Sorry that took a while! But here I am, updating! (No kidding...)
I don't own YYH.
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I had become completely disoriented. What was I doing...? I had become so worked up over such a simple thing. If we thought about it, Kurama and I would know that there was an easy way to fix everything. We didn't have to kill each other after all! And I was sure he'd be willing to fake a fight with me if it meant saving his own life. I mean, it was just common sense. We had our bonding. Now was the time to prepare for the fight so nothing would go wrong! But why did it still hurt? And why did this kiss make me feel so good?
--KISS!!!!
I quickly pulled my lips off of Kurama's and stood up.
What had I been thinking! Sure, we were close but we weren't like that. And even...and even if I wanted to be....Kurama said we were the closet we could be, why would I want to change that...?
"Hiei..." he sighed, looking up at me apologetically. I glared at him and weighed my options. I could have just left...but, if I was going to be Kurama's friend, I was going to be the best damn friend there ever was.
"It's all right," I said firmly, closing my eyes in order to regain focus. "What's done is done and we shouldn't dwell on it. So, now, we need to prepare."
"Pre...prepare?" he asked, still lying on the bed and looking up at me.
"Our fight, Kurama; it needs to look good." Kurama gave me a look so soft and understanding then. I didn't know why. He seemed as though he was looking right through me. He could see beyond my lies and past my cold attitude. I wasn't sure if I liked that or not. I didn't like the thought of not being able to hide anything from him....But maybe this was just another aspect to friendship that I had been simply unaware of. Empathy... Kurama could see through to what I was really feeling. How was that he was able to do such a thing when I could not...?
"Whatever you say, Hiei," he said, still sounding a bit uncertain. He then seemed to push it aside, looking up at me with an all too friendly expression, raising his eyebrow a little. "A little help, Hiei?"
I scoffed at him, but then, for some reason or another, I reached my hand out to him. I became flushed as soon as his hand touched mine...and...dizzy. In order to hide this, I quickly turned my head away and shot my embarrassed, but scowling, look to the ground.
...Soon, I had led Kurama into a secluded area, where we could plan out our fight unseen. Of course, that wasn't how it was going. At some point or another between the room and the spot, we had started a conversation, and were now sitting in the shade talking.
"You're insane," I laughed at him mockingly.
"Fine, then tell me, what's *your* idea of a perfect universe?"
"One in which there are none of the following: humans, weak demons, and 'the ones in charge'," I answered sarcastically. Kurama laughed for a brief moment, but then turned to me, giving a compassionate smile.
"You forgot something."
"What?"
"Stupid foxes."
"Stop showing off, stupid fox," I ordered, finding myself to be blushing again. I would have to stop things like blushing from happening, it wasn't dignified. And besides, it was making Kurama giddy.
"Now you don't really mean that do you?"
"Shut up...STUPID FOX!"
We both sat there for a while in silence....
"Y'know, if it were just you and me in this world Hiei...I wouldn't mind all that much," he said, putting his hands under his head as he gazed up at the sky.
"What?" I asked, feeling my heart start to pound.
"So many people just don't get it. But you understand."
"I...understand what?"
"Do I need to say it?" he asked, turning to give me a soft and longing smile. I shook my head.
I found myself having to breathe faster to keep up with my heart's beating ...And with each breath...I could have sworn Kurama got more beautiful.
"Kurama," I started hesitantly. He gave me an expectant look. But I was too tired to really say anything... I still hadn't gotten much sleep. "I don't mean it...I'm sorry," I mumbled, slowly crawling over to him and laying my head down on the grass next to him, slowly letting the sleep come.
I hadn't slept for way too long. I needed to recharge. And the events of the past day hadn't helped in the slightest. Normally I wouldn't have let down my guard and allowed myself to sleep in such a place, but Kurama was there, after all. He'd watch over me for the little while I'd be unconscious.
"You must really be tired," Kurama laughed, reaching over, taking my upper body into his arms. He held me so gently, but somehow I felt safe in his arms. Never had I known a time when I could so easily let my guard down....
I should have realized then that I was changing. Something within me was awakening... Something of beauty was finally showing its face to me.
Then it hit me.
WHAT WAS I DOING!?
I quickly opened my eyes and pulled myself out of Kurama's arms.
