The plane is going to land soon. Soon, I will be with him. With Spike. With my love. My whole reason for living. Then why am I so scared? He's not dead any more. I should be happy. He told me we'd be together forever. At first I didn't believe him. Especially after he died. I just kept wondering why Spike lied to me. But now, now I know he was serious. I didn't think it would be possible to be with someone forever. But it is Spike we're talking about here.
Wonderful Spike who could love with out a soul. But he was a fool and thought he was in love with Buffy. With out a soul, he couldn't tell the difference between love and lust. Then after he tried to rape Buffy, he left to get a soul for her. But after he came back to Sunnydale, he realized that he never loved Buffy. He had loved me the whole time; he just didn't know it.
Not long after he got his soul, I found myself out at dinner with Spike. I had no idea how it happened it just did. I remember him telling me about the night he became a vampire. I think that was when I began to fall in love with him. I still loved Tara, but I knew she would approve of Spike.
After that night, we were never apart from each other for more than a day. A month later, we made love and I was addicted to him. He had some how become my replacement for magic. Instead of craving magic, I craved Spike. Then he made me his. We were mated. Spike told me that it was like a marriage. We belonged to each other for eternity. He also said that sometimes vampires choose the humans they want to spend eternity with by mating with them. When I asked him if that's what he did to me, he just smiled and gently kissed the bite mark.
Now I'm going to see him again. It's been two weeks and I've been craving him like crazy. It's going to be so hard to not touch him, but I'm going to have to try. I love him so much, and if the only way I can see him is in his ghostlike state, then I'm going to see him. He's not going to be a ghost for very long. Even if I have to use black magic, he will not be a ghost for much longer.
Wonderful Spike who could love with out a soul. But he was a fool and thought he was in love with Buffy. With out a soul, he couldn't tell the difference between love and lust. Then after he tried to rape Buffy, he left to get a soul for her. But after he came back to Sunnydale, he realized that he never loved Buffy. He had loved me the whole time; he just didn't know it.
Not long after he got his soul, I found myself out at dinner with Spike. I had no idea how it happened it just did. I remember him telling me about the night he became a vampire. I think that was when I began to fall in love with him. I still loved Tara, but I knew she would approve of Spike.
After that night, we were never apart from each other for more than a day. A month later, we made love and I was addicted to him. He had some how become my replacement for magic. Instead of craving magic, I craved Spike. Then he made me his. We were mated. Spike told me that it was like a marriage. We belonged to each other for eternity. He also said that sometimes vampires choose the humans they want to spend eternity with by mating with them. When I asked him if that's what he did to me, he just smiled and gently kissed the bite mark.
Now I'm going to see him again. It's been two weeks and I've been craving him like crazy. It's going to be so hard to not touch him, but I'm going to have to try. I love him so much, and if the only way I can see him is in his ghostlike state, then I'm going to see him. He's not going to be a ghost for very long. Even if I have to use black magic, he will not be a ghost for much longer.