The Way It Is
By: Anti Darth Ani
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Chapter VI - Regret
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Hey, you all. I'm going to be using some lyrics and flashbacks in this chapter, so I want to take this time to go over that with you. Lyrics will be double spaced in between each line and will have a ----- at the beginning and end of them. Time breaks from past to more recent past will have a ---------- at the beginning. Flashbacks will have ---------- at the beginning and the end as well, so I hope you will be able to tell them apart. It can't be THAT hard. ;)
Well…. If you didn't hate me in the last chapter, you are gonna now!!!!!! Thanks to all my wonderful readers and reviewers. Special thanks to Pretty Perfect, Freddie, Lonaargh, SistaSouljah, wannabelabrat, MissyJane, orangebronco, and sarasidle3! Your reviews make my day. I take all suggestions into consideration and I'll try to work some of the stuff into the chapters, so keep the ideas coming!
P.S. the lyrics are from the song called Breathing by Yellowcard. They are a good band and I love the violin in most of the songs.
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Sara wouldn't turn back. If she did, then she would have to face him again and he would see her tears. She was already starting to forget her words. What a horrible thing she had done, but deep down she thought it was the right thing to do. They would still be friends, they had promised that on their first night together.
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Sara sighed and then took in a deep breath, catching his scent along with her air. She smiled to herself and kissed the bare skin of his chest that she was facing. In return, Nick ran his hand slowly up and down her back.
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Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
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"God," Sara muttered, "that was truly amazing." Nick chuckled at her comment and tightened his grip on her, pulling her naked body closer to his. Sara pulled her head back a few inches to glance at his face, only to realize that his own eyes were looking back at her. Sara gave him a sweet smile and then pushed her body up the sheets until her mouth was level with his. Nick kissed the end of her nose before bringing his lips down to her in a fiery kiss.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"I must admit," Sara told him when they reluctantly pulled away from each, "that I've never had quite that much fun before." Nick grinned and shook his head slightly. He wasn't sure how they had gone from playing a safe game of poker to ending up in each others arms in his bed. Admittedly, the poker was strip poker, but when he had invited Sara over and they had started the game, he hadn't expected anything like what they had just done.
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Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bare to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt
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"What are we doing to do about this?" Sara wondered aloud after a while of comfortable silence. Things like this never happened to her, not in a million years. Nick was the last person she had expected to end up with. Well, that wasn't totally true. For almost three years, they had flirted constantly and she had thought about them together once or twice, or maybe a few more times, but never had she imagined it would actually happen. While looking over him again, Sara smiled to herself. She wasn't sorry for what they had just done, although she had to admit it would change things between them.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"Do we have to do anything at all?" Nick responded, rolling over onto his back and pulling her along with him so that she rested on his chest comfortably. Sara leaned her head dangerously close to his, "Of course we have to do something."
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I can feel you breathing, it's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart it's always
Beating, sinking like a weight
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"Well then," Nick answered in mock seriousness, "I guess we could just have sex all over again. Would that satisfy you need to do something?" he asked, running his hands down her back to rest just above her butt. Sara tried not to smile, but it was nearly impossible in the position she was in. She had a feeling she wasn't going to get any sleep before shift the next night. Not that it bothered her too much, that was why they had invited coffee.
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How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you, things will never be to same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away
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"Just promise me something," Sara whispered, using her palms on his chest to keep herself slightly off of him. She knew what he was staring at and a slight blush crept onto her cheeks. He didn't seem to notice that she had said a word at all. "Nick?" Sara whispered in an even softer voice, trying to get an answer out of him.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"Promise me this won't change things between us. I still want us to remain friends, whether this continues or not." Nick was surprised by her words. His eyes shot up to her face and he searched them thoroughly, another small grin coming across his face, "Are you suggesting that we're going to be doing this again?" he asked, a hint of expectation in his voice. Sara glared down at his eyes and Nick sighed, "I promise." And with that, Sara brought his mouth back to hers.
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Thinking back to that night, Sara wanted to just turn back around and fall into his arm, never leaving them again. Nick had always offered her safety and security and she was throwing that all away. Maybe because she still had feelings for Grissom? She wasn't sure, but she didn't think that was the answer. She knew she didn't have feelings for him anymore. One rejection was enough for her to get the picture. Even if he had admitted he had feelings for her, Sara wasn't going to waste anymore time following him around while he made up his damn mind.
