Hey guys sorry that I took so long, I hope that you enjoy these two chapters. I have broken my wrist so typing is taking me a long time. But I have a few planned chapters already typed up so we should be ok. Please review- I would really like to reach 55 by the end of chap 17!!

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17) Everybody Has A Dark Side.

Harry woke up with a blinding headache. He couldn't really remember why though- only knew that he had had a dream but for the first time ever couldn't think what it was about. He rolled over to look at his watch and saw to his delight it was 7 am. He couldn't remember the last time he had slept for so long. He jumped out of bed and got dressed as quietly as he could not wanting to wake the others in the dorm. As he thought this he sighed. It was great having the twins with them but it reminded him everyday how Dean and Seamus hadn't returned to school this year. Shaking his head he left the dorm room and ran straight out of the portrait hole.

'And where are you going in such a hurry Mr. Potter?' His Prof. asked him. Harry gulped and tried to smile at the strictest teacher he knew. To his surprise McG smiled as well.

'I was just coming to get you. The headmaster wants to speak with you.' She turned and strode away and Harry deciding he would find out when he got there followed in silence.

I can't believe a month has passed since my fight with Malfoy. As he thought this he became tense I'm not going to think about it. What's done is done- I more than made up for Draco. It seems weird that nobody is being scared towards me- although I'm guessing mum and dad had something to do with that. The friends had returned to school that day but had shut themselves into the boys dorm for over a week. Harry smiled as he thought about it. It was Hermione's best ever idea. They had cried a lot, but they had laughed as well and when they had emerged a week later nobody could fail to notice the change in all of them. They were inseparable now, and kept themselves to themselves. Except for DA meetings which were going extremely well.

'Harry?' He snapped his head up and saw to his surprise that he was already in his headmasters office.

'Huh?' He asked blankly. His mum and dad were sat on the sofa along with Padfoot and Moony, and to his surprise Mr. and Mrs. Weasley were there as well.

'Might I ask what you were thinking about that made you ignore me for almost five minutes?' Albus asked his eyes twinkling. Harry blushed and looked at the floor.

'I was thinking about how we had shut ourselves away for a week. That's all.' he said quietly. He had given in lying to them because to his annoyance his dad always knew.

'Can I ask why?' It was a simple question but instantly it bought tears to his eyes. He used to be embarrassed when he cried in front of them all but now he knew that it was only human he didn't mind so much.

He wiped his eyes and looked his headmaster straight in the eye. 'You can ask- but I wont tell.' Albus nodded and motioned Harry to sit which he did deciding to sit next to Sirius who instantly put his arm round his shoulders. Harry snuggled down suddenly feeling very tired.

'The reason I wanted to talk to you Harry- well we wanted to talk to you was we're worried about you.' Harry tensed up instantly and shrugged the arm that was round his shoulders off. He stood up and went and sat over the opposite side of the room to them all.

'Why?' he asked quietly but they could all hear the fear in his voice.

'Because it seems that you have been missing lots of lessons- you haven't been back to potions, you hardly ever go to Transfiguration, you haven't been to one care of magical creatures or herbology. In fact I believe the only lesson you have been to is DADA and of course dueling. People from the DA have been to see me- they are worried about you. All of you. They say that you are fueled on by something that has never been there before and they want me to help you- which I can only do if you tell me what need to help you with. Your friends as well. You've all changed.' His dad sighed when he had finished. It had hurt them so much to see there son like this.

'Harry?' his mum asked quietly, he looked up at her with his deep green eyes not trusting and filled with pain. 'Have you seen Lightning lately?' Harry choked back a sob as she said his name. And swiped at the tears that flowed freely now. He shook his head not trusting his voice.

'Do you know why?' Harry didn't really understand this question so he looked at his headmaster questioningly. 'I mean Harry are you curious as to why?' Harry nodded again not trusting his voice to speak.

'Well you know you are the heir of Gryffindor? And of course master of the phoenix? Well the phoenix that belongs to the master is destined to serve him and no other. But at the same time- if anything happens to the master and he dies- the phoenix dies as well. We're not sure but we think that could have something to do with the way your almost dying from the inside out.' Remus almost choked as he said these words and saw the hurt on his godsons face.

'Harry- please- we have always thought of you as family- always will, please let us help.' Mrs. Weasley begged. He dropped his gaze. He would have to show them the nightmares he had been having. He sighed and stood up.

