I had regained my strength and I searched for a sign of where to go from here. I thought about Sam, now I needed Cole. But Cole had his own demons to face.

Chapter 7

Phoebe carefully unlocked the door with a paperclip from the desk. She thought Cole would deal with that better than if she were to tear the door from the wall, considering he wasn't in a playful mood. She opened the door and stepped in the steamy bathroom.

"Come on in!" Cole snapped sarcastically.

"Cole, I need something from you" She said smiling at his perfect backside.

The water ran from his wide muscular shoulders down his body. Phoebe slipped her baby doll dress off and stepped in the shower. She ran her finger down the sculpted indention in the middle of his back. Cole put his hands on the wall and sighed heavily. He was powerless when Phoebe was near him. Her touch paralyzed him, and made him tremble.

"I don't remember inviting you into my shower?" He said trying to save some of his dignity.

"Cole, I need you to tell me how you feel about me" Phoebe said admiring his perfect form.

Cole whirled around and slammed her against the shower wall. He towered over her and the water from his lips dripped onto hers. Their eyes danced as Cole hung his mouth inches from hers.

"I'm tiered of your games Phoebe, I won't let you do this!"

"Do what?"

"Take what is left of my soul!"

"Cole, I'm not playing, I never was, I just don't know how to get out!"

"Bull shit! I gave you chance, after chance, and you were just toying with my mind!"

"Cole, I am a vampire! I didn't know how to feel, but you changed that, you awakened something deep inside that I thought was lost! Don't you understand?"

Cole loosened his grip on Phoebe and turned to shut off the water. He stepped out and wrapped a towel around his waist, and threw one at Phoebe.

"Hey! I am opening my heart to you!" Phoebe shouted

"You don't have a heart!" Cole yelled looking back at Phoebe.

Cole's words felt like a pile of stones on her chest, but she hid her pain.

"Cole, what happened to you wanting to help me…wanting to save me…uh?" Phoebe argued sarcastically.

"It's too late! I changed my mind!" He snapped.

Phoebe couldn't figure out why he was so cold. He normally had his hands all over her, but now he looked right through her, and pushed her away. What was eating at him? Why was he pushing her away? What was wrong?

"Cole, what has changed? What were you doing in Santa Monica? Did you see my aunts again?" Phoebe asked picking up his ticket on the dresser.

"How did…" Cole whirled around and saw Phoebe holding the ticket and glaring at him. She looked so sexy when she demanded answers from him.

Cole walked over to her and took the ticket from her hand. He noticed two wholes in her wrist, and they looked like bite marks. Phoebe quickly yanked her arm free.

"Did he do that to you?" Cole asked with a discussed look on his face.

Cole's expression hurt Phoebe. It made her feel dark and small. Phoebe felt tears filling up in her eyes. She quickly turned from Cole and grabbed her clothes from the bed and stormed out of the motel room.

Cole closed his eyes in regret, and he knew he hurt her, even if her heart was black.

He let her go with out even a fight. He hated her leaving that way and it tore him up inside, but he knew if he was to move on with his life, he would have to forget her.

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Cole pulled up and turned off the engine of his car. He sat there and stared out of the windshield. He took a deep breath and reached for the red roses that laid on the passenger seat. He got out of his car and walked up to the white fence. He stopped at the gate and took another deep breath. Then he walked thought the gate and through the grass and around the trees to a small white headstone.

He knelt down on one knee and brushed the leaves from the face of the headstone. He covered his mouth while tears filled his eyes, as he read the inscription…

Bo Daniel Turner

Our Beloved Son

"We Love You"

Born-1998 Died-2002

Cole laid the flowers down by the stone and pulled out a white hanky and wiped his eyes. He felt a hand slip over his shoulder and then she knelt down beside him. She laid down a handful of white tulips by the red roses.

"Hey" She said touching his knee.

"Oh, hey" He said trying to wipe his eyes and smile. He sniffed and stood up with her.

"I can't believe it has been three years" She said smiling at the stone

"Jaime, you look good" Cole said looking into her green eyes. He brushed the blond strand of hair from her eyes.

"Thanks…so do you" She said putting her hand on his chest.

There was a moment between them as they both searched into each others eyes and then they looked in different directions.

"So, how's Bob…and the kids?" Cole said steering away from awkwardness.

"Good! Good. Are you still with the FBI?" She played along with the small talk.

"No, I quit shortly after our divorce" Cole said

"Cole, why? You were a great detective!" Jaime said

"Well, I started a little work on the side…Pro-bono" He said smiling at her.

"Well, you always wanted to start your own business" She said sipping her coffee.

Cole smiled at her and led her over to a bench by the tree. They sat down and faced each other, both crossing their legs towards one another. Cole put his arm around her and rested it on the back of the bench. Jaime put her hand on Cole's knee, and handed him a coffee.

"So what did you want to talk about Cole?" Jaime asked brushing her hair from her face.

"I am going to move to Miami." He said

"Wow…Miami…so far? What are you running from?" She said raising her brow and smiling.

"Nice, thanks for the support" He said sarcastically. "I just want a new start, I'm tired of this city" Cole said breathing out with a heavy sigh.

Jaime watched his face turn to a frown as he looked down.

"She must have really done a number on you!" She said smiling as she sipped her coffee again.

"Ok, why does it always have to be a woman?" He argued

"I don't know Cole, you tell me" She said with a smirk.

Cole took a deep breath after smiling back at her and sighed heavily.

"My problem is, I feel like…I feel like I am leaving him behind" Cole said sadly.

"Oh, honey, no…you have him in your heart forever." She said

"I know, but I failed him once, and I…."

"Cole, what about me? I was his mother, I was supposed to be there too! It is not your fault Bo was killed, It was a accident!" Jaime swallowed hard and tears started to fill her eyes.

"I was a cop Jaime, and I couldn't even help him. I can still see him falling" Cole said running his fingers through his hair.

"You were his dad, you were only human, and you did all you could." Jaime said touching Cole's face.

"Then how did I loose you both?" Cole said taking her hand in his.

"You didn't fail all by yourself Cole. I was there too. We just didn't work. I still love you, and I always will." She said hugging him.

Cole held her in his arms, he put his face to hers and then kissed her gently. The feeling was mutual and they both wanted more. Jaime pulled away…

"I can't do this" She whispered.

"I know" He said leaning in and kissed her again.

As Cole kissed her, he felt guilty. But why? She was his wife once, and it felt right. But he could tell it hurt her to kiss him. She was trembling at his touch. She still loved him, and she was so fragile, and he was taking advantage of a vulnerable situation. Cole pulled away.

"I am sorry, I just…"

"I know, me too" She whispered and then smiled sweetly at him.

They both knew it was over, but they still cared for one another. Jaime was remarried and had two kids of her own now. Bob was right for her, and he took care of her. Cole was never home, and his cases took most of his time. He always regretted not being there more for his family.

"Oh Jaime, look at me, I am a mess" Cole said brushing her hair out of her face.

Jaime stood up and grabbed her purse. "I have to go, I have to pick the kids up from school"

Cole smiled and reached for her hand and kissed it. Jaime smiled and closed her eyes at his touch.

"I have faith in you Cole. You are a good man, and you were a good father. What ever you decide to do, I know it will be the right decision." Jaime said and she turned to walk away.

"Thanks" He said smiling at her.

"Oh, and don't hide your heart Cole, you have to live, live for Bo" She said and walked away.