"Kurama, you care about me a lot, don't you?" I asked, keeping my back to him. As much as the idea scared me, as much as my heart refused to believe it, I wasn't an idiot...
"Of course," he answered quietly, putting his hands on my shoulders, then, slowly, moving his arms around me to embrace my body tightly.
"Then please, let's start practicing this fight..." I said, taking his hands off me as I stood up.
"I don't want to, Hiei," he said sadly, standing up after me.
"I don't either but we have to!" I said firmly, turning to give him a serious look in the eye.
"HIEI! You say you're my best friend--that you care! But how can I believe you if you're not even happy about it!?" he yelled, sounding uncharacteristically mad.
"What?"
"What do you want to prove by going through with this!? You didn't even tell Yusuke and Kuwabara that we were going to fake a fight! You said that you didn't know what the next match ups even were. Are you ashamed of being my friend!? Too ashamed to let Yusuke and Kuwabara even know!? Are you too ashamed to even let strangers know!? Yusuke's strong enough to win! We don't have to do this!"
"Kurama, if others knew then—"
"Then you would have the burden of having to be nice to me in public?"
"No!"
"Then why aren't you!?"
I didn't have a good answer...I had the truth, but it still wasn't good enough...
"Because that's who I am, Kurama." He then got a sad look on his face. But it soon turned into a cheerful smile. Had he finally lost it?
"It doesn't work, Hiei," he said, happily wrapping his arms around me. I had become relatively confused at this point....
"Now what's going on?" I asked sarcastically, giving him a look.
"I can't bring myself to fight you in any way," he whispered, warmly nuzzling my head with his own. "I understand why you believe we need to, but just think...how will it benefit us? Why do we need to make it that much harder for Yusuke? This way, we could eliminate two fighters with just one fight..."
"But in doing so we give more opponents to him."
"Hiei..." he started firmly, stepping back from me. "I refuse to fight you. And nothing you say will change my mind about it."
We shared a long and meaningful stare, then Kurama turned and walked away. I didn't protest.
But the fight was still on...and one of us had to win.
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O.O.....Silly Hiei! Anyway, I guess the fight will take place next chapter! YAY! LOL PR!
I don't own YYH.
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I had become completely disoriented. What was I doing...? I had become so worked up over such a simple thing. If we thought about it, Kurama and I would know that there was an easy way to fix everything. We didn't have to kill each other after all! And I was sure he'd be willing to fake a fight with me if it meant saving his own life. I mean, it was just common sense. We had our bonding. Now was the time to prepare for the fight so nothing would go wrong! But why did it still hurt? And why did this kiss make me feel so good?
--KISS!!!!
I quickly pulled my lips off of Kurama's and stood up.
What had I been thinking! Sure, we were close but we weren't like that. And even...and even if I wanted to be....Kurama said we were the closet we could be, why would I want to change that...?
"Hiei..." he sighed, looking up at me apologetically. I glared at him and weighed my options. I could have just left...but, if I was going to be Kurama's friend, I was going to be the best damn friend there ever was.
"It's all right," I said firmly, closing my eyes in order to regain focus. "What's done is done and we shouldn't dwell on it. So, now, we need to prepare."
"Pre...prepare?" he asked, still lying on the bed and looking up at me.
"Our fight, Kurama; it needs to look good." Kurama gave me a look so soft and understanding then. I didn't know why. He seemed as though he was looking right through me. He could see beyond my lies and past my cold attitude. I wasn't sure if I liked that or not. I didn't like the thought of not being able to hide anything from him....But maybe this was just another aspect to friendship that I had been simply unaware of. Empathy... Kurama could see through to what I was really feeling. How was that he was able to do such a thing when I could not...?
"Whatever you say, Hiei," he said, still sounding a bit uncertain. He then seemed to push it aside, looking up at me with an all too friendly expression, raising his eyebrow a little. "A little help, Hiei?"
I scoffed at him, but then, for some reason or another, I reached my hand out to him. I became flushed as soon as his hand touched mine...and...dizzy. In order to hide this, I quickly turned my head away and shot my embarrassed, but scowling, look to the ground.
...Soon, I had led Kurama into a secluded area, where we could plan out our fight unseen. Of course, that wasn't how it was going. At some point or another between the room and the spot, we had started a conversation, and were now sitting in the shade talking.
