved one dismissively at me while the other was taking the noodles out and putting it into a bowl full of ice. "Just don't stay out too late. It's supposed to be colder tonight. I don't need the both of you to go and catch a cold."
I let out the breath of air that I had been holding. "Sure thing Shin." I say as I go to make a few sandwhiches. That done, I went in search for that picnic towel that I know we keep somewhere in the kitchen. Finding that, I took the sandwhiches and went out the kitchen door and headed into the woods to find Seiji.
The walk to Seiji's small spot in the forest seemed longer than usual. It was a small, unusual clearing in the middle of the woods, away from the imprinted path, just passed the lake. It wasn't very far from where he took us too last night.
A soft sigh escapes past my lips. This whole situation was so mizerably painful and frustrating. I didn't want it to end so badly. In fact, I didn't want it to end at all. I think I really loved her. But it happened anyway. And though I think I can get past that eventually, Seiji is a completely different problem. He's so confusing. He does things that give me hope that a relationship may be possible. But he pushed me away the last time. Maybe I'm just reading too much into all of this.
I finally reach the lake with only moonlight to help me see. It was so peaceful out here. The breeze was so soft that the leaves on the trees barely moved. The water in the lake was still. It was a very comforting silence. So opposite of everything that happened yesterday.
Trying hard not to think about it, I quicken my pace just a bit and head off of the main trail to where I knew Seiji would be. It wasn't very long, and within minutes I could see the clearing up ahead. The moonlight shined into the clearing, showing Seiji sitting far into the middle, his back towards me. I'm not sure if he noticed me, though it looks like he's still meditating, so probably not. So I stay near the edge of the clearing and sit down, leaning against a tree with the blanket and food next to me.
I took the time to silently watch Seiji, and became lost within my own thoughts. Everything the two of us had been through during our time as the Troopers. All those close calls and rare moments of peace. Everything we've been through as friends. Those moments of friendship that I cherise more than life itself. And, although I miss those times and how life was then, I still love the friendship that we still have in spite of my telling him of my feelings and his rejection. Sometimes, it feels like we're closer somehow, than we were before.
And before my thoughts could venture off to the more recently painful memories, I was distracted by a new presence next to me. I turned my head and was greeted with a rare genuine smile from the blonde that now sat next to me. Returning the smile, I took the blanket and food from his hands and moved to lay everything out. Moving back to my spot against the tree, I hand a couple sandwiches to Seiji before tilting my head back to stare up at the stars.
I took a few moments to just stargaze. It was a very relaxing thing to do. I knew Seiji was watching me instead of eating, but I don't let that bother me at the moment. My mind was in a state of total relaxation, and with my being high strung on emotions the past 24 hours, it was a much welcomed relief.
anyway, I'd like to thank Misako and Acuamaine for having been reading from the beginning. and Misako again for being a great source of inspiration for not only this fic, but for all my other fics and originals. Mis, I know I don't talk to you anymore, but one day I'd like to. just like how it was before. this chapter is dedicated to the two of you.
The First Steps Towards Healing
When I awoke, it was night-time, as the sun was already setting. I was still a bit tired, but hunger and a much needed talk pulled me out of my bed. Looking around a bit, I noticed that the room was empty, meaning that Seiji was either downstairs or he was out. There were many questions I had in the back of my mind that I had wanted to ask him when I first awoke, earlier in the afternoon. Unfortunately, my hunger has once again won the battle, and I went to the bathroom to rinse my face and mouth before heading downstairs to find something to eat.
Downstairs in the den, Shuu sat in front of the TV absorbed in the game he was playing. I easily went by him unnoticed and headed for the kitchen. Shin was in there making a simple dinner of somen. No sign of Seiji though, so he must've went out somewhere.
"Touma, are you all right? You've been asleep all day. You're not sick are you?" Shin asked, voice full of concern as he stopped what he was doing for a bit to look up at me.
"I'm fine Shin." I say as I give him a brief smile, before making myself a cup of tea to hopefully wake me up. "I was up till sometime this morning reading. I sorta lost track of time. Where'd Ryo, Nasuti, and Seiji go?"
"Ryo and Nasuti have been out all day. Seiji came down a few hours ago to eat something, then I think he went out to the forest. Do you think you could go get him for dinner soon?" he asked me as he checked the softness of the noodles.
I thought on that question for a bit before answering Shin. "You and Shuu go ahead and enjoy the somen. I'll just make some sandwiches and go find Seiji." Shin gave me a curious and questioning look. I continued. "If he's out in the forest, it's probably to think and he wouldn't want to be bothered. 'Sides, it's a long walk to where he'd be anyway. This way, you guys don't have to wait so long for the both of us to come back and I need to talk to him anyway." K'so... wasn't supposed to mention that. Hurry up and say something so he doesn't start worrying again baka! "uhh... he said he'd help me think of new ideas and designs for my astrology page on the net."
He looked at me for a bit longer before turning back to the cooking noodles. "Okay, go ahead." he said as he waved one dismissively at me while the other was taking the noodles out and putting it into a bowl full of ice. "Just don't stay out too late. It's supposed to be colder tonight. I don't need the both of you to go and catch a cold."
I let out the breath of air that I had been holding. "Sure thing Shin." I say as I go to make a few sandwhiches. That done, I went in search for that picnic towel that I know we keep somewhere in the kitchen. Finding that, I took the sandwhiches and went out the kitchen door and headed into the woods to find Seiji.
The walk to Seiji's small spot in the forest seemed longer than usual. It was a small, unusual clearing in the middle of the woods, away from the imprinted path, just passed the lake. It wasn't very far from where he took us too last night.
A soft sigh escapes past my lips. This whole situation was so mizerably painful and frustrating. I didn't want it to end so badly. In fact, I didn't want it to end at all. I think I really loved her. But it happened anyway. And though I think I can get past that eventually, Seiji is a completely different problem. He's so confusing. He does things that give me hope that a relationship may be possible. But he pushed me away the last time. Maybe I'm just reading too much into all of this.
I finally reach the lake with only moonlight to help me see. It was so peaceful out here. The breeze was so soft that the leaves on the trees barely moved. The water in the lake was still. It was a very comforting silence. So opposite of everything that happened yesterday.
Trying hard not to think about it, I quicken my pace just a bit and head off of the main trail to where I knew Seiji would be. It wasn't very long, and within minutes I could see the clearing up ahead. The moonlight shined into the clearing, showing Seiji sitting far into the middle, his back towards me. I'm not sure if he noticed me, though it looks like he's still meditating, so probably not. So I stay near the edge of the clearing and sit down, leaning against a tree with the blanket and food next to me.
I took the time to silently watch Seiji, and became lost within my own thoughts. Everything the two of us had been through during our time as the Troopers. All those close calls and rare moments of peace. Everything we've been through as friends. Those moments of friendship that I cherise more than life itself. And, although I miss those times and how life was then, I still love the friendship that we still have in spite of my telling him of my feelings and his rejection. Sometimes, it feels like we're closer somehow, than we were before.
And before my thoughts could venture off to the more recently painful memories, I was distracted by a new presence next to me. I turned my head and was greeted with a rare genuine smile from the blonde that now sat next to me. Returning the smile, I took the blanket and food from his hands and moved to lay everything out. Moving back to my spot against the tree, I hand a couple sandwiches to Seiji before tilting my head back to stare up at the stars.
I took a few moments to just stargaze. It was a very relaxing thing to do. I knew Seiji was watching me instead of eating, but I don't let that bother me at the moment. My mind was in a state of total relaxation, and with my being high strung on emotions the past 24 hours, it was a much welcomed relief.