Disclaimer: I don't own any thing especially final fantasy 7 b/c If I did I wouldn't be here b/c I would be trying to spend all my money trying to buy everything that has Vincent on it! Lol

But I do own the character Kali!! PLEZE don't steal!

AN: ok after a very looooong much needed break for how long, woah almost 3 months! I am back to writing if you need to balme some one for the lateness of the chapter blame my lazyness and my reasearch paper for my english class. It took all my brainpower to write all that.also blame my internet for not letting me on but oh well everythings okiedokie.so on to the story:

She would of only had to turn around to see his massive blond spikes every morning, but now that he wasn't there when she woke up she felt a wee bit less complete. Yes he hasn't been the best person for a while but hey, no one is all that perfect. Sad to say it though, but she missed him. His smile …. Every morning he always acted the same as he use to… for a while. But during that time everything was perfect. They loved each other. But now she felt as if everything was a lie, just another useless fucking lie. But he wasn't the only one to blame. She was too. She lied so much to him. 'Yes Cloud everything is fine' that sentence was her everyday lie.

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

She didn't want to loose him. She couldn't she felt that if she said anything to make him doubt her that he would leave her, and if he left her it would somehow ultimately hurt him. Emotionally, mentally, physically. She didn't know but he would find a way to make her regret doing any thing even if it wasn't her fault. So she was stuck… her too kind nature, her 'always having to make sure that everyone was happy' way. Stuck.

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

She remembered the cuts; not the ones he gave her but the ones she gave herself too keep the other pains away, the pains that he caused but still no matter. She traced the lines on her sides and thighs. Her finger moved with the curved scars, deep in some parts but in others even deeper.

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

It hurt to see herself like this but the pain came back. She started to rummage through all the drawers of Vincent's kitchen. Looking for her escape. Her only way out. It was the only thing she was able to control. She found it finally and as she picked it up her stomach tied it's self into a knot. She moved to the sink to keep anyone, especially Vincent, from knowing what she was about to do. She stood there looking at it. She though hey it's only a knife, I can control my pain with this, it's the only thing in life I have control of any ways too. But she suffered enough she knew she shouldn't do this.

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

But she couldn't take it "It's his fault, it's all his fault." So she slid the blade over her older scars. Slowly but surely blood ran down her side and she felt the relief flood over her.

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

The tears fell as she felt all her memories come to her like a sea's new storm. Her always hiding. Always trying to get away.The blows that kept coming to her. She was torn and she felt lost.

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away (We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away {linkin park---pushing me away}

She heard someone come into the house she hurried away to Vincent's room. Suddenly the thought of going into his room was awkward for her. She was still new to the fact that he had feelings for her. But as she stood there, in the kitchen, in wonderment she didn't take notice to the other figure right behind her. "Aeris…." she knew that son of a bitches voice anywhere. But she couldn't move like her feet were stuck to the floor.

"I can't believe you haven't found me sooner!" Aeris said with a scornful rage. She stared with him eye to eye not moving waiting for him to answer but nothing came. "Say some thing you asshole!" still not moving no answer came. She looked in his eyes again burrowing for an answer anything to make his being here other then not moving from his spot. But then it hit her his eyes , they were some-what softer, more alive. He seemed hurt. "Ok then why are you here?" stupid, stupid of-course I know why he's here she started to think. " I mean…..ummm-"

"sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I didn't mean to but it's … it's not my fault," He said out of the blue and inturupting Aeris mumbelings. She snapped back to her sences when she heard his voice, and cursed at her self for putting her guard down. "I would of told you what is going on but I can't not now like this… its hard to keep in control right now but I had to tell you that befor any thing else happens." Befor she could answer he hurried out the back door.

Told ya it was confusing but I am sorry for the short chapter! I'll try to update again soon.