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I can feel you breathing, it's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart it's always
Beating, sinking like a weight
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Sara got into her SUV and immediately pulled out of the driveway, burning rubber. Nick watched her leave from his living room window. He had taken things fairly well, considering the bomb she had dropped onto his head. He hadn't seen that coming. Maybe she was still hooked on Grissom. Whatever the reason, Nick didn't want to hear it. People could always think of an excuse, but they hardly ever told the truth.
As Sara drove on down the street, a few more tears fell before she could stop them. Stupid emotions, she thought to herself. They were what had brought her to this spot in the first place. She hadn't realized that she might have actually had feelings for Nick. At first, it had just seemed like a little fun before two friends. But now she realized the truth. She loved him. And it was going to kill her to have to be around him all the time at work.
Sara tried to jerk the SUV to a stop. A dark car was stopped in the middle of the street that she couldn't see until she was on top of it. The last thing she thought before the impact was at least she was wearing her seatbelt.
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She didn't remember calling 911. Her cell phone was still open, disconnected but open, when she heard someone calling her name. The first person who came to her mind was Nick, but when she managed to open her eyes, she definitely didn't see Nick. Sara took a double take at the man opening her SUV door. She saw that the hood of the front of the vehicle had popped up on impact and the front windshield had shattered.
Sudden pain filled her right temple. Had she been cut? Was she bleeding to death? Panic overcame her. "Fucking airbag," Sara muttered, slamming her hand against the steering wheel, hitting the horn that the airbag was behind. At soon at her fist smacked the horn, the white airbag exploded in her face. The force of the pressure pushed Sara back against her chair.
The man punctured the airbag and waited for it to deflate. Sara cursed under her breath. When she could see the front windshield again, he turned to face her, "Are you ok?" he asked.
Sara glared at him. "You haven't changed one bit, Hank," she sneered. "Of course I'm fine," she answered sarcastically. "My vehicle is totaled, I have this damn bag exploding AFTER the accident, and I'm bleeding out of my mind. Of course I'm okay." Men were such idiots.
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Surprised? I sure hope so. I threw you in for a loop there. If you want to know how things turn out, then you MUST read on! I WILL update soon, I promise!!!!
By: Anti Darth Ani
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Chapter VI - Regret
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Hey, you all. I'm going to be using some lyrics and flashbacks in this chapter, so I want to take this time to go over that with you. Lyrics will be double spaced in between each line and will have a ----- at the beginning and end of them. Time breaks from past to more recent past will have a ---------- at the beginning. Flashbacks will have ---------- at the beginning and the end as well, so I hope you will be able to tell them apart. It can't be THAT hard. ;)
Well…. If you didn't hate me in the last chapter, you are gonna now!!!!!! Thanks to all my wonderful readers and reviewers. Special thanks to Pretty Perfect, Freddie, Lonaargh, SistaSouljah, wannabelabrat, MissyJane, orangebronco, and sarasidle3! Your reviews make my day. I take all suggestions into consideration and I'll try to work some of the stuff into the chapters, so keep the ideas coming!
P.S. the lyrics are from the song called Breathing by Yellowcard. They are a good band and I love the violin in most of the songs.
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Sara wouldn't turn back. If she did, then she would have to face him again and he would see her tears. She was already starting to forget her words. What a horrible thing she had done, but deep down she thought it was the right thing to do. They would still be friends, they had promised that on their first night together.
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Sara sighed and then took in a deep breath, catching his scent along with her air. She smiled to herself and kissed the bare skin of his chest that she was facing. In return, Nick ran his hand slowly up and down her back.
-----
Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
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"God," Sara muttered, "that was truly amazing." Nick chuckled at her comment and tightened his grip on her, pulling her naked body closer to his. Sara pulled her head back a few inches to glance at his face, only to realize that his own eyes were looking back at her. Sara gave him a sweet smile and then pushed her body up the sheets until her mouth was level with his. Nick kissed the end of her nose before bringing his lips down to her in a fiery kiss.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"I must admit," Sara told him when they reluctantly pulled away from each, "that I've never had quite that much fun before." Nick grinned and shook his head slightly. He wasn't sure how they had gone from playing a safe game of poker to ending up in each others arms in his bed. Admittedly, the poker was strip poker, but when he had invited Sara over and they had started the game, he hadn't expected anything like what they had just done.