"You're insane," I laughed at him mockingly.
"Fine, then tell me, what's *your* idea of a perfect universe?"
"One in which there are none of the following: humans, weak demons, and 'the ones in charge'," I answered sarcastically. Kurama laughed for a brief moment, but then turned to me, giving a compassionate smile.
"You forgot something."
"What?"
"Stupid foxes."
"Stop showing off, stupid fox," I ordered, finding myself to be blushing again. I would have to stop things like blushing from happening, it wasn't dignified. And besides, it was making Kurama giddy.
"Now you don't really mean that do you?"
"Shut up...STUPID FOX!"
We both sat there for a while in silence....
"Y'know, if it were just you and me in this world Hiei...I wouldn't mind all that much," he said, putting his hands under his head as he gazed up at the sky.
"What?" I asked, feeling my heart start to pound.
"So many people just don't get it. But you understand."
"I...understand what?"
"Do I need to say it?" he asked, turning to give me a soft and longing smile. I shook my head.
I found myself having to breathe faster to keep up with my heart's beating ...And with each breath...I could have sworn Kurama got more beautiful.
"Kurama," I started hesitantly. He gave me an expectant look. But I was too tired to really say anything... I still hadn't gotten much sleep. "I don't mean it...I'm sorry," I mumbled, slowly crawling over to him and laying my head down on the grass next to him, slowly letting the sleep come.
I hadn't slept for way too long. I needed to recharge. And the events of the past day hadn't helped in the slightest. Normally I wouldn't have let down my guard and allowed myself to sleep in such a place, but Kurama was there, after all. He'd watch over me for the little while I'd be unconscious.
"You must really be tired," Kurama laughed, reaching over, taking my upper body into his arms. He held me so gently, but somehow I felt safe in his arms. Never had I known a time when I could so easily let my guard down....
I should have realized then that I was changing. Something within me was awakening... Something of beauty was finally showing its face to me.
Then it hit me.
WHAT WAS I DOING!?
I quickly opened my eyes and pulled myself out of Kurama's arms.
"Kurama, you care about me a lot, don't you?" I asked, keeping my back to him. As much as the idea scared me, as much as my heart refused to believe it, I wasn't an idiot...
"Of course," he answered quietly, putting his hands on my shoulders, then, slowly, moving his arms around me to embrace my body tightly.
"Then please, let's start practicing this fight..." I said, taking his hands off me as I stood up.
"I don't want to, Hiei," he said sadly, standing up after me.
"I don't either but we have to!" I said firmly, turning to give him a serious look in the eye.
"HIEI! You say you're my best friend--that you care! But how can I believe you if you're not even happy about it!?" he yelled, sounding uncharacteristically mad.
"What?"
"What do you want to prove by going through with this!? You didn't even tell Yusuke and Kuwabara that we were going to fake a fight! You said that you didn't know what the next match ups even were. Are you ashamed of being my friend!? Too ashamed to let Yusuke and Kuwabara even know!? Are you too ashamed to even let strangers know!? Yusuke's strong enough to win! We don't have to do this!"
"Kurama, if others knew then—"
"Then you would have the burden of having to be nice to me in public?"
"No!"
"Then why aren't you!?"
I didn't have a good answer...I had the truth, but it still wasn't good enough...
"Because that's who I am, Kurama." He then got a sad look on his face. But it soon turned into a cheerful smile. Had he finally lost it?
"It doesn't work, Hiei," he said, happily wrapping his arms around me. I had become relatively confused at this point....
"Now what's going on?" I asked sarcastically, giving him a look.
"I can't bring myself to fight you in any way," he whispered, warmly nuzzling my head with his own. "I understand why you believe we need to, but just think...how will it benefit us? Why do we need to make it that much harder for Yusuke? This way, we could eliminate two fighters with just one fight..."
"But in doing so we give more opponents to him."
"Hiei..." he started firmly, stepping back from me. "I refuse to fight you. And nothing you say will change my mind about it."
We shared a long and meaningful stare, then Kurama turned and walked away. I didn't protest.
But the fight was still on...and one of us had to win.
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O.O.....Silly Hiei! Anyway, I guess the fight will take place next chapter! YAY! LOL PR!