'I cant tell you without the others.' He said quietly. They nodded and as soon as he said it 7 very tired looking people walked through the door being ushered in by McG. They came and sat with Harry, not speaking. 'We have to tell them.' He said so quietly they could hardly hear, but the shocked faces told him that they had. He nodded and gulped. Ginny squeezed his hand.

'Your not going to like this.' He said, his voice shaking as he tried to control his brain's terrifying images he was about to show. He closed his eyes and forced his memories into all of there minds. The gasp told him they were indeed seeing the worst things imaginable to anybody.

Nobody spoke for at least ten minutes after the images had stopped flowing. Harry was sat there terrified. Only his friends seemed unfazed by it as Ginny made him lay down. She called Dobby and one look at his master he nodded and disappeared. He returned moments later with a steaming goblet which they both had to force Harry to take. And still nobody spoke.

'Aren't you going to say something?' Harry asked eventually when he could take no more.

'They were your memories?' Albus asked though he knew they were. He nodded.

'Why didn't you show them the worst ones Harry?' Neville asked him.

'Because like you they would have passed out.' He replied simply. He hung his head in shame and felt Ginny wrap her arms around him.

'Harry? I'd like to see them.' His mum said quietly. Nobody spoke and they all looked quickly at Harry. He seemed to be studying the floor and trying to avoid the inevitable.

'Anybody who doesn't want too should leave now.' Instantly his 7 friends stood up, he smiled at them- he didn't think they could have coped seeing it twice. When they had gone and closed the door firmly behind them Harry placed a silencing charm on the room. 'You must swear this will never be repeated- to anybody.' He said. Watching as one by one they nodded.

'Harry- does this affect you at all?' Albus asked him and Harry nodded, but before they could say anything else he had closed his eyes and the horror show began.

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They sat in complete silence watching as the Harry of today screamed in complete agony, it was cold and blood curdling. But they couldn't move, couldn't do anything- just sat and watched as he went back through the pain he had felt. Dobby appeared and as soon as he saw him ran to get his friends. The reappeared and sat down next to him, talking soothingly, telling him it was OK, that he was safe. Nobody noticed the new person at the door.

'HARRY.' Tom screamed as he ran to him. Everybody was too shocked to see Voldemort come running into the room to do anything about it. The friends dived out of the way as he sat cautiously next to the thrashing Harry. Placing his hands above Harry's heart he began a spell. Nobody knew what it was- but they all seemed to know he was here to help. It lasted only minutes and suddenly Harry was bathed in a golden light.

'Why didn't somebody tell me he was battling with his dark side?' He asked quietly.

'We didn't know.' Ginny asked as the tears pored down her cheeks. 'We thought he had beaten it. We thought that was over.'

Tom smiled at her, and Ginny was shocked to feel herself smiling back. She felt completely safe with him sat there and ventured forward until she was sat next to them both. She remembered how he had almost killed her in her second year but this was different. He wanted to help her boyfriend not kill him.

'He loves you, you know? I can feel his love. I've never felt such a strong feeling. But you should know- he will always have a dark side now- he will be forever battling it, until one of us dies. And then the connection will be broken. I came as soon as I could- Lightning is very worried about him and he came to find me. He'll come back in, in a minute and when he does- your all in big trouble just so you know. He thinks the world of Harry and isn't too pleased with you all. I've got to go now- the spell should be working. It will help him to understand what is going on. Hopefully he will heal, although I'm not sure he'll ever be the same again.' He stood to go and even as he did they could see the real Voldemort appearing.

Ginny stood up as well. 'Thank you.' And she meant it from the bottom of her heart. He smiled at her and strode from the room.

'Where's Tom gone?' Harry asked as he slowly woke up. Instantly everybody snapped out of it and started smiling falsely at him.

'You lot are terrible- honestly- he just saved Harry's life and you cant even begin to thank him. You should be ashamed.' She sounded so much like Mrs. Weasley that Harry couldn't help it. He burst out laughing and suddenly everybody relaxed. It had been a long time since they had heard him laugh properly.

Harry had to smile to himself. He was sat in his dad's DADA lesson, and he had to admit that he was enjoying himself. Dumbledore had finally given in and allowed Ginny and Luna to become 6th years- something that had never been allowed before. But they had argued for hours on the fact that if they were to fight together they had to learn together. There were only the eight of them. This was one of their special lessons. It was taught by all three of the DADA teachers and Harry always found himself looking forward to it.

'Harry?' His dad asked suddenly looking concerned.

'Huh?' He had no idea what he had just been asked. He could feel himself going red because he hadn't been listening.

