3
INT. SYDNEY'S APARTMENT – LATER THAT EVENING
When Sydney arrived home, she quickly changed out of her clothes and drew herself a bubble bath. She poured herself a glass of Shiraz, lit some candles in the bathroom and soaked in the tub for an hour. When she started to feel the water get cold and her skin start to wrinkle, she sighed and decided that she eventually had to get out of her haven. As soon as Sydney washed up and stepped out of her bath, she felt as she did when she left Vaughn's embrace earlier that evening...alone.
SYDNEY
You can't keep doing this to yourself Syd. You have to snap out of it.
Great, now she's resulted to talking to herself, she thought. She changed into a pair of brown silk jammies that were shorts with a matching button down top. She had bought it a week after she came back from the dead...a little gift to herself because she liked how they made her skin feel. She went out to the living room, grabbing her glass of wine and a book off of her nightstand as she headed out. As soon as she plopped herself on the couch, she took a sip of wine and decided that the apartment was too quiet for her. She got up and rummaged through the CDs that Weiss had given her. She found a burnt CD that said SLOW JAMS
SYDNEY
Wonderful. Just what I needed. What the hell...misery loves company.
Sydney puts the CD into her CD player and situates herself on the couch once more. As she was about to open her book, Kate Bush's voice fills her apartment. Sydney is still...just listening to the words.
Pray God you can cope.
I stand outside this woman's work,
This woman's world.
Ooh, it's hard on the man,
Now his part is over.
Now starts the craft of the father.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
If only that were true, she thought.
I should be crying, but I just can't let it show.
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking
Of all the things I should've said,
That I never said.
All the things we should've done,
That we never did.
All the things I should've given,
But I didn't.
Santa Barbara, double dates with Will & Francie, meeting his Mom...saying I love you. Her mind is suddenly filled with things that were taken away from her and Vaughn...things that never were...because she was gone. Because she was dead.
Oh, darling, make it go,
Make it go away.
Give me these moments back.
Give them back to me.
Give me that little kiss.
Give me your hand.
God, how I wish he could make it go away, she thought. Sydney is sobbing now and she doesn't know when the tears started falling. She takes the last sip of her wine and decides she needs something stronger. She goes towards her bar and grabs herself a bottle of vodka that she and Weiss stashes just for such a night. She pours herself a shot and raises the glass
SYDNEY
This is for what could have been, but never was. This is to you Vaughn.
With that, she downed her drink and she nearly drops her shot glass when her doorbell rings.
SYDNEY
Who the hell can that be?
She looks at her clock and it's 1:00 o'clock in the morning. She figures that it's probably Weiss coming to check on her. Only Weiss would come over at such an ungodly hour without calling first. The song continues to waft through her apartment as she started towards the door.
SYDNEY
I'm coming Weiss! You've got great timing. I could use a [beat]...
She opens the door and finds an unlikely person standing on the other side
SYDNEY
...drinking partner. [beat] Vaughn, jesus, what are you doing here? It's 1 o'clock in the morning. Is everything ok? Did they have problems securing Sark? Did the
Vaughn interrupts Sydney before she could go on with her inquisition
VAUGHN
Syd, everything is fine. In a manner of speaking. And HI to you too.
He looks at her bloodshot eyes and notices that she's been crying. Still, even in her distressed state, she is the most beautiful woman he's ever laid eyes on. His heart breaks seeing her like this.
VAUGHN
Are you ok?
Sydney looks at him puzzled and realizes what she must look like...puffy faced from crying with hair haphazardly swept up in a ponytail. She wipes her face and tucks some loose hair behind her ear in that Sydney way that Vaughn always loved.
SYDNEY
I'm fine...I just...[beat]...I got a little carried away with the song that's playing right now. It was one of Weiss's CD. I didn't figure him for the sappy type. Who knew!
She looks down a little embarrassed and still confused as to why Vaughn is there.
SYDNEY
Vaughn...[beat]...what are you doing here?
Vaughn is now fixated on her floor mat as he fumbles around for an answer
VAUGHN
I...uh...[beat]...after the debrief with Dixon and your father, I was just sitting in the conference room for a while and didn't want to go home. Eventually, I was kicked out because they needed the room, so I left the rotunda, got into my car and just drove. And..[beat]...well...
He looks at her clearly confused face and he gives her a small smile.
VAUGHN
And then I ended up here.
Sydney offers him a small smile of her own and it took all of her courage to utter the next few words
SYDNEY
Would you like to come in?
Vaughn smiles, but his smile quickly fades into guilt as he reluctantly answers her invitation
VAUGHN
I would like that. Thanks
Sydney steps aside and allows him into her home. Once he's inside, she closes the door behind her and turns around to find Vaughn eyeing her place.
VAUGHN
So this is where you live
SYDNEY This is where I live
The moment is not lost on them. They both realize that this is the second time Vaughn is seeing Syd's place for the first time. Sydney is suddenly bombarded of memories of the first time...their small talk about her couch, how he kissed her as he admired her place. Sydney was hit with nostalgia and started to tear up. She had to leave.
SYDNEY
Would you excuse me for a moment Vaughn, I need to go get my contact lenses off. I've had them on for too long and they're bothering me. Have a seat and make yourself at home, I'll be right back
She's lying. And he knows it. In a way he's glad she left the room, because he wouldn't know how to excuse himself as he too was feeling choked up by the irony of the moment. They're both back to where they started. After the first kiss during the sd-6 take down, he was over at her home the following day. Now, what seems like a lifetime later, after their intimate hug that competes in passion with their first kiss, he finds himself once again in her home. But everything is different now. The world is turned inside out and fate has been cruel. Still, he feels exactly as he did that first time. In love with Sydney Bristow. Vaughn takes a deep breath and sits himself down on her couch.
VAUGHN
Get a grip of yourself Vaughn. You have to get through this.
As he sits and waits for Sydney to come out, he gets an earful of the song that's been playing on repeat in the background
All the things that you needed from me.
All the things that you wanted for me.
All the things that I should've given,
But I didn't.
Oh, darling, make it go away.
Just make it go away now.
VAUGHN
I'd do anything to make it go away Syd. You have to believe that.
Vaughn buries his face in his hands as Sydney comes out of the bathroom looking a little more refreshed
SYDNEY
Did you say something Vaughn?
Vaughn is jolted back to reality and stands up
VAUGHN
Yes. I mean no. [beat] I talk to myself sometimes
He looks down clearly embarrassed by the admission. She smiles a little inside, knowing full well she does the same thing.
VAUGHN
You caught me.
SYDNEY
I'm sorry to startle you. Have a seat. Can I get you anything to drink?
VAUGHN
A bottled water if you've got it.
Sydney starts towards the kitchen and opens the refrigerator, taking out a bottle of water. She walks over to Vaughn and hands it to him, their hands grazing ever so gently as he takes it from her. He gives her a smile that makes her heart melt and she sits on the chair by the couch.
VAUGHN
Thanks Syd.
SYDNEY
You're welcome.
There is an awkward silence as they both try to figure out what to say next.
VAUGHN & SYD simultaneously
So...