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Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bare to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt
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"What are we doing to do about this?" Sara wondered aloud after a while of comfortable silence. Things like this never happened to her, not in a million years. Nick was the last person she had expected to end up with. Well, that wasn't totally true. For almost three years, they had flirted constantly and she had thought about them together once or twice, or maybe a few more times, but never had she imagined it would actually happen. While looking over him again, Sara smiled to herself. She wasn't sorry for what they had just done, although she had to admit it would change things between them.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"Do we have to do anything at all?" Nick responded, rolling over onto his back and pulling her along with him so that she rested on his chest comfortably. Sara leaned her head dangerously close to his, "Of course we have to do something."
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I can feel you breathing, it's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart it's always
Beating, sinking like a weight
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"Well then," Nick answered in mock seriousness, "I guess we could just have sex all over again. Would that satisfy you need to do something?" he asked, running his hands down her back to rest just above her butt. Sara tried not to smile, but it was nearly impossible in the position she was in. She had a feeling she wasn't going to get any sleep before shift the next night. Not that it bothered her too much, that was why they had invited coffee.
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How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you, things will never be to same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away
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"Just promise me something," Sara whispered, using her palms on his chest to keep herself slightly off of him. She knew what he was staring at and a slight blush crept onto her cheeks. He didn't seem to notice that she had said a word at all. "Nick?" Sara whispered in an even softer voice, trying to get an answer out of him.
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And I can feel you breathing and it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating my heart sinking like a weight
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"Promise me this won't change things between us. I still want us to remain friends, whether this continues or not." Nick was surprised by her words. His eyes shot up to her face and he searched them thoroughly, another small grin coming across his face, "Are you suggesting that we're going to be doing this again?" he asked, a hint of expectation in his voice. Sara glared down at his eyes and Nick sighed, "I promise." And with that, Sara brought his mouth back to hers.
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Thinking back to that night, Sara wanted to just turn back around and fall into his arm, never leaving them again. Nick had always offered her safety and security and she was throwing that all away. Maybe because she still had feelings for Grissom? She wasn't sure, but she didn't think that was the answer. She knew she didn't have feelings for him anymore. One rejection was enough for her to get the picture. Even if he had admitted he had feelings for her, Sara wasn't going to waste anymore time following him around while he made up his damn mind.
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I can feel you breathing, it's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart it's always
Beating, sinking like a weight
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Sara got into her SUV and immediately pulled out of the driveway, burning rubber. Nick watched her leave from his living room window. He had taken things fairly well, considering the bomb she had dropped onto his head. He hadn't seen that coming. Maybe she was still hooked on Grissom. Whatever the reason, Nick didn't want to hear it. People could always think of an excuse, but they hardly ever told the truth.
As Sara drove on down the street, a few more tears fell before she could stop them. Stupid emotions, she thought to herself. They were what had brought her to this spot in the first place. She hadn't realized that she might have actually had feelings for Nick. At first, it had just seemed like a little fun before two friends. But now she realized the truth. She loved him. And it was going to kill her to have to be around him all the time at work.
Sara tried to jerk the SUV to a stop. A dark car was stopped in the middle of the street that she couldn't see until she was on top of it. The last thing she thought before the impact was at least she was wearing her seatbelt.
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She didn't remember calling 911. Her cell phone was still open, disconnected but open, when she heard someone calling her name. The first person who came to her mind was Nick, but when she managed to open her eyes, she definitely didn't see Nick. Sara took a double take at the man opening her SUV door. She saw that the hood of the front of the vehicle had popped up on impact and the front windshield had shattered.
Sudden pain filled her right temple. Had she been cut? Was she bleeding to death? Panic overcame her. "Fucking airbag," Sara muttered, slamming her hand against the steering wheel, hitting the horn that the airbag was behind. At soon at her fist smacked the horn, the white airbag exploded in her face. The force of the pressure pushed Sara back against her chair.
The man punctured the airbag and waited for it to deflate. Sara cursed under her breath. When she could see the front windshield again, he turned to face her, "Are you ok?" he asked.
Sara glared at him. "You haven't changed one bit, Hank," she sneered. "Of course I'm fine," she answered sarcastically. "My vehicle is totaled, I have this damn bag exploding AFTER the accident, and I'm bleeding out of my mind. Of course I'm okay." Men were such idiots.
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Surprised? I sure hope so. I threw you in for a loop there. If you want to know how things turn out, then you MUST read on! I WILL update soon, I promise!!!!