'It's OK. I was just saying that that is all for today. I want you to practice the spell for tomorrow and write me a two scroll essay on when and under what circumstances it should be used.' His dad said smiling. Harry just nodded and began stuffing things into his bag. His friends were waiting patiently for him.

'Harry? Could we have a word for a minute?' Remus asked, Harry looked up and nodded.

'I'll catch you up guys. Can you tell McGonagall that I'll be there in a minute?' He said to them.

'Yeah course. See you in a bit mate.' Ron replied turning and walking down the corridor. He smiled at the others and after a short see you in a minute they followed him.

Sirius stood up and shut the door behind them. Harry could feel himself becoming tense. What do they want? Why cant they just leave me alone? He had thought this after every lesson when they had asked to speak to him. He turned to face them slowly and forced himself to smile.

'Harry. We want to talk to you about Christmas. Where do you want to spend it this year?' His dad asked and Harry felt his jaw drop- he hadn't been expecting this at all.

'Um- I'm not sure. I mean that I really want to spend it with you guys- that would be great. But I've never spent a Christmas away from all of my friends. It's just something we have never even thought about. I mean Christmas is the only time that we're all agreed we spend together.' He sighed. He hadn't even thought about what it would mean to him if he didn't spend it with his friends.

'That's what we thought. So we have a plan. What about if all of the Weasley's and the Grangers came and spent Christmas with us? I'm not sure if we could have it at Godrics hollow. But we could definitely go to #12. And we sent Winky there so it's changed dramatically. It actually resembles a house now!' Sirius said laughing his usual dog like bark.

'I mean it's up to you. We asked the adults and they all think it's a wonderful idea- or we can all stay here in our quarters. The adults would still come. But it would still be family. Why don't you go and ask them? I'm sure you can decide. Tell me at dinner.' His dad told him. Harry nodded already thinking about the pros and cons of each place. He walked out of the room oblivious to the looks of laughter they were giving him. He walked slowly to Transfiguration, he still hadn't really wanted to return to his lessons fully. But after seeing his memories nobody had even questioned them. They had pretty much given them the run of the lessons. And for that Harry was glad. They still never missed any DADA lessons but they hardly ever went to any of the others.

It didn't seem important now though- they were learning more in their special lessons than anybody else. They were ahead of everybody else and because of this they never did anything new in their normal lessons. Just helped other students.

'Oi! Come on- lets go and sit by the lake.' George whispered loudly. Harry who wasn't really paying attention to where he was or what he was doing almost screamed when they had grabbed his arm and dragged him into an empty classroom.

'Bloody hell! You almost gave me a heart attack. But it sounds like a good idea. Where is everybody else?' He asked only just noticing that it was only the twins.

'They've already gone ahead- they're too loud to be secretive. Especially Neville!' George replied matter of factly. Harry only smiled in response to this. But he did have to agree. They headed quietly out of the entrance hall and wandered down to the lake. He could see them all sat there, around the fire that Hermione had made.

'So what did they want this time?' Ron asked when Harry had sat on the blanket that had been placed on the floor because of the frost. Harry grinned. They had started taking bets as too whether they would keep him behind at the end of the lesson or not. Harry realized that Neville had won today because they had thought that because they had spoken to him yesterday they wouldn't have said anything.

'Oh the usual.' He said vaguely.

'Why can't they just leave us alone. I mean look what happened last time? Harry almost died.' Ginny said instantly. Her anger flaring up. Harry couldn't hold it much longer, he burst out laughing- but stopped when he saw the glare from his girlfriend.

'OK, OK. They wanted to know if we wanted to spend Christmas at #12 with everybody- including all the adults. Or here with all the adults. I said that I didn't know so they said we could discuss it and tell them at dinner.' Harry saw all of their faces brighten at the thought that they could spend Christmas with not only their friends but family as well.

'How about we go to #12- that way we can enjoy ourselves without anybody else around.' Hermione said after thinking about it for a few seconds.

'Yeah that's what I was thinking- but then they said that we could spend it in private quarters with everybody. So I mean what do you reckon?' He asked looking at them each in turn.

'Still number 12. That way- it can be just us guys.' Ron said- his eyes dancing with excitement. They all nodded. It was something they all felt they needed to do. Have time away from school.

'Well what do we have here then?' They all turned so quickly that Ron and Harry cricked there necks. Harry gulped as he saw Snape walking towards them.

'Um Professor sir.' Hermione began lamely.